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National Day of Remembrance For Children Murdered by Abortion

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The largest-ever National Day of Remembrance for Aborted Children is just two days away. Saturday, September 14, 2019

Memorial services will be held at over 180 locations nationwide. Find one near you here: http://abortionmemorials.com/sites.php

If you have had an abortion or are suffering due to your partner having one, please know you are not alone. What you have done, is forgivable.  If you are Catholic, please seek our Lord in the Confessional. He will help you heal.

You can also contact Rachel’s Vineyard.

Rachel’s Vineyard is a safe place to renew, rebuild and redeem hearts broken by abortion. Weekend retreats offer you a supportive, confidential and non-judgmental environment where women and men can express, release and reconcile painful post-abortive emotions to begin the process of restoration, renewal and healing.

 

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Novena For Healing The Church

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Please, just stop and pray.

Via St. Mary of the Lake – Please click HERE to join!

Mundelein Seminary at the University of Saint Mary of the Lake is launching a nine-day Novena for the Healing of Our Church from Friday, Sept. 7 through Saturday, Sept. 15 to unite Catholics in prayer for healing, justice and hope in light of the ongoing crisis within the Catholic Church.

The public is invited to attend nine special Masses to be held at parishes throughout the Archdiocese of Chicago. You can also participate digitally by filling out the form below to receive the novena prayers via email.

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When Abuse Hits Home – My Parish, My Former Pastor

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As all the news is breaking today, some of it old, some new, a friend posted a link on my Facebook page and asked me if I had heard about it…

“Lay woman’s saga illustrates clerical sexual abuse of adults”

Yes. Lived through it not only as a rape survivor, but as seeing the fallout from when it takes place in the church. I do share in this woman’s sufferings. The hardest part is trying to explain it all to my children who knew him, who also received the sacraments from him. I didn’t and still don’t need to know the details.  He was removed and our LORD remains.

The days that followed after we met our FORMER pastor, my daughters handed him a gift. It was a gift of Sacred Heart purificators and a corporal. I told him, it was a gift to my children’s Shepherd.

Fast forward to a few weeks ago, as I was helping our Sacristan, I had noticed they were still there, in the Sacristy, feet away from the Tabernacle to be used. As I ponder this gift, I come to understand that it was and is, a gift to our true Shepherd. Our Lord Jesus Christ.

Lets go deeper. My parish, my priest. No matter the location, no matter the Priest, we are all in this together, as you parish, is my parish. Your Priest is my priest. That is our Lord. “Persona Christi”. The Church is our spiritual home.

I forgave him a long time ago in my heart, but some who have never heard, don’t know that the exposing of all this, is best for all of us. Its truly a cleansing we must not be embarrassed about, but rather take and understand that as our Lord said, unless a gran of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains just a grain of wheat. Change for the better comes through death of the old self, and rebirth of the new. No fears of what will the neighbors say. But rather understanding that the neighbors too, one day will have to come to grips with it also. This exposing of abuse is GOOD NEWS.

No matter what may come, our Lord has already prevailed. Cling to Him.

 

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The Hideous Wound Of Sexual Abuse

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My heart takes rest in our Lord, and His Word.  I pray for the perseverance of all.

All the abuse, in general, is all the ugliness of a hideous wound that NEEDS to heal. The only way to heal a wound, is to expose it (uncover it completely) to get the proper Medicine in to replace it.

As Catholics, we must not place another bandage over it, or anything which causes us harm, and hope it just goes away. It needs serious care. A wound as this, requires “nulla per os”, but requires strict action taken with fasting, praying, repenting, time in Adoraiton with our Lord, confession and total focus on our Lord. In other words, 24 hours a day, living our faith with Christ our Lord as the Shepherd of the entirety of our lives. Word and deeds.

John 6:68 – Simon Peter answered him, “Master, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.

Repent and believe.

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Healing Deep Wounds

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When we forgive, it stops all the pain caused by the one you are forgiving. It does not however, clean up the mess that was made in how you have been hurt. The person you forgive can no longer cause you any more hurt. The damage is already done. Its what we choose to do with that pain that makes all the difference. When we choose to join that pain with our Lords, it becomes very easy to heal from it. Even in regards to infidelity in marriage.

