Monthly Archives: August 2018

The Fruit Of Righteous Anger

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A thing about broken trust & silence – The entire thing with broken trust, is that when the trust is broken, it doesn’t matter what one says, but rather what one does (actions) to fix the trust. When trust is broken, do we believe what we are hearing from the one who has broken the trust? Or, do we respond better over time with the actions they have taken? We can demand an answer, BUT if the answer is silence? Will we be satisfied? Or do we demand an answer that WE want to hear?

For John came neither eating nor drinking, and they say, ‘He has a demon!’ – “The Son of Man came eating and drinking, and they say, ‘Here is a glutton and a drunkard, a friend of tax collectors and sinners.’ But wisdom is proved right by her deeds.” Matt 11:18-19

Because often times, we don’t like to hear things that may hurt and react in ways that are NOT the fruits of righteous anger.

What is the fruit of righteous anger?

 

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Trusting The Spouse Of Our Souls

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When trust is broken, as a wife, I come to understand that the LORD is in this Marriage Trinity, and it is He who is the Spouse of our souls, the Bridegroom who NEVER breaks the trust. Who does not stray. As my husband may through temptation, I adhere to the Lord even when my husband may stray, praying for his repentance! Praying for his return.

Such as it is the same, for the shepherds who stray.

I ponder Psalms, chapter 116

I kept faith, even when I said,

“I am greatly afflicted!”

I said in my alarm,

“All men are liars!”

How can I repay the LORD

for all the great good done for me?

I will raise the cup of salvation

and call on the name of the LORD.

I will pay my vows to the LORD

in the presence of all his people.

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Solitude And Trust

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Make straight the way of the Lord‘” (John 1:23)

When we think of solitude, we often have fear of some desolate confinement as in a prison, or state of bleak and dismal emptiness. When we are separated from our Lord, it is, but when we are not, and trust in Him, it becomes a wonder filled place of extreme joy. The interior of the soul can be a beat up dirty place, but our Lord is there to help you clean it up, and decorate your life with all that good.

The very meaning of  blessed “solitude” is that of peace. “O blessed solitude,” exclaims St. Jerome, “in which God with loving condescension deals familiarly with chosen souls!” It is in this place, the soul leans on humility and not pride, coming to grips with that which is not right and just, is cast out, if we respond as our Holy Mother, and her humility, “let it be done to me according to your word”. It is the place which we learn as St. John the Baptist, how to let the me, step aside and allow Him to complete. ‘He must increase, but I must decrease.”

Solitude is a place for which I have come to enjoy, in which all the excitement within my soul, good and bad, becomes still, (Psalm 46:10) and places a firm Trust, in our Lord. Heeding to His Way, Life and Truth, casting aside what may be my own diversions and disorders. It is the heart of pure contemplation in which the pure heart, most certainly sees her Lord.

When trust is broken among family, friends, co-workers, religious leaders, presidents, children and even spouses, we can take courage in knowing that when we place our trust FIRMLY in our Lord, it is only He who has never broken the trust. We find Him always where we left Him. Waiting for us.

“I don’t trust you” has become a chant in every day life to which I can say in love, Good! Don’t trust me. Look to our Lord and remember His Word, “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You trust in God, trust also in me”. 

`Come away with me. Let us go alone to a quiet place and rest for a while.’ “Our Hearts are Restless Until They Rest in You” From the Confessions Saint Augustine of Hippo. “Pray without ceasing.”

In the midst of chaos and troubles, He is there to quiet the storm within the soul.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight” – Proverbs 3:5-6

In all the times we find ourselves “feeling” so alone and no one is there to help. Call on our Lord, He is with you always.

 

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A Pinch Of Salt

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“You are the salt of the earth. But if salt loses its taste, with what can it be seasoned? It is no longer good for anything but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.” Matthew 12:42

I ponder the salt of Wisdom which preserves the richness of our faith.

