Monthly Archives: January 2017

The Misunderstood Command: GO OUT

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Pope Francis to the laity: Go out and evangelize, or buy mothballs

This blog, has been an ongoing conversion story of what our Lord has done for me. What about you? Jesus is asking you: Will you go out with Me?

Share YOUR story   We know what our Lords canonized Saints have done and what our Lord has done to them, now, what about the Saints we do not know about? That is you and I  “Go Out” and share what He has done. Do not get discouraged when you share your story. Do not become filled with regret when you share.  Be sure of one thing. Even if no one accepts it, our Lord does as He did it to you. Peace

“do not be afraid, for I am with you; do not be alarmed, for I am your God. I give you strength, truly I help you, truly I hold you firm with my saving right hand.”

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Why We March – Day 9 #iStand4Life

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Intercession

For God’s peace to fill the hearts of all who travel upon the path of adoption.

For those who have had to give up a child.

Although your heart breaks, as mine does as well, I ponder our Holy Mother and how she had to give up her Child, our Lord so we all may live, being driven by a true act of Love, and I join that pain with hers at the foot of His Cross.

May our Lord heal the bonds of Love that have been severed in this life. May our Lord bring His peace to us all and may we all be united again in our Lord Jesus Christ, for all time and eternity, with all His children, praising Him, as we trust in His Divine Providence.  Amen.

 

Act of Faith

O my God, I firmly believe
that you are one God in three divine Persons,
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
I believe that your divine Son became man
and died for our sins and that he will come
to judge the living and the dead.
I believe these and all the truths
which the Holy Catholic Church teaches
because you have revealed them
who are eternal truth and wisdom,
who can neither deceive nor be deceived.
In this faith I intend to live and die.
Amen.

Act of Hope

O Lord God,
I hope by your grace for the pardon
of all my sins
and after life here to gain eternal happiness
because you have promised it
who are infinitely powerful, faithful, kind,
and merciful.
In this hope I intend to live and die.
Amen.

Act of Love

O Lord God, I love you above all things
and I love my neighbor for your sake
because you are the highest, infinite and perfect
good, worthy of all my love.
In this love I intend to live and die.
Amen.

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Why We March – Day 8 #iStand4Life

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Intercession

For an end to the use of the death penalty in our country.

JUSTICE! I want JUSTICE! Perfect justice is a conversion of heart..

Beloved, do not look for revenge but leave room for the wrath; for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” – Romans 12:19

When we look to our Lord, mercy and justice go hand and hand. What is more beautiful justice, to end another life or to convert the heart of that soul who’s been blinded by their own injustice to others? To see ones sin and turn from it to do good and not sin, is justice served. By taking away life, justice is there by taken away in the means that the soul is unable to make amends for that injustice committed.

How often to we look at others who have hurt us and say from our hearts,  “if you could only see how you are hurting.”. By taking away a life, we are not allowing that person to see, in their time, given to them by God, but rather taking justice into our own hands.Taking away the gift of repentance. Taking into our own hands and exercising the Sovereignty of God in a way that is contrary to God.

“Do I find pleasure in the death of the wicked—oracle of the Lord GOD? Do I not rejoice when they turn from their evil way and live? And if the just turn from justice and do evil, like all the abominations the wicked do, can they do this evil and still live? None of the justice they did shall be remembered, because they acted treacherously and committed these sins; because of this, they shall die”  Ezekiel 18:23-24

Please read my story: The Power of Forgiveness

 

 

 

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Why We March – Day 7 #iStand4Life

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Intercession

May those who long for a child of their own be filled with trust in God’s loving plan.

St. Joseph, Foster Father of our Lord, Jesus Christ, please intercede for couples struggling with the decision to adopt or become Foster Parents to children in need of family, in need of hope, in need of love and help to bring the two together in the love of our Lord. Amen

adoption“For you did not receive a spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you received a spirit of adoption, through which we cry, “Abba,* Father!” Since we have been adopted, how then can we be afraid of adoption?

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“Whatever God wants” – St. Gianna Beretta Molla

“0 Jesus, I promise You to submit myself to all that You permit to happen to me, make me only know Your Will”. – St. Gianna Beretta Molla

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If you have not heard of St. Gianna Beretta Molla, please read her story.

