Daily Archives: December 6, 2011

Monday Night Vespers


For the past few weeks, every Monday night, I have been blessed to be a part of singing Vespers and Compline (Night Prayer) in my parish, with the Brothers of the Little Oratory. Granted, I have not been blessed with a singing voice in the least and feel I am a hinder to them rather then special add. LOL But they are most definitely a blessing to our parish and to me.

For my readers who do not know what vespers are, even Vatican II stressed the importance of every Catholic praying the Liturgy of the Hours or otherwise known as Divine Office. Please check out the link HERE. Litergy of the Hours is the official set of daily prayers prescribed by the Catholic Church to be recited at the canonical hours by the clergy, religious orders, and laity. The Liturgy of the Hours consists primarily of psalms supplemented by hymns and readings. Together with the Mass, it constitutes the official public prayer life of the Church. Upon ordination to the Diaconate, the daily recitation of the Liturgy of the Hours becomes a canonical obligation. The Liturgy of the Hours also forms the basis of prayer within Christian monasticism.
The Liturgy of the Hours, along with the Eucharist, has formed part of the Catholic Church’s public worship from the earliest times.

Praying Vespers on Monday Night is an absolute treat to my soul. Although, I do pray the Divine Office daily. It is prayed in Gregorian Chant, completely in Latin. Last night was the first night I let go of my inhibitions and sung without fear. I have to admit I have never been able to carry a tone but with the help of this group, and the Holy Spirit, I am working on that. As I was praying last night, the Holy Spirit reminded me of something I used to do as a very young child. When I was about four or five, in my parents basement, there was a metal bookcase. More like a utility cabinet that kept books. In it, were my older sisters school books and one of them was the Liturgy of the Hours. I used to take it out and try to read it. Never knowing what it was. I used to ponder about how hard it was to be “Big”. To have to learn all this new stuff. I would sit and stare at the Latin and the voice notes and wonder when I would be able to read them and understand them. I never knew what it was or what it meant. One day, my older sister came home and seen me flipping through the book and said something on the order of “Your Reading Gregorian Chant now? I’ll believe its a miracle when you actually start singing it”. And walked away.

Well??? Here we are. Forty one years later and look! I’m singing Gregorian Chat, the Divine Office, and the glory goes to God.

EDIT TO ADD:

I have to mention the school my older sisters attended was Mother Théodore Guérin High School. Saint Mother Théodore Guérin (1798 – 1856), designated by the Vatican as Saint Theodora, is the foundress of the Sisters of Providence of Saint Mary-of-the-Woods, Indiana, a congregation of Catholic nuns. After a standard process of approval within the church often referred to as a “cause for sainthood,” she was beatified by Pope John Paul II in October 1998 and finally canonized a saint of the Roman Catholic church on October 15, 2006, by Pope Benedict XVI.

Thank you for your intercession Saint Theodora. I truly understand how serious our Lord’s intrest is, in my soul and every soul on earth.

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Joy In Destruction Of Self


Isaiah 55:1 “Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost.

In the past few months in my absence, our Lord has been keeping me very busy. So busy, I haven’t found any time to spend wallowing in self pity or my past sinful nature. Or should I say, when He has given me time for this, I pray rather the do this. The guilt of my past is gone and has been replaced with love. He has granted my soul with many gifts. So many gifts it would be impossible to list them. I have found our Lord in every action, in every moment of time I have been using. Imagine putting a puzzle together. Each puzzle piece representing the gifts from our Lord. Each individual piece containing numerous instances of God’s grace in your life. So numerous, you could never count them. Or if you tried to, it would take the rest of your life to do so. Seeing the forest for the trees would be the best description. When one full piece is placed next to the matching piece, the picture becomes clearer and the drive to finish the puzzle is overwhelming. Not in a way that would be considered to be under pressure to complete it, but rather freely completing it because no other joy on this level has ever been attained. This I can only call the gift of life. You see yourself not able to do anything but His will and self is empty.

What I have been able to do, though God’s grace, is ponder how He has destroyed everything in my life He never placed in my soul, that I should believe myself to be, to begin with. The joy found in this magnificent destruction of the self, is overwhelming. Its calming and true peace. Where for so many years, my life was as a desert dust storm. Sand blowing in every direction never knowing where it was to land. Never knowing what its true purpose was, but to reek turmoil in the path of all it should encounter. Making life miserable for all who entered as I was miserable and did not know where to turn or what to do. I listened to wind and those who kicked me up and landed in the direction where they had kicked me. I tried to fill the forms others had made for me and could never be what they wanted me to be. I was dried up.

Doing continual work for our Lord, praying continually, attending mass not only on Sundays and Holy Days, but every day, constant receiving of the Sacraments, through Christ, He continually waters me. The joy of not only seeing His work, but knowing His word is eternal, brings fourth such a peace through knowing He is King. He is truth. Everything He said, is true. He never changes. He changes us. Truth that so many miss in this world and don’t even know it. Yet seek this peace in material possessions and never find it. What absolute awe to see God destroy the things in a soul for the only purpose, His, to replace them with love.

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Sorry For My Absence


Hello to all! Blessings to all!

Sorry for the long delay in posts as I have been very busy with the Legion of Mary and other functions around the community of St. John of the Cross. With the help of the Holy Spirit, I will do my best to account for my blog and help to spread the Word of God. Lord have mercy on us all.

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