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Prayer For 2013


Lord help me to focus and work on all that is needed for You in 2013. Help me to live as You have intended me to live. Help me to be as You have created me to be. Help me Lord to be there in times of need for those You have placed in the life you have created for me. May I lead all souls back to You O Lord in my words, actions and way of living. May I always seek You first in all things, especially in my sufferings and trials. May I find joy in You and through You my Beloved Lord, and share this joy with the entire world, so that in its times of sadness and bitterness, it may hold on to your sweet compassion with both hands, and eat only what You give to them. May I continue to win the battles over evil in my soul and in my life, with You and all your Saints and Holy Angels at the ready. May all the holy souls in Purgatory be released from their bondage and accept you’re pardon and mercy my Lord. May the children you have given to me, pull ever closer to You this year and stay at Your side. May we all grow in all the gifts of the most Holy Spirit. May the murder of all you’re children through the heinous act of abortion come to an end. May Your One Holy Catholic and Apostolic Church and all her members come to know You better and serve only You. May those who have left, return to You. If my death in exile should come this year, I unite it to Your death and give You my Love, all the glory and honor. I hope to spend eternity with You. May I become so lost in You, that all I find, is You, all I see, taste and touch and know, is You. May you have mercy on us all. I ask this through the Immaculate Heart of Mary our Mother, to Your most Sacred Heart O Lord. Amen

Have a blessed and Christ centered New Year.

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Take A Stand


In order to remain “One Nation Under God” we must focus on the Spiritual Cliff that is in front of the US, behind the US and surrounding the US rather than the fiscal cliff. Put your faith back in God and not in His creation nor the men who believe they are gods.

Here is another idea that goes with my post a few days ago “Holy Innocents Pledge“. MOST Vons Food Stores in California have Starbucks located inside of their stores. Contact them and let them know you will not purchase food or prescriptions from them until they STOP supporting Abortion.

Safeway Corporate Office & Headquarters

5918 Stoneridge Mall RoadPleasanton CA 94588

(800) 723-3929

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The Worlds Caravan

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“The boy Jesus stayed behind in Jerusalem without his parents knowing it. They assumed he was with the caravan, and they went to look for him among their relations and acquaintances.” Luke 2:44

How many times I just assumed our Lord was among my family and acquaintances FIRST, before checking the “Temple” where He always is, taking care of the Fathers Business. While continuing on in the wrong direction, thinking everything was just dandy. When the reality was far from “dandy”. Unless we seek Him FIRST, and continue to ensure He is among us, we slip into a false security of “Thinking” He is still with us, when we need to face the fact, we NEED to be WITH Him. When one discovers He is not, one needs to run frantically back to where one has left Him.

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Time Well Spent


Yesterday, I posted about a portion of Starbucks purchases going to support Abortion. “Come Together” with our Lord.

Why is it we find such a need to stop for that cup of coffee in the morning on our way to where ever we are going? Wouldn’t our time be much better spent having a cup of coffee at the breakfast table with our family’s? Our spouses? Our children? Or alone in prayer with our Lord? How about spending that first 15 minutes of the day, at home with the people God placed in our lives, if only to tell them you love them over coffee rather than in a line worrying about if they got your order right? Time is something we don’t seem to have enough of until its to late. That first 15 minutes of the day to pray with loved ones could make all the difference in the world. Make your coffee time count. Pray together. Especially to end abortion. This way, it’s a win win situation. Your not supporting abortion unknowingly, and you’re praying to end it.

Morning Offering:

O Jesus, through the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I offer you my prayers, works, joys and sufferings of this day in union with the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass throughout the world. I offer them for all the intentions of your Sacred Heart: the salvation of souls, the reparation for sin, and the reunion of all Christians. I offer them for the intentions of our bishops and of all Apostles of Prayer, for the end of abortion worldwide and in particular for those recommended by our Holy Father this month.

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Holy Innocents Pledge

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An article came out today Starbucks to Politicians: Come Together in which Starbucks will be writing “Come Together” on all cups of coffee sold on Thursday and Friday. According to Starbucks, the words are intended as a message to lawmakers about the damage being caused by the divisive negotiations over the “fiscal cliff.”

Taking into account Starbucks is a financial contributor to Planned Parenthood, I propose we all stop drinking their coffee and send a message ourselves. Tomorrow is the Massacre of the Innocents. Rather then buy a cup, place a cup of water, representing the tears of all who regret their abortions on their counter, with the words “STOP FUNDING ABORTION”. Just an idea that came quickly from our Lord today, after reading the articles on Facebook. Glory to God.