 

 

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Why We March – Day 6 #IStand4Life

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Intercession: May those affected by pornography experience the Lord’s mercy and healing.

‘Let your modesty be known to all men. The Lord is nigh.’ –
Philippians 4:5

‘I urge you, therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, your spiritual worship. Do not conform yourselves to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect.’ – Romans 12:1-2

God desires from you the least degree of purity of conscience more than all the works you can perform.
–St. John of the Cross

‘What is it all for? If they only knew what eternity is.’ – Bl. Jacinta Marto of Fatima, age 9, on seeing immodest and fashionably dressed women
‘How beautiful then is modesty and what a gem among virtues it is.’ – St. Bernard of Clairvaux, Doctor of the Church

Catholic Answers chastity speaker Matt Fradd discusses pornography addiction and how to overcome it.

 

“Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin!” (Psalm 51:2, RSVCE)

Life Matters: Pornography And Our Call To Love

Day 6 Reflection and prayers HERE

 

 

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January 26, 2017 · 9:13 pm

Why We March – Day 5 #IStand4Life

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Intercession: For an end to domestic violence

As I started to ponder this reflection this morning, I though of how our Lord was spat on, punched, hit with a rod, called names, thrown down, kicked and crowned with thorns. How He was mocked and belittled by the soldiers and thought of the many woman and men today, who are treated in such a way today by those who feel they are superior. The reflection of what fueled the heart of St.Mother Teresa comes to mind, in the words “You did it to me”.  He is with you now, as He has gone before you in this suffering.

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(Learn how to pray the Angelus prayer and consider saying it every day— on awakening, at noon, or at 6 p.m. (or all three times)

The Angel of the Lord declared to Mary:
And she conceived of the Holy Spirit. 

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of
our death. Amen. 

Behold the handmaid of the Lord: Be it done unto me according to Thy word. 

Hail Mary . . . 

And the Word was made Flesh: And dwelt among us. 

Hail Mary . . . 


Pray for us, O Holy Mother of God, that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.

Let us pray: 

Pour forth, we beseech Thee, O Lord, Thy grace into our hearts; that we, to whom the incarnation of Christ, Thy Son, was made known by the message of an angel, may by His Passion and Cross be brought to the glory of His Resurrection, through the same Christ Our Lord.

Amen. 

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Why We March – Day 4 #IStand4Life

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On March 21 of last year, I wrote a post about a the day my dad died, and what has taken place in the years that followed. I have not had much communication with family for many years, outside of  social media and a visit from time to time. One sister finally met my youngest daughter who is now ten, this past fall. The reason I post this, is that for most of my life, I always felt insignificant to anyone. Like garbage you could just toss away and no one would notice. Not so anymore. Although I may be insignificant and unnoticed by the entire world, I know I am not to our Lord nor is any human being.. As my conversion of heart continues, embracing my nothingness in this world and His vastness is something I could have never dreamed of before, as a key to seeing how precious every life is in the eyes of our Lord.

I share this today because of the call to go “One Step Further”. I was misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder not long after my father had entered into eternal life, which, after being re diagnosed a few years later, was actually serious grief issues after a series of extreme life changing incidents, emotionally abusive relationship, losing a job, my mother having lung cancer, losing my home, having to send my oldest daughter to live with a sister, surviving a brutal rape,  I tried to take my own life.  From that moment of waking up in the ICU, knowing our Lord had given me a second chance, I began to walk with Him and not away from Him any longer. Keeping my eyes on Him and focused on him.   My dad and his timely death, played big part, which brought me to today, to see the beautiful significance of the connection of our Lord between us all. I can say, very easily,  life is worth living, no matter how hard it may be, no matter how much suffering there may be, no matter how much one may be lacking in material possessions, each and ever human life, is worth living and only our Lord can take that life from us, as He gives us life.

 One Step Further:
Proponents of doctor-assisted suicide try to draw a sharp distinction between those with a mental illness who want to end their lives and those with a terminal illness who express the same wish. “Every Suicide is Tragic” explores the consequences of this false distinction. (supplemental information and short videos)

I have written quite often about my conversion concerning the day my dad entered into eternal life. It was September 23, 1996, the feast of St. Padre Pio and my dad had been the glue that held my family, brothers and sisters and myself together. Since his death, many have left the Catholic faith and went off doing what ever. In all honestly, since I moved out to California I had lost contact with most of them and focused on what I had asked in that prayer.

