Tag Archives: Lent

#PrayTogether

Pope Francis

EUHQsXLWoAAuD9Q

How to pray with the Pope on Friday

Link above – Faithful across the world are invited to join Pope Francis spiritually in prayer on Friday, 27 March at 6 pm Rome time.

Full text from Pope Francis’ homily for the special ‘Urbi et Orbi’ blessing:

“When evening had come” (Mk 4:35). The Gospel passage we have just heard begins like this. For weeks now it has been evening. Thick darkness has gathered over our squares, our streets and our cities; it has taken over our lives, filling everything with a deafening silence and a distressing void, that stops everything as it passes by; we feel it in the air, we notice in people’s gestures, their glances give them away. We find ourselves afraid and lost. Like the disciples in the Gospel we were caught off guard by an unexpected, turbulent storm. We have realized that we are on the same boat, all of us fragile and disoriented, but at the same time important and needed, all of us called to row together, each of us in need of comforting the other. On this boat… are all of us. Just like those disciples, who spoke anxiously with one voice, saying “We are perishing” (v. 38), so we too have realized that we cannot go on thinking of ourselves, but only together can we do this.

It is easy to recognize ourselves in this story. What is harder to understand is Jesus’ attitude. While his disciples are quite naturally alarmed and desperate, he stands in the stern, in the part of the boat that sinks first. And what does he do? In spite of the tempest, he sleeps on soundly, trusting in the Father; this is the only time in the Gospels we see Jesus sleeping. When he wakes up, after calming the wind and the waters, he turns to the disciples in a reproaching voice: “Why are you afraid? Have you no faith?” (v. 40).

Let us try to understand. In what does the lack of the disciples’ faith consist, as contrasted with Jesus’ trust? They had not stopped believing in him; in fact, they called on him. But we see how they call on him: “Teacher, do you not care if we perish?” (v. 38). Do you not care: they think that Jesus is not interested in them, does not care about them. One of the things that hurts us and our families most when we hear it said is: “Do you not care about me?” It is a phrase that wounds and unleashes storms in our hearts. It would have shaken Jesus too. Because he, more than anyone, cares about us. Indeed, once they have called on him, he saves his disciples from their discouragement.

The storm exposes our vulnerability and uncovers those false and superfluous certainties around which we have constructed our daily schedules, our projects, our habits and priorities. It shows us how we have allowed to become dull and feeble the very things that nourish, sustain and strengthen our lives and our communities. The tempest lays bare all our prepackaged ideas and forgetfulness of what nourishes our people’s souls; all those attempts that anesthetize us with ways of thinking and acting that supposedly “save” us, but instead prove incapable of putting us in touch with our roots and keeping alive the memory of those who have gone before us. We deprive ourselves of the antibodies we need to confront adversity.

In this storm, the facade of those stereotypes with which we camouflaged our egos, always worrying about our image, has fallen away, uncovering once more that (blessed) common belonging, of which we cannot be deprived: our belonging as brothers and sisters.

“Why are you afraid? Have you no faith?” Lord, your word this evening strikes us and regards us, all of us. In this world, that you love more than we do, we have gone ahead at breakneck speed, feeling powerful and able to do anything. Greedy for profit, we let ourselves get caught up in things, and lured away by haste. We did not stop at your reproach to us, we were not shaken awake by wars or injustice across the world, nor did we listen to the cry of the poor or of our ailing planet. We carried on regardless, thinking we would stay healthy in a world that was sick. Now that we are in a stormy sea, we implore you: “Wake up, Lord!”.

“Why are you afraid? Have you no faith?” Lord, you are calling to us, calling us to faith. Which is not so much believing that you exist, but coming to you and trusting in you. This Lent your call reverberates urgently: “Be converted!”, “Return to me with all your heart” (Joel 2:12). You are calling on us to seize this time of trial as a time of choosing. It is not the time of your judgement, but of our judgement: a time to choose what matters and what passes away, a time to separate what is necessary from what is not. It is a time to get our lives back on track with regard to you, Lord, and to others. We can look to so many exemplary companions for the journey, who, even though fearful, have reacted by giving their lives. This is the force of the Spirit poured out and fashioned in courageous and generous self-denial. It is the life in the Spirit that can redeem, value and demonstrate how our lives are woven together and sustained by ordinary people – often forgotten people – who do not appear in newspaper and magazine headlines nor on the grand catwalks of the latest show, but who without any doubt are in these very days writing the decisive events of our time: doctors, nurses, supermarket employees, cleaners, caregivers, providers of transport, law and order forces, volunteers, priests, religious men and women and so very many others who have understood that no one reaches salvation by themselves. In the face of so much suffering, where the authentic development of our peoples is assessed, we experience the priestly prayer of Jesus: “That they may all be one” (Jn 17:21). How many people every day are exercising patience and offering hope, taking care to sow not panic but a shared responsibility. How many fathers, mothers, grandparents and teachers are showing our children, in small everyday gestures, how to face up to and navigate a crisis by adjusting their routines, lifting their gaze and fostering prayer. How many are praying, offering and interceding for the good of all. Prayer and quiet service: these are our victorious weapons.