 St. Augustine (Confessions I.11)

17. Even as a boy I had heard of eternal life promised to us through the humility of the Lord our God condescending to our pride, and I was signed with the sign of the cross, and was seasoned with His salt even from the womb of my mother, who greatly trusted in You. You saw, O Lord, how at one time, while yet a boy, being suddenly seized with pains in the stomach, and being at the point of death — You saw, O my God, for even then You were my keeper, with what emotion of mind and with what faith I solicited from the piety of my mother, and of Your Church, the mother of us all, the baptism of Your Christ, my Lord and my God. On which, the mother of my flesh being much troubled — since she, with a heart pure in Your faith, travailed in birth Galatians 4:19 more lovingly for my eternal salvation — would, had I not quickly recovered, have without delay provided for my initiation and washing by Your life-giving sacraments, confessing You, O Lord Jesus, for the remission of sins. So my cleansing was deferred, as if I must needs, should I live, be further polluted; because, indeed, the guilt contracted by sin would, after baptism, be greater and more perilous. Thus I at that time believed with my mother and the whole house, except my father; yet he did not overcome the influence of my mother’s piety in me so as to prevent my believing in Christ, as he had not yet believed in Him. For she was desirous that You, O my God, should be my Father rather than he; and in this You aided her to overcome her husband, to whom, though the better of the two, she yielded obedience, because in this she yielded obedience to You, who so commands.

18. I beseech You, my God, I would gladly know, if it be Your will, to what end my baptism was then deferred? Was it for my good that the reins were slackened, as it were, upon me for me to sin? Or were they not slackened? If not, whence comes it that it is still dinned into our ears on all sides, Let him alone, let him act as he likes, for he is not yet baptized? But as regards bodily health, no one exclaims, Let him be more seriously wounded, for he is not yet cured! How much better, then, had it been for me to have been cured at once; and then, by my own and my friends’ diligence, my soul’s restored health had been kept safe in Your keeping, who gave it! Better, in truth. But how numerous and great waves of temptation appeared to hang over me after my childhood! These were foreseen by my mother; and she preferred that the unformed clay should be exposed to them rather than the image itself.

Preserving in prayer

A Prayer for the Preservation of Faith – St. Clement Hofbauer

O my Redeemer,
will that dreadful time ever come,
when but few Christians shall be left
who are inspired by the spirit of faith,
that time when Thine anger shall be provoked
and Thy protection shall be take away from us?
Have our vices and our evil lives
irrevocably moved Thy justice to take vengeance,
perhaps this very day,
upon Thy children?
O Thou, the beginning and end of our faith,
we conjure Thee,
in the bitterness of our contrite and humbled hearts,
not to suffer the fair light of faith
to be extinguished in us.
Remember Thy mercies of old,
turn Thine eyes in mercy upon the vineyard
planted by Thine own right hand,
and watered by the sweat of the Apostles,
by the precious blood of countless Martyrs
and by the tears of so many sincere penitents,
and made fruitful by the prayers
of so many Confessors and innocent Virgins.
O divine Mediator,
look upon those zealous souls
who raise their hearts to Thee
and pray ceaselessly
for the maintenance of that most precious gift of Thine,
the true faith.
We beseech Thee,
O God of justice,
to hold back the decree of our rejection,
and to turn away Thine eyes from our vices
and regard instead the adorable Blood
shed upon the Cross,
which purchased our salvation
and daily intercedes for us upon our altars.
Ah, keep us safe in the true Catholic and Roman faith.
Let sickness afflict us,
vexations waste us,
misfortunes overwhelm us!
But preserve in us Thy holy faith;
for if we are rich with this precious gift,
we shall gladly endure every sorrow,
and nothing shall ever be able to change our happiness.
On the other hand,
without this great treasure of faith,
our unhappiness would be unspeakable and without limit!
O good Jesus, author of our faith,
preserve it untainted within us;
keep us safe in the bark of Peter,
faithful and obedient to his successor
and Thy Vicar here on earth,
that so the unity of Holy Church may be maintained,
holiness fostered,
the Holy See protected in freedom,
and the Church universal extended
to the benefit of souls.
O Jesus, author of our faith,
humble and convert the enemies of Thy Church;
grant true peace
and concord to all Christian kings and princes
and to all believers;
strengthen and preserve us in Thy holy service,
so that we may live in Thee and die in Thee.
O Jesus, author of our faith,
let me live for Thee and die for Thee.

