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Nescivi


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“Before I knew it, my desire had made me the blessed one of the prince’s people.” –  Song of Solomon 6:12

Desire. What is it that you desire?

“Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.”

It is You O Lord and my God alone, in whom my heart, mind and body desires.

Agape and eros

Many years, further back on the journey to our Lord, for a few months, I was plagued with visions of our Lord, naked. At first I was astonished.  What sort of vision was I seeing, that would show our Lord in such a way, as not to be clothed in glory and splendor in robes of gold and a crown. I would do all I could to not see, or to not be lead to see Him in this way, because I had been battling lust, and sins of the flesh. Lust sees only the body to be used for a self serving desire. Love sees the entire person in the great light of respect. Not only respect for the other, but for self and for all.

There was a part of me, that needed to be addressed and overcome which was still not true modesty. The first thought of a “naked” Christ, was that of a very immature soul, in need of becoming mature.  I felt a need to cover His nakedness, by turning my eye and denying myself from entering into what may have gone in a direction I did not want to be taken. Was I embarrassed of Him? No. Of course not, He is our Lord and to see Him in such a way, as a friend, or as a brother, was just something that I felt a need to cover because I love Him. Our Lord was Crucified naked for the purpose of mocking Him and stripping Him of any human dignity. But what was truly revealed on the cross, was the glory of God in perfect human form. Not covered by anything to mask the Truth of His creation.

Why was I seeing our Lord in such a way, was something I had prayed about for some time. Was it a way to attract me close to Him? I think not, in one way, for the sake the attraction to our Lord is not of the flesh although He was clothed in the flesh. And that would indicate to me “lust”, and our Lord is not imperfect. Why then, should I see our Lord in this way but other than to open my mind more about Him. To reveal the humanity of Him. Once this took place, the attraction to Him intensified greatly. The distant Lord whom I had though of, whom I thought I had known, was right in front of me. I could then see with my heart, that no matter where I was, in the situations I had faced, or was going to face, He had truly been there first, my first Love, and was still there with me. It became another step in our “relationship”. Dare I say His offering to take the next step. Intimacy.

There comes a time in the spiritual life, when we need to look beyond His “nakedness”, which we see from our imperfect self and see His suffering. Where then, was this wound that needed to be addressed? It is the wound of Love.  He suffers in love for us. Just as a nurse, or a Doctor does not see the nakedness of the patient, but rather the need to care for and dress the wound. How my Lord can I attend to You?

To truly fall in love with our Lord, one must overcome many obstacles of self. Especially in regards to how we perceive our Lord as God. Do we only see Him as Divine and completely miss His humanity? If we miss His humanity, we only perceive half of the entirety of Him and our perception is skewed as we are imperfect. We look for the Conquering Lord, the Glorious Lord, but we still often miss the Suffering Lord. When we resort to be satisfied in such a way, we miss out on knowing Him, and remain in a state of only knowing of Him.

If it is True Love, nothing could sway one from the other. Think of the song, “I only have eyes for you”. Temptation comes, and  receives no reciprocation. The soul looks at temptation with disgust. It is seen for what it is, empty and an blatant attempt to damage or destroy the Lover the soul has found. Its not to say that we do not stumble, and fall, as we do. But the pain is much greater and its in an instant, that the souls looking to its Lover with the eyes of the heart in sorrow. The soul knows His Love for all. The soul thrives to return the love given by the Lover. To heal the wound she had inflicted, before the soul knew the Lover. The soul is attentive to His voice, His movements, His mannerism and regards the self and all others, as His. Unable to do a thing without Him, as His breath is breathed into our faith, and comes to life in Him, in us. The soul can not help but respond in love, because of Love, as the soul has been acknowledged by the Light that has shown on her true desire and He has revealed her desire to her.

 

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The Dryness Of Lent


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It used to be the moment I woke, the awareness of our Lord’s presence abounded. Immediately I would speak to Him in prayer. I had a smile always on my face. It was the so wonderful “honeymoon” of faith. Joy filled my heart, and just before waking, I could hear His voice calling me to wake.

Lately, I seem to be losing the awareness and my thoughts have become rather distorted with “worldly” things and souls. I have been struggling upon waking for the past few weeks, and have noticed the strange distractions of other things, taking the place of Him. I’m not sure why, but I am aware of this taking place and I am fighting it. I can see it for what it is, and I begin to pray the moment the distractions try to overpower me. Jesus, I trust in You, Lord have mercy on me. The awareness is not completely gone, but more like something is trying to come between us to take my attention. Imagine being on a date, and someone coming up to your table and interrupting the private conversation. That is how I can see this distraction.

Earlier tonight, I had posted this with a prayer request for me, as I see my struggle and also know it to be pure grace to see it.

I took my girls out for ice cream tonight. On the way home, there was so much water on the street but it was as if someone was driving in front of me while dumping out a pitcher of water. It soaked the entire lane we were in and it had made its own river flowing onto the freeway. This huge “river” went from the ice cream shop parking lot where we had been, on to the freeway where we needed to go, flowed through and down the exit ramp to our street, through an intersection, where we made a left hand turn and up to our street.  It was a HUGE water truck letting out water as it went and we were only a minute or so following behind it.

