Monthly Archives: August 2013

Repentant Sinner


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I am a sinner. A repentant sinner. In all that you can read in all I have written, what it all comes down to is I have done nothing. Nothing that anyone else who believes in our Lord would not have done. I am a sinner. A repentant sinner, only now, living the faith that our Lord has given to us. I am no different than anyone else. Anyone else who said yes Lord.

This is where my entire conversion of heart has come to, today. I have a blazing love for all souls, but more for our Lord. I try to live within the balance of the world to come, and exile. I can not survive without our Lord. Without being in full communion with Him and His bride. Without receiving the sacraments continually, and in a steady life of prayer. I can not live in Him, without the glory being given to Him at all times. This is where He has brought me. Many years have passed and I have been through many trials. In all my tribulation, I have accomplished nothing but the acceptance of God gaining my soul. Only today, the race home has begun. All else was simply training for the race. With our Lords help, may I win to give Him the glory and all my love, as today and all days, belong to Him. I have done nothing, but everything wrong. Today the right path is open. Only now finding I am truly empty, to be filled with our Lord. You, Lord have “Cleaned the inside of cup and dish first so that it and the outside are both clean.” All glory and honor to God.

EDIT TO ADD:

Recognizing sin, accepting mercy is key to salvation, pope says

Jesus told his disciples that the entrance to heaven is like a “narrow gate,” not because God has made salvation so difficult, but because people find it difficult to recognize their sinfulness and accept God’s mercy, Pope Francis said.

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The World In Which We Live


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Taken from Paul Claudel, via Magnificat Monday, from a meditation of his on the Apostles’ Creed:

We live… in a state of disorder. There has been a corruption of the original order, of the order that charged all things to become visible; there has been a warping of certain wheels, which causes friction throughout the mechanism. The disorder cannot, by definition, be the work of the Creator, because everything that proceeds from him is, by definition, good. Therefore it can only be the work of the free creature, free to choose himself as an end, instead of God who has no end.
Difference, preference … this false preference is the so-called original sin, which is the result of this original difference away from God in which the creature delights, and delights as an end in itself.
The consequence of original sin, by which the finite being chooses himself as end, is the End, either death or separation — separation for the rebel angels forever banned from life, death for man who loses his body, or the essential difference in which he delights.
By his sin, man withdraws from God his body and the service of his body, to which all nature is bound in solidarity. He is no longer “adjusted.” What he robbed while in a state of grace he cannot now restore in a state of sin. God alone can restore God (or God’s work) to himself by a sort of recreation or regeneration.”Fiat,” says the Father, “voluntas mea.” “Fiat voluntas tua,” answers the Son.

If you think for a second, that “American Entertainment” is anything less than one huge pornography industry, you are greatly mistaken. Vulgarity has replaced every aspect of clean entertainment that all one can see anymore is the manifestation of a very perverse nation, with a twisted reality, who has lost her entire set of morals and values.

It’s pathetic to see a nation of hungry animals just waiting for that “child actor” to be taken into the abyss of “sex sells”. If sex sells, what is it selling but more sex and all you have left is sex, then there is nothing left to sell. You are left only to the realization, you have already sold your own souls and all that “free love” was not so free.

Such is the world in which we live, but not where we are to stay.

Our Lord is looking for you…

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A Time For Preparing


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Today is supply day at my children’s school. As parents prepare for the new school year, I can’t help but see this coming year as a great preparation time. After our Lord, over my lifetime as prepared me to understand His love for us, in Holy Communion, I am now ready to teach my children how to prepare to receive Him in the Holy Eucharist. We spend so much time preparing our children for the world and often overlook our Lord in that preparation. We can’t continue on this lost path where soccer and cheerleading end up being more important than life.

My little daughter Violet is ready for third grade. She will be receiving our Lord for the first time next spring. I will be spending this time, not only in more of a family way with my first vocation, as mother, but much deeper in preparing my daughter to understand that to live life to the fullest, has to be done completely immersed in the love of our Lord. I hope all parents understand that the love our Lord has for them, is just the same for the children He gives to us and without proper teaching for us, living the faith, the love He extends to us, falls on deaf ears, thus leaving hearts to the elements of the world, to turn to stone.