“Why are you afraid? Have you no faith”? Faith begins when we realize we are in need of salvation. We are not self-sufficient; by ourselves we founder: we need the Lord, like ancient navigators needed the stars. Let us invite Jesus into the boats of our lives. Let us hand over our fears to him so that he can conquer them. Like the disciples, we will experience that with him on board there will be no shipwreck. Because this is God’s strength: turning to the good everything that happens to us, even the bad things. He brings serenity into our storms, because with God life never dies.

The Lord asks us and, in the midst of our tempest, invites us to reawaken and put into practice that solidarity and hope capable of giving strength, support and meaning to these hours when everything seems to be floundering. The Lord awakens so as to reawaken and revive our Easter faith. We have an anchor: by his cross we have been saved. We have a rudder: by his cross we have been redeemed. We have a hope: by his cross we have been healed and embraced so that nothing and no one can separate us from his redeeming love. In the midst of isolation when we are suffering from a lack of tenderness and chances to meet up, and we experience the loss of so many things, let us once again listen to the proclamation that saves us: he is risen and is living by our side. The Lord asks us from his cross to rediscover the life that awaits us, to look towards those who look to us, to strengthen, recognize and foster the grace that lives within us. Let us not quench the wavering flame (cf. Is 42:3) that never falters, and let us allow hope to be rekindled.

Embracing his cross means finding the courage to embrace all the hardships of the present time, abandoning for a moment our eagerness for power and possessions in order to make room for the creativity that only the Spirit is capable of inspiring. It means finding the courage to create spaces where everyone can recognize that they are called, and to allow new forms of hospitality, fraternity and solidarity. By his cross we have been saved in order to embrace hope and let it strengthen and sustain all measures and all possible avenues for helping us protect ourselves and others. Embracing the Lord in order to embrace hope: that is the strength of faith, which frees us from fear and gives us hope.

“Why are you afraid? Have you no faith”? Dear brothers and sisters, from this place that tells of Peter’s rock-solid faith, I would like this evening to entrust all of you to the Lord, through the intercession of Mary, Health of the People and Star of the stormy Sea. From this colonnade that embraces Rome and the whole world, may God’s blessing come down upon you as a consoling embrace. Lord, may you bless the world, give health to our bodies and comfort our hearts. You ask us not to be afraid. Yet our faith is weak and we are fearful. But you, Lord, will not leave us at the mercy of the storm. Tell us again: “Do not be afraid” (Mt 28:5). And we, together with Peter, “cast all our anxieties onto you, for you care about us” (cf. 1 Pet 5:7).

You can offer your Plenary Indulgence for someone dying today.

Alone

When you see this photo and want to cry, because it seems Pope Francis was all alone. Don’t. He was not alone. We were ALL with him in prayer. Use the eyes of your heart and SEE the faith is alive and well.

Vatican Live

 

 

Leave a comment

March 27, 2020 · 8:31 am

Shelter From The Storm

storm

As I woke this morning, I noticed we were in the midst of another rain storm. I pondered the day’s of Noah, and when the rain began to fall.

90287327_10222392082138937_4508257759921176576_n

I was not afraid, because our Lord told us not to be. Also, due to the Ark of the New Covenant. Thinking about how we are all cooped up, separated from everything that can harm us and others, as our Lord protected us, from the virus.

Glory to our Lord. I prayed, and contemplated all we are going through, the entire world and simply accepted what I could not change. The “Ark” for Noah was not a prison for forty days, but a Sanctuary. As the New Ark was the womb for our Lord, which He was nurtured and grew.  So also, my home is not a prison, but a domestic Church, to continue to worship our Lord, to be a peaceful place. To nurture and protect the life within. We grow in this home and it is up to us how we grow. Do we grow wild and angry with one another? Or do we choose to grow in respect and love for one another?  That, I believe, is another grace our Lord is granting us, through this difficult time.

Learn to love again as our Lord has loved us.

ETZlQvmUMAYeEwU

As in the days of Noah, we choose the Ark.

Pope calls for 9pm Rosary for protection of our families

St. Joseph, pray for us

READING
2 Samuel 7:28-29

Lord God, you are God and your words are truth; you have made this generous promise to your servant. Do, then, bless the house of your servant that it may be before you forever; for you, Lord God, have promised, and by your blessing the house of your servant shall be blessed forever.

Leave a comment

Filed under Uncategorized

Around Italy In Quarantine

Pope Francis leads Benediction outside Basilica of St. Mary Major in Rome

“Yesterday in Italy the military flew over some areas affected by the Coronavirus with the Blessed Sacrament and an image of the Virgin of Fatima!”

