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When I found out I was pregnant with my last child, I was elated! Soon after, serious complications began to occur. I had horrendous pain and I was only seven weeks pregnant. I was taken to the emergency room one night by my husband as I couldn’t even stand up. When they received me, they said all indications were that I was going to miscarry this child. I was released and the pain continued. There was no bleeding or anything that indicated the child was in trouble.

The following day, as the pain continued to increase my husband once again took me to the emergency room. Again, I was told that the baby was probably in trouble and would soon pass. An ultrasound was done and my baby’s heartbeat was fine. Beating as strong as mine was. The pain became increasingly worse and once again, I was sent home to wait. At this time, all I could do was lay down and wait in agony. I didn’t know what was taking place and I couldn’t understand why they couldn’t do anything to save my baby if her heart was beating as strong as it was.

The following morning, which was Monday, my Doctor advised me to come in so he could take a look and see what was taking place. My husband drove me to his office and I literally crawled in on my hands and knees and I couldn’t even stand upright. He rushed me in and ran a bunch of tests and told me to go to the emergency room right then and there. This was my third visit to the Hospital Emergency Room, in three days of anguish. Upon entering the ER, I told them, if they didn’t find out what was wrong that I knew I was going to die. I started shaking all over, because the pain was something so intense that I had never had before. I knew I was going to die if they didn’t find out what was taking place.

I was rushed into ultrasound again, to see if the baby was still okay, and I had told them my Doctor had done one and the baby’s heartbeat was fine and strong that morning. Before I could get the words out, the ultrasound technician asked for the radiologists to step in ASAP. He said to me, I think I see something that shouldn’t be there. I want the Doctor to take a look and see. The Doctor came in and was looking at the monitor and the ultrasound technician asked me, “Have you had a HCG test”? My jaw dropped. I knew what he was talking about. I had not had one. There was no need as everything was fine until a few days earlier.

A HGC test determines hormones in ratio to pregnancy. If they ratio of hormones is very high, there are TWO children present. The Doctor said there is something going on with your right fallopian tube. There seems to be a mass but its hard to tell if it is anything serious yet as it could just be scare tissue. They ran the HCG test and it backed up the suspicion of the Ultrasound technician. I was pregnant with twins. But one was in serious trouble. I had a child in my fallopian tube, and one where she should be, in my uterus. I was never on any fertility drugs, nor do twins even run in my family. Its called a heterotopic pregnancy. My baby had an estimated 90‑95% mortality rate. My baby who was where she should be, faced a 35% mortality rate and if we continued in this state, all of us were at 100% mortality rate.

At this moment, I remembered something very profound that I had forgotten as I continued on in life, trying to forget my “Conversion” back in 1998 and carry on in life. Our Lord is the giver of life. This moment was my reawakening from our Lord to return to Him and remember. As only He could give life, reaffirming what I had been going through for many years, truly was Him calling me back home, without a single doubt.

I was rushed into surgery as a mother pregnant with twins, and came out of surgery unsure if I was pregnant at all. I lost one child and one was saved. They removed my right fallopian tube with my child inside. I knew in my heart this child was now with our Lord and that things like this are truly a wakeup call. I struggled with this in the same way as I struggle with abortion. I had thought that the decision to take this life from me was just that. It is not. Please read:
When Pregnancy Goes Awry: Ectopic Pregnancies

I also want to point this out:


The general discussion on the theme took place during the plenary sessions of the ITC, held in Rome. In October 2005 and October 2006.

I lost my child in March of 2006.

I never picked out a name for the child I lost that day, not one that I stuck with as I couldn’t find a meaningful name for her. For the past 6 years since this had taken place, I think of her often. My little one who did survive is named Chloe and she sighs now and then and says, “I wish I had a twin”. She knows now, that she does. Until today we always called her Chloe’s twin. Today, she finally has a name and it truly is, Angelica. She was my “Messenger of God”.

I read a piece today written by a woman who had been struggling to become pregnant and finally succeeded only to miscarry a few weeks into her pregnancy. I cried while reading it as the pain rushed back into my memory as I could truly understand her pain. Thus this post I have written. In the comments to this woman’s story, someone had posed this:

My Lord, the baby is dead!