Although many emotions are flying around and the soul truly feels as if it is on a roller caster it can’t seem to get off, that it doesn’t want to be on, nor asked to get on, forgiveness eases the feelings of being angry, sick, irritated, betrayed, devastated, insignificant and yes, even quieting the need to see the red flags that passed by without noticing.

Spouse sold you? Pretended they didn’t for as long as they were with you? Pretended to love you? Caused you to lose everything? Others persecuted you for it? Crucified you? Yes, our Lord is there with you as it happened to Him first.

[Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, they know not what they do.”] They divided his garments by casting lots.

When we forgive, we choose mercy for the soul’s we are forgiving. We are not giving them a pass. We give ourselves the pass by choosing not to become exactly that which wounded us.

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That Moment

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How shall I make a return to the Lord for all the good he has done for me?

That moment you realize your really listening to the Good Shepherd….

As a hart longs for flowing streams, so longs my soul for thee, O God

While on retreat this past weekend, I was pondering that voice I had been listening to. It was a chilly and very windy day Saturday and in the midst of silence, I found myself walking around taking in the beauty of the nature I was placed in. I came to a water feature and bent down, finding myself asking our Lord, “Is it you Lord? Is this voice I have been listening to You? In an instant, I heard a slight giggle in my heart. I began to look myself over and I was dressed in all in white. The pants I unknowingly put on that morning were white along with my shirt were white and I was wearing my comfy snugly white coat that is fluffy like a lamb. I looked up at the statue atop the water feature and a smile came over my face. In that moment, I knew for a fact.

Yes. The lost sheep indeed was finally home, healed, and at peace. It was no doubt the Good Shepherd who retrieved me. The Good Shepherd Who healed me. The Good Shepherd who I love. It also just happened to be “Good Shepherd” weekend. We are his people, the sheep of his flock.

Jesus said:
“My sheep hear my voice;
I know them, and they follow me.
I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish.
No one can take them out of my hand.
My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all,
and no one can take them out of the Father’s hand.
The Father and I are one.”

 

 

 

 

 

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9 Days For Life – Day 7

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For today’s Novena please CLICK LINK
The only healing I have found, is through our Lord Jesus Christ and the much needed Sacraments He gave to us to act on and grab hold of the mercy and forgiveness He is offering to each and every soul on earth.

Please read my story here, originally written on JANUARY 23, 2012. Slipping Away – Post Abortion Syndrome

There is a bit of a discussion of late in regards to the graphic images being used of the innocent children taken through abortion. If you have read the link I posted in regards to my story, you will understand that seeing the images of aborted children is horrific. What is more horrific, is not seeing them at all in public, and still seeing them in every day actions. It brings to light the grim reality of what we are doing.

I will post a comment I made yesterday, before I seen what today’s Novena contained. There is a Light in the dark.

Ask yourself, what would happen if we removed the graphic image of our Lord Crucified from our faith because it was to gruesome? What does that image of our Lord invoke? What does the thought of His battered and bruised body cause us to do? Repent. The second we remove Christ Crucified from our worship is the second its no longer Him and He is reduced to a sanitized idea of what He did for us. Its no different for the smallest among us. The reality’s of abortion have been removed from society and its turned into a sanitized idea, no longer seen as the murder of an innocent child. They need to be seen and heard in entirety for the reality to set in. I am post abortive. Before the images came to be used, I would see them anyway as I struggled from time to time with the sin I had committed as I see it now as a way for our Lord to being me to repent deeper and understand the MERCY He is offering through His forgiveness. The images are not doing a disservice nor are they a lack of respect for the children taken. By ending Abortion completely and making it unthinkable to do, they give glory to our Lord for the slaughter of the innocence finally ending.

Lord, I remember You Crucified as I see the children of abortion. May their images bring an end to the slaughter of the least among us. May they bring about repentance to the providers and to all effected by abortion. May these same souls feel the gentleness and compassion in your healing touch and they reach out in need for You. Amen

The USCCB has further links on this Novena for Help and Healing

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Healing Well

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Its Saturday and now two days after my surgery. I want to thank all my readers for your prayers for me. Its been a wonderful couple of days spent in total prayer, while all this has been taking place.

