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The Wounded Warrior

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Oh how our Lord surprises us, when we least expect it. One can never hide from Him, as He is everywhere. Hiding in plain sight.

My husband has been dealing with knee issues, since he retired from the Marines a few years back. For the past few weeks, he has had some serious pain, even waking him up at night, along with keeping him up. He finally had enough and called the VA to make an appointment. I drove him to the VA here in San Diego, and found myself unable to get a parking spot. So I dropped him off at the front doors, and continued to look for somewhere to park. A spot never opened large enough for my husbands car, so I corresponded with him, getting updates via text messages, as I parked a few blocks away from where he was. I couldn’t see him, I couldn’t see what he was going through, but I prayed. He was there for about an hour, and discharged. We had to drive up to the VA hospital in La Jolla, so he could get a knee brace and some other things. It actually was rather quick. Please keep Mark in your prayers, as we wait for a diagnosis, and for what our next step may be for him.

As we got to La Jolla, he realized it was much easier for him to access healthcare he needed there, rather than the one closer to our home. The parking was not cramped, and if for some reason, I was unable to take him, he could find a parking spot and not miss his appointment.

We walked into the hospital and could see a Starbucks, a good sized Military gift shop and many souls in need of prayers and healing. The women at the information counter told us where to go, and we began a long walk to where my husband needed to pick up his items. My eyes lit up when we got to the Hospital Chapel. It was just after noon when we arrived, and they had Catholic Mass celebrated at 11:30 AM. Not just that day, but every day but Saturday. I was not expecting this at all as our day began and quite honestly, wished we had made it sooner, so we could attend.

I said to my husband that I would love to go inside to see it. I could not see inside as the entrance was a solid door. We continued on to where my husband needed to go without looking in. As we got to the prosthetic’s department, he had to go in to be fitted for his brace and told me to go and check out the Chapel while I waited for him and I jumped at the chance.

As I walked in, I was awestruck. Instantly thoughts of our Lord on the Cross, came to me, as Thee Wounded Warrior. You see, He was there, right there in that room.

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He survived the battle of death, and defeated the enemy, once and for all. He lives today, to tell us all about it, to all who would listen. I was so awestruck, I could do nothing but listen with my heart. I seen in my thoughts, so many things that I could never put into words. How many hospitals & nursing homes I had been to with Him, bringing Him to the sick,  and this was His room, in this place.

I walked into the Adoration Chapel, immediately falling to my knees and began to pray for all the souls there, and others. I sat in silence, unable to think of anything but Him. He was here! Do others know? How is it that so many walk by without even noticing? I wanted to grab all the souls I seen and take them to Him.

There is a frustration that I have, which I see how souls can not see Him there, just as it wasn’t that long ago, neither would I have. There are days I want to SCREAM what is wrong with souls who don’t believe, but don’t.  Because I know, I didn’t either and forcing anyone to understand this, is not how our Lord works.

My little time with our Lord, the Wounded Warrior, was about to end here, but His time will not. This moment will be imprinted on my heart and I will be unable to forget it. Its just another moment of finding Him in places which we never assume He might be. Oh, but He is. Hidden in plain sight.

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From the treatise Against Heresies by Saint Irenaeus, bishop and martyr
(Lib. 4, 6, 3. 5. 6. 7: SC 100, 442. 446. 448-454)

Knowledge of the Father consists in the self-revelation of the Son

No one can know the Father apart from God’s Word, that is, unless the Son reveals him, and no one can know the Son unless the Father so wills. Now the Son fulfills the Father’s good pleasure: the Father sends, the Son is sent, and he comes. The Father is beyond our sight and comprehension; but he is known by his Word, who tells us of him who surpasses all telling. In turn, the Father alone has knowledge of his Word. And the Lord has revealed both truths. Therefore, the Son reveals the knowledge of the Father by his revelation of himself. Knowledge of the Father consists in the self-revelation of the Son, for all is revealed through the Word.

