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Voting For The Little Souls In 2016

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We attended Holy Mass last night. We sat behind a group of souls (5 pews full) from Noah Homes, which is a group of developmentally disabled souls. No one asked them to come last night for any political specific reason. They didn’t get up to speak. Their presence ALONE to me, was a clear sign from our Lord telling ME, they are His little children who NEED someone to protect their right to life and to live, from this culture of death which believes souls like these have no right to be born, and as of late, can be euthanized, or as they like to pass it off today, put to sleep like pets because they do not fit the cookie cutter form of “human” this sick society, which deems these little souls as worthless. Their witness was AMAZING. All they were there for, was to worship our Lord.

At this point, when I ponder casting a vote for a 3rd party, I can only think of that vote being cast for my self righteousness. Knowing, that our Lord loved us first, as sinful as we are, before we all became aware of His love for us, and we in fact, made the choice to love Him back as obedient children. We know the plans of Clinton and the culture of death she wants to push further, as history has already played this card of Nazi Germany during WWII. We know that Trump once said the things he did, and now has not only changed his mind, BUT his actions are proving that he is pushing for pro life, be it in little ways. We KNOW that a 3rd party vote would split the Trump vote and place Clinton in the White House and make it a sure win once again for the culture of death. My conscious, my heart and my soul, in the current climate, after seeing these souls last night, tell me with out a doubt, I NEED to give my vote to Trump/Pence not for my own good, but for the good of these souls and the unborn, along with serious prayers for the conversion of this country, back to placing our Lord first, our neighbors second, ESPECIALLY the little ones, and myself last.

Peace.

Lord have mercy on us all and convert the hardened hearts of souls in this nation and all over the entire world.

Please read:
EVANGELIUM VITAE 73: THE CATHOLIC LAWMAKER AND THE PROBLEM OF A SERIOUSLY UNJUST LAW
Angel Rodríguez Luño,
Ordinary Professor of Moral Theology, Pontifical University of the Holy Cross

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March For Life 2014

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I pray for a Pro Life world…

March For Life 2014. Prayers for all the “Catholics” who support the culture of death through ignorance about their Catholic Faith. There is no such thing as a Pro Abortion or Pro Choice Practicing Catholic.

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More To Life

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I found a brass plaque that says:

“Make the most of yourself, for that is all there is of you – Ralph Waldo Emerson”

I’m thinking of having it melted down into a crucifix because if you think for a second this is all there is, your sorely mistaken.

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The Elephants Trunk

“There is a Hindu story comparing the mind to the trunk of an elephant – restless, inquisitive, always straying. In India, elephants are sometimes taken in religious processions through the streets to the temple. The streets are crooked and narrow, lined on either side with fruit and vegetable stalls. Along comes the elephant with his restless trunk, and in one sinuous motion, he grabs a whole bunch of bananas. He opens his cavernous mouth, and tosses the bananas in – stalk and all. From the next stall he picks up a coconut and tosses it in after the bananas. No threats or promises can make this restless trunk settle down. But the wise elephant trainer will give that trunk a short bamboo stick to hold. Then the elephant will walk along proudly, holding the bamboo stick in front like a drum major with a baton. He doesn’t steal bananas and coconuts now, because his trunk has something to hold onto.”

Over last weekend, I spent the morning after mass on Saturday, in front of an abortion clinic on Miramar Road, praying with a group of 50 or so others. The decision to go and do this was a hard one. I had always wanted to but had in the past, blocked myself from participating because I would often feel like a hypocrite. I went and it was the most uplifting experience I had ever participated in. I had confessed my sin many years ago and only now have forgiven myself. I had always felt that I had so much to offer in regard to praying with so much love but that “Elephant” would always be in the room to point out my shortcomings. As I pulled up in front of this clinic and parked my car, walking to greet the others, I noticed to the left of the abortion clinic a store named “The Elephants Trunk”. I smiled when I noticed it. I confessed that years ago & focused more on the prayers that were needed for souls about to make the same deadly mistake I had years before. If only the women walking into this place understood the significance of that store just a few doors down, the decision would already have been made to keep their child.

“6 Then answered the LORD unto Job out of the whirlwind, and said,
7 Gird up thy loins now like a man: I will demand of thee, and declare thou unto me.
8 Wilt thou also disannul my judgment? wilt thou condemn me, that thou mayest be righteous?
9 Hast thou an arm like God? or canst thou thunder with a voice like him?
10 Deck thyself now with majesty and excellency; and array thyself with glory and beauty.
11 Cast abroad the rage of thy wrath: and behold every one that is proud, and abase him.
12 Look on every one that is proud, and bring him low; and tread down the wicked in their place.
13 Hide them in the dust together; and bind their faces in secret.
14 Then will I also confess unto thee that thine own right hand can save thee. 15 Behold now behemoth, which I made with thee; he eateth grass as an ox.
16 Lo now, his strength is in his loins, and his force is in the navel of his belly.
17 He moveth his tail like a cedar: the sinews of his stones are wrapped together.
18 His bones are as strong pieces of brass; his bones are like bars of iron.
19 He is the chief of the ways of God: he that made him can make his sword to
approach unto him.”
20 Surely the mountains bring him forth food, where all the beasts of the field play.
21 He lieth under the shady trees, in the covert of the reed, and fens.
22 The shady trees cover him with their shadow; the willows of the brook compass him about.
23 Behold, he drinketh up a river, and hasteth not: he trusteth that he can
draw up Jordan into his mouth.
24 He taketh it with his eyes: his nose pierceth through snares.” Job 40 6-24

I think of the “Elephant” as our Lord. Through the Holy Spirit, knocking over our guilt and making it more apparent and less likely to be hidden from our own eyes. Until we address the underlying problem, and fix it, how can we even attempt to fix others? Ensure that “Stick” is always in the elephants trunk. Meaning, keep yourself clean and avoid sinful behavior or that “Elephant” will never let you rest.