O God, whom the Holy Innocents confessed and proclaimed on this day, not by speaking but by dying, grant, we pray, that the faith in your which we confess with our lips may also speak through our manner of life. Pour forth, we beseech you, O Lord, your grace into our hearts, that we, to whom the Incarnation of Christ your Son was made known by the message of an Angel, may by his Passion and Cross be brought to the glory of his Resurrection. Through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God for ever, and ever. Amen

A voice was heard in Ramah,
sobbing and loud lamentation;
Rachel weeping for her children,
and she would not be consoled,
since they were no more.


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Christ In The Manger


Christmas morning, my daughter received a drawing pad where the pen writes with water. As the day calmed down from the excitement of opening gifts, I held it and began to draw. The first thing to come to mind was the Chi-Rho. As I drew it on the pad, I quickly seen the Infant Christ in the manger. Keep in mind, I have never been given the gift of artists and my ability to draw is as advanced as drawing stick people. When i drew it, the “P” looked like the “Babe” and the “X” His manger. Today, I can still see the same, but with a much deeper meaning.


From Conception to Resurrection and Beyond.

The Chi-Rho invokes the crucifixion of Jesus, as well as symbolizing his status as the Christ.

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Glory To God In The Highest


An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.” Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, “Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests.” Luke 2:9-14


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Pure Bliss

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“I baptize you with water for repentance. But after me will come one who is more powerful than I, whose sandals I am not fit to carry. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and with fire.” Matthew 3:11

Two years ago, I had a vision of our Lord. Although I have posted about many of them, this one I decided to keep in my heart as it was something of pure bliss. Just before the 4th of July in 2011, I had a vision of our Lord swimming in a beautiful river. His face was just above the very peaceful water and He was swimming towards me. I just knew it was Him. His eyes pierced my entire being and His smile was a smile unlike any I have ever seen. It pulled me into a joy I had never known before. That was it. I was swimming in this beautiful place with Him. What make it beautiful was Him just being there. Although the vision didn’t last for more than a few moments, it has never left me. From that day, when I would pray the rosary and I would ponder the Baptism of our Lord, the vision stuck with me. His face coming up from the water and the heavens opening up, “And a voice from heaven said, “This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased.” echos through me with the face that I had seen in the vision.

Today after Mass, my priest tapped me on the shoulder and told me he had a package for me and wanted to give it to me after Mass. He then asked me if I would like to light the last Advent candle on the wreath. I was so excited I couldn’t pass it up. My girls look forward every week to the lighting of the candle which brings us that much closer to Christmas, and participating in lighting it, would be something they would never forget. After the final candle was lit and the most beautiful Mass was over, I met Father in the sacristy and he handed me a small package. We took it home and my girls had to have me open it, and so I did. My jaw dropped when I seen the beautiful piece. I received an bi-fold icon of the Baptism of our Lord and if I had opened this in front of Father, I would have cried like a baby and hugged him. He would have thought I was nuts. There is no doubt in my mind, the Holy Spirit whispered to Father about his gift idea to me. It is so precious to have this closeness with our Lord more so then the piece I was given today, but to have not only the vision and joy but also the physical, is just something so sweet that nothing on earth could ever match. When I look at it, I can’t help but say, it is You. It is my Beloved telling me, it is I.

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Soldiers Christmas Song


I’ll be home for Christmas
You can count on me
Please have snow and mistletoe
And presents on the tree

Christmas Eve will find me
Where the lovelight gleams
I’ll be home for Christmas
If only in my dreams

I’ll be home for Christmas, although written from the point of view of an overseas soldier during WWII, today for me, and for always, represents the soldier Of Christ in exile who has answered His call, longing to be home with Him and His Saints and Angels in Heaven. The soldier behind enemy lines. Knowing the battle that lies ahead through sacrifice and temptation, the wars the soul fights daily against evil, in one’s soul and in the world. The joy that God brings to the soul in these battles, ever-present in memories currently being lived, through hope, faith and love. Although at Mass, the Sanctus puts us with Him and all in heaven, while in the secular world, it is good that everything seen, sung and done, brings us close to Him and we keep Him in our every thought. We keep Him the only object of our desire.

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Baby On Board


Being a mother, I often ponder Mama Marys trip to Bethlehem, about to give birth to our Lord. How uncomfortable she must have been. At nine months in a pregnancy, everything in the womans body is so out of place. Comfort is next to imposable to find. The thought of her just sitting on the back of a donkey makes me shutter, not to mention making the long trip. Getting there and no one would take them in only adds to her discomfort. In a flash, it didn’t matter. He was born. We should always think of not only the distance travled, but the conditions in which our Lord was born. He came from far away, painfull as it was for Mama Mary, to be in our midst. To be among us for all time. He comes to us daily and how many times do we not make room for Him because we have become “comfortable” in our conditions?

In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. (This was the first census that took place while Quirinius was governor of Syria.) And everyone went to his own town to register.

