Who Am I ??
Lets start off by telling you who I am not. I am not a theologian nor a scholar. I do not have a college degree. I’m not a doctor, lawyer, butcher, baker or candlestick maker. I’m not rich by any worldly standard. I don’t care for television, movies or news. I left the political banter between left right and center behind. I could care less about what the latest fashions are along with the who’s who in Hollywood. If I say something that is NOT true to the Catholic Church, forgive me, because it is only out of my lack of “knowledge”. Outside of a Bible study group I had attended for over two years, I do not have formal training in scripture from an accredited school.
Taking into account, my handwriting is miserable and I have a hard time reading what I write and my spelling is another issue, this is my attempt to place my thoughts someplace, where they can be read and shared with who ever wants to read them. When our Lord really started reshaping my heart, I was in the middle of trying to become a Military and Political blogger, finding myself conflicted between the world I wanted and the one I knew our Lord was calling me to enter into with Him. You can’t fight Him. You can try but the more you hear Him, and adhere to the Truth, you find yourself just following where He needs you, as you distinctly learn the value and meaning of what Love really is. Its priceless.
I am a sinner. I am a child of God. A Catholic who returned home, running as fast as I could, back to the only Truth left in this world, breaking in my new “wineskin”. I am faithful to the magisterium and discerning The Secular Order of Our Lady of Mount Carmel, (TOC). (I was formally received, July 12, 2013 and on October 1, 2016, I made my First Profession into TOC. In October 2017, although due to Covid, my Final Profession is still on hold, as my profession date, was scheduled for April 4th, 2020, was suspended until further notice. I was instilled as a Regional Chair for San Diego, and have served as Treasurer, currently Regional Formation Coordinator.
I am honest and speak from my heart. I am an open book. I am a wife, a with 2 teenage children and one adult child, and two children no longer in this world. I live for our Lord through attending daily Holy Mass along with Eucharist Adoration. I am a former Treasurer, Mystical Rose Praesidium Of The Legion Of Mary, along with Captain of the Perpetual Adoration Chapel. Along with being placed in charge of the Altar Society. I am currently working in my new Parish in our RCIA office, as Baptism Coordinator while still in formation with the Third Order of Carmel. My first vocation is committing myself to Marriage and Motherhood. My youngest child is on the Autism Spectrum and is truly a life long challenge in which I truly have been blessed by our Lord. Its a heavy cross to carry, only in regards to the souls who don’t understand autism.
I spend most of my day with my best Friend, Teacher, Love of my soul, God, Father, Beloved, LORD Jesus Christ, in prayer. I think deeply about holy scripture, “Ponder”, and place my thoughts on paper. Thus! Peg Pondering Again. Most of my blog has been a document of what I have been walking through with our Lord in my conversion of heart. I seek no glory, praise, or honor as to give it all to our Lord. I pray it brings peace in this world desperately in need of it.
I am a rape survivor an forgive my attacker and pray for him. Forgiveness is lighter to carry than revenge and hate is a tarry mess that takes too much energy along with being to heavy to carry. For me not to forgive my attacker, or anyone, to me, would be equal to me sending a soul to hell, along with my own. The thought of being responsible for NOT offering forgiveness and maybe banishing someone from God, including myself, is the most frightening thought I have. It’s just not worth the risk.
“If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.” Mark 8:34
I live to serve others. I have found so much joy in this way of life. The greatest happiness I know, is to hear my children praying. I believe strongly, I have only been entrusted to take care of them as they are not mine to keep. They belong to God.
I barely survived the secular world and the poison it offered me. Through my faults, my lack of faith in God, I attempted suicide years back, waking up in an ICU, crying my eyes out and thanking God for saying to me, by allowing me to survive it, telling me NO. It’s not your time and this is not the way. You belong to me, not the evil one.
I will say until the day the Lord takes me home, do not believe for a split second that a child with a soul, created by God, through a man and a woman, is just a mass of tissue that can be tossed out like the daily trash or that there is nothing wrong with abortion. Everything is wrong with abortion and when one is performed, two lives are senselessly taken, and can never be replaced.
The person I was, is no more and I thank God daily. The soul I am now, is but by the grace of God. If ANYTHING on the pages of this blog are found in ANY WAY disobedient to the teachings of the Roman Catholic Church, to our Lord or ANYONE in the Authority of the Roman Catholic Church, tell me and it WILL be deleted. I am in love with our Lord and His Church.
(Today, July 12, 2014, I was formally received into the Third Order of Our Lady of Mount Carmel.)
disclaimer: All sins spoken by me in this blog, have been confessed beforehand, to a Catholic Priest and repented of. I HIGHLY suggest it!
My name is Peg Demetris. I welcome you to this site. May God bless everyone who enters here and know, I keep you and yours in my prayers, always.
With Christians, a poetical view of things is a duty. We are bid to color all things with hues of faith, to see a divine meaning in every event.
– Saint John Henry Newman
Peg Pondering Again 
I will take you just like you are any day of the week. God Bless, SR
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Peg I’ve just found you through Facebook , Ross Earl Hoffman. I had a quick read and I am intrigued , I will be back 🙂 lol
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I am a cradle Roman Catholic who is a mom of four, married 20 + years. I consider myself to be a Moderate Feminist, (as according to Pope John Paul II), who has been called to be a Spiritual Director working with mothers seeking to understand their Lord and Father.
You and I have very similar life stories.
