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Conquered By God

“No longer will you be called Abram; your name will be Abraham, for I have made you a father of many nations.” Genesis 17:5

As I sat last night watching some program on the History Chanel last night, and let me say, I find most of the religious shows on that channel to be trash, I heard something that actually sparked my pondering on how God conquered the sinful nature of man and makes it known. Name changing.

In ancient times, when a king would conquer in battle and capture a rival king in battle, he would often change the name of the losing king. Name rights were held in high regard and to lose ones name was seen as losing everything. What more could one have to give after losing his name? In a worldly or secular view, this would be seen as being crushed by your opponent. When we look at it with our view through faith, we see God doing this not out of spite, but love in regards to giving his servants a new identity, or rather, almost as the finality of adoption or sonship.

God changed Jacob’s name to “Israel,” (Genesis 32:28). He changed Simon’s name to “Peter,” “rock” (John 1:42). Sarai, Abraham’s wife to Sarah, mother of nations (Genesis 17:15). When I wonder about this, I can not help to think that God conquered them. The finality of realizing God is God and “Thy will be done”. Total acceptance of Gods will.

Most times, we tend to look outside of ourselves and see evil in the world and wish to conquer it. It is only when we look inside ourselves, and see the evil that exists within that we come to understand, it is in need to be conquered first.

There are many instances of name changes in the bible. One in particular stands out. Death. When our Lord Jesus Christ, rose form the dead, He conquered death and named it, Eternal Life.

Revelation 3:12 Him who overcomes I will make a pillar in the temple of my God. Never again will he leave it. I will write on him the name of my God and the name of the city of my God, the new Jerusalem, which is coming down out of heaven from my God; and I will also write on him my new name.


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The Boat

I had a very peaceful vision yesterday afternoon. As I was sitting in my yard looking out at the sky and wondering when the rain would end, in front of my eyes I seen a sailboat. Inside the boat was our Lord. He was reclining in the front of the boat. It was as if he was taking a nap after an exhausting journey. I then seen myself inside the boat with our Lord. I was standing next to the mast. The water was so calm it looked like glass. I couldn’t see far out across the water as I only wanted to focus on our Lord. He opened His eyes and they radiated at me and a smile came upon His face. I began to furl the sails and He watched me the entire time. My eyes never leaving the face of our Lord and the smile back never loosing its shape.

The peace attained with this vision from yesterday has filled me and is still with me like so many in the past.

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Tongues Of Fire

“They saw what seemed to be tongues of fire that separated and came to rest on each of them.” Acts 2:3

Far to often we think of the Holy Spirit as a peaceful little dove that chirps ever so slightly and is soft and cuddly. We forget the image of the Holy Spirit as the Fire of God. Well, I did for most of my life. I had always attributed the faith I have to Jesus Christ and God, completely overlooking that my growth in faith is and needs to be attributed to the entire Holy Trinity. God the Father being the Creator, Jesus Christ, the Son of God made Flesh, who took on the form of a Man, lived and worked as you and I and carved the path to freedom, and now both working in us THROUGH the Holy Spirit.

The Holy Spirit being the Fire of God, reshaping our souls into the image we were intended to be, before the fall of man, as God intended. Through every means possibly created by God. With God being the Creator, the Son being the Way and the Holy Spirit being the Work of God or the Will in the world. The unseen and seen physical and spiritual presence of I Am constantly present, constantly completing the tasks, or the details of the supernatural made natural in order for the soul to attain the freedom it seeks through Christ Jesus.

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Gay Marriage Mirage

First off, before I am accused of being a hater of these souls seeking gay marriage, I assure you I am not. I do however, find myself lately, hating all sin. Hating much of the world in which God is forsaken for sinful behavior. Not the souls committing the sins. As I to am a sinner. But rather the blatant attempt to entice others to believe something that is utterly untrue just for the purpose of offending God. Lucifer’s Mirage of Gay Marriage is a big one.

To the question or statement that God wants everyone to be happy and they should be allowed to do this is hog wash. Disobedience to God does NOT make Him happy. ALL sex outside of marriage is a sin. So stating that gays shoud be able to commit the sin of fornication just as straight people is utter nonsense. Sin is sin. No matter how man tries to justify it.

1 Thessalonians 5:22-23:

“Abstain from all appearance of evil. And the very God of peace sanctify you wholly; and I pray God your whole spirit and soul and body be preserved blameless unto the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.”