So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.

The baby of board sign I see today in most cars on the road, makes me ponder our Lord not only in the womb of our Holy Mother, but her Holy Baby, our Lord, crusified on the cross, for our sins. In both instances, there was minimal comfort, but only provided by God in the joy to what was about to come.


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Baby Jesus Gift

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My little seven-year old daughter has been asking me for a Baby Jesus doll to keep in her room. One she can keep besides her and hold. One to take care of. One to play with. I am reminded of the many Advent seasons of my childhood when I would play with the figures of my mothers Nativity. Pretending I was there for His birth. Pretending to be with the Kings as they presented their gifts to our Lord. Pretending to be with he shepherds as they heard the “Good News”. I didn’t realize at the time, the playing was inspiring my soul to ponder Him.

I haven’t been able to find a “Baby Jesus” that my daughter could keep in her room. So I asked a good friend who works in the rectory if he knew where I might find one. He told me his wife was going down to Mexico and might be able to pick one up for me. Here we are, three days before Christmas Eve, and I am waiting for the news. I had looked on-line for stores in my area so she might receive the doll on Christmas, but not able to find one. I did however find some stores on-line out-of-state, that do carry what I am looking for and if I were to order him today, she would not receive him on time. Which is fine. What I can see in this event, is that we will be receiving the True Infant Christ, be it my daughter gets the doll, or not on Christmas Day.

Asking my friend created a debate in the Rectory. Everyone was a little perplexed as to why I would want such a gift for my daughter as they believed a doll as this should not be played with as a toy, but rather set out and just looked at, to be pondered over reflecting His life, death and resurrection. My answer back upon hearing this is very simple. What better gift to get for a seven-year old girl in today’s society. To think of getting my daughter a doll called “Brats” or to have her emulate anything the world is offering over what she is seeking, by asking for “Baby Jesus”, she is asking for something much higher then what the world is offering. What harm could come to her in playing with Jesus? Is there someone better to play with then He?

“But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” Matthew 14:27

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World’s End

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Before the end, have your will changed, after the end, there is no changing it.

My world ended when my conversion back home to my Lord began way back in 1998. The life I was leading is gone. The “worldly” ambitious dreams I had are gone. The false peace, is gone! The life I wanted is nothing I want now. I can only keep focused on the life after this one, WITH Him. I can only prepare for the day He comes and there is absolutely no strain to do so. It brings me only joy to do it and to ponder it. It is a total pursuit of holiness now because I am now yoked to Him and not to selfish ambition. Its He doing all the work and I am following His lead. It is living because I love Him. It is accepting the suffering through this life, because His suffering is now mine. My will, is that His will be done. It is doing everything for Him, not because He has done everything for me, but because the love is pure and nothing like it has ever come close to me in this world as His love has. He is all I want. He is all I have and with Him, I have everything.

With all the talk about the mayan end of the world, all I can say is: “No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.” Matthew 24:36

This is not to say, He wont be back. He will. The question is not when but rather, are you going to be ready? Are you going to change your will? Will you give Him everything? I do.


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White Horse


“I saw heaven standing open and there before me was a white horse, whose rider is called Faithful and True. With justice he judges and makes war” Revelation 19:11

I was blessed this morning with not only setting up for 24 hour Exposition of the Blessed Sacrament after our 8:00 AM Mass, but also through the Legion of Mary, partaking in and setting up a Mass located in one of our Nursing Homes that we evangelize to every week. I had set up the Altar and we were waiting for our priest. When he arrived, although I had set them out, we forgot to bring our celebrants vestments and I asked him before the Mass began, if he would like me to run and get them. He said yes and so I was off to retrieve them. Our Parish was not that far away from where we were located. When I returned I parked on a side street from the main road next to a protestant church, where the Nursing facility was located. I got out of my car and standing in the middle of the street was a huge black rooster. I giggled as I seen him thinking this was an odd place for a rooster. I made a chicken noise at him, laughed and began to cross the road. I thought of the old joke as I was crossing, “Why did the chicken cross the road?” and said out loud, thinking of what we were about to do, vestments in hand, answering “Because I’m not a chicken”.

I arrived in time for the Gospel to be read and after, Father placed on the stole. During the consecration of the bread and wine, into the Body and Blood of our Lord, I noticed that there appeared to be a reflection of the Roman Missal on the chalice. The holy book was open and the pages laying in such a way that looked like one white horses hoof on the chalice. I couldn’t hold back my smile and it brought me deeper into the Mass. I was overcome with a deep peace and joy. I could see Victory. I knew, in the midst of this suffering our Lord and His entire Holy Army were present to bring The Light, defeat the darkness of the lame, suffering and all His children’s ailments. The True Healer was present and I was able to see Him in His glory as all received Him warmly, in love.