I pray today, and always, that parents all over the world understand that receiving children in the name of our Lord, means following through with teaching them the importance of the faith me have. First Holy Communion is the wedding of your child’s soul, to that of our Lord’s. It’s not about the dress or the clothing. It’s not about the party after. It’s about a life long commitment between the soul crate in the image of God and Him, to love one another as He loves us. I know in my heart, parents and children alike, need to go “Back to School” and learn to love our Lord above all things…

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Take Heart


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For all who are worried about what is taking place in the world, The persecution of Catholics and Coptic’s in Egypt and everywhere in this world. Take comfort. They can loot the churches, burn them down, destroy all “visible” aspects of the Christian and Catholic faith they want in Egypt and elsewhere. NO ONE can destroy the faith in the Heart of every one of God’s faithful. PERIOD! The “Body” is the Temple of our Lord and He shall prevail.

“Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. John 4:23”

Physical man-made buildings come & go, SOULS go on FOREVER~! Christ Jesus, is our King and He is alive and well in our hearts, no matter what they do to the “buildings” we worship Him in.

I offer you to look at Servant of God, Cardinal Van Thuan.

“After South Vietnam was conquered by the North Vietnamese communists in 1975, Archbishop Thuan – who had just been appointed Coadjutor Archbishop of Saigon – like hundreds of thousands of his countrymen, was imprisoned. He served a total of 13 years in prison, for nine years of which he was in solitary confinement at Vinh Phu prison in Hanoi, former capital of North Vietnam. The pope said the man celebrated Mass every day in prison, “with three drops of wine and a drop of water in his hand. This was his altar. This was his cathedral.”

“During thirteen years in jail, in a situation of seemingly utter hopelessness, the fact that he could listen and speak to God became for him an increasing power of hope, which enabled him, after his release, to become for people all over the world a witness to hope—to that great hope which does not wane even in the nights of solitude.” 2007 encyclical, Spe Salvi, Benedict XVI referred to Thuận’s Prayers of Hope

Servant of God, Cardinal Van Thuan, pray for us

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

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The Carcinogen Of Secularism


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This is what happens when society continues to vote for the lesser of two evils.

In the beginning, the “evil” doesn’t “seem” so bad, (It doesn’t affect me) but over time, it grows into something so large, it tramples everything good in its path that stands in the way of it ruling every life that it has been growing in. Abortion: Made legal in 1973 in the USA, but laws protecting the faithful from government paying for them was enacted. (Band Aid) Society KNEW it was wrong but did it anyway.

This is the war between the Culture of Life and the Culture of Death. Truth verses lies. It’s very obvious to see the destructive path this man, Obama, (Although it could be anyone who subscribes to this way of thinking) and the Culture of Death are leading our nation into, from the same destructive path she has been on for many years. It’s just now, under his control, the evil has become big enough to see without a microscope.

Secularism is the cancerous “tumor” in society and it is always life threatening. The culture of death starts like a single cell of cancer, that without “cutting it out” but rather placing a band-aid over it, enters the lymphatic system of society and metastasize into many areas, until it makes us all physically sick. Leading only to death. We know, over time, the Band-Aid always falls off.

The cure can only be found in the Truth. God help us.

This post is not just about abortion, but ALL the aspects of the Culture of Death. We, the Catholic Church, the faithful who believe, ARE the cure! Alone against society, the cure has been non responsive, collected together, the monster of the culture of death in which we live can and WILL be defeated. Like radiation attacking a tumor, we need to work together. Beginning in each and every home. Radiating out into the society in which we live.

“Let nothing disturb you” does not mean don’t act on anything. It means act on what our Lord is telling you to act on, in the face of every condemnation that may come as He is with you. When a soul reaches out to you, reach back out to them. Don’t feel a need to stay in your comfort zone to protect YOUR faith but reach out to those in need to BRING them the consolation our Lord has given to you, least you become to “rich” to move in any direction, including closer to Him for the benefit of the entire Church and all society at death’s door, giving all the glory to God.

