Monthly Archives: July 2011

Of Loneliness And Peace

“When Jesus heard what had happened, he withdrew by boat privately to a solitary place. Hearing of this, the crowds followed him on foot from the towns.” Matthew Ch.14:13

In all of my searching, I would love to say with my heart, I am lonely, but I can’t with a straight face. I carry to much hope with it, and know if our Lord wants to make known what I am experiencing, He will in His time. Everywhere the soul goes in this world, be it alone, or in the presence of others, our Lord has been there, and is there still in the holy Spirit. Loneliness is something only our Lord has truly felt. When we sinners are under attack of this empty feeling, our Lord is present and one only needs to call on Him to understand this as fact. By calling on Him in this state, loneliness becomes mist that dissipates as quickly as it comes on. The more we look to others to help us overcome it, the more lonely we become as other sinners can never truly understand where your soul is at its present time. When we turn to our Lord in this crisis, He comforts us and makes it known to us to look to other activities and not to dwell on our own feelings but to disregard them and bring light and peace to others instead, who can not yet understand its self pity and not Him turning away from us.

“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” Psalm 23:4

Throughout our Lords life here and even in His death, He was alone with the Holy Trinity. So many times He preached to His apostles and to thousands and yet, not one soul could comprehend exactly what He was saying in its fullness until after His death and resurrection. I believe the only soul present who could comprehend this during His life, was John the Baptist. The Loneliness our Lord felt at hearing of his death, had to be so heavy on His soul. The only one on earth, in exile with our Lord, had been taken out and the connection via the spirit, was gone until our Lords death, when He was able to release him from the same bonds of death.

I ponder a lot of my time on His loneliness. On so many not able to understand Him. He was surrounded but alone. No one could comfort Him as He knew the extent of His mission here and only the strength of Abba Father, could carry Him through. The cries from souls in the future, enslaved in sin and misery, reaching out to Him, he could hear, but others around Him, couldn’t grasp the magnitude of His mission.

The loneliness we feel here, can never be the same as His. Although we have some understanding of His, ours should always be joined with His, so we focus only on His and ours becomes the nothing it truly is. The loneliness I can speak of now, is not true loneliness but rather a separation from the things I used to hold dear, and the realization of the spiritual things in this life, that carry a soul through to eternity. When our Lord allows me to see them for what they are, its no longer loneliness, but His mercy and grace I can see. True Peace!

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The Left, The Right, The Center

I’m just a sheep. A sheep who can not take her eyes off the cross. Not the one on the left. Not the one on the right but the one in the center. There is a trend that I can not be sucked into lately, that seems to be pulling political views into religious beliefs and its very visible and ugly. Its a distraction and a diversion from the center, from where we need to be. Its the political argument of the Left VS the Right. The Conservative verses the Liberal. I only have to look at our Lord in the center between the two other crosses to focus my attention on. The second I look in either direction, my attention is being pulled away from Him, and placed someplace He is not in full view. Where one side points the finger at the other side and vise versa, the results are always the same. A lot of noise without agreement. The best advise I can give, don’t get sucked into the vortex. A vortex (plural: vortices) is a spinning, often turbulent, flow of fluid. A whirlpool if you will. Does a whirlpool care what is in its path when it pulls anything into it? Left and right go twirling about sucked down in the deep. I will not say the left is the bad or good thief, nor will I say the right is the bad or good thief. I will say, both sides of the “Center Cross” are not my Lord. Both the good and the bad thief’s crucified with our Lord were sinners.

No matter the argument or the rhetoric, left or right, we must ALWAYS heed the words of our Savior, “And I tell you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades will not overcome it.”

When our eyes are fixed on the center cross, then we are allowing Him to lead us beside quiet waters.

The one major reason I left the political blogging world was the fact that no matter what side it was, most couldn’t see past their own finger pointing… With Christ Jesus as the center of your vision, you can see eternity. In faith, we all need to be listening to our Masters voice and not one side or the other.

John 14:6, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”

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DON’T MOVE! Wait For Me

“Acts 20:24 However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me–the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.”

Getting there is half the battle, battling against the evil inside is another and keeping the faith is a new battle. Until our Lord takes you home.