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Lazarus come forth

35 Jesus wept.

36 “Where have you laid him?” he asked. “Come and see, Lord,” they replied

37 Then the Jews said, “See how much he loved him.”

38 Jesus, once more deeply moved, came to the tomb. It was a cave with a stone laid across the entrance.

39 “Take away the stone,” he said. “But, Lord,” said Martha, the sister of the dead man, “by this time there is a bad odor, for he has been there four days.”

40 Then Jesus said, “Did I not tell you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?”

41 So they took away the stone. Then Jesus looked up and said, “Father, I thank you that you have heard me.

42 I knew that you always hear me, but I said this for the benefit of the people standing here, that they may believe that you sent me.”

43 When he had said this, Jesus called in a loud voice, “Lazarus, come out!”

44 The dead man came out, his hands and feet wrapped with strips of linen, and a cloth around his face. Jesus said to them, “Take off the grave clothes and let him go.” John 11 35:44

He called me and I came back home. I had been dead in sin for much longer then 4 days, and He has raised me out of my self-inflicted tomb of destruction, because He loves us too. He turned my sins into a focal point to avoid at all cost, The wages of sin is death. He reignited the flame of love that burns for Him and burns away the sinfulness I had been carrying. He pulled me through the forge and is reshaping my soul into what she was created to be. Simply, in love with Him. I see the Glory of God in all things. I see the Glory of God is everywhere. He removed my grave-clothes of sin, and replaced them with the garments of hope, love, mercy and faith in Him for all time. There shall never be another in whom I love as much.

Thank you Abba Father, for sending your Son, our Lord, to save us all. I was not physically there the day He rose Lazarus, but I am now and I shall never forget, least my heart-break at the very thought of our Lord weeping.

St. Lazarus pray for us that Christ our Lord raises us all out of the filth of our sinfulness, that we may all see the Glory of God in one another and never return to our old ways seeking selfish pleasures. Lord have mercy on us all. Amen

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River Of Suffering

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“And I saw the river over which every soul must pass to reach the kingdom of heaven and the name of that river was suffering: and I saw a boat which carries souls across the river and the name of that boat was love.”

St. John of the Cross

My heart is breaking for the parents and children in Newtown, Connecticut. Through the tears, I will keep you all in my prayers.

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Winning The Battle Over Scrupulosity


“Deep within his conscience man discovers a law which he has not laid upon himself but which he must obey. Its voice, ever calling him to love and to do what is good and to avoid evil, tells him inwardly at the right moment: Do this; shun that. For man has in his heart a law inscribed by God. His dignity lies in observing this law, and by it he will be judged.” For each human person, our conscience — the core of our being — can be a place where we are “alone with God whose voice echoes in his depths” (16). Gaudium et Spes

When the soul is being convicted by the Holy Spirit, and each and every soul on earth will be, it is very helpful to the soul to simply plead guilty and throw ourselves on the Mercy of our Lord. That does not mean we go back to our sinful old selves but we must come to understand that our Lord has given us a grace to pull closer to Him and now is the best time to do so! The close a soul becomes to God in this exile, the more painful it becomes until the gift of understanding has blossomed. We are all guilty. When our guilt becomes overwhelming, we find ourselves much in the same state as St. Augustine of Hippo once was, rolling arround in our own sinful muck and filth, rather than simply seeking an area to climb out of it and clean ourselves off in through the Mercy of our Lord. His mercy is there for the soul to take advantage of and unless you accept it, there is no moving forward. The soul needs to seek a point in life to say, enough is enough and allow our Lord to love us to the fullest without our own “Ideas” of our sinful state standing in His way to do so.

Scrupulosity – in religious terminology, it can be defined as an uneasy and persistent concern that things might be sinful when in fact they are not.

Scrupulosity can also be a deep examination of conscious gone overboard.