The night my dad died, as he lay dying, I prayed that he would talk to our Lord and get me back home to Him. Here we are, 2016 and after extensive repenting and getting back in communion, I will be making my first Profession in the Third Order Of Carmel, TOC on October 1.

This morning at Holy Mass, during the Homily, my priest had told us that the main objective of our duties this Holy Week, was New Evangelization to those within our own Family’s who had left the faith. I sat with my head hung low as I knew this job that had just been presented to me, would be extremely difficult, as my brothers and sisters in my own family, along with nieces and nephews and even my own oldest daughter, have left the faith. Along with cousins, and others. Outside of an older sister of mine, the entire family stopped believing in Him and the faith we all grew up into and went their own ways. It has been extremely painful for me in many ways as I have been viewed by them as the crazy one. One never to be listened to. From the onset of my Conversion of Heart, I can not stop listening to our Lord, nor will I. I left them all and continued to cling to our Lord and the only Truth left in this world. And here we are.

This morning after Holy Mass, I took our Lord in the Eucharist to a few souls in the Nursing Home and had a conversation with an elderly friend of mine named Lilly, who is also a professed member of my Carmelite family.

We spoke about the topic of New Evangelization to family, and I had expressed to her that the only way anyone would ever listen to me, in my own family or home, was if I were dead. After leaving her, I prayed and realized I am dead to them. The person they knew no longer exists and they still won’t listen.

I arrived at home and the mail man had come. I noticed two packages and brought them in without even looking to see who they were addressed for. I assumed they were for my daughter and husband. As I was placing them on the table, I noticed my name on one of them. The return address was my sister whom I don’t talk to much anymore. I opened the package and cried when I seen what it was. Here in a package addressed to me was a message never intended for me, but for all my brothers and sisters who have left the faith. Directly from my dad.

Inside the box I found my dad’s First Holy Communion Certificate dated May 21, 1936 along with his personal prayer book. I read the letter attached from my sister which stated, she had found these in an envelop with my dad’s personal items, marked specifically, “Important Papers”. I knew just how important they are but unfortunately, my sister didn’t understand who they were meant for. This package was a direct message from my dad to my brothers and sisters who had left the faith. The “Important Paper” with your name on it. Remember YOUR Baptism. Remember YOUR First Holy Communion. Remember YOUR Confirmation. Remember OUR Lord. Remember OUR First Love. Return to Him. There is nothing else on the face of the earth more important than our faith. I also knew my dad needed me share this with them. They refuse to listen to me, I pray they listen to him. I pray they return to our Lord also. I pray all my Catholic Family return back home to Him, with their entire heart, mind, soul and strength. There is no greater Love than His for you. Repent. The door is open. Homecoming is just one confession away. I love you and I pray for all my brothers and sisters. St. Constantine the Great, pray for us.

All praise, glory and honor to our Lord, Jesus Christ. Amen.

EDIT TO ADD: After I had written this today, a tweet came across from the USCCB that just filled me with our Lord’s love.

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From tonight’s Divine Office: Evening Prayer

“Listen, O daughter, give ear to my words:
forget your own people and your father’s house.
So will the king desire your beauty:
He is your lord, pay homage to him.”

9DaysForLife reflection HERE 

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Why We March – Day 3 #IStand4Life

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Everyone seems to want perfection in an imperfect society. The perfect life, the perfect house, the perfect job, the perfect body, the perfect spouse, the perfect society, the perfect “selfie”..  Perfection to the point today, that many are committing murder for it. Perfection to the point we miss out on loving one another because we are to busy loving ourselves.

We, every one of us, are broken in one way or another. We long for youth when we become old, we long for older age when we are young, we long for the “things” that never truly bring us joy. What about love? We say we long for love but is that truly love we long for or a form of something else masked as what we think love is?