This morning I woke up early and heard His voice, calling me. That “Big” voice pushing me to get out of bed and rush to the first Mass this morning rather then my usual 8 AM Mass. And I did. Remembering today is the feast day of St. Mary Magdelene “The Penitent”. How funny I thought, here I was rushing to attend the first Mass, to be the first to see our Lord, resurrected in the Eucharist, this morning on her feast day. As I started my truck, the radio began to play “Baby hold on to me” by Eddie Money. I pondered the words of our Lord in the garden that He said to St. Mary Magdelene: “Jesus said, “Do not hold on to me, for I have not yet returned to the Father. Go instead to my brothers and tell them, ‘I am returning to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.'”. John 20:17

On this day, today in my faith, and forever, I will hold on to Him. He is all I need. He has ascended to the Father and the time has come for me, to never let Him go. In such a beautiful way, through the memories the Holy Spirit has helped me to remember so I can confess and repent and believe, and LOVE and serve Him, in so many ways, I know I have crossed the finish line and my order from my Lord is to stay put! Do not move from this spot in the faith. To wait for Him to come and take me home. Meaning, do not change a thing! Continue all that I am doing in going to Mass, confession, praying unceasingly, and standing FIRM in the faith. Centered with Him on the cross. So one day I to can profess “I have fought the good fight. I have completed the race. I have kept the faith.” 2 Timothy 4:7

VICTORY! In Christ.

“Remain in Him”.

John 4 42-45

42 They said to the woman, “It is no longer because of what you said that we believe, for we have heard for ourselves, and we know that this is indeed the Savior of the world.”

43 After the two days he departed for Galilee. 44 (For Jesus himself had testified that a prophet has no honor in his own hometown.) 45 So when he came to Galilee, the Galileans welcomed him, having seen all that he had done in Jerusalem at the feast. For they too had gone to the feast.”

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St. Mary Magdelene “The Penitent”

Saint Mary Magdalene at the foot of the Cross, mourning for the dead Christ

Prayers to St. Mary Magdalene
Praise be to Thee, O Christ, Creator, Redeemer, and Saviour,

Of heaven and earth and seas, of angels and of men

Whom we confess to be both God and Man,

Who didst come in order to save sinners,

Thyself without sin, taking the appearance of sin.

Among this poor flock, Thou didst visit the Chanaanite woman and
Mary Magdalen.

From the same table Thou didst nourish the one with the crumbs of
the Divine Word, the other with Thy inebriating cup.

While Thou art seated at the typical feast in the house of Simon
the Leper

The Pharisee murmurs, while the woman weeps, conscious of her

The sinner despises his fellow-sinner, Thou, sinless one hearest
the prayer of the penitent, cleanses” her from stains, lovest her
so as to make her beautiful.

She embraces the feet of her Lord, washes them with her tears,
dries them with her hair: washing and wiping them, she anoints
them with sweet ointment, and covers them with kisses.

Such, O Wisdom of the Father, is the banquet that delights Thee!
Though born of a Virgin, Thou cost not disdain to be touched by a
sinful woman.

The Pharisee invited Thee but it is Mary that gives Thee a feast.
Thou forgivest much to her that loves much, and that falls not
again into sin.

From seven devils cost Thou free her by Thy sevenfold Spirit.
To her, when Thou risest from the dead, Thou showest Thyself first
of all.

By her, O Christ. Thou cost designate the Gentile Church, the
stranger whom Thou callest to the children’s table;

Who, at the feast of the Law and at the feast of grace, is
despised by the pride of Pharisees, and harassed by leprous

Thou knowest what manner of woman she is, it is because she is a
sinner that she touches Thee, and because she longs for pardon.
What could she have, poor sick one, without receiving it, and
without the physician assisting her?

O King of kings, rich unto all, save us, wash away all the stains
of our sins, O Thou the hope and glory of the saints.


Congratulate me, all ye that love the Lord; for He whom I sought
appeared to me: *and while I wept at the tomb I saw my Lord,

v. When the disciples withdrew, I did not withdraw, and being
kindled with the fire of His love, I burned with desire.

We beseech Thee, O Lord, that we may be helped by the intercession
of blessed Mary Magdalen, entreated by whose prayers Thou didst
raise up again to life her brother Lazarus, who had been dead four
days. Thou Who livest and reignest forever. Amen

Feastday: July 22

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The Unsearchable Riches Of Christ

“Although I am less than the least of all God’s people, this grace was given me: to preach to the Gentiles the unsearchable riches of Christ, and to make plain to everyone the administration of this mystery, which for ages past was kept hidden in God, who created all things.” Ephesians 3:8-9

How firm a foundation, ye saints of the Lord,
Is laid for your faith in His excellent Word!
What more can He say than to you He hath said,
You, who unto Jesus for refuge have fled?

In every condition, in sickness, in health;
In poverty’s vale, or abounding in wealth;
At home and abroad, on the land, on the sea,
As thy days may demand, shall thy strength ever be.