For the scrupulous soul, life in exile can be considered personal hell. It is fighting and agonizing. But we need to remember, it is anything but hell. It is however, a purgatory in which the soul CAN and SHOULD fully take advantage of, to grow in humility, hope and love. In exile we are given by the Holy Spirit, consolations which bring joy to the soul, in which we must use in a way that HOPE grows. “Joy is a net of love by which we catch souls.” When given the consolations, if only for a second, they bring the soul closer to our Lord. In most cases, the soul returns to the state of inner hell not by over thinking, but by a trigger to the conscious by the subconscious of a former sin that may have been committed, most times by the actions of others. The soul forgets the words from its last confession “I absolve you of these sins and ALL your sins”. It’s not a “BAD thing” to place ones soul at a higher degree of obedience to God the that of our neighbors. Doing so, is exactly as our Lord did, BUT “Who is like God”? There is a danger that exists where the soul can be tempted to believe it is better than He. When we hold ourselves at a higher standard than our neighbor, we are completely admitting, I am sinful and need to keep myself in check, not by overlooking our neighbors sins, but rather admitting, I too am sinful. The key here is to not believe for a second that the standard to which we hold ourselves to, can ever be higher than that of Mama Mary. She was the only soul created “Full of Grace”. When we see our sinful neighbors in the light of Christ we need to understand first and foremost, I too have committed THAT sin in which they are guilty of. By doing so, we no longer see the speck in our neighbors eye. We just continue to pray for them, and us, with open eyes, not to fall back into the pit that we once were in, where nothing was visible. The soul in the state of scrupulously still suffers a “blindness” in regards to what is Right and Just, but also what is just how God created us as individually different. Overcoming it means to completely be detached from every object, every idea of our own and every ounce of self-righteousness action but understand every object can be used to pull souls closer to God as God is the creator of everything good.

We also have to understand the devil is real and WANTS to keep the soul in this state. Never give him a thing. Take His words to heart: “So the LORD God said to the serpent, “Because you have done this, “Cursed are you above all the livestock and all the wild animals! You will crawl on your belly and you will eat dust all the days of your life.” Give him nothing! Do not curse the darkness, but laugh at it. Everything belongs to God. All power is Gods and His alone. When the devil tries to make you think he is triggering and in control of all the events of your life, laugh at him, as we KNOW only God is powerful and the keeper of all souls and power over us. When the soul is in this state, it is as if it is being slowly sanded down over time, allowing the evil thoughts to take over. To the soul in this state, everything begins to become hopeless. I offer you this: EVERYTHING that happens to the soul in this life, is due to God’s will. All suffering we endure, endure it for our Lord. Even If your soul is as black as coal, which most of us are, take into account that every diamond, was once carbon, “Behold, I make all things new.” Rev 21:5.  In order for the diamond to be created, much pressure is needed for the state of the carbon to change into the beautiful gem. Does the pressure stop until it is created? No. Because it is not finished becoming what it was intended to be. This is where fortitude comes into play. You KNOW that everything your soul is going through, can not be stopped simply by saying, I quit. Falling back into the sinful state of living is not an option. BUT understanding you are NOT perfect and never will be complete until you are in our Lord arms allows the soul to take baby steps back to our Lord and the mercy He wants to share with you. “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.”

In every scrupulous soul is a warrior for Christ battling the demons that fear Him. Take courage! Give in to our Lords mercy and grow in humility. Do not let your inner pride and vainglory of believing your not good enough ever take an inch of the soul our Lord created to be His love and His alone as you are feeding the demon in which our God commanded to eat dust and dust alone. Courage! Its okay to be fearful, but overcoming the fear and doing Gods will, is what we are called to do. Each and every one of us.

“God sustains every soul and dwells in it substantially, even though it be that of the greatest sinner in the world, and this union is natural. The supernatural union exists when God’s will and the soul’s will are in conformity. Therefore the soul rests transformed in God through love.” – St. John of the Cross


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The End


Spanish conquest of Yucatán…..

Remember, O most gracious Virgin of Guadalupe, that in your apparitions on Mount Tepeyac you promised to show pity and compassion to all who, loving and trusting you, seek your help and protection.
Accordingly, listen now to our supplications and grant us consolation and relief. We are full of hope that, relying on your help, nothing can trouble or affect us. As you have remained with us through your admirable image, so now obtain for us the graces we need. Amen.

Our Lady of Guadalupe, Mystical Rose, make intercession for the Holy Church, protect the Sovereign Pontiff, help all those who invoke thee in their necessities, and since thou art the ever Virgin Mary, and Mother of the True God, obtain for us from thy most holy Son the grace of keeping our faith, of sweet hope in the midst of the bitterness of life, of burning charity, and the precious gift of final perseverance. Amen.

12-12-12 (tribes of Israel, apostles of Jesus; human completion) Feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe

