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Confession And Transfiguration


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This morning, I had seen a post on Facebook by a wonderful priest, with a hashtag’s  #Confession  #IGotNervousToo 

I felt compelled to write about my return to the Sacrament of Confession after not having gone for 30 years, with a photo of the Church I had attended, which was Sts. Peter and Paul, Cary IL. I will share the story below:

My first time going to confession after years, I didn’t know I was even going to confession. Something in my heart told me go to the church. SO I did. It had been about 30 years. I walked into an empty Church. No one there but a woman turning off the lights. I began to cry sitting there thinking about how miserable of a life I had been living and would never even be accepted here. I got a tap on the shoulder and it was a Priest. He sat with me for about a good hour. 20 minutes of which we just talked. Then he asked me if I would like to confess my sins. I didn’t even know what I was doing. I said yes. July 1998. It was a rocky road at first, but now? I make sure to go at least every other week. #IGotNervousToo#Confession

Tonight as I was pondering my Carmelite Lectio Divina, I was struck with awe. From the time I had returned, I had always thought that my old Parish, looked very similar to a tent on the inside. I loved that Parish and the Priest who heard my confession. It was a welcome home that I would never forget. I have written a lot in this blog about the struggles and suffering I have faced for the past 20 years, which drew me to leave there and head out on a journey, in which ever day, brought me through many sufferings but into the arms of our Lord, in a way I could never deny.

I had to go back to my post on Facebook to add:

Oh my goodness! I had always thought that this Church looked like a tent! As I pondered my Lectio Divina tonight – “Peter wants to build three tents, because it was the sixth day of the feast of tents. This was a very popular feast of six days that celebrated the gift of the Law of God and the forty years spent in the desert. ” – How I wish I could have stayed in this parish! I loved it so! But our Lord was not finished with me!  Praise be to our LORD 

Back then,  I couldn’t yet, understand the Cross.

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Eucharist, Passover, First Born, Death & Life


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Pondering…

At Passover: Exodus 12 “For on this same night I will go through Egypt, striking down every firstborn in the land, human being and beast alike, and executing judgment on all the gods of Egypt—I, the LORD! But for you the blood will mark the houses where you are. Seeing the blood, I will pass over you; thereby, when I strike the land of Egypt, no destructive blow will come upon you. This day will be a day of remembrance for you, which your future generations will celebrate with pilgrimage to the LORD; you will celebrate it as a statute forever.”

Last Supper: Mark 14 “While they were eating, he took bread, said the blessing, broke it, and gave it to them, and said, “Take it; this is my body.” 23 Then he took a cup, gave thanks, and gave it to them, and they all drank from it. He said to them, 1 Corinthians 11 –  “This cup is the new covenant in my blood. Do this, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of me.”

Therefore whoever eats the bread or drinks the cup of the Lord unworthily will have to answer for the body and blood of the Lord. A person should examine himself,and so eat the bread and drink the cup. For anyone who eats and drinks without discerning the body, eats and drinks judgment on himself. That is why many among you are ill and infirm, and a considerable number are dying.

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The Blood of the Lamb… Our bodies are the temple of the Holy Spirit. Shouldn’t our Lord’s precious blood always cover the doorposts to our temple, just as the doorposts were covered in the blood of a lamb during Passover. Ensuring that the angel of death pass us by? Where is this Precious Blood to be found but in the Sacrament of Reconciliation. Where redemption is found to the soul who seeks repenting.

How do we receive our Lord in the Eucharist? Is it in a clean temple? Do we prepare to receive Him by examination of our conscious? Do we look deep into how we are living and ask if it is the way we were called to live by our Lord or is it a sinful life we called ourselves to live? Do we repent and seek reconciliation first? If the door posts are not covered in His Precious Blood, are we inviting death instead of Life?

Our Lord is the First Born from the dead. He is the First and the Last. He is the only begotten Son, sacrificed for us on the cross for the forgiveness of our sins.. No other Sacrifice has covered our sins.