I’ll share with you a bit…

I had planned on attending Holy Mass before my surgery on Thursday as it was scheduled for 11:00 AM. My plans did not pan out. I wanted to attend Mass, get anointed and receive our Lord only then to be shuttled away to the hospital for my surgery.

It seems our Lord had different plans. My doctor’s office called on Monday to inform me that the time had changed and I needed to be at the hospital by 5:30 AM on Thursday morning. So I made a point of getting to Holy Mass on Wednesday morning, received our Lord and was anointed before going in for all my preliminary tests. I had planned on receiving the sacrament of Confession Wednesday night and was still able to do so. I do understand that receiving the Anointing of the Sick wipes away all my sins and at that moment I was covered, but seeing that the Sacrament of Confession was available, and I knew there were things I felt I needed to say, I went.

I arrived at the church and as I began to walk into the hall, I could smell incense. I smiled as I walked in not expecting to see what I was seeing. It was our Lord in Exposition! Keep in mind, this particular church had suffered a fire at the hands of an arsonist in October and was not able to use the Sacristy. Our Lord was in Exposition on what used to be the Schools stage. As I write this now, I understand our Lord speaking to me and telling me that He is not pretending. He was never “acting” when he said “Take, eat; this is My body.” And when He had taken a cup and given thanks, He gave it to them, saying, “Drink from it, all of you for this is My blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many for forgiveness of sins.”. What He is doing to me and others is not pretend. Its not an act as the world would assume it to be, but an act of God.

The Sacrament of Confession was still offered and two Priests were available. It was as if I had seen the Holy Trinity of Healing in the presence of our Lord in the Eucharist, in the Priests hearing confessions and in His words not only of Absolution of sins but in every single word He had said.

This truly is Him. In all the years I had been chasing after what I wanted to see Him to be, what I wanted Him to be, this is truly who He is. Simplicity.

I was able to spend time with Him that night before my surgery and it was beautiful. I have been in prayer ever since. When I woke up in recovery, the surgical team asked me if I needed anything and the first thing off my lips was yes! I need a Catholic Priest to bring me my Lord. I’m sure I threw them for a loop because the look on their faces was somewhat puzzled. I knew that our Lord was there with us, but I couldn’t control my tongue. Someone needed to hear what I had said..

I can’t tell you how beautiful this past few days have been. Thursday night as I lay in bed, my pain medication began to wear off and the bedroom door was closed. I couldn’t yell because the pain was rather high. I asked our Lord to please send my husband to bring me pain meds and not five seconds later, I heard my husband walking down the hall, and he entered my room to ask me if I needed anything. I knew in an instant, that was our Lord answering prayer, very quickly.

Glory to God! One more thing before I go back to resting that I need to say, and this goes for the body and soul, you never realize how sick you are until you begin to heal. When the soul can see even the slightest change for the better, the soul makes every effort to pull closer to God. When the body sees how sick it is, it makes every attempt to become healed…

Until later, God bless you all and thank you for your prayers. Keep them coming and I continue to pray for all of you! I love you!

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The Doctor Is Always In

Yesterday, I went to confession then followed by attending Mass. It was a strange day as I had been feeling sick. Both spiritually and physically. Mass was beautiful! I was truly fulfilled and was able to carry the grace of God with me and seen it in action all day, and continue to see it today, even after attending Mass again this morning.

I had called my doctor earlier in the day yesterday as I wasn’t feeling well and I have a strange lump on the side of my face that seemed to be traveling down across the front of my ear and down into my jaw and neck. I wasn’t alarmed but I could hear our Lord asking me, what was more important. The Body or the Soul? The soul was my response. I had an overwhelming sense I needed to get to confession. I had been burdened with something that was weighing heavy on me for a few weeks and the only thing I could do, was give it to our Lord. I was going to put off the doctor until today. After deciding to attend confession & Mass, I called the doctors office and left a message. The doctors office called me back to set up an appointment. They had an opening yesterday at 2:00 or I could wait until this morning to go. I told them my symptoms and told them I would wait until today. The woman on the other end of the line said okay and we hung up.

I sat pondering the earlier conversation I was having in prayer with our Lord and started to wonder. Was He telling me to get in to the other doctor too? With that, the doctors office called me back and told me they had moved to another office and wanted to make sure I had the correct address. I was unaware of this and glad they had called back. I also told the woman on the other end maybe it was a good idea for me to come in that day. She completely agreed as the symptoms I had described were borderline serious.