“A great priest who never ceases to be present with his parish community. Thanks Father Ricotta”

 

 

Did you know the word “quarantine” was taken from the Italian quaranta giorni, meaning “forty days”? Penance & Lent

ALSO – Pope urges priests to bring Eucharist to sick during Italy coronavirus quarantine

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections, Uncategorized

Little Faith

d1c3d7528926bd0002a74341a44329bd

This morning, I sat in with second graders about to make their First Holy Communion through our RCIA classes. The children were learning about the Mass, but also covered a little section in their books on how our Lord spoke in parables. The kingdom of heaven is like…

A mustard seed..

As the children listened to the teacher ask about the mustard seed, they answered her questions. I sat watching them pondering these little ones sitting in their chairs, waiting to sprout and grow.  They all were playing with their pencils, looking around, getting distracted as normal children do. Nothing I could see in them regarding our faith was freely being applied right now, because they were like tiny little furrows who were placed in a row, as the seeds of faith were being planted.

As one child held his pencil, I looked at his blank paper in front of him and was able to see how nothing is accomplished if we do not put our faith to work. We can read the bible, we can study scripture, we can even sit in RCIA forever learning but if we do not follow our Lords direction and apply it, its just words to us and not the Word. If we truly believe, we act on that faith. If we do not act on His word, we remain a simple seed which sprouts and quickly dies producing no fruit.

A pencil must be put to paper with effort on our part for its purpose to be revealed. One can say that they want to be an artist, but if they never draw, or sculpture or paint, or even try, simply saying I want to be an artist, needs actions on our part to be one. If I say I want to go to heaven, but I do not do what our Lord has asked of us, to follow Him, and go off in my own way and follow my own feelings and do what ever I want, what shall that get me? False hope comes to mind.

Little faith requires much action on our part. It must be regularly watered and nourished by practicing THE faith or we lose it completely and follow our own directions, creating our own gods who we worship instead, inventing our own faith, creating false hopes in our own powers.  We must attend Mass, we must regularly attend the sacrament of confession, we must pray, we must fast, we must produce good works and keep producing them even in the little things so the weeds of sin and selfishness that are also planted along side by the world in which we live, do not strangle the faith growing within us. Applying this faith not just on Sunday, but every day, in every way in all our actions. In this way we are living the faith in Word and Deed, in our speech and actions.

It was a beautiful morning with these little ones. I can’t wait to see what our Lord teaches me through them next week. Please pray for these children and their family’s, that the faith they are learning, is nurtured by family who live the faith with them, as role models for them, that it may sprout, grow strong and produce good fruit for the next generation.

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections, Uncategorized

First Week Of Lent 2020

Judean-wilderness-with-grass-tb021107531-bibleplaces

How can I describe this week, but best week ever. Normally we begin Lent on Ash Wednesday, but my family, due to unforeseen unintended consequences of overspending the week before, began our fast the Saturday before Ash Wednesday. We had many bills that all hit the bank at the same time. Mortgage, school for my youngest daughter, auto registration and a few other major things, that just could not be put off. So we started the week before lent, already in the negative.

My husband & I began to take stock of all the items we had in the pantry and freezer, ensuring we had enough food for the week, including what we would need for school lunches. I had not shopped yet so we didn’t have much, but our Lord ensured  us that we had everything we needed, and we were at peace, knowing that no matter what, we would do the best we could this week.

I had a little flour and olive oil, (in all honesty, as I found those two items, I pondered Elijah and the Widow, and I will get to that in a moment)  sugar, eggs , rice, a few bags of vegetables in the freezer along with a couple of pounds of different meat that had been frozen. A jar of peanut butter and some jelly, half a loaf of white bread and five apples.

We had already paid in advance for our youngest daughters hot lunch for a couple of days, and only needed to make sure she had three lunches for the week.  As dinner time arrived on Sunday evening, I took what I had found, prayed and did the best I could, with what I had. It was enough for us all and was good and very  filling.

Monday came and our daughters had lunches for school and I prayed and pondered what I could do for them for dinner. With the little flour and oil I had, I made a pizza crust by hand for the very first time. I had a small jar of yeast in the refrigerator I had bought a few months ago, which was still good to use. I had a half a bag of cheese which I used for stuffed shells the week before, a tiny can of chopped olives and three frozen Italian sausages. Every time I had tried to make bread it had failed miserably. I could never get the temperature right with the water and yeast, and ended up killing the yeast. Not this time. I mixed the warm water and the yeast, got the flour and measured just what I needed, having only two cups of flour left, with a little olive oil left. I added the yeast mixture to the flour, salt and sugar I had measured, placed it in the oven covered, and left it. When I checked on it later, it had doubled in size. It WORKED! I was dancing because I was so happy! Didn’t have a clue how it would taste, but it didn’t matter. I had a crust! Later that day, I assembled it for dinner & placed it in the oven for dinner, thanking our Lord in gratitude that it all came together and worked.