Amen.

(St. Clement Mary Hofbauer, C.Ss.R.)

 

 

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O Beauty Ever Ancient, Ever New

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I couldn’t sleep. So I found a moment, spending time with one of my favorites, on his feast day. We were walking through how St. Augustine Florida got its name. And of course, our Lord brings me His peace, in teaching me that rivals and political fighting have always been things of worldly souls.

Don Pedro Menéndez de Avilés was sent by Spain (Catholic) to protect Spanish interests as international rivalries began to play out across the Atlantic. France (Huguenots) were to be expelled. In finding this, quite interesting by the way, it brought me comfort in the way in how when we look at our past, in Truth, the more things change, the more our Lord stays the same.

“In retrospect, the decision to name the town St. Augustine seems to have been a fitting one. During its history of over 450 years, the town, like its namesake, has experienced its share of struggles. St. Augustine has been burned and looted on several occasions by pirates, hostile natives and rival Europeans. It has changed hands from country to country four times(!). During the civil rights movement, it was the location of numerous protests and counter attacks.”

And yet, remained named St. Augustine. How many attacks have we, the Church faced over the 2000 year history? How many struggles? And yet, she remains because our Lord remains.

“Late have I loved you, O Beauty ever ancient, ever new, late have I loved you! You were within me, but I was outside, and it was there that I searched for you. In my unloveliness I plunged into the lovely things which you created. You were with me, but I was not with you. Created things kept me from you; yet if they had not been in you they would have not been at all. You called, you shouted, and you broke through my deafness. You flashed, you shone, and you dispelled my blindness. You breathed your fragrance on me; I drew in breath and now I pant for you. I have tasted you, now I hunger and thirst for more. You touched me, and I burned for your peace.”

St. Augustine of Hippo, pray for us

And now, rest.

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Cling To Our LORD

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In times as this, which we have seen and lived through as the Catholic Church, I have come to understand the meaning of total detachment from what we hold dear, and total attachment to our LORD and what He deems holy, right an just.

It is our Lords Church. His Bride. Unmoved by political, social or worldly ambitions, but only that which is Holy, Perfect and True.

Now is a great time to purge oneself of any worldly attachment, and cling to our Lord. Knowing that man will always fail, and our Lord has never failed, but has already won the race.

There has always been souls in the church, even in high positions, who were tempted to worldly ambitions. Its nothing new. Look at how St. Francis was called and what he was called to do. Look at St. Teresa Avila, how she was called by our LORD to reform the Carmelites. It happens. What needs to be done, is a serious cleaning of self, allowing our Lord to convert the hearts of us all. Great Saints are born in the Church amidst the purging of the darkness. The choice is there for all to make. Do I adhere to our Lord? Or do I adhere to myself? “But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.”

Be not afraid. Return to your FIRST Love, who is our LORD, repent and believe in the Gospel. Jesus Christ is LORD. Pray for the church. Pray for conversions and pray without ceasing, trusting in our Lord, completely.

Simon Peter answered him, “Master, to whom shall we go? 
You have the words of eternal life. 
We have come to believe
and are convinced that you are the Holy One of God.”

Psalms, chapter 146

Hallelujah!

Praise the LORD, my soul;

I will praise the LORD all my life,

sing praise to my God while I live.

I

Put no trust in princes,

in children of Adam powerless to save.

Who breathing his last, returns to the earth;

that day all his planning comes to nothing.

II

Blessed the one whose help is the God of Jacob,

whose hope is in the LORD, his God,

The maker of heaven and earth,

the seas and all that is in them,

Who keeps faith forever,

secures justice for the oppressed,

who gives bread to the hungry.

The LORD sets prisoners free;

the LORD gives sight to the blind.

The LORD raises up those who are bowed down;

the LORD loves the righteous.

The LORD protects the resident alien,

comes to the aid of the orphan and the widow,

but thwarts the way of the wicked.

10 The LORD shall reign forever,

your God, Zion, through all generations!

Hallelujah!

