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Conquered By God

“No longer will you be called Abram; your name will be Abraham, for I have made you a father of many nations.” Genesis 17:5

As I sat last night watching some program on the History Chanel last night, and let me say, I find most of the religious shows on that channel to be trash, I heard something that actually sparked my pondering on how God conquered the sinful nature of man and makes it known. Name changing.

In ancient times, when a king would conquer in battle and capture a rival king in battle, he would often change the name of the losing king. Name rights were held in high regard and to lose ones name was seen as losing everything. What more could one have to give after losing his name? In a worldly or secular view, this would be seen as being crushed by your opponent. When we look at it with our view through faith, we see God doing this not out of spite, but love in regards to giving his servants a new identity, or rather, almost as the finality of adoption or sonship.

God changed Jacob’s name to “Israel,” (Genesis 32:28). He changed Simon’s name to “Peter,” “rock” (John 1:42). Sarai, Abraham’s wife to Sarah, mother of nations (Genesis 17:15). When I wonder about this, I can not help to think that God conquered them. The finality of realizing God is God and “Thy will be done”. Total acceptance of Gods will.

Most times, we tend to look outside of ourselves and see evil in the world and wish to conquer it. It is only when we look inside ourselves, and see the evil that exists within that we come to understand, it is in need to be conquered first.

There are many instances of name changes in the bible. One in particular stands out. Death. When our Lord Jesus Christ, rose form the dead, He conquered death and named it, Eternal Life.

Revelation 3:12 Him who overcomes I will make a pillar in the temple of my God. Never again will he leave it. I will write on him the name of my God and the name of the city of my God, the new Jerusalem, which is coming down out of heaven from my God; and I will also write on him my new name.


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The Boat

I had a very peaceful vision yesterday afternoon. As I was sitting in my yard looking out at the sky and wondering when the rain would end, in front of my eyes I seen a sailboat. Inside the boat was our Lord. He was reclining in the front of the boat. It was as if he was taking a nap after an exhausting journey. I then seen myself inside the boat with our Lord. I was standing next to the mast. The water was so calm it looked like glass. I couldn’t see far out across the water as I only wanted to focus on our Lord. He opened His eyes and they radiated at me and a smile came upon His face. I began to furl the sails and He watched me the entire time. My eyes never leaving the face of our Lord and the smile back never loosing its shape.

The peace attained with this vision from yesterday has filled me and is still with me like so many in the past.

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Tongues Of Fire

“They saw what seemed to be tongues of fire that separated and came to rest on each of them.” Acts 2:3

Far to often we think of the Holy Spirit as a peaceful little dove that chirps ever so slightly and is soft and cuddly. We forget the image of the Holy Spirit as the Fire of God. Well, I did for most of my life. I had always attributed the faith I have to Jesus Christ and God, completely overlooking that my growth in faith is and needs to be attributed to the entire Holy Trinity. God the Father being the Creator, Jesus Christ, the Son of God made Flesh, who took on the form of a Man, lived and worked as you and I and carved the path to freedom, and now both working in us THROUGH the Holy Spirit.

The Holy Spirit being the Fire of God, reshaping our souls into the image we were intended to be, before the fall of man, as God intended. Through every means possibly created by God. With God being the Creator, the Son being the Way and the Holy Spirit being the Work of God or the Will in the world. The unseen and seen physical and spiritual presence of I Am constantly present, constantly completing the tasks, or the details of the supernatural made natural in order for the soul to attain the freedom it seeks through Christ Jesus.

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Gay Marriage Mirage

First off, before I am accused of being a hater of these souls seeking gay marriage, I assure you I am not. I do however, find myself lately, hating all sin. Hating much of the world in which God is forsaken for sinful behavior. Not the souls committing the sins. As I to am a sinner. But rather the blatant attempt to entice others to believe something that is utterly untrue just for the purpose of offending God. Lucifer’s Mirage of Gay Marriage is a big one.

To the question or statement that God wants everyone to be happy and they should be allowed to do this is hog wash. Disobedience to God does NOT make Him happy. ALL sex outside of marriage is a sin. So stating that gays shoud be able to commit the sin of fornication just as straight people is utter nonsense. Sin is sin. No matter how man tries to justify it.

1 Thessalonians 5:22-23:

“Abstain from all appearance of evil. And the very God of peace sanctify you wholly; and I pray God your whole spirit and soul and body be preserved blameless unto the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.”