Monday Pizza

It was the BEST pizza we had ever had. My husband and children now want me to make it for them all the time. We will no longer be getting carry out, because it is just that good.

Tuesday came and lunches were provided for and as far as dinner, we had plans to attend Palm Burning and the Mardi Gras at our parish, which the youth group was sponsoring. I needed to bring a dish for my family, and a side dish to share. I made mashed sweet potatoes & meat loaf for us. Again, our Lord providing what we needed, through a little cash we had set aside.

Ash Wednesday and our children had minimal lunches, and we fasted until our Parish held soup night, just before the 7:00 PM Holy Mass. Our Lord providing again, and again.

Thursday came and our children had lunches. My husband’s check would register this night. We had nothing left but the flour, olive oil, left over tomato sauce, a little cheese and a sausage left in the fridge. I made that pizza again for them for dinner and just like the first time, the crust worked and everyone was satisfied. Although that evening we all realized how hungry we were after fasting the day before. We waited a little longer until Friday when I was able to shop again for what we needed.

That entire week, was one of the best weeks we had ever had as a family. No one was upset about our situation. No one missed being able to run to the store for things they wanted. Everyone understood that we were doing the best we could and we all made the most of it and I give the praise, glory and honor to our Lord, Jesus Christ for providing it all. Especially the understand and the peace among us. We all LIVED, trusting in our Lord who provides for all our needs.

Joyful

 

 

 

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections, Uncategorized

Holy Week – Building Up Again

notre-dame-fire7-rt-ml-190416_hpMain_16x9_992

The out pouring of hearts in regards to the burning of Notre Dame Cathedral has been a silent moment of pure grace, in which I pray we all hold on to. Notre Dame, intercede for us.

 

I find myself pondering this moment, in regards to how many times we burn ourselves down by our sins, becoming nothing but heaps of ash, and therefore repenting, turning back to our Lord, we come to realize with His grace, it is He who remains unscathed, to rebuild the temple within us back up, “I Am reminded: “Destroy this temple, and in three days I will raise it up.”, as He has created us to be. Lent begins with ash, and ends with Resurrection.

Its not worth getting upset about what Notre Dame may look like after it is rebuilt as they petition the architects to come together.. What matters is if our Lord is present. I ponder Cardinal Nguyen Van Thuan and how he turned the concentration camp in Vietnam into a cathedral and the palm of his hand into an altar. He turned his shirt pocket into a tabernacle.

Even as many were amazed at him—
so marred were his features,
beyond that of mortals
his appearance, beyond that of human beings— Isaiah 52:14

Something else grabbed my attention today.

For all the people complaining about all that money being pledged to rebuild Notre Dame Cathedral and NOT to feed the poor, it was not Jesus who said that, but Judas.

The Anointing at Bethany.

Then Judas the Iscariot, one [of] his disciples, and the one who would betray him, said,“Why was this oil not sold for three hundred days’ wages* and given to the poor?”He said this not because he cared about the poor but because he was a thief and held the money bag and used to steal the contributions.e

The building is the house of the Community where the Church comes together to feed the hungry. “He said, “Go into the city to a certain man and tell him, ‘The teacher says, my appointed time draws near; in your house I shall celebrate the Passover with my disciples.” The building belongs to the French Gov. The Vatican gives what it has. Just as anyone else, who can give what they can.

Today, this Tuesday of Holy Week, is the day before “Spy Wednesday”.  The day in which Judas, after turning his back on the Light, grabbed hold of his idol in the dark instead and sold our Lord for thirty pieces of silver. We all may want to ponder what that 30 pieces of silver bought him, and keep our Lord.

3e4ee763fdc94ff8e8fb1feaecd4fdea

 Giovanni Canavesio (1450 – 1500) , hanged Judas

 

1 Comment

Filed under Reflections, Uncategorized

St. Joseph And The Little Flower

2051c912840004a16944b921594064de

“I just asked St. Joseph to obtain for me from God the grace of spending my Heaven doing good on earth.” 

via Quote of the day: 19 March

St. Joseph, pray for us

(Painting: Pieter van Lint  (1609-1690) — Saint Joseph and the Christ Child )

 

Also, please see:

SAINT JOSEPH: OUR PATRON SAINT

A Reflection on the Official Inauguration

of the Carmelite Provincial Commissariat in Vietnam

Leave a comment

March 18, 2019 · 10:06 pm

Visible Evil Today

ACA-Grace

If you want to know what is going on, why there is SO much visible evil today, the answer to your question to what is going on is very simple.

Grace. God’s grace to see things as they are, to repent and to run back to Him. That is what is happening – “Where sin increased, grace overflowed all the more”

Use this time wisely. Get things in order. Get back on His path. Make a change for the better. For the good.