I had an idea of what love was for most of my life and it was so wrong. It was a superficial love that was born from a romantic idea that always hid the reality of the suffering endured to love another, truly. The ability to find another to love, exactly as I had sought to be loved, was what lead me to the Cross of our Lord.  How we all suffer in so many different ways. So many ways that we do not join to His suffering for us. Its letting go of our desires for superficial perfection in others and looking deep into our own imperfections, seeing them in one another and looking at our Lord and seeing what perfection truly is. What Love truly is. Sacrifice of self for the other.

In this way of life, in love, there is no greater joy. There is no deeper love than to love as deep as to see every soul created in the image of God, no matter the imperfections, no matter the suffering, no matter the amount of love not received back. It is a giving love that never ends, which sees each and every soul on earth, as loved by One much greater than self can love, which has been given the gift of life. The Suffering Love for love.

Today’s #9daysforlife prayer was for all people to embrace the truth that that all lives are worth living.

Today’s Reflection 

 

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Executive Order To Defund International Planned Parenthood – Signed

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President Donald Trump today signed an executive order to defund International Planned Parenthood. Via LifeNews.com

Praise be to our Lord, Jesus Christ!

Today’s Antiphon from Divine Office: “Let us approach the Lord with praise and thanksgiving.”

Ant. 1 Lord, I have sought to do your will, through which you give me life.

From today’s Midday  Prayer:

Psalm 119

In you, O Lord, I take refuge;
let me never be put to shame.
In your justice rescue me, free me:
pay heed to me and save me.

Be a rock where I can take refuge,
a mighty stronghold to save me;
for you are my rock, my stronghold.
Free me from the hand of the wicked,
from the grip of the unjust, of the oppressor.

It is you, O Lord, who are my hope,
my trust, O Lord, since my youth.
On you I have leaned from my birth,
from my mother’s womb you have been my help.
My hope has always been in you.

My fate has filled many with awe
but you are my strong refuge.
My lips are filled with your praise,
with your glory all the day long.
Do not reject me now that I am old;
when my strength fails do not forsake me.

For my enemies are speaking about me;
those who watch me take counsel together.
They say: “God has forsaken him; follow him,
seize him; there is no one to save him.”
O God, do not stay far off:
my God, make haste to help me!

Let them be put to shame and destroyed,
all those who seek my life.
Let them be covered with shame and confusion,
all those who seek to harm me.

Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit:
— as it was in the beginning, is now, and will be for ever. Amen.

O God, turn back, and bring us to life.
— Then your people will rejoice in you.

 

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Why We March – Day 2 #IStand4Life

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Repent and believe in the Good News…

*Because January 22, 2017 falls on a Sunday, the annual “Day of Prayer for the Legal Protection of Unborn Children” is observed Monday, January 23 in 2017.

#9DaysforLife with @USCCB Day 2

How to pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet via EWTN

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Why We March – Day 1 #IStand4Life

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#9DaysforLife with @USCCB begins today as #WePray for the conversion of hearts and an end to abortion. #iStand4Life

Please participate in 9 Days for Life  HERE

Taken from The Gospel of Life.

77. This new law also gives spirit and shape to the commandment “You shall not kill”. For the Christian it involves an absolute imperative to respect, love and promote the life of every brother and sister, in accordance with the requirements of God’s bountiful love in Jesus Christ. “He laid down his life for us; and we ought to lay down our lives for the brethren” (1 Jn 3:16).

The commandment “You shall not kill”, even in its more positive aspects of respecting, loving and promoting human life, is binding on every individual human being. It resounds in the moral conscience of everyone as an irrepressible echo of the original covenant of God the Creator with mankind. It can be recognized by everyone through the light of reason and it can be observed thanks to the mysterious working of the Spirit who, blowing where he wills (cf. Jn 3:8), comes to and involves every person living in this world.

It is therefore a service of love which we are all committed to ensure to our neighbour, that his or her life may be always defended and promoted, especially when it is weak or threatened. It is not only a personal but a social concern which we must all foster: a concern to make unconditional respect for human life the foundation of a renewed society.

We are asked to love and honour the life of every man and woman and to work with perseverance and courage so that our time, marked by all too many signs of death, may at last witness the establishment of a new culture of life, the fruit of the culture of truth and of love.