1 Corinthians 6:18-20 & 1 Corinthians 7:1-2

“Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s. Now concerning the things whereof ye wrote unto me: It is good for a man not to touch a woman. Nevertheless, to avoid fornication, let every man have his own wife, and let every woman have her own husband.”

Gay marriage has never existed and never can as it is impossible for two men to be fruitful and multiply. Nor is it possible for two women to be fruitful and multiply. God has answered this question of mans “In the beginning”. Man is choosing to ignore reality and commit a very grave sin by stating God is wrong and he is right.

“So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them. God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air and over every living creature that moves on the ground.”

Marriage is the union of man & woman which the producing of children is a gift from God, the children are to be returned to God as they do not belong to us to do with them as we see fit. We are “Stewards” of these souls and all the gifts from God not owners.

Sex outside the bonds of “Marriage”, God’s Blessing, is a sin of the flesh committed against God for selfish reasons. No matter how much you THINK you love the other person, and want to share your body with them, true Love waits, love endures, love conquers. We are all called to OVERCOME the flesh and live in the “Spirit”.

“So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want.But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law. The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.” Galatians 5:16-22

When you overcome the flesh or you sinful nature, the SPIRIT is free to twist your soul back into the shape in which God created it. Allowing you to see the Truth clearly and follow it more closely. The love you have for your neighbor, becomes the true love of seeing that person as a “Soul” that God created in His image, rather then as an object placed in your life to do with as you see fit to make you feel good. The love you have endures all trials and your focus for that soul becomes one in which all you desire is for that soul is to get to heaven, even at the cost of you own life, and not whether they are simply sexually gratified and a tool to keep you company, or can pay your way in this life. Life becomes clear that it is meant to be endured, with patience, trust, faith, and compassion to seek the greater gift of eternal life, rather then settling for anything less.


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The Ascension

When I was very young, I used to dream I could fly. For most of these dreams my flying ability’s were the same. I would jump up and off I was, into the air with ease. I could only fly when no one could see me. The second someone was present, I couldn’t fly anymore.

One dream in particular was quite different. I was late for school. As I stood a cloud gathered around me and whisked me off my feet, enveloping me and placed me safely down at my school, St Maria Goretti. I was not flying by my power, nor my own energy. I had forgotten about this dream for many years and only recently remembered it.

When I pray the rosary and I am pondering The Ascension of our Lord, I am always reminded of this dream. But rather then seeing myself floating away, I can see our Lord being taken up to heaven in much the same way. All the power of Abba Father enveloping our Lord, surrounding Him and without even placing a crease in His garments, taking Him home.

The Ascension is a feast that used to be celebrated on Thursdays. At Mass one day this week, my Priest commented on why Ascension Thursday was changed to the Sunday after. He had said that most would forget that it was a Holy Day of Obligation and the church became almost empty on this day. He remarked that the church needed to move it to Sunday because so many forgot about it. I couldn’t understand this as God hasn’t forgotten about it. Our Lord ascended into Heaven 40 days after He rose from the dead. Why is it that so many can forget about this? 10 days later, He sent the Holy Spirit. Keep in mind, this is only something happening in the USA. Most of the world doesn’t forget. I highly suggest American Catholics never forget this again. I pray none of us forget.

Pope Benedict XVI on the Feast of the Ascension: “This is the mystery of the Ascension that we celebrate today. The verb ‘to lift up’ was used in the Old Testament to refer to royal enthronement. Thus, the Ascension means in the first place Jesus’ enthronement and the manifestation of God’s kingship over the world. As a result of Christ’s ascension into Heaven, humanity has entered into intimacy with God in a new and unheard-of way. Heaven does not indicate a place above the stars, but something far more daring and sublime: Man’s very being in God, this is Heaven. Thus, we enter Heaven to the extent that we draw close to Jesus and enter more fully into communion with him.

We can now understand why Luke says that, after the Ascension, the disciples returned to Jerusalem ‘with great joy’ (Lk 24:52). Their joy stems from the fact that what had happened was not really a separation: on the contrary, they were then certain that Christ was alive and enthroned, and that in him, the gates of eternal life are opened to humanity for ever. His Ascension does not imply a temporary absence from the world; rather it inaugurates the new and definitive form of his presence. That is why the Feast of the Ascension should fill us with serenity and enthusiasm, just as it did the Apostles who set out ‘with great joy’.”