Repent

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections, Uncategorized

Ash Wednesday – 2019

8313738-16x9-940x529

FINALLY! Lent in upon us! I have been longing for this season since Christmas ended. My favorite Liturgical Season, outside of Easter!

I pray for my readers for a joyful end of a beautiful penitent season this lent and I hope we all turn back to our Lord with a deeper devotion than we have in past seasons.

Repent and believe in the Gospel

 

1 Comment

Filed under Reflections, Uncategorized

Palm Sunday 2017

Palm Sunday

How can one make this Holy Week, truly Holy?

Welcome our Lord into your heart and keep Him there for this upcoming week, and strive to keep Him there forever. Grow in faith. Hold on to the conversion of heart He is offering you.

Receive the Sacrament of Confession which returns your soul to the state it was in the day you were baptized. A clean and beautiful temple to receive our Lord.

Attend Holy Mass and pay attention. Listen to every word, participate when you are to participate. Sing when you are to sing. Listen intently to what is being read. Follow with your heart as the Priest speaks. Forget distractions seeing to pull you away from our Lord.

Receive our Lord in the Eucharist. Speak to Him when you do receive Him.

Pray more this week. Try praying the entire Rosary daily, or add praying Divine Office (Liturgy of the Hours). Just speak to our Lord in all ways, in all instances, at every moment you are awake. Be aware at all times that He is truly with you in what you are doing and INVITE Him in to your activities, like you would invite your best friend. Try Lectio Divina, “Divine Reading” – Lectio Divina”, a Latin term, means “divine reading” and describes a way of reading the Scriptures whereby we gradually let go of our own agenda and open ourselves to what God wants to say to us.

You can also pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet.

Reflect on the Gospels of this week. Stations of the Cross is a beautiful reflection on how great our Lord suffered for us. Try to attend Daily Mass every day this week. Especially during the Easter Triduum, “The Easter Vigil is the “Mother of All Vigils.” If you can’t attend daily Holy Mass, look for it on EWTN, or any other Catholic TV station via the internet. You can find it online, for rebroadcasts any time of day.

The Easter Triduum:

  • Mass of the Lord’s Supper (Holy Thursday)
  • Good Friday of the Lord’s Passion
  • Mass of the Resurrection of the Lord

Don’t forget that Easter does not end after you have your family meal together Sunday after attending Holy Mass. Easter has just begun. Come Monday, while everyone returns back to work, and lent done, Easter has just begun and is not over until the coming of the Holy Spirit, Pentecost Sunday. We often forget that after our Lords Resurrection, many things took place and Easter lasts for FIFTY days after Easter Sunday.

Divine Mercy Sunday is the Sunday following Easter Sunday. The Divine Mercy Novena begins on Good Friday at 3:00 PM, the hour our Lord gave Him self for us.

This is the season we are to look forward to. The great celebration that comes from repenting, turning away from the old self and putting on the new man, working with our Lord to live as He has called us. Let Him into your heart. Let Him roll away the stone in your heart and live with Him in His peace and joy. Leave the tomb of self behind. Allow yourself this week, to be crucified with Him and therefore, rise with Him.

Keeping you all in my prayers, praying you “Be not afraid” and “Follow Him”. “Be holy”.

 

Leave a comment

Filed under Prayers, Reflections, Uncategorized

Entering Into Others Suffering

Raising_Lazarus

“And Jesus wept.”

Pondering how our Lord entered into Martha and Mary’s suffering, during the death of their brother Lazarus, “Lord, if only you had been here, my brother would not have died”, allowing us to realize how much more we suffer without Him.

We should never be afraid to enter into others suffering. Nor should we ever be to proud to share our suffering with others.

When we share in others, it is then we become an answer to their prayer. A shoulder to cry on. A warm hug in the raging storm of another. An ear to just listen. Another to pray with. Sometimes, its all a soul needs to be embraced by the love of our Lord, to help them out of the isolation of despair they can easily fall into.

When we are overcome with pride, we fear sharing with others our sufferings, because we think we have to be tough. We have to be strong. We can’t be compassionate because it looks like weakness.

Its the contrary with humility and faith. Its a sure sign of the strength of our Lord, to weep with others in their pain. In their struggles. How we long for their pain and suffering to be diminished. If I could take away your pain I would. I can only share in yours and be there for you, to help you carry your cross. It is our Lord who wipes away the tears, takes away the mourning, and pain.

When I ponder this Sundays gospel of our Lord raising Lazarus from the dead, I see Him entering into our pain and suffering no matter how great it may be, and overcoming it with His Life. I see Him entering into the death of our loved ones,  giving us hope and pulling us out of the final end that death once held, which is His place. His domain. I see Him entering into our own death, and commanding death to untie us, and let us go, as it could not hold Him.

“I am the resurrection and the life, says the Lord;
whoever believes in me, even if he dies, will never die.”