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Politics Failed Again

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Napoleon on His Death Bed, by Horace Vernet, 1826

1821: Napoleon Bonaparte Dies after Confession and Communion

“During an argument with a Roman Catholic cardinal, Napoleon Bonaparte supposedly burst out: “Your eminence, are you not aware that I have the power to destroy the Catholic Church?” The cardinal responded ruefully: “Your majesty, we, the Catholic clergy, have done our best to destroy the church for the last 1,800 years. We have not succeeded, and neither will you.”

Napoleon Bonaparte failed miserably, as do all who place “politics” above and faith below. When I ponder “Then repay to Caesar what belongs to Caesar and to God what belongs to God.”, I know in my heart, everything belongs to God.

I bring you this…

Also, not enough to destroy our Lords Church, nor the Truth. REPENT.

Ex-Nuncio Accuses Pope Francis of Failing to Act on McCarrick’s Abuse
In a written testimony, Archbishop Carlo Maria Vigano claims Pope Francis withdrew sanctions against Archbishop Theodore McCarrick.

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But? What About?

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In hearing the cries from so many, about how hard it is to live the faith we are called to live, I have the answer.

But what about those who have been married and divorced and married again?

Trust in our Lord – Not just sweet words that sound good. Its a call to do it. Repent and believe in the Gospel. Not just sweet words. Its a call to do it.

But what about those with same sex attraction?

Trust in our Lord – Not just sweet words that sound good. Its a call to do it. Repent and believe in the Gospel. Not just sweet words. Its a call to do it.

But what about those who ________________________________.

Trust in our Lord – Not just sweet words that sound good. Its a call to do it. Repent and believe in the Gospel. Not just sweet words. Its a call to do it.

When we separate ourselves from our Lord, we must repent, turn away from what we have clung to in place of our Lord, and go back to what is right and just.

Love God FIRST. Place Him FIRST. Not just sweet words that sound good. Its a call to do it. Its a Command.

 

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LETTER OF HIS HOLINESS POPE FRANCIS TO THE PEOPLE OF GOD

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“But this kind [of demon] does not come out except by prayer and fasting” (Mt 17:21).

Today –

LETTER OF HIS HOLINESS POPE FRANCIS
TO THE PEOPLE OF GOD

“If one member suffers, all suffer together with it” (1 Cor 12:26). These words of Saint Paul forcefully echo in my heart as I acknowledge once more the suffering endured by many minors due to sexual abuse, the abuse of power and the abuse of conscience perpetrated by a significant number of clerics and consecrated persons. Crimes that inflict deep wounds of pain and powerlessness, primarily among the victims, but also in their family members and in the larger community of believers and nonbelievers alike. Looking back to the past, no effort to beg pardon and to seek to repair the harm done will ever be sufficient. Looking ahead to the future, no effort must be spared to create a culture able to prevent such situations from happening, but also to prevent the possibility of their being covered up and perpetuated. The pain of the victims and their families is also our pain, and so it is urgent that we once more reaffirm our commitment to ensure the protection of minors and of vulnerable adults.

Please read HERE 

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I’m Angry

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As I hear the reports from many Parishes via social media, in regards to how Priests have addressed the problem with Pittsburgh to their parishioners across the United States, I am saddened and angered to report that in my Parish, this Sunday, not a WORD in the Parish Bulletin, nor a peep about it in the Homily from our Pastor.

Not ONE WORD either about the Gospel today, which angers me more than anything. Just more pandering for money for the 2018 Diocesan Appeal, which was missed this past spring, because we needed to muster funds for a new roof.

The thing which bothers me most, is our FORMER Pastor, was defrocked for the same allegations which took place IN Pittsburgh, ALSO REASSIGNED to another Parish, BEFORE this came to light last week,  in 2014! He was sentenced this past May. As a practicing Catholic and a rape survivor, I am LIVID. This to shall pass, as my faith is placed deeper within our Lord. The reassigning of this “priest” was wrong.

From the “Announcement” on the San Diego Diocese website:

“This is a profound moment in the life of the Church.