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Giving From The Heart

Oh the way our Lord teaches us how to give…

“In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.” Acts 20:35

Last December for my birthday, I was given a special gift from a religious Catholic Sister friend of mine. It wasn’t the gift that I held in my heart, but the fact this friend remembered me in such a beautiful way. She had given me a used copy of her personal Liturgy of the Hours book, short prayers, so I could learn how to pray them before I purchased the expensive set. The gift from her was so special to me. Not the book, but the love behind it that must have been within to give me this beautiful prayer book. It was wrapped in birthday paper, so there wasn’t any confusion. It was a gift to me, that I graciously accepted.

This week, I had received a telephone call from my Sister friend and she asked me for her book back. She told me she needed it. I was set back a bit as I thought this was a gift to keep. I was very confused as I had always though that when you give someone a gift, never ask for it back. With tears in my eyes I told my Sister friend I would graciously return the book in the morning at Mass and hung up the phone. This was the first time something like this was done to me that truly hurt my heart. I couldn’t figure out why this was happening. Had I done something wrong? Did I do something to hurt her or make her think my faith was not there to eventually learn this way of prayer? Granted I found the book very difficult to navigate and fell back on praying the Liturgy of the Hours on line rather then from this book. But either way, it wasn’t about the book but rather a special friendship I believed I had with her.

A few weeks before this, I had given an orange tree to the Maintenance man to be planted behind the Rectory in our Priests back yard. It was a Blood Orange tree that I had been taking care of for over a year but found no place to plant it. It was beautiful and the back yard of the rectory seemed to be the place it would be best enjoyed. He told me he would take care of it and to place it back there. The housekeeper would water it and that way our Priests could have fresh oranges in the fall. I was so happy to give them the tree from my heart.

The day after Sister had asked me for her book back, after a night of hurt feelings and wondering what I had done wrong, I gave her the book back, not asking a question to her, but rather accepting our Lords words ” Luke 6:30 Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back”, and got a simple thanks.

After Mass, I walked slowly pondering and worrying, asking our Lord what I had done wrong. As I passed by the back yard of the Rectory, I noticed the little tree I had given to the maintenance man to be planted in the Rectory yard. It was still in the pot I had given it in and lost most of its leaves. The blossoms that would have produced fruit this fall were gone and it was about to become a dead stick rather then a tree. I entered the yard and immediately watered this poor little thing. It hadn’t been watered since I had given it. I was a little upset. I nurtured this tree for a long time and gave it from my heart believing it would be taken care of. I thought about taking it back home.

The SECOND that it crossed my mind to take this tree back, from my heart I heard our Lord ask me, How about that book from Sister? I KNEW at that second, Sister needed that book back so our Lord could teach me the true meaning of giving. Be it that the tree was going to die if I left it there means nothing. I had given that tree from my heart and that was all that mattered. Once I give the gift needed to be let go of, it was gone in LOVE. Be it that it almost died, doesn’t matter. It was the love behind the gift, of giving it in the first place, that only matters.

I watered the little tree that day and a few days later it was green again. God only knows what will happen to it.

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The End Zone

I have been trying, for so many years to explain how my conversion has been. Back in 1998, I can say with my heart, my conversion began similarly as Saul’s on the road to Damascus. I had faith in God, but did not know how to apply it. I had faith in Jesus Christ, but I did not know Him. I had faith in the Holy Spirit, but I did not understand it. I knew of Mama Mary, but I didn’t trust it my feelings on her role in the life of the Church. I was wrong about most of the things I knew.

The other night, God granted me the ability to put it into words to a good friend, who was sitting in vigil with me at another very good friends hospital bed, as we waited for our Lord to take him home. I would love to say I had a vision way back then, but it wasn’t. I would love to say it was a dream, but it wasn’t. Someone came to me in 1998 and told me many things. Things that have come to pass. I don’t know the future, I only know it in retrospect to what was told to me. Its as if our Lord called me in, threw me a pass back in 1998 and every day of my life as been since, running for the touchdown as the ball is heading to me. One day I will know who it was but for now, I can only understand it as where it has brought me.

I stayed with my friend until our Lord took him home and can only see now, the ball, although I have bobbled it many times since it has been thrown, it is in my hands and I am continuing to the end zone.

