“So they said, ‘What sign will you yourself do, the sight of which will make us believe in you? What work will you do?”
I ponder this a LOT! I believe in my case, most of the signs I am shown that God is in my life, be it subtle or blatant, usually tend to draw me close to Him. Its been that way since an incident in 1998 that I will not post as of yet. Granted, they didn’t pull me closer to Him at first, but rather sent me on a path of destruction. Destruction of the “Self” that did not belong in His plan for me.
In the beginning of my spiritual conversion back to the Catholic Church, I would see these “Signs” and most of the time be so frightened by them, I would end up running in circles like a chicken with its head chopped off, or in the other direction away from God. I was starving and I didn’t even know it. So lost I didn’t know where to turn. Think of it in the terms of Manna From Heaven and the meaning being What is it? Then setting out on the quest, to find out just “What It Is”.
I called myself a Catholic, after all I was baptized Catholic, received First Holy Communion and Reconciliation and finally Confirmation. I somehow thought that sealed my fate. Until I started receiving the sacraments and using them, being IN communion to receive Communion, praying daily and LEARNING the Catholic Faith I was supposed to be a participating member of.
Today, when I see the signs of our Lord in my life, and they are blatant, I am no longer afraid. I understand them to be a grace and not a punishment. I understand them to be a thank you gift, in advance, from our Lord for being on the correct path, and not only listening to Him, but heeding His advise in where I need to be heading in my Life in Him. Now that I understand and can discern the food from our LORD and that which does not come from Him, I am sustained through Him and there is no replacement for that.
“Jesus answered them: I am the bread of life. No one who comes to me will ever hunger; no one who believes in me will ever thirst.”