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections, Uncategorized

A Wounded Heart

blood

When you spill your heart of all its contents in love and humility, all that desire and complete confidence, and those you hoped would hear and be moved, simply trample through the blood and contents like nothing… He knows that pain too.

Many times we confide in others our deepest longings for unity and peace from our hearts and they fall only to be trampled beneath the feet of one who has yet to understand.

“Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you were not willing.” – Matthew 23:37

Mocked and ignored while on the cross and still,  He was pouring out everything to who was waiting.

How many parents today, myself included, have children who no longer practice any faith, who share in His wounded heart. Who long to be heard by those who refuse to listen because they believe they know better. Or how many today have brothers and sisters, parents or cousins who do this also. There is an eminence longing, a deep pain in the family today, from many who do not even understand they are sharing in His pain. Sharing His wounded Sacred Heart.

How do we fix this? We follow Him. Not fighting the life we have been given by Him, but embracing this life of suffering, falling more deeply in love with Him. Living more deeply in the spiritual life and less in the material life. Rather than being possessed by the pain and suffering we have received, we must allow ourselves to be possessed by His pain, as it comes with His glory in joy.

If we are possessed by our own pain and sorrow, it is empty and becomes so bitter it can no longer do any good because it is born in pride. Suffering and pain coming from pride opens the door and brings with it wrath which leads to various other vices, some which lead to the destruction of others and self. Which, possesses us to do things that hurt others, self and our Lord.

If one is not possessed by God alone, (God alone being the Holy Trinity), then by what or who, is one possessed by? It is this total possession in thoughts, works, deeds, of our Lord, being completely consumed with Him, which leads a soul to do that which he ought, and not what he feels because he is compelled by Love. To do what is right and just, and not what is diabolical.

Great quote:

HolySpiritLove

If we are united in His suffering, we will be united in His joy. However, we must also be united in Spirit. If we allow the possessions of this world to take over the areas of that which He is to possess within us, the areas of our lives, that which He should already possess,  how then can we truly say, we are teaching our children the faith, or, we are sharing our faith with our neighbors, if we are not truly practicing our faith? I say this as its my own guilt of not practicing the faith as it should have been lived before I turned back to Him. When we live our faith, faith in every aspect of our lives, we truly can be a beacon of His light in the dark. Hope, however, needs to be reinforced by working our faith in all aspects of our daily life. Be not afraid. Live the faith.

Lets go back to the opening of my post. When we didn’t listen. When we trampled through His blood. When we mocked Him by refusing to believe. When we were not moved by His words to change, to move closer to Him, to repent and believe. When we refused to quench His thirst for our love for Him. We were covered in His blood. He loved us during every one of those moments. As we should love those who do not yet hear our cries as we are attached to Him, on and from His cross.

EDIT to Add today: 3/23/17

“But if it is by the finger of God that I drive out demons,
then the Kingdom of God has come upon you..” –

LK 11:14-23

 

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections, Uncategorized

Leaving The Bucket Behind

Well560_0

Leaving the bucket behind, for me, is leaving everything I had and wanted, and accepting all of Him. Following Him. His Truth. As my testimony, leaves me thirsty for more of Him. His, is Life giving water, which one never thirsts again. Its not what I do, but what He continues to do.

The question for me is no longer, do you believe because of what our Lord has done for me, rather, will you believe because of what He says and does,  and are you willing to allow Him to do everything for you? There must be a willingness in the soul, to answer as our Holy Mother did so, to our Lord, “Let it be done to me according to your word.”. A moment for the soul to surrender to the will of God.

“Many more began to believe in him because of his word, and they said to the woman, “We no longer believe because of your word; for we have heard for ourselves, and we know that this is truly the savior of the world.” – John 4:41-42

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections, Uncategorized

Complete Detachment From Things

reaction.jpg

Complete detachment, with reattachment only to our Lord.

I was watching a viral “feel good” video this morning of a little girl, who had been grieving the loss of her old cat and was given a “surprise” new kitten. Granted, thy typical click bait title was given: WATCH What Happens Little Girls Reaction is Priceless!

It was and she was overcome with many emotions and she cried, and the new kitten gets a hug from her new owner. But… What happens when that kitten grows up and runs the course of its life? Lather, rinse and repeat, in regards to the grief, loss and emotions of replacing that kitten again, which becomes a cat and so on. Its the vicious cycle of material attachments.

As I pondered this more deeply, I couldn’t help but post an update on  my facebook page, not even linking the video or mentioning it in any way which simply said..

status.

Mar 14, 2017 9:06am

Imagine this video… “This little soul lost everything she thought was hers. Her memories, her home, her friends, her children, her livelihood, and her own brothers and sisters, because of her faith in Jesus. Everything she lost God replaced with Jesus Christ. Her reaction is priceless”.