Mama Mary is a major part of this life. I can easily view my conversion through her eyes. Keeping most of this in my heart, growing in faith and humility. Turning most of what I see, hear and do, inside. Looking inward in order to see better outward. You see, the friend that passed was the husband of another good friend who passed only a month earlier. He was the president of the Legion of Mary that I now belong to. His life was a shinning example of faith. He was a convert through his wife to the Catholic Faith. Which gives me so much hope. Day by day, second by second, in time, our Lords time, I will reach the end zone.


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The Trapped Dove

Last night, a dove somehow managed to get trapped in our Church. I don’t know how he managed to do this as most of the time the windows are closed and the doors are not left open. I noticed him last night and after being bewildered as to how he managed to get in, I realized he was exhausted and flying into the very high ceilings. Bumping into them with every beat of his wings. I was sad to watch him do this over and over. I went up to our choir loft and had one man open two windows, thinking for SURE he would see his chance to escape and make a break for it.

I went back home feeling so sorry for this poor creature. He was scared, lost, hungry, thirsty and exhausted. I prayed to St Francis to intervene and begged our Lord to please lead him out to his freedom. I went back a few hours later while it was dark outside and he was still trapped. I noticed him resting on a very high portion of a ledge not far from the open window. My shoulders sank with the thought of this poor creature dying from this ordeal. I went up tot he choir loft and sat with him praying he would find his way out. As I looked up at him, he looked down and flew again, in the wrong direction from the open window. He was heading directly for the crucifix of our Lord and stopped short, landing on a speaker mounted on the ceiling.

I left him as workers were still working in the church and drove home, not able to stop thinking about this dove.

Morning comes and I am full of hope my little friend has flown the coop! I attended 8 AM Mass, able to concentrate completely with the exception of not being able to get there sooner to set up for Exposition of the Blessed Sacrament. I looked around and didn’t see any signs my little buddy was still there. After Mass, as I was setting up for Exposition, I mentioned to Father that we had a house guest the night before but believed he was now gone. Unfortunately, I was wrong. He was still trapped inside as a visiting priest was conducting a funeral Mass an hour after I had finished.

When the funeral had concluded, I went up to the choir loft to look for him again. I just wanted to spend some time with him knowing that if he was to stay much longer, he wasn’t going to live very long. I found him sleeping on another ledge, perched up just above a stained glass window of Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. I sat in a pew and prayed. I looked up at him again and told him that Our Lord Jesus Christ had created him and me too. I told him about how I had been trapped many times and if it wasn’t for our Lord, I would have died where I was too.

Like a flash of light, a thought came to me. I couldn’t think of a better place to be trapped. I have been shown many exits from this Church too and like this little bird, just refused to use them. Just the thought of flying away from my Lords Church alone, would kill me. If I was stuck here I wouldn’t want to leave either. I too, want to die here.

A smile came to my face after so much worry. If this little guys life is cut short because of his decision not to leave our Lords home, I can find peace in that. And if God gives him the strength to fly out the window, I can find peace in that too. Either way, this little dove brought me a message I needed to hear today and I’m sure he needed to hear about Who created him.

“He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation.” Mark 16:15


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The Masters Voice

“My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.” John 10:27

In quiet, you can here Him. In a crowded loud room, you can here Him. You know its our Lord voice because it does not come from you but rather from within you. Its not “Hearing Voices” but hearing Him. Sometimes its just a single word that answered every question you had. Other times He answers you with a question, for He knows you have the answer inside of you already because He gave it to you before you could understand what you were asking. Most times, His voice is heard from many years ago, through symbolism. Through the actions of the souls He places in your life. Instruments of His. Sometimes He takes over your scenes and speaks to you through visions.

His voice is gentle like a slight breeze kissing your ear. You are separate from it, but eternally joined by a power that is indescribable. Man does not posses the scenes that He has in order to control it. If you close your eyes you can not escape it. It is a bright shinning light of an all seeing eye, looking around inside your soul for the things you are pondering, even when the mind is at rest, He is there. Gathering what He seeks like a man opening up the refrigerator door to grab a drink.

His words are direct and always truthful. Never leading the soul astray, but pulling you closer to Him. He is comfort, contentment and the firm grip that a Father has on his child. You can hear His smile, and He will share His disappointment with you. You know it’s Him because the word He speaks to you, never leaves you. Days, months and years pass, and that split second is remembered and retained, imprinted on your soul the rest of your life. You take it with you and you share it with others. Sometimes knowingly and at other times, the second the words leave your lips, you remember. You can never forget it. You don’t ever want to forget it.