1 Corinthians 6:18-20 & 1 Corinthians 7:1-2

“Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s. Now concerning the things whereof ye wrote unto me: It is good for a man not to touch a woman. Nevertheless, to avoid fornication, let every man have his own wife, and let every woman have her own husband.”

Gay marriage has never existed and never can as it is impossible for two men to be fruitful and multiply. Nor is it possible for two women to be fruitful and multiply. God has answered this question of mans “In the beginning”. Man is choosing to ignore reality and commit a very grave sin by stating God is wrong and he is right.

“So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them. God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air and over every living creature that moves on the ground.”

Marriage is the union of man & woman which the producing of children is a gift from God, the children are to be returned to God as they do not belong to us to do with them as we see fit. We are “Stewards” of these souls and all the gifts from God not owners.

Sex outside the bonds of “Marriage”, God’s Blessing, is a sin of the flesh committed against God for selfish reasons. No matter how much you THINK you love the other person, and want to share your body with them, true Love waits, love endures, love conquers. We are all called to OVERCOME the flesh and live in the “Spirit”.

“So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want.But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law. The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.” Galatians 5:16-22

When you overcome the flesh or you sinful nature, the SPIRIT is free to twist your soul back into the shape in which God created it. Allowing you to see the Truth clearly and follow it more closely. The love you have for your neighbor, becomes the true love of seeing that person as a “Soul” that God created in His image, rather then as an object placed in your life to do with as you see fit to make you feel good. The love you have endures all trials and your focus for that soul becomes one in which all you desire is for that soul is to get to heaven, even at the cost of you own life, and not whether they are simply sexually gratified and a tool to keep you company, or can pay your way in this life. Life becomes clear that it is meant to be endured, with patience, trust, faith, and compassion to seek the greater gift of eternal life, rather then settling for anything less.


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The Ascension

When I was very young, I used to dream I could fly. For most of these dreams my flying ability’s were the same. I would jump up and off I was, into the air with ease. I could only fly when no one could see me. The second someone was present, I couldn’t fly anymore.

One dream in particular was quite different. I was late for school. As I stood a cloud gathered around me and whisked me off my feet, enveloping me and placed me safely down at my school, St Maria Goretti. I was not flying by my power, nor my own energy. I had forgotten about this dream for many years and only recently remembered it.

When I pray the rosary and I am pondering The Ascension of our Lord, I am always reminded of this dream. But rather then seeing myself floating away, I can see our Lord being taken up to heaven in much the same way. All the power of Abba Father enveloping our Lord, surrounding Him and without even placing a crease in His garments, taking Him home.

The Ascension is a feast that used to be celebrated on Thursdays. At Mass one day this week, my Priest commented on why Ascension Thursday was changed to the Sunday after. He had said that most would forget that it was a Holy Day of Obligation and the church became almost empty on this day. He remarked that the church needed to move it to Sunday because so many forgot about it. I couldn’t understand this as God hasn’t forgotten about it. Our Lord ascended into Heaven 40 days after He rose from the dead. Why is it that so many can forget about this? 10 days later, He sent the Holy Spirit. Keep in mind, this is only something happening in the USA. Most of the world doesn’t forget. I highly suggest American Catholics never forget this again. I pray none of us forget.

Pope Benedict XVI on the Feast of the Ascension: “This is the mystery of the Ascension that we celebrate today. The verb ‘to lift up’ was used in the Old Testament to refer to royal enthronement. Thus, the Ascension means in the first place Jesus’ enthronement and the manifestation of God’s kingship over the world. As a result of Christ’s ascension into Heaven, humanity has entered into intimacy with God in a new and unheard-of way. Heaven does not indicate a place above the stars, but something far more daring and sublime: Man’s very being in God, this is Heaven. Thus, we enter Heaven to the extent that we draw close to Jesus and enter more fully into communion with him.

We can now understand why Luke says that, after the Ascension, the disciples returned to Jerusalem ‘with great joy’ (Lk 24:52). Their joy stems from the fact that what had happened was not really a separation: on the contrary, they were then certain that Christ was alive and enthroned, and that in him, the gates of eternal life are opened to humanity for ever. His Ascension does not imply a temporary absence from the world; rather it inaugurates the new and definitive form of his presence. That is why the Feast of the Ascension should fill us with serenity and enthusiasm, just as it did the Apostles who set out ‘with great joy’.”