Just after Evening prayers, our Lord reminded me of that spiritual dryness I had asked for prayers about and I laughed with Him.

“It is the LORD who goes before you; he will be with you and will never fail you or forsake you. So do not fear or be dismayed” Deuteronomy 31:8

It’s so good to hear His voice. Like that water truck, spraying, He waters my soul and dismay is washed away.

Lord be with us, as we are trying to be with You this lent. That we may come to rise with You on the third day.

 

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Mortar and Stone


 

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Beautiful advise from Fr. John S. Hogan, OCDS this morning on Twitter.

As Catholics, we are one Mystical Body of Christ. When we turn on each other, we become like a cancer cell, attacking Life and becoming a tumor which harms.

I am reminded of St. Paul and The Role of God’s Ministers

We, the laity, are all ministers of the Word in this world. Therefore, rather than turn and attack the Cardinals, Bishops and Priests, whom we “feel” are not saying enough, of what we already know, we need to be the mortar that holds the faith together. How we do this, is that IF we truly know the teachings of the Catholic Church, it is WE who need to present it to all. We are called to proclaim the Gospel of our Lord to all living creatures also.

Where one may “feel” the Bishop or the Priest has not said enough, it is we who need to turn to the crowd among us, and fill in the gaps that we think are missing with the deeper Truth of our Lord.

Here is the CATECHISM OF THE CATHOLIC CHURCH. Seek. Ask. Knock. Discern everything and give ANSWER. Feed the hungry!

We can easily stand on the shore of our faith and yell at those who are fishing, telling them how to fish, but until we get into the deep of our faith, we only catch what is washed up on shore. In the end, we shall not be judged by our Lord by what others did or did not do, but what we did, and did not do.

“Put out into deep water and lower your nets for a catch.”

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Just And Unjust Laws – Martin Luther King, Jr.


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“There are two types of laws: just and unjust. I would be the first to advocate obeying just laws. One has not only a legal but a moral responsibility to obey just laws. Conversely, one has a moral responsibility to disobey unjust laws. I would agree with St. Augustine that ‘an unjust law is no law at all.’

Now, what is the difference between the two? How does one determine whether a law is just or unjust? A just law is a man made code that squares with the moral law or the law of God. An unjust law is a code that is out of harmony with the moral law. To put it in the terms of St. Thomas Aquinas: An unjust law is a human law that is not rooted in eternal law and natural law.”

Signed,

Martin Luther King, Jr.

“Letter from a Birmingham Jail.”

 

 

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Novena: Our Lady of Mount Carmel


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Saturday, July 7th 2018, is the first day for the Novena to our Lady of Mount Carmel.

If you would like to pray along, please go to the Carmelite Website HERE 

 

 

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Be Holy – “Gaudete et Exsultate”


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This coming Monday, April 9, the Holy See Press Office will release Pope Francis’s  “Gaudete et Exsultate” (Rejoice and be glad) which is his Apostolic Exhortation on holiness, at noon. News came today HERE, via the Holy See.

I ask those who subscribe to my blog to read Gaudete et Exsultate themselves in detail. Ponder it. Pray before, during and after reading it. Do not be conformed to reading it from anyplace other than the original source. Do not feel comfortable reading it from anyone’s point of view, other than your own. Meaning, don’t allow the media to tell you what they think it says and means. Read it from where you are in life. If you are disturbed internally by reading it, ask our Lord in prayer, why. Seek a remedy that is in the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Ask how you can grow to not be disturbed and accept the things you need to change within. Knock on our Lords door through prayer without ceasing, but we must repent. The word repent is a verb, which describes action needed on our part. ““Do whatever he tells you.”, becomes very clear.

The birth pains of holiness within a soul begin with the interior desire for Truth. ” “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you”. Matt 7:7

Repent and believe in the gospel.

 

 

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O Sacred Head Surrounded


I am reduced to nothing, the moment this hymn begins. My throat closes. There is a tightness in my chest and the words can not pass my lips. I can never, as hard as I try, sing this hymn, as the tears well up and stream down my cheeks. I can only assume, for now, its the interior contemplation breaking out in a way I could never put into words.

This hymn is just a short part of Salve Mundi Salutare, a poem in honor of our Lords various members on the cross. I have shared this poem in previous posts, divided into seven cantos,  “Ad Pedes”, “Ad Genua”, “Ad Manus”, “Ad Latus”, “Ad Pectus”, “Ad Cor”, “Ad Faciem” (To the Feet, Knees, Hands, Side, Breast, Heart, Face).

Please see the post below, To The Feet, and if you would like to continue, just click the next post.

Salve Mundi Salutare: Ad Pedes

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Eternal Father, turn away Your angry gaze from our guilty people whose face has become unsightly in Your eyes. Look instead upon the Face of Your beloved Son, in Whom You are well pleased. We now offer You this Holy Face, covered with shame and disfigured by bloody bruises, in reparation for the crimes of our age, in order to appease Your anger, justly provoked against us. Because Your Divine Son, our Redeemer, has taken upon His Head all the sins of His members, that they might be spared, we now beg You, Eternal Father, to grant us mercy. Amen.

 

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