The spiritual symptoms I was having were also troubling. I was getting tense, felt some anger, rage, felt backed into a corner and pressured to make a decision that was going to cause me to sin greatly. I felt as if someone was trying to steel the spiritual consolation our Lord had sent me and take credit for it all. I knew the root of this spiritual sickness needed to be pulled! Confession was the only spiritual surgical answer. Cut it out before it grows. And I did. When I began to confess my sins, I couldn’t stop. The words just kept coming. The more they left me in the confessional, the more the tears began to flow. It was one of the most beautiful confessions I have ever made.The examination of conscious before hand and the praying to our Lord led me to understand the basis of everything that makes my soul sick. The Doctor cured me.

I left Mass walking on air. I had time to stop at Adoration to thank our Lord then headed out to the doctors new office. Long story short, I have been diagnosed with good case of Cellulitis. Chances are if I would have waited until today to go in, I would be in the hospital with an IV drip of antibiotics. It leads to Sepsis and that is life threatening and a major cause of death.

Sin is also a cause of death. It separates the soul from God leading to lack of peace and tranquility in the soul. It causes the person to do things through rage and anger they would never normally do in a state of Grace. It causes uneasiness, anxiety and depression. It is not curable in this world but is treatable and the soul goes into remission even if you do not know the symptoms and signs. The Doctor is always in and His light is always burning bright, waiting for you to allow Him to treat you.

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Spiritually Crippled

So many times, so many many times in my life I could not move forward, away from the things that crippled me.

Hate, vengeance, cruelty, greed, depression, aggression…. These are all things that cripple the spirit. Imagine you were hit by someone and it broke the skin. Now imagine explaining the act to everyone you see the rest of your life and when you do, you pick the scab off the wound and make it bleed over and over again. Now, we have a wound that never heals and the person goes to the Dr for medication for it and no matter how much topical lotion is placed on the wound, it does not heal. Insanity right?

When we continue to feed them, they grow to a point which blots out the entire view our soul has of God. They become our wheel chair. We become trapped and led around by our own hate for others, no matter what is said to us in return, it is taken out of context and applied to some sort of vengeful act against us. The entire world seems to be picking on us rather then comforting us. So and so did this to ME!

The same thing needs to apply to sin. When we become so entangled in sin we become so lost. We look to medication and doctors to cure us of our “Depression” when the reality is, only God can cure a sick soul. We never want to look at the obvious causes of our problems, being we just are refusing to listen to God. We seek justification from our peers and want to believe anything but the truth. Until we can no longer move in any direction and the weight of the world crushes us underneath its weight.

I was spiritually crippled. So many times while I was battling with my family who thinking I was mentally ill, and my believing them, all the while, I just wanted to go to confession and get right with God. There isn’t a pill made that could replace the Sacrament of Confession nor the cleansing hands of a Catholic Priest. But no one outside of the faith could ever understand this. All I heard during this time was “are you taking the meds?” I was, but they would never work to make my sinful life OK. All that crushing weight was the last straw giving out in my soul causing depression, causing me to think God was mad at me. I had no place left to turn. Now that I have “Turned” back to God, there is no other place I want to go.

Today’s Gospel, is about healing. Healing through many hands and should bring a repentant soul so much joy. To hear the words ‘My child, your sins are forgiven.’ breaks any ice of sin that had kept a soul from moving closer to our Lord.

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Spiritually Blind

Today’s gospel of Jesus healing the blind man was a blatant reminder of my conversion. The spiritual blindness I shared with the actual blind man in this account is stunning.

I can’t help but go into detail….

Gospel, Mark 8:22-26

22 They came to Bethsaida, and some people brought to him a blind man whom they begged him to touch.

23 He took the blind man by the hand and led him outside the village. Then, putting spittle on his eyes and laying his hands on him, he asked, ‘Can you see anything?’

24 The man, who was beginning to see, replied, ‘I can see people; they look like trees as they walk around.’

25 Then he laid his hands on the man’s eyes again and he saw clearly; he was cured, and he could see everything plainly and distinctly.