As I pondered this more deeply, I began to think of how we were all called to give up everything and follow Christ. I strolled over to Twitter and Bishop Robert Barron “just happened” to tweet a new Word On Fire Show. I highly suggest listening to the entire podcast, as it completes my post. Praise, glory and honor to our Lord Jesus Christ.

10:30 AM – 14 Mar 2017 

Please see here:

WOF 066: How to Have Hope

Leave a comment

Filed under Prayers, Reflections, Uncategorized

Politics – UPDATE

Pope-Benedict-728x375-1479228379

Never forget who you are called to follow…

Never forget who you are called to worship….

JESUS CHRIST IS LORD

Edit to Add: How to Win The Culture War

 

Leave a comment

Filed under Prayers, Reflections, Uncategorized

Polls

pictures-of-crosses-jesus-1127718-wallpaper

 

The only polls that ever mattered, or will…. Hint – Stick with the One in the center.

For through the law I died to the law, that I might live for God. I have been crucified with Christ; yet I live, no longer I, but Christ lives in me; insofar as I now live in the flesh, I live by faith in the Son of God who has loved me and given himself up for me.

 

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections, Uncategorized

Risen – More Than A Movie

12742467_10153575030819601_7657814977224082750_n

 

Its more than a movie. Its reality.

I had been discerning whether or not to go see the movie Risen. In all honesty, through a serious conversion of heart, we live it so there is no need to go see it. Last night, I had to opportunity to do just that.

Yesterday was a rare day in which I was able to attend Holy Mass at 5:30 PM, followed by Stations of the Cross. My children had attended the school Mass earlier that day along with the School Stations of the Cross. I had not been feeling well for the past few days and rather than attend with them, I decided to attend later tonight. My husband had been asking me if I was going to go see the movie “Risen” for the past few days and I had told him that I wanted to but I wanted him to say lets go see this movie.  I’m tired of being alone in our family, with our faith. Its not that I am lonely at all, but faith in our Lord was meant to be shared. Its hard when no one wants what you have to share.  Before leaving for Holy Mass last night, I asked everyone in my home, once more, “Does anyone want to come with me?”. My 9 year old Chloe said yes.

I attended Holy Mass followed by Stations in deep prayer and contemplation. It was beautiful. Mission San Diego was packed with souls worshiping our Lord. I became lost in Him as I pondered my nothingness and Him being my everything. It was a quiet drive back to my house after, as I was going to pick up my daughter. I contemplated on how peaceful and content it is to be with Him. I also thought about how it was going to be a late night as Friday is my night that I spend in Exposition with our Lord in the Blessed Sacrament also.

The movie was playing not far from my home at 7:50PM so after receiving our Lord, we could attend the movie. A late showing indeed, especially since I was bringing my daughter with me. Jumping ahead, we purchased our tickets, walked in to the theater and sat down. There was only a few other souls in the theater when we got there, but as the time passed before the movie began, more souls came in to watch the movie.

My Chloe cried as the reality of our crucified Lord began to ring home too her and I held her in my arms for the beginning of the movie and in all honesty, I am grateful she fell asleep quickly before all the other things took place in the beginning. I did appreciate the the fact that the makers of the movie did not try to pass our Lord off as just a sex symbol.

The movie ended. The souls in the theater clapped and I woke up my Chloe and got her up to leave. As we got up I noticed two men leaving who looked like the “Iconic” version of our Lord with long hair and body size and smiled to myself. I tried to keep up with them to get a look at their faces and His gentle reminder struck me. “Why Do You Look For The Living Among The Dead?”  That voice in my heart touched me and reminded me NEVER to chase after what I thought may be Him but to come to Him.  Our Lord was waiting for me in Exposition of the Blessed Sacrament.

As we arrived at home, I got my children ready for bed and off to praying the Rosary. I left again and was off to spend time with our Lord. As I walked into the Chapel which held our Lord there was only one other soul sitting with Him. There were 50 or so chairs set up and only two taken. I hung my head, and began to pray.

 

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections, Uncategorized

UPDATE 5: Water Well Needed For Mission In Africa – THANK YOU Lord!

CZc6WFGWkAAvhxd

Fr. Joe & The Gofundme donation online link is working again if you would like to continue to donate to help family’s truly in need.

See Here: Father Joe’s Water Well

Thank you so much for helping and may our Lord bless you always

_______________________________________________________________

 

“Thank you to all for the outpouring of money and effort on behalf of Father Joe’s parish. Recently we have been blessed to have been introduced to a contractor who has done charitable work in Kenya for similar communities. By God’s grace fresh water may soon be a reality at a fraction of our original budget. We are presently linking this fund to an account for transfer to Father Joe and there is a temporary hold on contributions for a few days. It will be open again very soon. Thank you for your continued generosity and prayers.”

Praise, glory and honor to God for prayers answered!