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Giving From The Heart

Oh the way our Lord teaches us how to give…

“In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.” Acts 20:35

Last December for my birthday, I was given a special gift from a religious Catholic Sister friend of mine. It wasn’t the gift that I held in my heart, but the fact this friend remembered me in such a beautiful way. She had given me a used copy of her personal Liturgy of the Hours book, short prayers, so I could learn how to pray them before I purchased the expensive set. The gift from her was so special to me. Not the book, but the love behind it that must have been within to give me this beautiful prayer book. It was wrapped in birthday paper, so there wasn’t any confusion. It was a gift to me, that I graciously accepted.

This week, I had received a telephone call from my Sister friend and she asked me for her book back. She told me she needed it. I was set back a bit as I thought this was a gift to keep. I was very confused as I had always though that when you give someone a gift, never ask for it back. With tears in my eyes I told my Sister friend I would graciously return the book in the morning at Mass and hung up the phone. This was the first time something like this was done to me that truly hurt my heart. I couldn’t figure out why this was happening. Had I done something wrong? Did I do something to hurt her or make her think my faith was not there to eventually learn this way of prayer? Granted I found the book very difficult to navigate and fell back on praying the Liturgy of the Hours on line rather then from this book. But either way, it wasn’t about the book but rather a special friendship I believed I had with her.

A few weeks before this, I had given an orange tree to the Maintenance man to be planted behind the Rectory in our Priests back yard. It was a Blood Orange tree that I had been taking care of for over a year but found no place to plant it. It was beautiful and the back yard of the rectory seemed to be the place it would be best enjoyed. He told me he would take care of it and to place it back there. The housekeeper would water it and that way our Priests could have fresh oranges in the fall. I was so happy to give them the tree from my heart.

The day after Sister had asked me for her book back, after a night of hurt feelings and wondering what I had done wrong, I gave her the book back, not asking a question to her, but rather accepting our Lords words ” Luke 6:30 Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back”, and got a simple thanks.

After Mass, I walked slowly pondering and worrying, asking our Lord what I had done wrong. As I passed by the back yard of the Rectory, I noticed the little tree I had given to the maintenance man to be planted in the Rectory yard. It was still in the pot I had given it in and lost most of its leaves. The blossoms that would have produced fruit this fall were gone and it was about to become a dead stick rather then a tree. I entered the yard and immediately watered this poor little thing. It hadn’t been watered since I had given it. I was a little upset. I nurtured this tree for a long time and gave it from my heart believing it would be taken care of. I thought about taking it back home.

The SECOND that it crossed my mind to take this tree back, from my heart I heard our Lord ask me, How about that book from Sister? I KNEW at that second, Sister needed that book back so our Lord could teach me the true meaning of giving. Be it that the tree was going to die if I left it there means nothing. I had given that tree from my heart and that was all that mattered. Once I give the gift needed to be let go of, it was gone in LOVE. Be it that it almost died, doesn’t matter. It was the love behind the gift, of giving it in the first place, that only matters.

I watered the little tree that day and a few days later it was green again. God only knows what will happen to it.

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The End Zone

I have been trying, for so many years to explain how my conversion has been. Back in 1998, I can say with my heart, my conversion began similarly as Saul’s on the road to Damascus. I had faith in God, but did not know how to apply it. I had faith in Jesus Christ, but I did not know Him. I had faith in the Holy Spirit, but I did not understand it. I knew of Mama Mary, but I didn’t trust it my feelings on her role in the life of the Church. I was wrong about most of the things I knew.

The other night, God granted me the ability to put it into words to a good friend, who was sitting in vigil with me at another very good friends hospital bed, as we waited for our Lord to take him home. I would love to say I had a vision way back then, but it wasn’t. I would love to say it was a dream, but it wasn’t. Someone came to me in 1998 and told me many things. Things that have come to pass. I don’t know the future, I only know it in retrospect to what was told to me. Its as if our Lord called me in, threw me a pass back in 1998 and every day of my life as been since, running for the touchdown as the ball is heading to me. One day I will know who it was but for now, I can only understand it as where it has brought me.

I stayed with my friend until our Lord took him home and can only see now, the ball, although I have bobbled it many times since it has been thrown, it is in my hands and I am continuing to the end zone.

Mama Mary is a major part of this life. I can easily view my conversion through her eyes. Keeping most of this in my heart, growing in faith and humility. Turning most of what I see, hear and do, inside. Looking inward in order to see better outward. You see, the friend that passed was the husband of another good friend who passed only a month earlier. He was the president of the Legion of Mary that I now belong to. His life was a shinning example of faith. He was a convert through his wife to the Catholic Faith. Which gives me so much hope. Day by day, second by second, in time, our Lords time, I will reach the end zone.


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