He has been very vocal with me in the past few weeks. Above is the only way I can describe it. I am reminded in a funny way of the old television show “The Outer Limits”.

“There is nothing wrong with your television set. Do not attempt to adjust the picture. We are controlling transmission. If we wish to make it louder, we will bring up the volume. If we wish to make it softer, we will tune it to a whisper. We will control the horizontal. We will control the vertical. We can roll the image, make it flutter. We can change the focus to a soft blur or sharpen it to crystal clarity. For the next hour, sit quietly and we will control all that you see and hear. We repeat: there is nothing wrong with your television set. You are about to participate in a great adventure. You are about to experience the awe and mystery which reaches from the inner mind to — The Outer Limits.”

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The World’s Hatred

When your children hate you. When your brothers and sisters hate you. When your spouse hates you. When the people your thought were your friends hate you. All because the faith you have in our Lord. Submit to the love of Christ. Love them anyway, through Christ. Read the scripture below, slowly. With your entire heart. You can here Him speaking directly to you.

John 15 18:27

18 If the people of this world hate you, just remember that they hated me first. 19 If you belonged to the world, its people would love you. But you don’t belong to the world. I have chosen you to leave the world behind, and that is why its people hate you. 20 Remember how I told you that servants are not greater than their master. So if people mistreat me, they will mistreat you. If they do what I say, they will do what you say.

21 People will do to you exactly what they did to me. They will do it because you belong to me, and they don’t know the one who sent me. 22 If I had not come and spoken to them, they would not be guilty of sin. But now they have no excuse for their sin.

23 Everyone who hates me also hates my Father. 24 I have done things that no one else has ever done. If they had not seen me do these things, they would not be guilty. But they did see me do these things, and they still hate me and my Father too. 25 That is why the Scriptures are true when they say, “People hated me for no reason.”

26 I will send you the Spirit who comes from the Father and shows what is true. The Spirit will help[c] you and will tell you about me. 27 Then you will also tell others about me, because you have been with me from the beginning.

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Happy Mothers Day

She was told of Him
She bore Him
She gave birth to Him
She held Him
She nursed Him
She changed Him
She nurtured Him
She sang to Him
She raised Him
She played with Him
She fed Him
She ticked Him
She kissed Him
She hugged Him
She attended to Him
She cried with Him
She laughed with Him
She suffered with Him
She comforted Him
She loved Him
She died with Him
She rose with Him
She sits with Him
She is mom


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CIMA Did What?

We are living in a very deceptive time. There is an article: ABC’s homosexual sitcom ‘Modern Family’ received Catholic media award.

Its Just a TV show! Phooey! Taking into account most Catholic Americans get their theology and learn about faith from TV rather then at Mass, where they should be, promoting a show like this is the worst thing this association could do. What are you thinking CIMA? Are you insane! Or is it just a matter of caving into the “Society Norm” to look good? Its just entertainment! Like Glee? Where millions of Americans see how the faith club diminishes organized religion for “Spirituality”? Or like every show? After several anti faith comments a laugh track is used to promote the unfaithful comments. WAKE UP!

If you can not see how shows like this and so many others are making a mockery of faith and are swaying faithful into believing promiscuity is OK, homosexual behavior is fine, having a hard time in your marriage? Just get divorced! Along with so many others not to be mentioned, you are leading Catholics off the cliff. Whats next to receive the award? Family Guy?

Your being lead down the highway rather then taking the path…

I know I will here “At least some shows are TALKING about faith”. Gnosticism did too.

We are at war and Satan is using everything to turn the faithful against God, one little chip away at a time. Enough is enough. There is SO MUCH on TV lately, most everything, that so many people deem to be OK when the reality is, even in the smallest amounts, bad behavior in sitcoms, little by little, chips away at the moral fiber of the family. When something is accepted as NORM on TV, it doesn’t take long for it to become OK in the home. TV is Satan’s quickest way into your personal family life.

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Today’s Genocide

Exhibit of shoes from the victims of Auschwitz

I spent most of this morning pondering the Holocaust of WWII. The genocide of approximately six million European Jews during World War II. I looked at many photos of the men, women and children who were exterminated because no one at the time believe they held any worth to the human race. Those who carried out the crimes and those who did nothing to stop it. I pondered the closeness of each concentration camp in proximity to villages and wondered how towns and nearby villages could allow such things to continue as if it was nothing.