The Father’s purpose in revealing the Son was to make himself known to us all and so to welcome into eternal rest those who believe in him, establishing them in justice, preserving them from death. To believe in him means to do his will.

Through creation itself the Word reveals God the Creator. Through the world he reveals the Lord who made the world. Through all that is fashioned he reveals the craftsman who fashioned it all. Through the Son the Word reveals the Father who begot him as Son. All speak of these things in the same language, but they do not believe them in the same way. Through the law and the prophets the Word revealed himself and his Father in the same way, and though all the people equally heard the message not all equally believed it. Through the Word, made visible and palpable, the Father was revealed, though not all equally believed in him. But all saw the Father in the Son, for the Father of the Son cannot be seen, but the Son of the Father can be seen.

The Son performs everything as a ministry to the Father, from beginning to end, and without the Son no one can know God. The way to know the Father is the Son. Knowledge of the Son is in the Father, and is revealed through the Son. For this reason the Lord said: No one knows the Son except the Father; and no one knows the Father except the Son, and those to whom the Son has revealed him. The word “revealed” refers not only to the future—as though the Word began to reveal the Father only when he was born of Mary; it refers equally to all time. From the beginning the Son is present to creation, reveals the Father to all, to those the Father chooses, when the Father chooses, and as the Father chooses. So, there is in all and through all one God the Father, one Word and Son, and one Spirit, and one salvation for all who believe in him.

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Third Week Of Advent

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Closing out the Second week of Advent, I was able to attend our parish Penance Service. For the first time in many weeks, I was able to make a clean and beautiful confession. I entered into the Sacrament with nothing to lose and everything to gain. Half way through confession, I began to cry like a baby. Many things I had not seen before had come to light in my heart, and it was so wonderful to finally let go of the many false hopes I had had and become nothing again.

I had found many things this week which needed to be addressed within. The first being that little room I had created within for our Lord and I, to rest. It was as if so much of the world and its noise had entered into that solitude, that I had to strain just to hear Him. Our Lord reminded me of something I had not been doing in my daily routine, since I had begun testing for MS. He had shown me what was missing, therefor handing me the key to that room, which seemed to be locked with me on the outside.

Since my injury, I had been missing daily Mass. It became painful to sit in the pew, so I had not gone, but rather began to watch the televised Mass. Over time, distractions came, and something else or nothing was on, as I simply turned the television off.  It became very clear to me this week, that my presence at Daily Mass, is truly essential to the spiritual well being of my soul. Its been almost two years of testing and the first year, seen me locked in my bed, or in a chair. I had begun physical therapy a year into this condition, and regained the use of my hands, built up strength and became able to do most things again, limiting the amount of weight I can carry, but still able to move and do most chores. As I did, I began to slip into old habits where I lost patience with others, and began to do things which bothered my interior life. Mainly seeing things I began doing not being as charitable as I had been, nor as I know I could be. Why was this happening? Well, because I had addressed the body, without addressing the spirit. I was working out and doing things externally without thinking about the spiritual needs of my soul and the presence of our Lord in the Eucharist, which became a daily necessity! I was missing Him.

With this Third Week of Advent, and that light upon the pink candle, may we come to realize the importance of our Lord’s real presence within us, and keep the fire within lit, by Him, with Him and through Him. Least we become like smoldering wicks, cooled in a time when His flame of Love can be found, as He is the One they said would come.

May all come to drink, feast and rely on Him who Is!

“My spirit has become dry because it forgets to feed on You.” – St. John of the Cross

 

 

 

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Thanksgiving – 2019

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For all that has been

For all that is now

For all that will be

Thank you Lord, I love You too.

For all time, and all eternity.

 

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It Is Him – The Eucharist

I need to share this. We always struggle with our faith. We hear Him calling us, and yet, we put off “going home” because we think we know better. We listen to the “world”, and think it is better. It is not. We are not. Our Lord knows EVERYTHING and knows what you need before you even ask Him.