Why, my Lord—dare I ask why? It will not hear the whisper of the wind or see the beauty of its parents’ face—it will not see the beauty of Your creation or the flame of a sunrise. Why, my Lord?

“Why, My child—do you ask ‘why’? Well, I will tell you why.

You see, the child lives. Instead of the wind he hears the sound of angels singing before My throne. Instead of the beauty that passes he sees everlasting Beauty—he sees My face. He was created and lived a short time so the image of his parents imprinted on his face may stand before Me as their personal intercessor. He knows secrets of heaven unknown to men on earth. He laughs with a special joy that only the innocent possess. My ways are not the ways of man. I create for My Kingdom and each creature fills a place in that Kingdom that could not be filled by another. He was created for My joy and his parents’ merits. He has never seen pain or sin. He has never felt hunger or pain. I breathed a soul into a seed, made it grow and called it forth.”

I am humbled before you, my Lord, for questioning Your wisdom, goodness, and love. I speak as a fool—forgive me. I acknowledge Your sovereign rights over life and death. I thank You for the life that began for so short a time to enjoy so long an Eternity.

— Mother M. Angelica

My little Angelica, in less the 8 weeks of life, came to me, delivered her message and returned to our Lord. Angelica, pray for us.


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Little Suffering Soul


Margaret Leo of McLean, pray for us.

Please read her entire story at the link below..
The Littlest Suffering Souls, part 2: Margaret Leo of McLean
By Austin Ruse
Friday, 31 May 2013

Her special gift was joyful friendship. In an elevator, she would pepper strangers with questions, with a steady gaze and big smile. “What is your name?” “Where are you going?” “What is your birthday?” They sensed she really wanted to know. The girl had no artifice. Even Supreme Court Justices can be attracted to that.

What they did not know, because she never mentioned it, even to her family, was that she was likely in unimaginable pain. Think of a titanium rod being bent by your spine, and about to poke through the skin of your neck. Or a shunt inside your brain.

No one describes her as a “spiritual athlete.” Her faith was profoundly childlike. Her whole life she prayed out loud the simple prayer her mother taught her as a child, “Jesus, thank you for coming to me in the Eucharist.”

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The Tiny Little Flower

Audrey Stevenson, Pray For Us

And yet another beautiful little soul…. Please read her ENTIRE story at the link below.

The Littlest Suffering Souls: Audrey Stevenson of ParisBy Austin Ruse
Friday, 17 May 2013

Audrey Stevenson was born in 1983 to a nominally Catholic family, a family that did not even say grace at meals. When she was three, her family visited the home of Theresa of Lisieux and then to the convent where the Little Flower lived and died, and Audrey exclaimed: “I want to enter Carmel.”

Not long after the family moved into a new apartment. Audrey drew a crude yellow crucifix and put it on the wall. She had put identical crucifixes in each room of the house where they remained for a good long time.

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Brendan Kelly, Pray For Us


I had to share… Please read the entire story of Bendan Kelly
The Littlest Suffering Souls III: Brendan Kelly of Great Falls
By Austin Ruse
Friday, 14 June 2013

Brendan was a mystic. He carried on a continuous conversation with Jesus and his Guardian Angel. After confession one evening, he made an extended penance. Outside, his father asked what took him so long, and Brendan said he was talking to Jesus. “In the tabernacle?,” his father asked. “No, in the light above the tabernacle,” except according to Father Alexander Drummond, the Church was utterly dark.

Brendan would not pass a church without blowing a kiss and shouting, “Hi, Jesus.” So normal and natural was this that a priest of Opus Dei still sermonizes about this as an advanced state of the interior life.

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I Do Believe


The Lord opened the understanding of my unbelieving heart, so that I should recall my sins. –Saint Patrick

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“Maria Divine Mercy” – Fraud


There is only one Book of Truth and it is called the Holy Bible – In other words, the so called “Maria Divine Mercy” is a fraud.
The post below is form Fr. Carlos Martins, Roman Catholic Priest from Toronto, Ontario (April 28, 2013 via Facebook)


There is an abundance of people spreading these messages on the internet. More and more people are sending me emails containing them and asking me to promote, “Maria Divine Mercy”.