Fear not, I am with thee, O be not dismayed,
For I am thy God and will still give thee aid;
I’ll strengthen and help thee, and cause thee to stand
Upheld by My righteous, omnipotent hand.

When through the deep waters I call thee to go,
The rivers of woe shall not thee overflow;
For I will be with thee, thy troubles to bless,
And sanctify to thee thy deepest distress.

When through fiery trials thy pathways shall lie,
My grace, all sufficient, shall be thy supply;
The flame shall not hurt thee; I only design
Thy dross to consume, and thy gold to refine.

Even down to old age all My people shall prove
My sovereign, eternal, unchangeable love;
And when hoary hairs shall their temples adorn,
Like lambs they shall still in My bosom be borne.

The soul that on Jesus has leaned for repose,
I will not, I will not desert to its foes;
That soul, though all hell should endeavor to shake,
I’ll never, no never, no never forsake.

John Rippon, 1787

The above quote from Ephesians, should be a battle cry to all Christians, not to seek the things of this world, but to pray for everyone of God’s children to receive the gifts of grace that are always taken for granted. The gift of wisdom and knowledge, to know our God, Jesus Christ better and never stop asking Him for these gifts. For to know the Lord with your entire heart, mind and soul, is to love Him. The unsearchable riches of Christ, are the miracles we can see daily and mostly, evey second we are alive, that draw us in further to Him who gives them to us. Its the gift to learn His language. How he speaks to us every second we are in exile. The teaspoon of “Grace” every day to cure our ailing hearts and souls.

It is those souls who wish only to see the signs, without reverence and love for our Lord, who will be disapointed… We all need to put on God’s Glasses, to see in the “Spirit”. Miracles are happening around every one of us every second of our lives, but we are to self absorbed with the world to notice them thus wasting so much glory that can be given to our Lord, on nothing.

So many times in my life, I have tried to explain God in my life to people. In every instance, as many times, I was told I am reading to much into the situation. I would love to conclude that this was always the case, but I would in fact be denying God and His sovereignty. He can and does, everything.

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Love God; Not Just A Command

This past week, I have been blessed with teaching a Vacation Bible Class for children. There are approximately 70 children in the entire program of which I have 9 under my wing. Todays lesson was “Love God”. “He answered: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.'” Luke 10:27

In teaching this class for the past week, along with being blessed with the honor recently of taking on the role as Captain of our churches Perpetual Adoration Chapel, along with volunteering to do many things in my parish for the entire community, todays lesson for me has a duel meaning. Not only does our Lord command this “Love God” but for me today, it was our Lord sending me His meaning of this as His salutation. It didn’t hit me until mid way through the class, when I was blessed with seeing what I have been doing for the past few years. Like a lightning flash through every memory. All of which is done in love and for my love of our Lord.

The best part of today came after receiving this love letter from our Lord, when a teen volunteer named Michael came to me with his shoes untied and couldn’t tighten them. Michael is a special child who definitely holds my heart in his hands. He asked me if I could tie his shoes and without hesitation, I was on the floor trying to figure out how to tie this awesome kids shoes so he wouldn’t trip over the obviously way to long strings. The second my eyes looked down and all I could see were his shoes, that flash of lightning echoed through my mind and I heard: “I am not fit to stoop down and untie the thong of His sandals.” I can not put into words the peace that filled my heart at sitting on the floor in LOVE just to tie this child’s shoes. In my heart, mind and soul, I was tying our Lords shoes. When I got up, I was so moved I could barely speak.

Again came the salutation, Love, God.

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Tree Of Life

Adoration was in our day chapel this morning as yesterday was the Feast of The Sacred Heart of Jesus (first Friday) and today, (first Saturday) Immaculate Heart of Mary. I was alone with our Lord and my eyes and attention were fixed on the Blessed Sacrament. When my soul took a break away, I tossed my head back and looked up to see our Lord on His cross. What captured my eye for the first time was His “Adam’s Apple”. I immediately was taken to the book of Genesis. “In the beginning” of the garden, Eve tempted Adam with “The forbidden fruit”, here this morning, in the wee small hours, I was gazing upon the “First Fruit of Life” hanging on the “Tree of Life”. The “New Adam” offering life, not temptation. “Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil”. “I tell you the truth, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you” (John 6:53)

His “Adam’s Apple”, nourishing truth, love, mercy, forgiveness and suffering from His Sacred Heart, through his throat, and exiting His sweet lips for the world to hear, “Taste and see that the LORD is good. Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him”. (Psalm 34:8)

“Return to your First Love”

“Come to Me, all you who are weary and find life burdensome, and I will refresh you.” —Mt 11:28

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