I could not understand why those around me, didn’t want to believe my conversion story. This: Just one-third of U.S. Catholics agree with their church that Eucharist is body, blood of Christ – Tells me why. If souls do not believe Him, why would they believe me? I refuse to stop there. I know without a doubt it is Him and nothing in this world, will ever get me to not listen to Him and not believe Him again. Hearing Him has left a mark on me that I can never deny Him again.

This is a huge part of my conversion back home to the Catholic Church. I had been struggling for MANY years with this sin. I hope it brings other to face their fear of their own sins, and overcome them, returning to our Lord who waits for you with open arms.

Easter 2008 – My husband was home from Yuma (USMC separated us for a time), and I went into the yard to water. There is a protestant church behind our home and as I watered the trees and grass, I watched all these cars pulling in for “Easter” services. I stood and chucked a bit, as a Catholic, and said to myself: What did they even do in there? Its not real worship! – THAT VERY SECOND – In my heart, I heard our LORD ask me: Where are you? What are YOU doing? – That voice ROCKED my world. Destroyed it! Where was I? What was I doing? I certainly wasn’t at Mass! I certainly wasn’t where I was supposed to be! It bothered me for a WEEK. I could NOT stop thinking about it. By the time the following Sunday came, I found myself NEEDING to get to Mass. It was Divine Mercy Sunday, and I NEVER stopped attending Holy Mass again. The following December, I heard that voice in my heart again! The post below is what He said. The YEARS since, is what He has done to me ❤ I share this to give Him the praise, glory, honor and all the power. Thank you LORD. I love You too.

Cohabitation And Holy Communion

 

If today your hear His voice, harden not your hearts

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Manifesto of Faith

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“The Catholic Church does not need you to save her. She is here to save you.” I wrote these words five years ago, and I was reminded of them this morning. I don’t know why I am compelled so deeply to place it here, but it is.

Tonight, I was in awe to find my former Parish Adoration Chapel packed with souls sitting with our Lord. Awestruck. I cried, as it was not very long ago, I was here alone with our Lord for hours upon hours, with only a few regular souls who would come to sit with Him. I would pray to our Lord for conversions, for souls to hear His voice and to come to Him. Tonight, I was able to see them. I am grateful. Please read “Our Lady of Guadalupe“, a post I wrote during that time..

I am in the midst for reading the Manifesto of Faith, and I will comment on it when I have finished. Below is the link. Please read it and ponder it.

Cardinal Gerhard Müller has issued a forthright “manifesto of faith,” calling primarily on Church leaders to fulfil their obligation to lead people to salvation in the face of “growing confusion” about Church doctrine. 

Manifesto of Faith

 

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It Is The Thought

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“And the Word became flesh-

and made his dwelling among us,

and we saw his glory,

the glory as of the Father’s only Son,

full of grace and truth.”

 

This Christmas, my husband surprised me with a gift only our Lord could inspire him to get me. One which will be shared with two thousand souls.

As I have been going through testing for MS, my doctor placed me on a diet. One I was not thrilled about. Its completely gluten free. No flour of any kind that contained any wheat. Not to test me for celiac disease, but to see if I have a sensitivity to gluten which may be causing any of the symptoms I may be having. One of the issues I had with this diet, was that I would not be able to receive our Lord in the Eucharist. I can, however, receive Him through the Sacred Blood, which is available at my parish.

The day I had gotten home from the doctor, just a few days before my birthday, I had told my husband about the strict diet. I let him know my thoughts about the whole thing and I wasn’t exactly happy about not being able to receive our Lord, nor have birthday cake, nor anything through Christmas with flour in it. It was only temporary, but the timing of this, was not exactly the best, or so I thought.

Since this last bout of what ever this may be has come about in June,  I have noticed a beautiful change in my husband, in which he as become very attentive and caring, pulling the two of us much closer than we had ever been at any time in our marriage.