Below is a letter I sent to every priest, deacon and staff member at the Diocese. I’m sharing this because it’s critically important and because you need to know that any words you hear are being backed-up by action.”

I say again: Not a peep in the Homily. Not a peep in the bulletin. Lord come quickly. I have said many times, that in order to heal, forgiveness is necessary, and from my heart, I truly forgive all. But that does not mean we can continue to let this go on like no big deal. This screams to our Lord for help. I will pray for all.  Please pray for me and my family.

The LORD is with me; I am not afraid

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To Forgive Is To Love

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As a Church, as a society, as a community, in our own family’s, we need to learn how to forgive again.

“We love because he first loved us.”  1 John 4:19

“Without love, deeds, even the most brilliant, count as nothing.”
― St. Thérèse de Lisieu

The image above, please click on it as it is from the blog,  Truth for Today. The post is called  – The Cop Who Forgave His Killer via Derrick McCarson 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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A Carmelite response to the sexual abuse crisis UPDATE

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Beautiful and on point! Re blog via Elijah’s Breeze

A Carmelite response to the sexual abuse crisis: “Oh! how necessary it is to pray for priests!” UPDATE

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August 16, 2018 · 8:24 pm

Novena to St Peter

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Sister Mary Elizabeth Tebo 

Originally from Fr. Paul Pecchie 

Novena to St Peter

St Peter, now that we are aware of the pressures the priests and bishops, cardinals and The Holy Father of Mother Church are under, I ask that you hear my prayer for you to send protection, guidance, support and encouragement to them, not forgetting the seminaries and the Brides Of Christ. The devil has been strong in recent times, not least in the last century and the beginning of this one. I ask that you intercede and ask St Michael and the archangels to fight the battle which needs to be fought for them. The Devil hides within holes throughout the centuries and I ask that you help the angels to find the places no matter how well hidden where he lurks and meddles from.
I know you shall not fail for my having asked you and I know that my prayers will be answered. The devil so often commands the moment. We are blessed to know that the eternal is the essential and we place our faith and knowledge in The Truth that our faith blesses us to know.
For the love of Jesus and the loving balme of the Holy Mother, help Mother Church to save Human Dignity. Amen

I pledge to pray this every day for nine days – (or 54 days) and network this so that all Catholics are made aware of its existence.

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Pray For Our Priests

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I have compiled just a few prayers for our Priests. I ask you to please keep them in your daily prayers. If you do a quick internet search, you can find many great prayers for them, on other Roman Catholic outlets. Pray for them always. 

Daily Prayer for Priests

Prayer of St. Thérèse of the Child Jesus

O Almighty, Eternal God, look upon the Face of Your
Son and for love of Him, who is the Eternal High Priest,
have pity on Your priests. Remember, O most compassionate
God, that they are but weak and frail human beings.
Stir up in them the grace of their vocation which
is in them by the imposition of the bishop’s hands. Keep
them close to You, lest the enemy prevail against them,
so that they may never do anything in the slightest degree
unworthy of their sublime vocation.

O Jesus, I pray for Your faithful and fervent priests;
for Your unfaithful and tepid priests; for Your priests laboring
at home or abroad in distant mission fields; for
Your tempted priests; for the lonely and desolate priests;
for Your young priests; for Your dying priests; for the
souls of Your priests in purgatory.

But above all, I commend to you N. and all the
priests dearest to me, the priest who baptized me, the
priests who have absolved me from my sins, the priests
at whose Masses I have assisted and who have offered
me Your Body and Blood in Holy Communion, the
priests who have taught and instructed me or helped
and encouraged me, and the priests to whom I am
indebted in any other way.

O Jesus, keep them all close to Your Heart, and bless
them abundantly in time and in eternity. Amen.