In 1523, just two years after the Aztec capital of Tenochitlan fell to Hernán Cortés and his Conquistadors, the first Roman Catholic missionaries arrivd to begin the religious conquest of Mexico.
Among their first converts was a man baptized with the Christian name Juan Diego. On the chilly morning of December 9, 1531, Juan Diego crossed the barren hill called Tepeyac to attend Mass. He was brought to a sudden halt by a blinding light and the sound of heavenly music. Before him appeared an astounding vision–a beautiful dark-skinned woman who, calling the Indian “my son”, declared herself to be the Virgin Mary, the mother of Jesus Christ. She told Juan Diego it was her desire to have a church built on Tepeyac hill, and asked him to relay that message to Bishop Juan de Zumarraga.It was no easy task for the humble Indian to be granted an audience with the top prelate, but the persistent Juan Diego was finally admitted. The incredulous Bishop demanded that he be provided with some proof of the unlikely encounter. Confused and fearful, Juan Diego avoided Tepeyac for several days, but on December 12, while rushing to find a priest to attend a seriously ill uncle, he took a short cut across the hill. The Virgin once again appeared and Juan Diego told her of the Bishop’s request. The Virgin instructed him to pick roses from the usually barren and desolate hill and deliver them to Zumarraga as the sign.
Juan Diego gathered up the miraculous blossoms in his mantle and hurried off to complete his mission. Once again before the Bishop, he let the roses spill out before him. To the wonder of all assembled, a perfect image of La Virgen of Guadalupe was revealed emblazoned on Juan Diego’s cloak.
Juan Diego’s mantle, carefully preserved in the new Basilica, has been subjected to extensive analysis over the years. Experts have authenticated the fabric as dating to the 16th century, but have been unable to determine the type of pigment from which the image was rendered. It seems doubtful that in the Colonial era in Mexico human hands were capable of creating a portrait of its exquisite nature. It is even doubtful it can be done in Mexico today. Most wonderous of all, after 465 years, the image of the Virgen de Guadalupe remains clearly imprinted on the miraculous cloak without visible signs of deterioration.
By order of the Bishop, a small church was soon constructed on the site designated by the Virgin. Skeptics are quick to point out the unlikely coincidence of the Virgin’s appearance on Tepeyac, the very site of an Aztec temple dedicated to Tonatzin (earth godess, mother of the gods and protectress of humanity) which had been devastated by order of Bishop Zumarraga.
The original church was replaced by a larger structure built in 1709. The Miracle of Guadalupe was officially recognized by the Vatican in 1745. The second sanctuary was declared a Basilica in 1904. A new Basilica, of modern design and enormous capacity, was dedicated in October of 1976. This is found in the northern section of present-day Mexico City.
In this and other churches dedicated to La Virgen de Guadalupe throughout the nation, millions of the faithful will gather December 12 for processions, prayers, songs, dances, and fireworks to honor “La Reina de México” (the Queen of Mexico).
In essence, the Spanish conquest of 1519-1521 destroyed the core of Aztec religion-the cult of warfare and human sacrifice. The Aztecs were no longer able to feed the sun, yet the universe survived, and Huitzilopochtli was discredited. Aztec religion had lost its focus by 1531.
The Aztecs practiced human sacrifice on a wholesale scale.
We must remember that the Aztecs offered annually at least 20,000 men, women and children in human sacrifice to their gods. In 1487, just in a single 4 days long ceremony for the dedication of a new temple in Tenochtitlan, some 80,000 captives were killed in human sacrifice.
Taken from The Mystery of the Virgin of Guadalupe

O most gracious Virgin of Guadalupe, help the world to put an end to the senseless murder of the unborn. Through the Holy Spirit of my Lord, convert the hearts of all who partake in the Culture of Death and please O Lord, Christ my King, have mercy on us all. Amen

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Fear Of God


Abba Father, I Am Who Am. When my soul is in His presence, I am confident and content in His love. My soul is relaxed and all I can do is love Him back. There is no time to tell Him of the things in which bother me, or things in this world that trouble me. My soul is completely at ease and all I can do is cry with joy at His forgiveness and love for me and the entire world. Once the soul understand this, it never seeks anything but God.

This past Sunday, I was blessed with this contentment that only comes from Him, just after praying the Rosary. When my soul is in this state, I can not remember anything bitter in the world but only the love of neighbor and love of Him. There is a distinct difference in my soul between being in the presence of Abba Father, The Son, whom I know as the Bridegroom and the Holy Spirit. Abba Father IS Papa. I have talked about this before, but can not stress enough the difference. When my soul is with Him, it knows it. There is no pain. There is no fear. There is only contentment.

When my soul is with the Bridegroom, it is like this morning. I know it is Him through the intimacy that my soul shares with Him. I am unsure how to love Him at times, but offer everything anyway, knowing full well, He will take what He wants. My soul burns with desire to do everything for Him. It’s a state of undying love waiting to be reassured that no matter what I do, He loves me anyway. A state of never wanting to hurt Him, but yet, sharing in His hurt and begging for forgiveness for even the least thought of sin that may have been committed, and working fervently without exhaustion to ensure that I never hurt Him again.

