While in Adoration last night praying the rosary, I couldn’t help but start crying. While focusing on how our Lord has changed my life so drastically, changing me from a home wrecker to a home builder. Placing every sin I had committed my entire life in front of my face so I could see my own filth and allowing me the tools to clean up this life and change the path I was on through confession, Holy Mass and prayer, I looked at all the wonderful doors He opened for me and I knew in an instant, it’s much bigger than needing someone to change the Altar linens or taking care of the Adoration Chapel and ensuring the Legion of Mary is taken care of. All the beautiful and pure activates He filled my life with instead of hanging out at bars looking for Mr. this guy may be Right. I couldn’t hold back the tears thinking about His life and how He gave everything up for me not just so I could do these things. No way was it just about that. Rather it was for me to understand there is much more after this life. He has done so much for me, to prove to me He needs me, He wants me and He loves me. It’s much greater then this life and anything that fills it. I can only focus on how to empty myself for His love. Empty myself so He can fill me in order to live through me to reach every soul I come into contact with while I am still here. Some in big ways, some in little ways. Ensuring it is Him in every case.
After receiving our Lord at Mass this morning, I began to pray, and while my prayer was complete, the Priest began the final prayer of the Mass. I knew our Lord was there as the prayer I had recited in the quiet of my heart, was a reflection of the prayer the priest was saying to the entire church.
Withdraw your heart from the world before God takes your body from it.
— Blessed John of Avila