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The Pain Of Abortion

The pain a soul feels after having an abortion is endless. No amount of suffering a woman can feel by HAVING a child under any circumstance, can ever compare to the pain she has after taking the life of her own child. Evey relationship with every person she comes in contact with after making the decision to have one, is compromised. The emotional and psychological problems are enormous and burdensome and to add it to the cross she already carry’s is a tremendous amount of weight, most times then not, just to heavy to carry alone. Everything in the woman’s life in this world after having an abortion, reminds her of the day she took her own child’s life. The pain NEVER goes away. How do I know? I fell for the empty rhetoric at one time in my life, that the baby growing inside of me, was not human.

In March of 1993, while having an affair with a married man fifteen years older then myself, for already two years, I found out I was pregnant. I was already a single mom with a six year old daughter from a marriage that should have never taken place, struggling to make ends meet. No one knew I was having this affair and I was all alone. What I thought was “Love” I had felt for this man, was anything but love as I can see so clearly now. I sat him down and told him I was pregnant. His response was he wasn’t about to leave his wife. They had been married for over twenty years and he couldn’t do that to her. Rather then go with my motherly INSTINCT to protect this beautiful life of the child growing inside of me, I told him that I would see my doctor and discuss abortion.

The day I met with my doctor, the same doctor that had delivered me, he confirmed I was pregnant and only about four to five weeks along. I told him the situation and that I was considering abortion. He said ok and left me sitting on the examination table as he walked out of the room. As I sat there on the examination table, I heard that voice in my heart. DON’T DO THIS! This is not you! And I changed my mind. I couldn’t go through with this horrific thing I was thinking about doing. It was done! I was going to have this child and all the pain and suffering I would have to endure bringing another child into this world even without the funds to do so. It was time to face the music of the life I was leading.

The nurse came into the examination room and told me to roll up my sleeve. I did and she jabbed me with a needle. I asked her what she had just given me and she said it was “Vitamins”. I then told her after, I changed my mind and I was going to be going through with the pregnancy. Her very stern and angry face melted into one of horror. I quickly learned, it was not vitamins she gave me, but a shot to kill the baby and cause a miscarriage. I NEVER knew having an abortion was just one shot away. I always thought it was a serious medical procedure that would take time to think about because it would have to be planned out ahead of time. It wasn’t. It was all contained in that shot the nurse had already given me, after I had changed my mind. My stupidity, led to the murder of my child, at my hands. My lack of understanding the SERIOUSNESS of the situation all came to light.

She left the room and my doctor came back in. He held my hands and said it was to late and that it was in God’s hands now. I ended up losing the baby two days later. Alone, at home, without anyone knowing the pain I was going through. Nor the pain this little innocent life felt. It was official. I committed murder.

Not a day has passed that I don’t think about my “little soul” in heaven. I am constantly reminded about this little one every time I see children, pregnant women, birthday party’s and even still now, in my own children. During the time of this event in my life, I tried to block it out as much as I could. In doing so, the relationship I had with my daughter faltered because I could not bare to look at her and NOT see the child who I took out of this world. The psychological and emotional effects took their toll. How could anyone want me now, knowing what I had done? How could I explain to my daughter that she could have had a baby brother or sister but I murdered the baby. The effects of abortion on the soul of the woman who has had one, is a pain she will carry with her through her entire life. The baby just doesn’t “Go Away” and the woman is NOT left to continue on in her life. The baby goes away and the woman carry’s that event forever. Nothing can change the facts.

As many years that have passed, I always think about how old my child would be now. What they would have looked like. Who’s life they would have influenced. My child would be entering college this year. Just this past Christmas, my five year old daughter gave me a present that shook my soul. It was an innocent gift she had made in school for me. Her teacher had drawn her arms and hands and glued them onto a heart. The little hands were my five year-olds hands, imprinted in red tempera paint. When I opened the gift, I burst into tears and hugged her so tight. I couldn’t stop crying. Seeing the little red hands reminded me of the little one I have in heaven and what I had done. You see, the pain never does go away.

In my conversion of heart, coming back to the Catholic Church, just confessing this grave sin eased the burden I carry. It is a forgivable act and through repentance and working WITH the graces our Lord STILL pours on the soul, it becomes lighter to carry when you know Our Lord STILL loves us. I didn’t have the counseling made available now to help women who have had abortions. At the time, the evil one had me believing I was damned to hell because of this act. I only know now, that is NOT true! Rachel’s Vineyard is one such organization that WILL HELP you! You do not have to suffer alone.

Never NEVER let anyone tell you that baby inside of you is just a blob of tissue. What they don’t tell you is how the loss of that “Blob” at your own hands, causes a woman so much pain and so much emotional damage, not to mention the damage done to the body. If my child was just as they say, I wouldn’t have this weight on my soul. Obviously its more then just a blob. The consequences of taking that “Blob” last a lifetime. Get INFORMED! And then inform everyone. Abortion is just a sanitized name for murder.

No matter when the pregnancy ends, conception is the beginning of motherhood.

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