Repent.

Cohabitation And Holy Communion

 

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Old Man And The New Man


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Once an old man spread rumors that his neighbor was a thief. As a result, the young man was arrested.
Days later the young man was proven innocent. After being released he sued the old man for wrongly accusing him.
In the court the old man told the Judge:
“They were just comments, didn’t harm anyone.”
The judge told the old man:
“Write all the things you said about him on a piece of paper. Tear it up on the way home and throw away the pieces. Tomorrow, come back to hear the sentence.”
Next day, the judge told the old man:
“Before receiving the sentence, you will have to go out and gather all the pieces of paper that you threw out yesterday.”
The old man said:
“I can’t do that! The wind spread them and I won’t know where to find them.”
The judge then replied:
“The same way, simple comments may destroy the honor of a man to such an extent that one is not able to fix it. If you can’t speak well of someone, rather don’t say anything.”

*”Let’s all be masters of our words rather than being slaves of our words.”*


“Write everything down, on the way home, tear it up and throw away the pieces” <— Its very important to understand, we just don’t cast it (sin) to the wind where it is taken all over and others read it and are influenced by it to do the same. We place it in the trash can when we get home. That “trash can” is the confessional and you know where home is. And when you place it there, leave it there.

When I read this above, which was shared on Facebook by a Catholic Priest,  I can see myself as both the young man and the old man. The “old self” and the “new self”.

And what is a soul to do? Trust in our Lord. Place your faith in our Lord. Hope in our Lord. Believe Him. Love Him.

 

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Why We March – Day 8 #iStand4Life


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Intercession

For an end to the use of the death penalty in our country.

JUSTICE! I want JUSTICE! Perfect justice is a conversion of heart..

Beloved, do not look for revenge but leave room for the wrath; for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” – Romans 12:19

When we look to our Lord, mercy and justice go hand and hand. What is more beautiful justice, to end another life or to convert the heart of that soul who’s been blinded by their own injustice to others? To see ones sin and turn from it to do good and not sin, is justice served. By taking away life, justice is there by taken away in the means that the soul is unable to make amends for that injustice committed.

How often to we look at others who have hurt us and say from our hearts,  “if you could only see how you are hurting.”. By taking away a life, we are not allowing that person to see, in their time, given to them by God, but rather taking justice into our own hands.Taking away the gift of repentance. Taking into our own hands and exercising the Sovereignty of God in a way that is contrary to God.

“Do I find pleasure in the death of the wicked—oracle of the Lord GOD? Do I not rejoice when they turn from their evil way and live? And if the just turn from justice and do evil, like all the abominations the wicked do, can they do this evil and still live? None of the justice they did shall be remembered, because they acted treacherously and committed these sins; because of this, they shall die”  Ezekiel 18:23-24

Please read my story: The Power of Forgiveness

 

 

 

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Why We March – Day 2 #IStand4Life


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Repent and believe in the Good News…

*Because January 22, 2017 falls on a Sunday, the annual “Day of Prayer for the Legal Protection of Unborn Children” is observed Monday, January 23 in 2017.

#9DaysforLife with @USCCB Day 2

How to pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet via EWTN

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Free Climate Change Education


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RE: Priests ‘should learn about climate change as part of their formation’

Two sides of the education:

Side one..

Climate Change & Global Warming = Garbage science of secular propaganda where man believes he can control the climate by buying it away & making tons of money selling it to consumers (AKA suckers) feeding off fears of global destruction.

“Money is in some respects like fire; it is a very excellent servant but a terrible master. ” – P. T. Barnum

Now..