Stay away from this absurd and false prophet. “Maria Divine Mercy” is not receiving authentic messages. Many ignorant and gullible people are jumping on her bandwagon, or at least entertaining her absurd messages, to their own harm. (Her Facebook page has over 18,000 followers. Her website is

It is clear that the nature of her messages are to place a wedge between the faithful and the Church, specifically between the faithful and the Holy Father, Pope Francis. One of the “revelations” received by this very misguided person is that Pope Benedict will be the last Pope on earth, that he will be ousted from office, and that Pope Francis is a false pope. All three claims are false and individuals who believe them show they do not believe Our Lord’s words in Matthew 16:18-19. In questioning Pope Francis, the Vicar of Christ on earth, they are questioning Jesus Christ himself. It is for such people that Hebrews 13:9 was written: “Do not be led astray by various kinds of strange teachings.” Furthermore, name for me ONE Saint in the Church’s long history that placed a private vision or revelation above the word of the Pope and of the Church? You won’t find any.

“Maria Divine Mercy” states that she has received messages from “the Holy Trinity as well as by the Virgin Mary.” Name for me ONE visionary from the Church’s list of approved apparitions that described himself/herself as a “visionary”, “prophet”, or “seer”? None exist. The seers at Fatima, St. Bernadette, St. Catherine Laboure, etc., all submitted their visions, received messages, and interpretations of both, to the Church. This is not only a recipe for spiritual health, it is also the mark of holiness. “Maria Divine Mercy” lacks both.

Finally, “Maria Divine Mercy” writes anonymously. No one knows who she is. This, in fact, should be the first thing to set off alarm bells. Name for me ONE prophet that hid himself/herself in secret while slinging out “revelations” without accountability and without subjecting himself/herself to the authority of the Church? There are none.

In giving credence to “Maria Divine Mercy”, devotees are disobeying the laws of the Church, are promoting an evil which is sowing discord among the faithful, and are leading people away from the Church, the same Church for which Christ shed his blood.

Those who subscribe to or spread these messages need to repent, for one day they will come under the judgment of God for doing so.

The National Catholic Register has a wonderful analysis of the absurd claims put out by “Maria Divine Mercy” by the brilliant apologist Jimmy Akin:

But wait! There’s more! His Excellency Spis Bishop Mons. Stephen Sečka, from Slovakia has more to say about “Maria Divine Mercy”


Bishop Sečka to spread the alleged Greater warning of Jesus Christ
P: 3, 21 11th 2012 12:44, DOM

Spis Chapter 21 November (ZENIT) – Spis Bishop Mons. Stephen Sečka issued on the basis of reports of priests and believers phone calls from the Internet to disseminate data big warning of Jesus Christ. On this occasion, issued an opinion that we bring in full.

Dear Brothers and Sisters,

I learned that in some parishes is very spread messages about the so-called Great Day of God’s warnings, resulting from the alleged private revelations of an Irish visionaries. These messages are distributed via the internet. I have found that it is a heretical teachings, which is not in accordance with the teachings of the Catholic Church and is showing signs of sectarianism. This whole doctrine is indeed poprepletaná prayers for God’s mercy and calls for confession, as well as the Catholic Church teaches, but quotations from Scripture are commented and explained arbitrary and contrary to the teachings of the Catholic Church. Similar tendencies were already in the early Church, therefore St.. Apostle Peter wrote: “Above all, you should know that no prophecy of Scripture does not allow private interpretation” (2 Peter 1: 20).

After seeing this website I also found that believers are encouraged to have already bought so. “Seal of the living God” to be sanctified by a priest. I note that no priest faithful to Christ and his Church must cooperate in this matter, it would be guilty of transgressions against the faith and his office. For anyone who will disseminate these messages are delusional enough to apply strictly the words of Scripture, written by St. Apostle Paul to the Galatians:

“I marvel that from him that called you into the grace of Christ are under way quickly to another gospel. Ono nor other, unless there are some that trouble you, and would pervert the gospel of Christ. But if we have preached unto you we, or an angel from heaven any other gospel than we have preached unto you, let him be accursed! As we have said before, so now I say again: If anyone preaches to you a gospel contrary to that which you received, let him be accursed! I can now lean people or God? Or trying to please men? If I yet pleased men, I would not be Christ’s servant. “(Gal 1, 6-9).