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Rigid Scrupulosity

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If I believe, that in my worst state of life, when our Lord converted my heart, that He would never convert another in that way, that would not be humility speaking, but pride. Pride in the fact that our Lord would only do this for me, and not another. What good is my witness to the Truth for others, in sharing what He has done for me, if it was not for all? “Those who are well do not need a physician, but the sick do.”

Not everyone loves. What is love? If you love me, you will keep my commandments.

There is a point in being rigid, in which you notice every sin, and see this world and everyone in it, as a “forsaken place.” “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”. Without total joy but only touches of joy within. When that takes place, one must always look deeper within ones self, to see that point where we once were that once hardened sinner, and where our Lord converted our hearts also. KNOWING without a doubt, He loves and seeks to convert the hearts of all, as He has ours. Remember where you came from.

I have often thought of why I was so hard on myself. Why I expected so much of myself (in the faith) and never let my self off the hook, so to speak. But in contrast, I give everyone a pass and after suggesting to others, and when they refused the suggestion, loved them anyway. Praying one day our Lord would open their hearts. It goes with we can only inform, not convert. You can lead but you can not make them drink. The best way to evangelize is to live the faith and be the example. You can’t expect others to become the example of what you yourself are not living. You can not force another soul to love our Lord. Love is part of the relationship with Him, that the soul grows to do. By doing this, growing to love Him, we learn through our own faults and His Truth, what Love is in the first place, and THEN make a “Conscious Effort” because we all have “free will”, to adhere to obedience to Him.

Its one thing to be extremely rigid with yourself. Its quite another to be rigid with others.

the pride of believing in one’s righteousness” – Rigid = Scrupulosity: Scrupulosity: rigid, obsessive adherence to rules, codes of ethics, or guidelines.

I do not believe for a second Pope Francis is speaking about those who are proper in doctrine and liturgy. Rather, rigid in the sence of  demanding that others bring themselves up to your level, (Seeing ones self in a higher state or position) rather than accepting we are all on the same level of Love that our Lord has for us. Luke 14: 7-14 When this takes place, everything we feel is not orthodox or practical becomes the law we adhere to, and not our Lord. Its a misplaced attachment to things we all fail at from time to time and in all honestly, we know we do, and we fix it the next time. Others who are suffering from this, will be quick to condemn, and point it out, over & over & over, (Remember that one time in band camp?”) no matter how we have fixed this issue or how much time has passed.

Yes, I am finally able to comment re: Pope: ‘God calls us to be merciful and good, not rigid’

 

 

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Wait… What?

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That moment you catch it. Something in scripture you never noticed before. Scripture you have heard a thousand times, and it just hits you.

Pondering…

“I saw the Spirit come down like a dove from heaven
and remain upon him.
I did not know him,
but the one who sent me to baptize with water told me,
‘On whomever you see the Spirit come down and remain,
he is the one who will baptize with the Holy Spirit.”

“But the one who sent me to baptize with water told me”

Full Gospel from today:

John the Baptist saw Jesus coming toward him and said,
“Behold, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world.
He is the one of whom I said,
‘A man is coming after me who ranks ahead of me
because he existed before me.’
I did not know him,
but the reason why I came baptizing with water
was that he might be made known to Israel.”
John testified further, saying,
“I saw the Spirit come down like a dove from heaven
and remain upon him.
I did not know him,
but the one who sent me to baptize with water told me,
‘On whomever you see the Spirit come down and remain,
he is the one who will baptize with the Holy Spirit.’
Now I have seen and testified that he is the Son of God.”

 

 

 

 

 

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The Magi

img_7238-image-extracted-small1-1024x643“Three wise men, three gifts, three offices (prophet, priest and king), three parts of the human soul (intellect, heart and will) because the Inventor and Designer of man is three. The medieval mind saw Trinitarian echoes everywhere, for a very good reason: Everything is made by the Trinity, and what is made must reflect its Maker.” – Dr. Peter Kreeft

Lord, every nation on earth will adore you.

 

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2017 – The Octave Day of Christmas

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Who better, than our Holy Mother, to become like, this year.

May your goals and resolutions be in the coming year, and all years to come,  to become Saints of our Lord Jesus Christ.

May Peace find you, may Joy embrace you and may Hope drive you to seek Him.

Happy New Year

 

 

 

 

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