Side two…

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Our Lords “Global Warming” & Changing the Climate within = a serious conversion of heart, turning from sin and towards Him, loving Him first and realizing the natural desire of love (Before the fall of Adam & Eve) is love one another which includes taking care of (nurturing) ALL CREATION & Creatures of God’s, for future generations for the glory of God and not self…

From the CCC
God creates an ordered and good world
299 Because God creates through wisdom, his creation is ordered: “You have arranged all things by measure and number and weight.”151 The universe, created in and by the eternal Word, the “image of the invisible God”, is destined for and addressed to man, himself created in the “image of God” and called to a personal relationship with God.152 Our human understanding, which shares in the light of the divine intellect, can understand what God tells us by means of his creation, though not without great effort and only in a spirit of humility and respect before the Creator and his work.153 Because creation comes forth from God’s goodness, it shares in that goodness – “And God saw that it was good. . . very good” 154- for God willed creation as a gift addressed to man, an inheritance destined for and entrusted to him. On many occasions the Church has had to defend the goodness of creation, including that of the physical world. 155

God upholds and sustains creation.
301 With creation, God does not abandon his creatures to themselves. He not only gives them being and existence, but also, and at every moment, upholds and sustains them in being, enables them to act and brings them to their final end. Recognizing this utter dependence with respect to the Creator is a source of wisdom and freedom, of joy and confidence:

For you love all things that exist, and detest none of the things that you have made; for you would not have made anything if you had hated it. How would anything have endured, if you had not willed it? Or how would anything not called forth by you have been preserved? You spare all things, for they are yours, O Lord, you who love the living. 160

 

Psalm 104

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1 Bless the LORD, my soul!

LORD, my God, you are great indeed!

You are clothed with majesty and splendor,

2 robed in light as with a cloak.

You spread out the heavens like a tent;

3 setting the beams of your chambers upon the waters.

You make the clouds your chariot;

traveling on the wings of the wind.

4 You make the winds your messengers;

flaming fire, your ministers.

II

5 You fixed the earth on its foundation,

so it can never be shaken.

6 The deeps covered it like a garment;

above the mountains stood the waters.

7 At your rebuke they took flight;

at the sound of your thunder they fled.

8 They rushed up the mountains, down the valleys

to the place you had fixed for them.

9 You set a limit they cannot pass;

never again will they cover the earth.

III

10 You made springs flow in wadies

that wind among the mountains.

11 They give drink to every beast of the field;

here wild asses quench their thirst.

12 Beside them the birds of heaven nest;

among the branches they sing.

13You water the mountains from your chambers;

from the fruit of your labor the earth abounds.

14 You make the grass grow for the cattle

and plants for people’s work

to bring forth food from the earth,

15wine to gladden their hearts,

oil to make their faces shine,

and bread to sustain the human heart.

16 The trees of the LORD drink their fill,

the cedars of Lebanon, which you planted.

17 There the birds build their nests;

the stork in the junipers, its home.

18 The high mountains are for wild goats;

the rocky cliffs, a refuge for badgers.

IV

19 You made the moon to mark the seasons,

the sun that knows the hour of its setting.

20 You bring darkness and night falls,

then all the animals of the forest wander about.

21 Young lions roar for prey;

they seek their food from God.

22 When the sun rises, they steal away

and settle down in their dens.

23 People go out to their work,

to their labor till evening falls.

V

24 How varied are your works, LORD!

In wisdom you have made them all;

the earth is full of your creatures.

25 There is the sea, great and wide!

It teems with countless beings,

living things both large and small.

26 There ships ply their course

and Leviathan, whom you formed to play with.

VI

27 All of these look to you

to give them food in due time.

28 When you give it to them, they gather;

when you open your hand, they are well filled.

29 When you hide your face, they panic.

Take away their breath, they perish

and return to the dust.

30 Send forth your spirit, they are created

and you renew the face of the earth.

VII

31 May the glory of the LORD endure forever;

may the LORD be glad in his works!

32 Who looks at the earth and it trembles,

touches the mountains and they smoke!

33 I will sing to the LORD all my life;

I will sing praise to my God while I live.

34 May my meditation be pleasing to him;

I will rejoice in the LORD.

35 May sinners vanish from the earth,

and the wicked be no more.

Bless the LORD, my soul! Hallelujah!