All believers, who perhaps out of ignorance began to believe the messages mentioned, and please urge them to leave these heretical teachings and not spread them.

On this matter, I was obliged, in order to highlight the purity of Catholic faith, obedience and unity with the Holy Father, and for the sake of salvation of your souls.

dedicated to Lord V + Sečka Stephen, Bishop of Spis

ZENIT Opinion expressed by Peter Majda


Biskup Sečka k šíreniu údajného Veľkého varovania Ježiša Krista
P:3, 21. 11. 2012 12:44, DOM

Spisšká Kapitula 21. novembra (TK KBS) – Spišská biskup Mons. Štefan Sečka vydal na základe hlásenia kňazov a telefonátov od veriacich, že internetom sa šíri údajné Veľké varovanie Ježiša Krista. Pri tejto príležitosti vydal stanovisko, ktoré prinášame v plnom znení.

Drahí bratia a sestry!

Dozvedel som sa, že v niektorých farnostiach sa veľmi rozšírili posolstvá o takzvanom dni Božieho Veľkého varovania, ktoré vyplývajú z údajných súkromných zjavení nejakej írskej vizionárky. Tieto posolstvá sa rozširujú prostredníctvom internetu. Zistil som, že ide o bludnú náuku, ktorá nie je v súlade s učením Katolíckej cirkvi a vykazuje známky sektárstva. Celá táto náuka je síce poprepletaná modlitbami k Božiemu milosrdenstvu a výzvami k svätej spovedi tak, ako to učí aj Katolícka cirkev, avšak citáty zo Svätého písma sú komentované a vysvetľované svojvoľne a v rozpore s učením Katolíckej cirkvi. Podobné tendencie boli už v prvotnej Cirkvi, preto sv. Peter apoštol napísal: „Predovšetkým však vedzte, že nijaké proroctvo v Písme nepripúšťa súkromný výklad“ (2Pt 1, 20).

Po zhliadnutí tejto internetovej stránky som tiež zistil, že veriaci sú nabádaní, aby si zaobstarali tzv. „pečať živého Boha“, ktorá má byť posvätená kňazom. Pripomínam, že žiaden kňaz verný Kristovi a jeho Cirkvi nesmie v tejto veci spolupracovať, lebo by sa dopustil prehrešenia voči viere a svojmu úradu. Na kohokoľvek, kto bude šíriť tieto bludné posolstvá sa vzťahujú dosť prísne slová Svätého písma, ktoré napísal sv. apoštol Pavol Galaťanom:

„Čudujem sa, že od toho, ktorý vás povolal v Kristovej milosti, tak rýchlo prebiehate k inému evanjeliu. Ono ani nie je iné, ibaže sú niektorí, čo vás mätú a chcú prekrútiť Kristovo evanjelium. Ale keby sme vám hlásali my alebo aj anjel z neba iné evanjelium, ako sme vám hlásali, nech je prekliaty! Ako sme už povedali, aj teraz znova hovorím: Ak by vám niekto hlásal iné evanjelium ako to, ktoré ste prijali, nech je prekliaty! Chcem si teraz nakloniť ľudí alebo Boha? Alebo sa usilujem páčiť sa ľuďom? Keby som sa ešte chcel páčiť ľuďom, nebol by som Kristovým služobníkom.“ (Gal 1, 6-9).

Všetkých veriacich, ktorí možno z nevedomosti začali veriť uvedeným posolstvám, prosím a dôrazne žiadam, aby opustili tieto bludné náuky a nešírili ich.

Na túto záležitosť som bol povinný upozorniť v záujme čistoty katolíckej viery, poslušnosti a jednoty so Svätým Otcom, ako aj v záujme spásy vašich duší.

V Pánu oddaný + Štefan Sečka, spišský biskup

TK KBS stanovisko poskytol Peter Majda


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World Youth Day 2013


For our coverage on World Youth Day, please visit:

Full transcripts of the Pope’s speeches can be found at: WORDS

Hash tags on Twitter are: #WYD #Rio2013 #JMJ #wyd2013

PLEASE read: The poem Pope Francis never wrote

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