“We must never grow accustomed to evil!” – Pope Francis

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Cohabitation And Holy Communion


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Before the full fire of my conversion took hold of me, it was December of 2008. At Holy Mass, just before going up to receive our Lord, just after praying, “Lord I am not worthy to receive you, but only say the word and I shall be healed, I heard in my heart, very distinctly “DO NOT receive me.” So I didn’t. I cried. Tears ran down my cheeks.

I understood that moment that I needed to take care of my sin, repent and do what is right and just. I shook at the thought of telling my, the man who I called my husband for three years. Would he understand? Would he leave me? I brought this up to my confessor who reassured me, DO NOT receive our Lord because I had been married outside of the Church, after divorcing my first husband. Thus the annulment process began and the 4 years of deep repentance, and CHASTITY (my current husband and I living as brother & sister) began.

I was able to receive our Lord after a time of not having relations with my, the man I called my husband and grew through our Lords grace, to understand it truly IS Him in the Eucharist, after many years “thinking” maybe it was Him. In that time, I fell in love with our Lord.

During the time I could not receive, I attended Holy Mass daily anyway, and when it came time to receive Him, it was as if I was chained to the pillar, receiving my lashes for my sin against Him. It was very painful and He shared this with me, so I would grow closer to Him.

It’s VERY important NOT to be in a state of Mortal sin when receiving Him. Straight couples, or homosexual. We are ALL called to chastity and when we refuse to use that grace of His, we are refusing Him. When you refuse Him in “Spirit”, please don’t receive Him in the flesh.

I am posting this for all souls today who are divorced and remarried, who are cohabiting before marriage, engaging in sexual relations before marriage and for all homosexual relations as to when NOT to receive our Lord in Holy Communion. To receive our Lord in a state of Mortal Sin is receiving death.

Happy the man watching daily at my gates, waiting at my doorposts; For he who finds me finds life, and wins favor from the LORD; But he who misses me harms himself; all who hate me love death.” Proverbs 8 34-36  

EDIT TO ADD: 4/2/18

Pope at Audience: ‘Mass makes us a living Eucharist’

After the breaking of the bread, Pope Francis said, the priest invites the faithful to acknowledge that the Lamb of God takes away the sins of the world.

“This invitation,” he said, “calls us to taste intimate union with God, who is the source of joy and holiness.” It also pushes us to examine our conscience in the light of faith, he said.

He said that acknowledging our sins helps us accept the “medicine” of the Blood of Christ, which unites us ever closer to him, according to St. Ambrose.

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Very Harsh Years


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I just returned from assessing my garden. Over the years I have had an abundance of fruit from my trees. At various times of the year, it has come in handy to place in my children’s lunches and when money had been very tight for eating wonderful snacks through a week of not spending a dime because, I had not one to spend. We were comforted by God with the fruit that was so needed through harsh times. All provided by, grown by and nurtured by, our Lord.

This season, it’s very different. My fig tree is bursting with figs. More this year then any other. Right now they are ripe for picking. But my orange tree that is usually bending over, bending branches full of oranges, has only one this year. Not one tangerine. Not one pomegranate. Not one single lime and after five years, not a single bunch of grapes on the vine. It is a very harsh year for fruit in my garden.

With that being said, our Lord truly provides and I thank Him not only for this harsh year, but for all of them. They are a blessing used to pull us closer to Him and to make us aware that He provides for all our needs. In more ways than we can ever imagine.