 

Chaplet of Reparation for Priests
This chaplet of reparation and intercession is meant to be prayed on an ordinary five decade rosary.
Incline (+) unto my aid, O God; O Lord, make haste to help me.
Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit;
As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.
Alleluia. (After Septuagesima: Praise be to Thee, O Lord, King of eternal glory.)
On the Our Father beads:
Eternal Father, I offer Thee
the Precious Blood of Thy Beloved Son,
our Lord Jesus Christ,
the Lamb without blemish or spot (1 Peter 1:19)
in reparation for my sins
and for the sins of all Thy priests.
On the Hail Mary beads:
By Thy Precious Blood, O Jesus, purify and sanctify Thy priests.
In place of the Glory be to the Father:
O Father, from whom all fatherhood in heaven and on earth is named (Ephesians 3:14), have mercy on all Thy priests, and wash them in the Blood of the Lamb.
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Prayer by St. Faustina

O my Jesus, I beg you on behalf of the whole Church:

Grant it love and the light of your Spirit, and give power to the words of priests so that hardened hearts might be brought to repentance and return to you, O Lord.

Lord, give us holy priests; you yourself maintain them in holiness.

O Divine and Great High Priest, may the power of your mercy accompany them everywhere and protect them from the devil’s traps and snares which are continually being set for the souls of priests.

May the power of your mercy, O Lord, shatter and bring to naught all that might tarnish the sanctity of priests, for you can do all things.

 

From the Diary of St. Faustina, 1052

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Keep The Focus On Christ

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“Be angry but do not sin; do not let the sun set on your anger, and do not leave room for the devil.” –  Ephesians 4:26-27

Is right and just to be angry about the latest church scandal? YOU BET!

Is it right and just to take your anger out on anyone who speaks to you on social media? Not even a little bit!

Is it right and just to place the blame for EVERYTHING on the laity, Priests, Nuns, Sisters Brothers, Bishops and others who had no clue this was taking place and who heard about this when you did? ABSOLUTELY NOT!

Is it right and just to assume everyone is a suspect? NO!

You and I are called to see the GOOD in one another, and in all the events taking place.

Who is the father of lies & chaos? Do not leave room for him.

Ponder for a moment, please:

Then Jesus said to him, “Put your sword back into its sheath, for all who take the sword will perish by the sword. Do you think that I cannot call upon my Father and he will not provide me at this moment with more than twelve legions of angels?”- Matt 26:52-53

Remember our Lords agony in the garden. Stay awake and pray with Him. Do not find yourself chanting “Crucify, crucify him!” to the wheat, who you may pluck out with the weeds.

Stay awake and pray. Grow in humility and love for one another. Use this moment to clean your own home first. Remembering that we all, one day will stand in front of the Just Judge and give an account.

 

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The Fourth Glorious Mystery

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A most blessed Solemnity of the Assumption of Mary to all.

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Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thy intercession was left unaided. Inspired with this confidence, we turn to thee,

O Virgin of virgins, our Mother. To thee we come, before thee we stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, do not despise our petitions, but in thy mercy hear and answer us. Amen.

Below you will find the link to the declaration, of this splendid and beautiful day, which is not only thought provoking, but timeless.

APOSTOLIC CONSTITUTION OF
POPE PIUS XII 

MUNIFICENTISSIMUS DEUS

DEFINING THE DOGMA OF THE ASSUMPTION

November 1, 1950

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When Abuse Hits Home – My Parish, My Former Pastor

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As all the news is breaking today, some of it old, some new, a friend posted a link on my Facebook page and asked me if I had heard about it…

“Lay woman’s saga illustrates clerical sexual abuse of adults”

Yes. Lived through it not only as a rape survivor, but as seeing the fallout from when it takes place in the church. I do share in this woman’s sufferings. The hardest part is trying to explain it all to my children who knew him, who also received the sacraments from him. I didn’t and still don’t need to know the details.  He was removed and our LORD remains.

The days that followed after we met our FORMER pastor, my daughters handed him a gift. It was a gift of Sacred Heart purificators and a corporal. I told him, it was a gift to my children’s Shepherd.

Fast forward to a few weeks ago, as I was helping our Sacristan, I had noticed they were still there, in the Sacristy, feet away from the Tabernacle to be used. As I ponder this gift, I come to understand that it was and is, a gift to our true Shepherd. Our Lord Jesus Christ.

Lets go deeper. My parish, my priest. No matter the location, no matter the Priest, we are all in this together, as you parish, is my parish. Your Priest is my priest. That is our Lord. “Persona Christi”. The Church is our spiritual home.