As a child I lived in a family that was not supportive: spiritually or emotionally. Like so many who have lived in alcoholic families I learned to block my emotions, hid my life, be someone else while desperately trying to find out who I am being called to be. I had been raped three times as a teen, so I hid my femininity. Through I hid my femininity it could not and would be destroyed, it quietly grew more beautiful. I have battled with depression since I was 13. Still the depression brought me to a wonderful psychologist that supported me and helped me grow emotionally. All of those experiences could not keep from finding my husband, who was nothing like the men in my life; he is supportive spiritually, emotionally and lovingly. He came from a Catholic family that taught that women and men were equal, that God saw women and men as equal in callings, talent and desire. For my husband there were no traditional roles but roles that came from discussion of who was best at what. We married had children and I worked as a social worker, preschool teacher and then I felt called to go on and become a spiritual director combining all I had done into a more spiritual slant, but I became frozen with fear, and took my studies and did nearly nothing with it.
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Amen pacwp 🙂
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Thank you Peg, for your faith and for your testament. It really helps to know that you are there, strong in spirit. As for your past, you have been tested and found worthy of God’s love and so I hope you are able to get past the regret that you feel. Forgiveness is like a cloak bathed in God’s comfort, warmth and love, shining and beautiful. I don’t know what else to say, but again, thanks for being you:)
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God bless you Mary. Today! March 21, 2015, with the grace of God, I have moved past the regret! I cling only to the Hope, Love and Charity our Lord fills me with. I trust in Him, not me.
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Aside from what you had to say about God, the Catholic Church, the OCDS, leaving politics behind (and whole bunch more), I keenly identified with this:
“Taking into account, my handwriting is miserable and I have a hard time reading what I write, and my spelling is another issue, this is my attempt to place my thoughts someplace, where they can be read and shared with who ever wants to read them.”
Very nice to meet you, Peg! I look forward to reading more and God bless you!
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Aside from the rape, (I managed to fight off 3 attackers), I seem to have lived your identical life. I thank God for having found you, because I have no support group of Catholics and my husband is not a believer. Thank you for being yourself, and letting me know that I am OK this way too.
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Our Lord is with you Cheryl. No matter what is going on in your life, always make room for Him to be with you. Keeping you in my prayers.
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Hi Peg,
I am helping out my church by creating flyers for adoration. Could I use one of your images for that purpose? (I am interested in https://pegponderingagain.files.wordpress.com/2013/01/mg_9759.jpg) Would it be ok?
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I do not own the image but it came to me without copyrights. You are free to use it 🙂
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… thank you, Peg. Where might I find/purchase the Papacy flag? ruth
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You can go to Catholic Online Store or flag stores & other sites on the internet http://onlinecatholicstore.com/catholic-flag-vatican-city-flag/
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I awarded your blog the Awesome Blog Content award.
click here http://wp.me/p3Hd0i-YN to collect.
YAY!
~ Eric
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Thank you!!
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Use this one
http://hunt4truth.wordpress.com/2013/12/09/awesome-blog-content/
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I have another award to bestow. Please also accept the Shaun-y:
http://hunt4truth.wordpress.com/2013/12/10/a-shaun-y-award-for-being-me/
~ Eric
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Thank you for following Creating Space In Your Life. Look forward to following you.
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God bless you & yours – Keeping you in prayers
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Bravo to God! You are a proove. Our Father makes beautifuls the beings. All is from Him by Him for Love. He makes souls as himself … Sometimes slowly but surely. mind ego cannot be without soul’s existence ans soul’s nature is God love.
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Blessed be God! A touching blog…
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Peg, God bless you, but this prayer is not from St. Teresa of Avila, or any Catholic saint:
“May today there be peace within. May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be”…etc.
It is a New Age type prayer that has erroneously been attributed to Teresa of Avila, Therese of Lisieux and Mother Teresa of Calcutta, but it is not from any of them, or any Catholic saint.
In His Love,
Jan
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Hello Jan – Thank you for pointing this out to me. You are speaking about OCTOBER 15, 2013 · 8:22 AM My Sister The Doctor https://pegponderingagain.com/2013/10/15/my-sister-the-doctor/
I will look deeper into this and see exactly where it came from. Quickly this morning, I also found the same quote on the Order Of Passionists Here https://thepassionists.org/todays-prayer/today-s-prayer-01-07-2016
God bless you!It has been updated and changed
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You rock!
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🙂 Blessed be the LORD, my rock,
my mercy and my fortress,
my stronghold, my deliverer,
My shield, in whom I trust.
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Hello Peg, hope you, husband and girls are doing well. You truly are an amazing person and I was glad to find on f/b. Your story is one of great suffering and sadness. But your humility, forgiveness and love is very inspirational, and I for one and many more can see how genuine you are.God Bless Peg. It is Bernadette from Ireland, living in Scotland at the moment. You made my girls the most gorgeous Rosaries. Do you remember? 🙂
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Oh my goodness! YES I do! LOVE YOU my friend. I am so happy to hear from you and I am grateful to our Lord for you finding me here. Please find me once again on FB, as I have opened once again my account. I would LOVE to reconnect with you.
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Peg, I am contacting you to ask you a question about my using the Sacred Heart image that is on your blog for a devotion that I’m trying to compose. Would you contact me via my email so that I can further explain? Thanks very much!
Karen
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I’m not sure which one you are speaking of, as I have many in different posts. If you are speaking of the one on the home page, in both corners, they were free use, and I put a halo edit around it. If you would like to use it, please do.
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Dear Peg, I wish I could “Like” this again… WordPress needs a “Love” button. 🙂 ❤
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