26 And Jesus sent him home, saying, ‘Do not even go into the village.’

When I hear these words, I see the “Village” as being the world. Or the worldliness of souls. The evil, the sin the decay of the heart. In order to cure the man, Jesus had to take him OUT of the village. The laying of hands and the spittle is an outward sign of what is needed to cure the sick. That tiny amount of spittle, is actually a tsunami of grace from God. When He asked the man “Can you see anything” and the blind man was could only see people as trees, it meant that he did not have his full vision and could not yet understand what Jesus was doing to him.

During this time of my conversion, I was very confused. Having been in the world and understanding things as I did , the wrong way for so long, I could not grasp the reality of what the Holy Spirit was doing to me. I had not yet received the gifts needed to attain understanding. It had only been the first wave of grace and along with it came the test, being, was I going to be worth His time to do this for me. He knew the answer, but I did not. I needed to grow in faith in order to receive the next wave.

“Then he laid his hands on the man’s eyes again and he saw clearly;”

This is the wave of gifts from the Holy Spirit that keep you focused on our Lord. The desire to do His will and let everything you once knew vanish. The giving up of ones self for the sake of the Truth..
When we get to Jesus telling the man, ” And Jesus sent him home, saying, ‘Do not even go into the village.’ I can identify with this being a warning. Our Lord had just cleaned this man up and did not want him to fall back into the sinful world. There was nothing worth seeing with his “New Eyes” yet. He needed to grow further in faith and trust in the Lord in order to battle the evil he would be soon seeing when he HAD to go back into the village.

Once your eyes are opened wide, the things you used to do before your conversion become very troublesome. You no longer find comfort in the world you once knew, but can only find comfort in what is good.

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I Can Hear And See Again

At the request of Bishops and Priests, John Cojanis a Catholic Lay Missionary from the Diocese of Tucson has been conducting large healing missions in many cities and states across the country. Oftentimes many emotional, spiritual and physical healing occur. This past week, my parish was blessed to hold one such healing mission. I regained my sight and my hearing. Glory goes to God.

Sunday morning, as I sit in the pew after mass, waiting for the announcements to end, my priest invited John Cojanis up to speak about his healing mission that would be taking place this week, over a two day period. I have to admit, I was a little suspicious. I will blame it on pride and thinking I know better. As I was walking out, John was in the back of church and grabbed my hand, said good by and invited me to be there. I wasn’t going to lie to the man, so I made sure to be there.

Monday evening and the church was packed. Most of the pews in the back were roped off so folks would not sit to far away. We sang songs at first and then John and his wife Sally gave there background speeches and the healing prayers began. John would ask, does anyone have any arthritis or back pains and people would raise there hands. We would all pray in the name of JESUS CHRIST, and the spirits causing most of the pain were bound up and removed. Yeah, I know, faith healing garbage! Nope! John is not a faith healer. He uses the power of Christ, through the PERSON who is afflicted to use the power of Christ through PRAYER to heal themselves and throes around them.

“After Jesus had gone indoors, his disciples asked him privately, “Why couldn’t we drive it out? He replied, “This kind can come out only by prayer.” Mark 9 28-29

As I was praying over the people around me, with me, John had asked if anyone had problems with their hearing. To be honest, I had for a very long time and forgot about it. I did as John asked. I rubbed my fingers together lightly next to each ear, hearing just how much I could not hear. I can not hear a few tones, but what I was truly deaf to, was listening to our Lord speaking to my heart. SO, John asked all with hearing problems to raise their hands, and I did. The prayers began. The person sitting in back of me, whom I could not see, cupped her hands over my ears as the prayers became more intense. When they were finished praying, John instructed the people to check to see if their hearing was clear in both ears. So the person behind me, turned my head to the right and whispered in my ear, “Can you hear me”. As this voice rang in loud and clear in my ear, my VISION was taken directly to a statue of the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I began to cry. I was hearing Him loud and clear. The person then turned my head to the left and whispered again “Can you hear me”. Once again, my VISION was taken to the statue of Our Holy Mother and the tears came pouring out. I could hear them loud and clear. I had spent far to long, not listening to both of them. Along with not seeing them in others.

To understand how significant this is Please read “True Love“. My story of how I came to LOVE our Lord Jesus Christ.

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