Children, all murdered by Nazis

These are the faces we have seen. What about all the unseen faces, souls who were not photographed, that entered these camps never to be seen again?

My mind immediately wandered to today. I beg my readers to understand I am in no way trying to diminish the severity of what happened to all these souls. Not at all, I want to point out that this atrocity is continuing now, everywhere in the world where abortion is legal. The United States, China, and every nation on earth is commiting the same genocide today under a sanitized name called abortion. There is no difference. We are souls, created in the image of God, not insignificant body’s of flesh.

What caused the Genocide of all these souls in Europe, all six million, is the same cause of the murder of approximately 42 million infants every year throughout the world. No compassion. No love. Pure selfish ambition. Rather pinning this on the insanity of one man, we can pin the genocide of every infant today on the madness of entire society’s that push for abortion to continue. Along with those who do nothing to stop it. We have ourselves to blame for allowing this to continue.

That first picture of the shoes, touched the very heart of my being. I wish someone would collect baby booties of every human taken by abortion in the world and place them on display, for the world to see. The shoes that will never be filled, the smiles that will never be seen, the giggles that will never be heard, because society decided to do nothing to stop this. The world and the sickness of this pro culture of death society decided rather to make excuses to justify the killing of all these children, the most innocent souls among us.

“Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it.”

May God have mercy on us all.

Father in Heaven, we thank You for the gift of life. Grant that all mothers who give birth will welcome their babies with love, but if the mothers feel they are unable to raise their babies, grant that they may be compassionate toward the life You have given and not destroy it before birth. To those children who have been wantonly deprived of earthly life grant whatever happiness to which they are entitled. And to the mothers who have denied them life in this world grant Your merciful grace of repentance and reconciliation with Our Savior, so that they may obtain eternal life. Grant also the grace of conversion to those who perform abortions and anyone associated with abortion.

Mary, Mother of God, intercede for us. Holy Innocents, pray for us. Amen.

Pro-Life Office of the Diocese of Worcester, Massachusetts


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Faith Without Works

Today is the feast of Saints Philip and James, the Apostles. Pray for us.

I do not mean to leave out St. Philip in this post or diminish him in any way on this feast of these great men.

As I was laying in bed pondering and praying, a very bright revelation came to mind.

What good would come from everything I have written in this blog, and everything I have pondered for every second throughout my conversion, all the insight I have obtained through prayer, the things I have witnessed in my dealings, if I have never put any of it to work in my own life? It would all amount to nothing. I prayed to St James for more information regarding faith without works and this is the answer I received. In a flash!

You buy a toy for your children that needs assembly. You open the box and dump everything in the middle of the floor. It comes with instructions. You sit with the instructions and think, wow, what a cool toy my children are going to love this! You read the list of tools needed, you look through everything on the floor and all the pieces are there. You sit back down and read the instructions. You get up, and head to work. You come home from work and the toy is still sitting in the exact place in the middle of the floor. You sit down and read the instructions thinking how great the engineer was that designed this toy! You set the instructions on the table and turn on the TV and completely ignore the pieces all over the floor. Days and years pass and the pieces are still sitting exactly where you left them, but every day, you read the instructions.

If you do not APPLY the instructions to the piece, it does no good. The instructions are designed to work with that toy and that toy needs those instructions to be placed together in perfection to be used and enjoyed!

“What does it profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him? If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, and one of you says to them, “Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit? Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.” James 2:14-26

“As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.” James 2:26

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The Surrogate Spouse

The successful marriage:

In pondering, or, thinking deeply about St. Josephs role in the lives of Mary & Jesus, I couldn’t help but write today about The Surrogate Spouse.

St Joseph provided for Mary & Jesus, the earthly needs along with the spiritual needs, to his ability, and was head of the household in the world. He was a carpenter, who in his day, earned a living and provided a home for Mama Mary and the Child Jesus. Although the Holy Spirit is the true spouse of Mary, through the union of providing her with THE Son, The Surrogate Spouse was needed to provide for the needs in other ways. Companionship comes to mind. The need for him to take Mary and Jesus to Egypt. The need to provide for food and shelter and someone to be there as a protector from the world. But a companion who also shared the faith in God. I couldn’t see Mary being a working mother in the sense of having to ditch her motherly duty’s to provide for herself and the Son. Placing oneself in the working world, places more temptations on the soul, that I don’t believe God wanted her exposed to.