I forgave him a long time ago in my heart, but some who have never heard, don’t know that the exposing of all this, is best for all of us. Its truly a cleansing we must not be embarrassed about, but rather take and understand that as our Lord said, unless a gran of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains just a grain of wheat. Change for the better comes through death of the old self, and rebirth of the new. No fears of what will the neighbors say. But rather understanding that the neighbors too, one day will have to come to grips with it also. This exposing of abuse is GOOD NEWS.

No matter what may come, our Lord has already prevailed. Cling to Him.

 

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The Hideous Wound Of Sexual Abuse

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My heart takes rest in our Lord, and His Word.  I pray for the perseverance of all.

All the abuse, in general, is all the ugliness of a hideous wound that NEEDS to heal. The only way to heal a wound, is to expose it (uncover it completely) to get the proper Medicine in to replace it.

As Catholics, we must not place another bandage over it, or anything which causes us harm, and hope it just goes away. It needs serious care. A wound as this, requires “nulla per os”, but requires strict action taken with fasting, praying, repenting, time in Adoraiton with our Lord, confession and total focus on our Lord. In other words, 24 hours a day, living our faith with Christ our Lord as the Shepherd of the entirety of our lives. Word and deeds.

John 6:68 – Simon Peter answered him, “Master, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.

Repent and believe.

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A Leopard In The Well

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I have seen some lately, painting with a broad brush, in regards to the sex abuse  in the Catholic Church. Most of which are bundling ALL Catholics together as being evil and pedophiles. To those who refuse to see the big picture in regards to this being a much bigger problem and not just Catholic, but being a serious offence in every walk of life, taking place in every institution, I offer you my prayers.

Do you know why a leopard hangs around the well? For an easy meal. It is not there to help anyone but itself to those who do not see it camouflaged before it kills. It preys on the “least”.

A leopard doesn’t change its spots. It uses them for camouflage. If one states they are a teacher, coach, priest preacher, father, mother etc, but makes a decision to use that profession as a mask for evil to sin, they are not a teacher, coach priest etc, but simply a predator in a mask, like a leopard at the well seeking another meal.

To those who say “Once a priest, always a priest” I answer you, yes. But never forget,  what our Lord demanded of  “The True Disciple.”

To the “leopards”, He sees you – REPENT. Only He can change your spots.

Notice the rope for the “leopard”. As long as it stays a “leopard”, it can not climb to escape.

 

 

 

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An Unforgiving World

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I know my blog is about my pondering, but I ask my readers this time, to ponder…

Something to ponder when you feel overwhelmed by what is taking place in this world. When you hear words like “I will never forgive __________” , or this or that is unforgivable, or we should round them all up, kick them out and kill them. Ponder also when we say these things ourselves and think about how many others live this way, unable to forgive for anything. Ponder how some souls in your own life, who you love dearly, refuse to forgive you and how it makes you feel.

Now, look at our Lord on the cross, and remember His words:

“Father, forgive them; for they do not know what they are doing.”

How can we expect or demand peace, in such an unforgiving world?

By forgiving and keeping our focus on what is above.

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A Map

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“True humility consists in our being satisfied with what is given us”

– St. Teresa of Avila

Prayers are so much more than words. They are directions for the soul to follow in the footsteps of our Lord, when we have lost sight of Him. I am reminded of our Holy Mothers words to the servants at the wedding:  “Do whatever he tells you.”

To “do” is to perform the action. To practice the action being requested of our Lord.

Thus, a map. Try it always, as you pray it.

Litany of Humility

O Jesus! meek and humble of heart, Hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed,

Deliver me, Jesus.

