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You will need to read the last post from today, Testing, to understand a little more in regards to this post. Also, the post Eucharist may be a great help also. The Sacrament of Confession is a shower of graces.

My penance was to recite one decade of the Rosary. I knelt and started to pray, thinking which decade shall I recite and the Baptism of our Lord came to my heart. As I began to pray, I heard water and heard it again. I opened my eyes to see someone changing the Holy Water in the fonts at the doors. Here I was, pondering the Baptism of our Lord, the sound of Holy Water was a beautiful addition to the quite. I could see Him so clearly and thanked Him for the grace of being able to be there today at this very second to experience Him in such a way. I began to pray another decade of the rosary thinking of my penance. As I finished, the angelus prayer was just beginning, which lead us into the Holy Mass.

Todays first reading Ezekiel 47: 1 – 9, 12

1 Then he brought me back to the door of the temple; and behold, water was issuing from below the threshold of the temple toward the east (for the temple faced east); and the water was flowing down from below the south end of the threshold of the temple, south of the altar.
2 Then he brought me out by way of the north gate, and led me round on the outside to the outer gate, that faces toward the east; and the water was coming out on the south side.
3 Going on eastward with a line in his hand, the man measured a thousand cubits, and then led me through the water; and it was ankle-deep.
4 Again he measured a thousand, and led me through the water; and it was knee-deep. Again he measured a thousand, and led me through the water; and it was up to the loins.
5 Again he measured a thousand, and it was a river that I could not pass through, for the water had risen; it was deep enough to swim in, a river that could not be passed through.
6 And he said to me, “Son of man, have you seen this?” Then he led me back along the bank of the river.
7 As I went back, I saw upon the bank of the river very many trees on the one side and on the other.
8 And he said to me, “This water flows toward the eastern region and goes down into the Arabah; and when it enters the stagnant waters of the sea, the water will become fresh.
9 And wherever the river goes every living creature which swarms will live, and there will be very many fish; for this water goes there, that the waters of the sea may become fresh; so everything will live where the river goes.
12 And on the banks, on both sides of the river, there will grow all kinds of trees for food. Their leaves will not wither nor their fruit fail, but they will bear fresh fruit every month, because the water for them flows from the sanctuary. Their fruit will be for food, and their leaves for healing.”

I immediately knew this all was my Lord speaking to me. On my ride home I pondered my penance and thought to myself, I prayed two! IMMEDIATELY I heard in my heart, I did not tell you to pray two. It was only one that was needed. You did more than I asked and it was not necessary. At that second I was reminded about Eve in the Garden of Eden and how she exaggerated to the serpent what God had told her of eating the fruit of the forbidden tree. God has said clearly, “And the LORD God commanded the man, “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die.” Gen 2 16-17 Eve added: “‘You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.” Genesis 3:3

It points out to me the BEGINNING of disobedience! God said do not eat it, not do not touch. She added to God’s command stepping on His “sovereignty”, which brings us to Mary:”His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.” John 2:5 As did I by saying TWO DECADES for penance thinking it would be much better! By my LORDS suffering and HIS sacrifice I am healed. His gift. Not by mine. But it took work to get there and takes work to stay in this state of grace. Is there any “sacrifice” in loving our Lord? No! Love is not sacrifice, it is free for the giving and taking. The sacrifice of our Lord was to give His life for ours . When our life is lived in His it is no sacrifice. It is a GIFT! The “WORK” is like a work out you would do for your body to keep it in shape. The work comes by or should I say, through being “Obedient” (Complying with orders) to the will of God.

Our Lord pointed this out to me so I could grown in obedience. So as He told me, I offered up the extra decade since He knows better than I do, where this decade is needed.

I love our Lord and all the GLORY and honor is His. Not mine but I accept all the grace needed to make it through this world to spend eternity with Him.

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Learning Temperance

Receiving, Retaining, and Reflecting

James 1:22-25 22 Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. 23 Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror 24 and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. 25 But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do.

Oh the “Gift” to see yourself in others… Be it good or bad, it is truly a “Gift”.

“But a shoot shall sprout from the stump of Jesse, and from his roots a bud shall blossom. The spirit of the Lord shall rest upon him: a spirit of wisdom and of understanding, a spirit of counsel and of strength, a spirit of knowledge and of fear of the Lord, and his delight shall be the fear of the Lord” (Is 11:1-3).

When I was still a political blogger, but, on the road back home, there is no doubt, the Holy Spirit allowed me to obtain this beautiful gift. Just after the last presidential election, I obtained a bumper sticker with the words “Socialism Sucks” with the Obama logo next to the words. I laughed but in my heart, something very strong, told me not to place it on my car. You see, I was in a crucial point in my conversion, in getting rid of the things in my heart of all that was causing me to be separated from the love of our Lord. Doing away with even the simplest stumbling blocks that caused me distress or all things unholy.

Of course, in a moment of falling, I placed it on my truck anyway. I felt “Icky” with it there. Yes, I do not agree with socialism or communism very strongly, but the very act of placing it on my car to me, was a sign of “Vainglory”. It stuck out in so many ways rather then for what it said, but as a reflection of “Myself” looking for a pat on the back from anyone else who agreed and causing others who did not agree to cringe when they seen it. It just so happened, I was blessed to see the latter of an event as such, with my own eyes.

It had been a few months after placing the sticker on my truck. I was on my way to pick up the children from preschool and I was stopped at a red light. I heard all sorts of screaming from another car, so I looked to my left. There, next to me, was a woman, all shades of purple and green, screaming every “figurative name” known to man, at me. I was set back. First, I couldn’t grasp why she was so angry with me as I hadn’t driven in a manor that would have caused her or her car any amount of harm and then she started to scream at the top of her lungs, “Socialism Sucks???!!! “Socialism Sucks???!!! At least THEY take care of their people” I knew then, my bumper sticker had been the object of her anger. Her anger exculated the more she screamed. At that moment, I heard my heart telling me, look at her, its you. You in your youth. You when things did not go your way. I sat stone face looking at this woman, with so much regret for my sins as I was seeing the mirror image of the person I used to be. I was moved with so much mercy for her, I could not say a word back in any amount of anger. I seen a soul so enraged with hate, I could only pray for her, and make my first priority to remove the sticker when I returned home.

It did not end with the screaming. As the light turned green and traffic began to move, she gunned her car, squealing the tires and cut into my lane, cutting me off, all while screaming at me. I felt no anger towards this poor soul. I felt only compassion for her. Be it that it was the bumper sticker that caused this, or the fact being, it was her final straw before losing all self control, I had been a part of it. How many times in my life I had done such things as this to others. How my rage and anger took over for something so trivial. How I had given so much meaning to things where meaning was never useful for positive growth but rather, was plunging me deeper into darkness. I did not honk at her, I did not yell back, I did not scream, I did not become angry, and most of all, I was not scared of the situation. I just prayed for her, and forgave her, asking our Lord to forgive me, for ever placing the sticker on my car in the first place. Then, thanking Him, for allowing me to see myself in such a way.

This was an extremely valuable lesson for me that day. The gift has given me the ability to see each and every human being in a light so different, including myself, that I can no longer miss God’s love, forgiveness and mercy.

“Through the fear of the Lord, we rise to piety, from piety then to knowledge, from knowledge we derive strength, from strength counsel, with counsel we move towards understanding, and with intelligence towards wisdom and thus, by the sevenfold grace of the Spirit, there opens to us at the end of the ascent the entrance to the life of Heaven” (Homiliae in Hiezechihelem Prophetam, II 7,7)Pope St. Gregory the Great”

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