Although the Holy Family shared a household, the true bond that was the center of their lives, was God. Mary, spouse of the Holy Spirit in all her humility, did everything for God and St. Joseph because of his faith, tasted the harvest along with the rest of us. Meaning, her deep love for God drew her into a deeper humility with every action she performed. Every work of her hand, changing diapers, cleaning, holding the Child, feeding, teaching, came from being obedient to God, and was contributing to the relationship of Spouse of the Holy Spirit.

How do we make our marriage with our spouse in this world successful?

Know that our Lord is the Spouse of your soul. If everything is done for Him, and you are in love with Him, every relationship you have in life, will be born in humility and love for Him. If the union of two, is not tied to the Third (God) and the Third placed above the two, the union becomes tiresome. The union of the two becomes easily led astray. Nit picking about everything become yelling and screaming with that comes deaf ears and selfishness. Followed by divorce of self from the relationship.

When God is the focus, love is unending as God is the powerhouse where love is generated from to share with each other. Therefore forgiveness comes from the Creator and it is much easier then for the two, to offer it to each other. Life becomes much more easy and less burdensome when everything you do, you do for God.

Your relationship with others stems from your relationship with God who seeks a personal relationship with you first. He is your first love. He gave you life. When He is made The Spouse in your marriage, and your spouse becomes the Surrogate and I do NOT in any way mean by the flesh, you come to understand He is the only one who knows whats in your heart and where your efforts to love more are coming from and going to. Even when they are overlooked by your spouse, you know He knows and you are satisfied. Love is never wasted when placed back in the hands of God. “For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them.”

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The Doctor Is Always In

Yesterday, I went to confession then followed by attending Mass. It was a strange day as I had been feeling sick. Both spiritually and physically. Mass was beautiful! I was truly fulfilled and was able to carry the grace of God with me and seen it in action all day, and continue to see it today, even after attending Mass again this morning.

I had called my doctor earlier in the day yesterday as I wasn’t feeling well and I have a strange lump on the side of my face that seemed to be traveling down across the front of my ear and down into my jaw and neck. I wasn’t alarmed but I could hear our Lord asking me, what was more important. The Body or the Soul? The soul was my response. I had an overwhelming sense I needed to get to confession. I had been burdened with something that was weighing heavy on me for a few weeks and the only thing I could do, was give it to our Lord. I was going to put off the doctor until today. After deciding to attend confession & Mass, I called the doctors office and left a message. The doctors office called me back to set up an appointment. They had an opening yesterday at 2:00 or I could wait until this morning to go. I told them my symptoms and told them I would wait until today. The woman on the other end of the line said okay and we hung up.

I sat pondering the earlier conversation I was having in prayer with our Lord and started to wonder. Was He telling me to get in to the other doctor too? With that, the doctors office called me back and told me they had moved to another office and wanted to make sure I had the correct address. I was unaware of this and glad they had called back. I also told the woman on the other end maybe it was a good idea for me to come in that day. She completely agreed as the symptoms I had described were borderline serious.

The spiritual symptoms I was having were also troubling. I was getting tense, felt some anger, rage, felt backed into a corner and pressured to make a decision that was going to cause me to sin greatly. I felt as if someone was trying to steel the spiritual consolation our Lord had sent me and take credit for it all. I knew the root of this spiritual sickness needed to be pulled! Confession was the only spiritual surgical answer. Cut it out before it grows. And I did. When I began to confess my sins, I couldn’t stop. The words just kept coming. The more they left me in the confessional, the more the tears began to flow. It was one of the most beautiful confessions I have ever made.The examination of conscious before hand and the praying to our Lord led me to understand the basis of everything that makes my soul sick. The Doctor cured me.

I left Mass walking on air. I had time to stop at Adoration to thank our Lord then headed out to the doctors new office. Long story short, I have been diagnosed with good case of Cellulitis. Chances are if I would have waited until today to go in, I would be in the hospital with an IV drip of antibiotics. It leads to Sepsis and that is life threatening and a major cause of death.

Sin is also a cause of death. It separates the soul from God leading to lack of peace and tranquility in the soul. It causes the person to do things through rage and anger they would never normally do in a state of Grace. It causes uneasiness, anxiety and depression. It is not curable in this world but is treatable and the soul goes into remission even if you do not know the symptoms and signs. The Doctor is always in and His light is always burning bright, waiting for you to allow Him to treat you.

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