From the desire of being loved…
From the desire of being extolled …
From the desire of being honored …
From the desire of being praised …
From the desire of being preferred to others…
From the desire of being consulted …
From the desire of being approved …
From the fear of being humiliated …
From the fear of being despised…
From the fear of suffering rebukes …
From the fear of being calumniated …
From the fear of being forgotten …
From the fear of being ridiculed …
From the fear of being wronged …
From the fear of being suspected …

That others may be loved more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

That others may be esteemed more than I …
That, in the opinion of the world,
others may increase and I may decrease …
That others may be chosen and I set aside …
That others may be praised and I unnoticed …
That others may be preferred to me in everything…
That others may become holier than I,
 provided that I may become as holy as I should…

Rafael Cardinal Merry del Val (1865-1930),
Secretary of State for Pope Saint Pius X

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“Saint Without A Tomb”

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Teresa Benedict of the Cross Edith Stein (1891-1942)
nun, Discalced Carmelite, martyr  

Tomorrow is the feast of Saint Teresa Benedicta of the Cross (Edith Stein). I am very fond of her for many reasons, most of which I can not put into words. She is a much needed Saint for our times! From today:

Pope Francis Invokes Edith Stein’s Prayer to Protect Europe

Quote below from St. Pope John Paul II, on her Canonization:

HOMILY OF JOHN PAUL II
FOR THE CANONIZATION OF EDITH STEIN

Sunday, 11 October 1998

6. St Teresa Benedicta of the Cross was able to understand that the love of Christ and human freedom are intertwined, because love and truth have an intrinsic relationship. The quest for truth and its expression in love did not seem at odds to her; on the contrary she realized that they call for one another.

In our time, truth is often mistaken for the opinion of the majority. In addition, there is a widespread belief that one should use the truth even against love or vice versa. But truth and love need each other. St Teresa Benedicta is a witness to this. The “martyr for love”, who gave her life for her friends, let no one surpass her in love. At the same time, with her whole being she sought the truth, of which she wrote: “No spiritual work comes into the world without great suffering. It always challenges the whole person”.

St Teresa Benedicta of the Cross says to us all: Do not accept anything as the truth if it lacks love. And do not accept anything as love which lacks truth! One without the other becomes a destructive lie.

St Teresa Benedicta of the Cross, in these times when Truth is not taken as the Truth by so many, pray for us to our Lord and King, help us as the lost can not see, that your martyrdom was born from the same loss of reality, freedom and Truth, by the same world at odds with our Lord, Jesus Christ, Our Father and the Holy Spirit. Amen

 

For more on this beautiful Carmelite Saint, please see:

Elijah’s Breeze

Association Of Hebrew Catholics 

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Confession And Transfiguration

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This morning, I had seen a post on Facebook by a wonderful priest, with a hashtag’s  #Confession  #IGotNervousToo 

I felt compelled to write about my return to the Sacrament of Confession after not having gone for 30 years, with a photo of the Church I had attended, which was Sts. Peter and Paul, Cary IL. I will share the story below:

My first time going to confession after years, I didn’t know I was even going to confession. Something in my heart told me go to the church. SO I did. It had been about 30 years. I walked into an empty Church. No one there but a woman turning off the lights. I began to cry sitting there thinking about how miserable of a life I had been living and would never even be accepted here. I got a tap on the shoulder and it was a Priest. He sat with me for about a good hour. 20 minutes of which we just talked. Then he asked me if I would like to confess my sins. I didn’t even know what I was doing. I said yes. July 1998. It was a rocky road at first, but now? I make sure to go at least every other week. #IGotNervousToo#Confession

Tonight as I was pondering my Carmelite Lectio Divina, I was struck with awe. From the time I had returned, I had always thought that my old Parish, looked very similar to a tent on the inside. I loved that Parish and the Priest who heard my confession. It was a welcome home that I would never forget. I have written a lot in this blog about the struggles and suffering I have faced for the past 20 years, which drew me to leave there and head out on a journey, in which ever day, brought me through many sufferings but into the arms of our Lord, in a way I could never deny.

I had to go back to my post on Facebook to add:

Oh my goodness! I had always thought that this Church looked like a tent! As I pondered my Lectio Divina tonight – “Peter wants to build three tents, because it was the sixth day of the feast of tents. This was a very popular feast of six days that celebrated the gift of the Law of God and the forty years spent in the desert. ” – How I wish I could have stayed in this parish! I loved it so! But our Lord was not finished with me!  Praise be to our LORD 

Back then,  I couldn’t yet, understand the Cross.

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