For the past few weeks on this strange diet I had been very good. I have been avoiding everything so we could see just how much of a change would take place. I made cookies and all sorts of sweets for Christmas, offering up the fact that I couldn’t even taste them. This is only a temporary diet, and by my next doctor appointment, I will be able to have what I could not, again.

On Christmas Morning, as we were opening up gifts, my husband handed me my stocking. I pulled out two boxes and looked at them with a puzzled look on my face. I couldn’t tell what they were. My husband looked at me and said, “I know you would NEVER buy them for yourself, so I wanted to get them for you, because I know how important it is. I don’t know if they are okay to use, and I’m not sure they can be, because I know there are rules, but I wanted you to have them.”.  He then preceded to tell me they were two boxes of hosts. Although, gluten free hosts.

My jaw must have hit the floor when he told me what he had done for me. In that very moment, it was as if our Lord was speaking to me. I didn’t know what to say. I was in awe at the gift. This gift meant everything to me. Granted, they can not be used, as there are strict stipulations on Communion Bread in the Catholic Church. I looked at my husband as if I was looking into the eyes of our Lord. The love that consumed me at that very moment, will never be forgotten.

As the day progressed, the thought of this gift inflamed my heart so deep in love. I looked at them, pondering our Lord, opened them and seen the ingredients, knowing full well at that moment, they were not usable for Catholic Mass. So driven by love, we purchased two boxes of usable Hosts with wheat, and when they are delivered, we will give them to our parish as a gift of our Lord that will be shared with all.

Merry Christmas! 

 

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True Joy As I Wake

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This morning as I was just waking, I was dreaming and all the demons in hell were demanding me to get out.
I heard a voice telling me to walk through the door. The door was closed and I didn’t know how to open it. So I walked through it as it was still closed. And the SECOND I did, I was in the locked room with the Apostles and it was the very moment our Lord said PEACE!

I woke and fixed my gaze on the photo of our Lord in the Eucharist. Its a BEAUTIFUL Joyful Day! The peace of our Lord is still here.

The oddest thing about this dream, were the suffering demons. All the suffering they had, all their complaints were so trivial. So senseless. For the ones I pondered were so nonsensical I found it laughable because it was so obviously self inflicted and a complete denial of reality and His grace.

Upon waking, to see our Lord in the Eucharist, in a photo on my dresser, combined with the joy I had of being in that room with Him in that dream, caused me to wake like a child on Christmas morning. I could NOT wait to enter into prayers and attend Holy Mass. He is THE gift! No dreaming, but His Real Presence! I found such great concentration in my prayers today and that is something I had been missing as my attention has been focused on my illness.

I wanted to share this today, because this is what I can do. I hope it brings His joy to souls today.

EDIT TO ADD 10/29/2018

“Behold, I have set before you an open door, which no one is able to shut. I know you have but little power, and yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name” (Rev. 3:8).

And this morning, just before I wake, the dreaming was all about BAKED FISH. An abundance of baked fish that not one soul could even remotely consume for ones self. And it was GOOD!

Today’s Gospel

Gospel LK 13:10-17

Jesus was teaching in a synagogue on the sabbath.
And a woman was there who for eighteen years
had been crippled by a spirit;
she was bent over, completely incapable of standing erect.
When Jesus saw her, he called to her and said,
“Woman, you are set free of your infirmity.”
He laid his hands on her,
and she at once stood up straight and glorified God.
But the leader of the synagogue,
indignant that Jesus had cured on the sabbath,
said to the crowd in reply,
“There are six days when work should be done.
Come on those days to be cured, not on the sabbath day.”
The Lord said to him in reply, “Hypocrites!
Does not each one of you on the sabbath
untie his ox or his ass from the manger
and lead it out for watering?
This daughter of Abraham,
whom Satan has bound for eighteen years now,
ought she not to have been set free on the sabbath day
from this bondage?”
When he said this, all his adversaries were humiliated;
and the whole crowd rejoiced at all the splendid deeds done by him.

 

 

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