What is very different this year, for the first time in over eight years, I was offered a job, and have decided to take it. It will end my active duty within the Legion of Mary but being that it is only a part-time job, I can continue to attend Holy Mass daily, drop my children off at school and still be able to pick them up when they get out. Still allowing me to be a full-time practicing Catholic. The pay offered, was much higher than I had expected and the company itself, is for a very well-known Church Supply company. Only our Lord can arrange this life He has given to me in such a wonderful way. In all this company supply’s, I can see daily, and still be around the very beauty of the faith. I look at the supply’s of this company as the “seeds” needed to be planted in order that the harvest of souls can be fed in a way that gives glory to our Lord. Much of my life has been spent in disbelief, in one way or another. Be it my own idea of who God is, or in the twisted way of thinking I had not been good enough to please Him, to live the faith, or to trust in Him. Our Lord has proved me wrong time and time again, manifesting Himself so greatly in my life over the past fifteen years, leavening no room for doubt, He truly loves me and His mercy endures forever. I have sought Him in all and have found Him in all.

I start this new job on September third, the feast day of St. Gregory the Great.

“Dearly beloved, what do you see in these events? Do you really believe that it was by chance that this chosen disciple was absent, then came and heard, heard and doubted, doubted and touched, touched and believed? It was not by chance but in God’s providence. In a marvelous way God’s mercy arranged that the disbelieving disciple, in touching the wounds of his master’s body, should heal our wounds of disbelief. The disbelief of Thomas has done more for our faith than the faith of the other disciples. As he touches Christ and is won over to belief, every doubt is cast aside and our faith is strengthened. So the disciple who doubted, then felt Christ’s wounds, becomes a witness to the reality of the resurrection.” (Pope St. Gregory the Great, Doctor of the Church)

I have spent many years away from “home”, working for others, in love, through love and charity. There is no doubt our Lord is telling me it is time to work for those closest to me. The closer you become to Christ, the more painful it becomes. All the doors He held open for you, need closing, so only one remains. That door leads to the Chamber of our Lord. I submit to His will.

May the Legion of Mary, Mystical Rose be more prosperous, with my departure. Mama Mary has shown me so much and taught me what sacrifice is, mercy is, and patience. Not only teaching me what they truly were, but how to put them into use. My departure is only physical. My heart and soul will continue to carry the Legion and her message, in all that I encounter and apply it all again, in love.

If any one of you should be asked if he loved God, he would answer with entire confidence and complete conviction, ‘I do.’ But you heard at the beginning of the reading what Truth said: ‘If anyone loves me, he will keep my word.’ The proof of love is its manifestation in deeds (1 Jn 4:16). This is why John says in his Letter: ‘He who says, ‘I love God,’ and does not observe his commandments is a liar’ (1 Jn 2:4). Our love is true if we keep our self-will in check according to his commandments. One who is still wandering here and there through his unlawful desires does not really love God, because he is opposing him in his self-will.

‘And my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him.’ Consider, dearly beloved, how great this solemnity is that commemorates the coming of God as a guest in our hearts. If some rich and powerful friend were to enter your home, you would quickly clean the entire house for fear something there might offend your friend’s eyes when he entered. Let any one then who is preparing his inner house for God cleanse away the dirt of his evil deeds.

You see what Truth tells us: ‘We will come and make our home with him.’ He does indeed enter the hearts of some but does not make his home there, because through repentance they acquire respect for God, but during a time of temptation they forget that they have repented and so return to committing sins as if they had never wept over them at all. The Lord comes into the heart and makes his home in one who truly loves God and observes his commandments, since the love of his divine nature so penetrates him that he does not turn away from it during times of temptation. That person loves truly whose heart does not consent to be overcome by wicked pleasures. The more pleasure a person finds in lower things the greater is his separation from heavenly love.

‘One who does not love me does not keep my words.’ Dearly beloved, enter into yourselves and inquire if you truly love God. But let not one believe the answer his heart gives in his own case apart from the testimony of his works. Let him examine his words, his thoughts and his life concerning the love of his Creator. God’s love is never idle. Where it exists, it does great things; if it refuses to work, it is not love. – an excerpt from the book Gregory the Great: Forty Gospel Homilies

Money in my life has always been a distraction away from all that God has provided for us. I have never had an attachment to it, but rather see it for what it is. Knowing this more deeply now before taking on my new job, truly is a blessing in more ways then I could ever imagine. God provides for all our needs. Including filling us with understanding on how to use money and how not to let it use us.

Thank you Lord for all you have done to me, in me, for us and all who love you.

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