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O Beauty Ever Ancient, Ever New


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I couldn’t sleep. So I found a moment, spending time with one of my favorites, on his feast day. We were walking through how St. Augustine Florida got its name. And of course, our Lord brings me His peace, in teaching me that rivals and political fighting have always been things of worldly souls.

Don Pedro Menéndez de Avilés was sent by Spain (Catholic) to protect Spanish interests as international rivalries began to play out across the Atlantic. France (Huguenots) were to be expelled. In finding this, quite interesting by the way, it brought me comfort in the way in how when we look at our past, in Truth, the more things change, the more our Lord stays the same.

“In retrospect, the decision to name the town St. Augustine seems to have been a fitting one. During its history of over 450 years, the town, like its namesake, has experienced its share of struggles. St. Augustine has been burned and looted on several occasions by pirates, hostile natives and rival Europeans. It has changed hands from country to country four times(!). During the civil rights movement, it was the location of numerous protests and counter attacks.”

And yet, remained named St. Augustine. How many attacks have we, the Church faced over the 2000 year history? How many struggles? And yet, she remains because our Lord remains.

“Late have I loved you, O Beauty ever ancient, ever new, late have I loved you! You were within me, but I was outside, and it was there that I searched for you. In my unloveliness I plunged into the lovely things which you created. You were with me, but I was not with you. Created things kept me from you; yet if they had not been in you they would have not been at all. You called, you shouted, and you broke through my deafness. You flashed, you shone, and you dispelled my blindness. You breathed your fragrance on me; I drew in breath and now I pant for you. I have tasted you, now I hunger and thirst for more. You touched me, and I burned for your peace.”

St. Augustine of Hippo, pray for us

And now, rest.

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An Unforgiving World


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I know my blog is about my pondering, but I ask my readers this time, to ponder…

Something to ponder when you feel overwhelmed by what is taking place in this world. When you hear words like “I will never forgive __________” , or this or that is unforgivable, or we should round them all up, kick them out and kill them. Ponder also when we say these things ourselves and think about how many others live this way, unable to forgive for anything. Ponder how some souls in your own life, who you love dearly, refuse to forgive you and how it makes you feel.

Now, look at our Lord on the cross, and remember His words:

“Father, forgive them; for they do not know what they are doing.”

How can we expect or demand peace, in such an unforgiving world?

By forgiving and keeping our focus on what is above.

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Thank You For The Roses


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7/12/14 I was received into Carmel, back then being the Feast of Saint Veronica and the Holy Face, and yesterday, July 12th was the Feast day chosen by the Church for Louis and Zelie Martin parents of St. Therese. Thank you for the roses Little Flower. Thank you my Sister and my Mother, Our Lady of Mount Carmel, for the protection of your beautiful Mantle.

Only now can I see, the religious calling going way back into my childhood. On the road back home to our Lord, we encounter many devious voices which discourage us. Most of which fill us with doubt about our calling. This has been no different from what I have encountered. I never thought I was good enough and had a very skewed idea of what a Religious Calling was. A Nun? Right. They would toss me out quicker than the morning trash. Back in the 90’s, I heard that call again and I had actually looked deeper this time, and contacted a Monastery about what was required of me. Of course, Nuns and Sisters didn’t have biological children, so once again, I thought like the worldly in thinking this was just another voice pushing me to do something that was not the voice of our Lord. But this time, I longed to be one. I longed to be good. I didn’t want to be what I was living, as a very sinful worldly woman. I was in pain and the way I was living, was causing pain to others. On this date in 2001, I became a rape survivor. The spiritual war is real. Every deterrent known in hell, is thrown at a soul seeking our Lord and our Lord overcomes them all.

That seed in my heart, planted by our Lord at baptism, was beginning to sprout. Over the years, that sprout kept growing without much attention by me. Until it became so big, it could no longer be ignored. I heard the call in my heart from our Lord in a voice I became familiar with. And over time, His voice became the only one I could hear and I longed to be with Him always. He is the Light in the darkness.  He lead me to healing, serving, repenting, and loving. Going even so far as to renounce my secular marriage and bring my husband into the Sacrament of Marriage. See HERE 

I looked again at what I thought was a Religious Vocation during that time of deep repentance, and realized almost twenty years later, there is the Third Order of Carmel. As a wife and a mother, the Third Order became the gateway for Living Water, that my soul so deeply longed for to live in. There are no coincidences, as today we celebrate the Sainthood of these beautiful parents, who inspire many, to reach their own children, through “Little Ways”.

I am eternally grateful to our Lord! And the journey has only just begun.

St. Louis and St. Zelie Martin, along with St. Therese, the “Little Flower”, pray for who are parents, in need of healing, in need of growing close to our Lord, so as to bring His peace to us all.

Our Lady of Mount Carmel, pray for us.

Thank you Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you Abba Father. Thank you most kind and loving Holy Spirit. I love You too. Have mercy on us all.

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Who Is The Accuser


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The many, many “news” story’s I see today, written by whomever, saying Catholics must love and accept LGBT, or this group, or that group and so on, has caused me to ask our Lord in prayer, and I pray you ask Him also: Who is my accuser that assumes the Church does not love them?