When my soul is in the presence of the Holy Spirit, it knows it without a doubt. He is ferocious . He is the Warrior. He mends my ways without care. I sit in deep repentance begging to be forgiven as He has my soul in His hands. The tears of regret that I have strayed from our Lord do not stop, until He says they can. I tremble in fear. There is no other fear in the world that can describe Him. Truth no matter how painful, is the only way in dealing with Him. He will never settle for anything less. This Truth causes the emptying of everything in the soul. Good and bad. It’s as if He comes to collect what He has asked for. Sometimes He stays for a few days, and it causes the soul to repent in such a way that others can not understand. Other times, He just comes for a second, to remind the soul, He will be returning. In all cases, you never forget what He seeks nor He was there. The soul then only wants Truth to ensure when He returns, He will be satisfied. He teaches you what Fear of God is. Not to be afraid of God, but to be afraid of separating ones self from God.

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Intimacy With Christ


Far to often when the world uses the word intimacy, is confused with sexual behavior. Intimacy is a step above friendship. It is personal detailed knowledge of another that no one else can fathom or understand. Its knowing what makes a “clock” tick rather than showing it off for its outer beauty. I can sit here all day and tell you I love our Lord and as many who read this will say sure, I love Him too. As I am sure you do. It’s when that love for Christ becomes manifested in our daily lives, where we can see Him speaking to us personally and we speak back, that the relationship becomes intimate. When our entire being becomes entangled in the workings of the Holy Trinity, and we desire this and our life is only of serving Him no matter what crosses our path. It’s the “One Track Mind” heading in the direction of Heaven, passing by all creation, to come face to face with the Creator, just for the simple task to place a kiss upon His lips. My one and only reason for living, being for Him.

Today while cleaning out the old literature in the back of the church, I came across a prayer card with the picture of St. Michael the Archangel. I smiled and taking a push-pin, hung it up on the bulletin board while saying “Always”. I then began to feel around in an area I could not see into. I found a little toy of Spongebob sealed in plastic. I laughed so hard. I then walked up to the front of the Altar on to the right side, seen something laying on the ground. It was a small broken off piece of a blue crayon. I picked it up and tossed it into the garbage. For any other soul, these events would seem like nothing. Between our Lord and I, it was Him telling me, I Am here with you, I hear you and I love you.

St. Michael the Archangel: I have a deep and profound respect and love for him. My entire sinful life, even when I was not as faithful, when I did not think I was worth saving, if I were not to make it to heaven, I would hope it were he to crush me. Now in my repentance, I call on him for our Lords protection. Always.

The broken piece of blue crayon: It’s much harder to describe this. The blue is my favorite color. The tiny piece represents, in my repentance, what I would use to write about my love for our Lord and how I speak to Him daily, with still keeping much in my heart. I would have to use it sparingly.

The toy: Well, I truly have had a “Road to Damascus” conversion, and although older, the cartoon below will fill in the blanks.


Like I said, its just a deep understanding….

I then came to the tabernacle, got to one knee and said, I love you.

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Night Vision


I often sit in front of the television with the family. Although I am with them physically, I am often pondering our Lord. Last night this commercial came on and it reminded me so much of how temptation comes to the faithful in Christ. Although we do not fall for the evil ones temptations, we are still tempted. After time with our Lord, it becomes this easy to detect and deflect.

“Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour” 1 Peter 5:8

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Solemnity of the Immaculate Conception


Prayer of Pope Pius XII

Enraptured by the splendor of your heavenly beauty, and impelled by the anxieties of the world, we cast ourselves into your arms, O Immaculate Mother of Jesus and our Mother, Mary, confident of finding in your most loving heart appeasement of our ardent desires, and a safe harbor from the tempests which beset us on every side.

Though degraded by our faults and overwhelmed by infinite misery, we admire and praise the peerless richness of sublime gifts with which God has filled you, above every other mere creature, from the first moment of your conception until the day on which, after your assumption into heaven, He crowned you Queen of the Universe.

O crystal fountain of faith, bathe our minds with the eternal truths! O fragrant Lily of all holiness, captivate our hearts with your heavenly perfume! O Conqueress of evil and death, inspire in us a deep horror of sin, which makes the soul detestable to God and a slave of hell!

O well-beloved of God, hear the ardent cry which rises up from every heart. Bend tenderly over our aching wounds. Convert the wicked, dry the tears of the afflicted and oppressed, comfort the poor and humble, quench hatreds, sweeten harshness, safeguard the flower of purity in youth, protect the holy Church, make all men feel the attraction of Christian goodness. In your name, resounding harmoniously in heaven, may they recognize that they are brothers, and that the nations are members of one family, upon which may there shine forth the sun of a universal and sincere peace.

Receive, O most sweet Mother, our humble supplications, and above all obtain for us that, one day, happy with you, we may repeat before your throne that hymn which today is sung on earth around your altars: You are all-beautiful, O Mary! You are the glory, you are the joy, you are the honor of our people! Amen.