End of education

Thank you & God bless you always

EDIT TO ADD:

The media loves to stir the pot. Here is the actual document issued today. Tell me where exactly that headline at the top of this post, is the only thing covered in the actual Document released today. Its a very small portion, and once again, headlines get readers, even if the content and information is miniscule:

The Gift Of Priestly Vocation

Vatican issues new guidelines for priestly formation

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Holy Week Direct From Heaven


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I have written quite often about my conversion concerning the day my dad entered into eternal life. It was September 23, 1996, the feast of St. Padre Pio and my dad had been the glue that held my family, brothers and sisters and myself together. Since his death, many have left the Catholic faith and went off doing what ever. In all honestly, since I moved out to California I had lost contact with most of them and focused on what I had asked in that prayer.

The night my dad died, as he lay dying, I prayed that he would talk to our Lord and get me back home to Him. Here we are, 2016 and after extensive repenting and getting back in communion, I will be making my first Profession in the Third Order Of Carmel, TOC on October 1.

This morning at Holy Mass, during the Homily, my priest had told us that the main objective of our duties this Holy Week, was New Evangelization to those within our own Family’s who had left the faith. I sat with my head hung low as I knew this job that had just been presented to me, would be extremely difficult, as my brothers and sisters in my own family, along with nieces and nephews and even my own oldest daughter, have left the faith. Along with cousins, and others. Outside of an older sister of mine, the entire family stopped believing in Him and the faith we all grew up into and went their own ways. It has been extremely painful for me in many ways as I have been viewed by them as the crazy one. One never to be listened to. From the onset of my Conversion of Heart, I can not stop listening to our Lord, nor will I. I left them all and continued to cling to our Lord and the only Truth left in this world. And here we are.

This morning after Holy Mass, I took our Lord in the Eucharist to a few souls in the Nursing Home and had a conversation with an elderly friend of mine named Lilly, who is also a professed member of my Carmelite family.

We spoke about the topic of New Evangelization to family, and I had expressed to her that the only way anyone would ever listen to me, in my own family or home, was if I were dead. After leaving her, I prayed and realized I am dead to them. The person they knew no longer exists and they still won’t listen.

I arrived at home and the mail man had come. I noticed two packages and brought them in without even looking to see who they were addressed for. I assumed they were for my daughter and husband. As I was placing them on the table, I noticed my name on one of them. The return address was my sister whom I don’t talk to much anymore. I opened the package and cried when I seen what it was. Here in a package addressed to me was a message never intended for me, but for all my brothers and sisters who have left the faith. Directly from my dad.

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Inside the box I found my dad’s First Holy Communion Certificate dated May 21, 1936 along with his personal prayer book. I read the letter attached from my sister which stated, she had found these in an envelop with my dad’s personal items, marked specifically, “Important Papers”. I knew just how important they are but unfortunately, my sister didn’t understand who they were meant for. This package was a direct message from my dad to my brothers and sisters who had left the faith. The “Important Paper” with your name on it. Remember YOUR Baptism. Remember YOUR First Holy Communion. Remember YOUR Confirmation. Remember OUR Lord. Remember OUR First Love. Return to Him. There is nothing else on the face of the earth more important than our faith. I also knew my dad needed me share this with them. They refuse to listen to me, I pray they listen to him. I pray they return to our Lord also. I pray all my Catholic Family return back home to Him, with their entire heart, mind, soul and strength. There is no greater Love than His for you. Repent. The door is open. Homecoming is just one confession away. I love you and I pray for all my brothers and sisters. St. Constantine the Great, pray for us.

All praise, glory and honor to our Lord, Jesus Christ. Amen.

EDIT TO ADD: After I had written this today, a tweet came across from the USCCB that just filled me with our Lord’s love.

 

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From tonight’s Divine Office: Evening Prayer

“Listen, O daughter, give ear to my words:
forget your own people and your father’s house.
So will the king desire your beauty:
He is your lord, pay homage to him.”

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