The Catholic Church has always been open to all, as a Father and Mother loves all their children, always open to welcoming life to the family of faith. The disconnect comes when we assume that Love is acceptance of insubordination or defiance. It is not. Love corrects the defiant or insubordinate child and does not allow the child to be disruptive, for the benefit of the child. Love does have rules. When the rules of Love are broken, it is not Love, but less than Love.

“Many gave false witness against him, but their testimony did not agree.” Mark 14:56

 

 

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Most Holy Trinity Sunday


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In the name of the Father, and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.

Its been a very busy few days for me. My husband graduated from College with a Bachelor of Science in Aeronautics, and his celebration was on the same day of our children’s last day of school, on this past Friday. Yesterday morning, I woke early and drove to meet my sister in Las Vegas, who was helping my niece move.

I made the drive to Vegas, to see my sister and pick up a box of very old photos and mementos from our family.  Photos of my parents and other relatives my children have never met. Its a way for me to show them the many souls that have helped to create our “family”.  The six hour drive from San Diego, on Saturday morning, was full of prayer and reflection on our Lord. Not anything near as beautiful as this morning has been, in the celebration of Holy Mass for the Feast of the Most Holy Trinity.

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My sister and I had planned on attending the 11:00 AM Holy Mass at Guardian Angles Cathedral in Las Vegas, but as plans often change, I was awake a little after five-thirty this morning and we were able to attend the 8:00 AM Holy Mass.  It was easy to find the Cathedral and when we pulled out front and parked, we had arrived about an hour early.

I contemplated the design of the Church and the mosaic on the front. (Photo above at the top of the post). The message is very clear although the art itself, modern as it is,  isn’t exactly what sparks in me.  As we entered the Cathedral, as I normally do, my eyes sought our Lord in the Tabernacle. He wasn’t behind the Altar. So we looked deeper and my heart lead us to a small room off to the left of the Altar.

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We prayed in front of our Lord until Mass was about to begin. In contemplation, I struggled with the design and the things that didn’t register with me. I tried to focus on the Glorious Mysteries of the Holy Rosary. Still with reverence to our Lord and the Truth of His presence here.  As we finished praying, we went to see the little gift shop in the back of the Cathedral, which contained many beautiful religious things.

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As Holy Mass was about to start, we took our place inside once again, and I began to pray. Holy Mass in this place, was so beautiful, It changed my entire outlook of what I thought wasn’t appeasing to my eyes. At the very moment of Transubstantiation,  our Lord’s presence on the Altar, I heard in my heart, “Look through”.  The eyes in my heart began to see what He was saying to me. The entire Cathedral was full of the symbolism of the Most Holy Trinity. The TRIANGLE. Looking beyond the art that didn’t speak in me, I could see very clearly what our Lord in the Eucharist was saying and showing me. The inner beauty of this place being the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. All present.

 

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As Holy Mass ended, I left this beautiful Cathedral in the heart of “Sin City”, in His peace, knowing the Triumph of our Lord with fresh eyes, in the Most Holy Trinity.

The above photo of the stained glass window can be found at the link below. Its called:

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Guardian Angel Cathedral Link for the art

The photo at the beginning of this post was taken by my sister, the others were taken from other public sites on the internet. 

If you find yourself in “Sin City”, I highly suggest a visit to Holy Mass. Often.

Glory be to the Father,
and to the Son,
and to the Holy Spirit.
As it was in the beginning,
is now,
and ever shall be,
world without end.

Amen.

 

 

 

 

 

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Why We March – Day 2 #IStand4Life


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Repent and believe in the Good News…

*Because January 22, 2017 falls on a Sunday, the annual “Day of Prayer for the Legal Protection of Unborn Children” is observed Monday, January 23 in 2017.

#9DaysforLife with @USCCB Day 2

How to pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet via EWTN

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That Moment


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How shall I make a return to the Lord for all the good he has done for me?

That moment you realize your really listening to the Good Shepherd….

As a hart longs for flowing streams, so longs my soul for thee, O God

While on retreat this past weekend, I was pondering that voice I had been listening to. It was a chilly and very windy day Saturday and in the midst of silence, I found myself walking around taking in the beauty of the nature I was placed in. I came to a water feature and bent down, finding myself asking our Lord, “Is it you Lord? Is this voice I have been listening to You? In an instant, I heard a slight giggle in my heart. I began to look myself over and I was dressed in all in white. The pants I unknowingly put on that morning were white along with my shirt were white and I was wearing my comfy snugly white coat that is fluffy like a lamb. I looked up at the statue atop the water feature and a smile came over my face. In that moment, I knew for a fact.

Yes. The lost sheep indeed was finally home, healed, and at peace. It was no doubt the Good Shepherd who retrieved me. The Good Shepherd Who healed me. The Good Shepherd who I love. It also just happened to be “Good Shepherd” weekend. We are his people, the sheep of his flock.

Jesus said:
“My sheep hear my voice;
I know them, and they follow me.
I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish.
No one can take them out of my hand.
My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all,
and no one can take them out of the Father’s hand.
The Father and I are one.”

 

 

 

 

 

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