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When I was a child, I asked my dad why God created humans the way He did. I admired the animals He created and how they had sharp claws, fur, feathers, scales and all of them seemed to have something that set them apart from one another. Some could run fast and some could climb and others could fly but I could never understand why God created man and women the way He did. We are different then all other creatures of His creation. Being a child, I was a bit upset that I didn’t have big sharp teeth like a lion or wings like a bird. I could never understand why we had “nothing” visible to help us in the world for protection or defence. God created us defenceless. My dad simply said, God gave us intellect and allows us to conquer all other creatures, giving us authority over them. Being a child, it wasn’t a good enough answer. I wanted to know why I didn’t have four legs and a tail, which I am now laughing at. Why do I look like this and why do I think like this?

“So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.” Genesis 1:27

What is intellect? Intellect: The ability to think abstractly or profoundly. When we mix that with “Free Will” and unfortunately the fall from grace in which we received “awareness”, we become less fortunate and even more defenceless. Defenceless in the regard of falling into temptation to do things no longer for the greater glory of God, but rather for our self-preservation and self-serving, self-gratification. Before the fall, God provided everything for us, thus the reason we were created “Defenceless”. There was no need for anything but God. The fall separated us from Him and His “defences”. It’s no wonder our Lord came into the world, as He did. The defenceless child with no need for anything but God to be physically present again with His defenceless creation.

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Isaiah 11:1-10

1 A shoot will spring from the stock of Jesse, a new shoot will grow from his roots.

2 On him will rest the spirit of Yahweh, the spirit of wisdom and insight, the spirit of counsel and power, the spirit of knowledge and fear of Yahweh:

3 his inspiration will lie in fearing Yahweh. His judgement will not be by appearances. his verdict not given on hearsay.

4 He will judge the weak with integrity and give fair sentence for the humblest in the land. He will strike the country with the rod of his mouth and with the breath of his lips bring death to the wicked.

5 Uprightness will be the belt around his waist, and constancy the belt about his hips.

6 The wolf will live with the lamb, the panther lie down with the kid, calf, lion and fat-stock beast together, with a little boy to lead them.

7 The cow and the bear will graze, their young will lie down together. The lion will eat hay like the ox.

8 The infant will play over the den of the adder; the baby will put his hand into the viper’s lair.

9 No hurt, no harm will be done on all my holy mountain, for the country will be full of knowledge of Yahweh as the waters cover the sea.

10 That day, the root of Jesse, standing as a signal for the peoples, will be sought out by the nations and its home will be glorious.

Lord come quickly

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Remember Me When

Christ and the good thief

“Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.” Luke 23:42

How many times do I see myself at the good thief, crucified with our Lord, to many to be counted and when all is said and done, I should be counted as the bad thief.. I try to try to do what is right and just and find myself doing exactly what is wrong and unjustified in the eyes of our Lord. Yesterday I attended Holy Mass and seen a soul not “looking” as if they were praying to our Lord but rather what seemed to be one holding Him in contempt. Not standing at the right times, not participating in the prayers and certainly not showing any amount of reverence for our Lord, but yet, going up to receive Him in the Eucharist. I cringed and became adamant that one could receive our Lord in such a way. The Priest turned to him first and offered our Lord to him, then to me. When Mass had ended and I walked out, I thought of my attitude towards the other who had received our Lord is this way, and was quickly reminded of how I to used to receive our Lord. Completely looking past the Mass, the Wedding Feast, to what I would be doing after. Looking to the day after the beautiful time I had with Him. I was quickly reminded of the times I did not have any idea how much our Lord loved me and how I was so confused upon returning to Him. I didn’t understand why I had returned, but I did return. I was reminded that I was not the only one to see our Lord in this way and I did not have a monopoly on His love nor His voice. Time belongs to Him and be it that we do not understand why He calls us back is not the point, but rather the fact He called us back in the first place, is the only point that matters. No one is perfect but Him and rather than condemnation to any souls, I should have been full of joy that another had returned to Him, to be a part of His body. To call on Him at every step. Forgive me Lord. I know not what I do.

This first week of Advent and in the coming weeks before Christmas and the birth of our Lord, I feel a strong need to understand I am not alone in this faith and to be alone in His body would simply be vainglory in my faith. I need to understand I have to recall that I too have worn the shoes of homelessness, I have worn the shoes of unworthiness and could very easily return to that person. Nothing has come from me but rather from the One True God. I need to remember me as the bad thief and beg for our Lords mercy every day of my life. Knowing that I must stay awake and not fall asleep in the misery of the world, nor the fact that God giveth and taketh away. I must continue on the path of what is right and just, no matter how painful it may be. Everything is for the greater glory of God.

I found a little plaque today while walking through Goodwill that put it all in perspective for me. “I love Jesus not only for what He is, but for what I am now that He is in my heart.”. Thank you Lord for correcting the things in me, You are not. I love You.

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