I was thirsty and you gave me drink”

Fr. Joseph Mungai was visiting the USA for a short time and is in need for his mission in Africa. His parishioners are in need of a well. They do not have clean drinking water and help is needed. Women must travel a 5k distance to a water source and often times are attacked on the way. Sometimes forced into paying for the water with their bodies. Water for sex has become common practice through the region as  obtaining clean drinking water is very hard to come by and unscrupulous vendors are not in short supply.

I have a very serious request for my readers. If you are able to donate to help build a well, for family’s in Africa, please help our cause. EDIT TO ADD:

20160216_130112

There are no coincidences. This is a painting that has hung on my wall for close to 7 years. “The Woman At The Well”. Please help us to build the well for clean drinking water in this mission so the women are not raped and forced into providing sex in return for clean water. I am a rape survivor. It was our Lord who taught me how to survive it, lead me through it and forgive the person who had done this. It is paramount for me to ensure no other woman be forced to endure this selfish act. For the price it would cost you to have your car detailed or your dog groomed, you can save a life and provide clean drinking water for many souls in need. Please consider donating or at least pray, for souls to come forward to build this well. Share this with someone who may be able to afford to donate.

“Lent is a time for reconsidering our feelings, for letting our eyes be opened to injustice, to open our hearts to those suffering.” – Pope Francis

According to the CDC, over 1 billion people are currently forced to use water from hazardous resources for cooking, bathing and consumption. Approximately half of this vulnerable population are children.

 

kids-filling-their-contenairs

Any amount would be appreciated. God bless you. If you can not donate, please share this story to help spread the word about the need for this well.

If you would like to donate online, please go to: Father Joe’s Water Well on GoFundMe

 He is also available on Twitter, if  you have any questions to ask him: @frjoemungai  #YearOfMercyWell

If you would like to send a donation, please do so. Donations can be made to:

Sr Larraine c/o Year of Mercy Well

11714 Main Street, Middletown Ky 40357 

Contact: 502 – 356-9281 or Larraine@waterwithblessings.org

The video below is part of Father Mungai’s community who are definitely in great need of fresh water.

 

St. Kateri Tekakwitha, pray for us. Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us all.

Leave a comment

Filed under Mercy, Prayers, Reflections, Uncategorized

Salve Mundi Salutare: Ad Manus

5b693-grunewald1515-hand

PART III
TO THE HANDS
I Hail, holy Shepherd! Lord, I worship Thee, Fatigued with combat, steeped in misery; Whose sacred Hands, outstretched in agony, All pierced and dislocated on the Tree, Are fastened to the wood of infamy.

II Dear holy Hands, I humbly worship ye, With roses filled, fresh blossoms of that Tree; The cruel iron enters into ye, While open gashes yield unceasingly The Precious stream down-dropping from the Tree.

III Behold, Thy Blood, O Jesus, flows on me– The price of my salvation falls on me; O ruddy as the rose, it drops on me. Sweet Precious Blood, it wells abundantly From both Thy sacred Hands to set me free.

IV My heart leaps up, O Jesus, unto Thee; Drawn by those nail-pierced Hands it flies to Thee; Drawn by those Blood-stained Hands stretched out for me, My soul breaks out with sighing unto Thee, And longs to slake its thirst, O Love, in Thee.

V My God, what great stupendous charity– Both good and bad are welcomed here by Thee! The slothful heart Thou drawest graciously, The loving one Thou callest tenderly, And unto all a pardon grantest free.

VI Behold, I now present myself to Thee, Who dost present thy bleeding Hands to me; The sick Thou healest when they come to Thee; Thou canst not, therefore, turn away from me, Whose love Thou knowest, Lord, is all for Thee.

VII O my Beloved, fastened to the Tree, Draw, by Thy love, my senses unto Thee; My will, my intellect, my memory, And all I am, make subject unto Thee, In whose dear arms alone is liberty.

VIII O draw me for Thy Cross’ sake to Thee; O draw me for Thy so wide charity; Sweet Jesus, draw my heart in truth to Thee, O put an end to all my misery, And crown me with Thy Cross and victory!

IX O Jesus, place Thy sacred Hands on me, With transport let me kiss them tenderly, With groans and tears embrace them fervently; And, O for these deep wounds I worship Thee; And for hte blessed drops that fall on me!

X O dearest Jesus, I commend to Thee Myself, and all I am, most perfectly; Bathed in Thy Blood, behold, I live for Thee; O, may Thy blessed Hands encompass me, And in extremity deliver me!

Leave a comment

Filed under Prayers, Reflections, Uncategorized

Ah, Holy Jesu

jesus-christ-crucifixion-645

Ah, holy Jesu, how hast Thou offended,
That man to judge Thee hath in hate pretended?
By foes derided, by Thine own rejected,
O most afflicted.

Who was that guilty? Who brought this upon Thee?
Alas, my treason, Jesu, hath undone Thee.
’Twas I, Lord, Jesu, I it was denied Thee!
I crucified Thee.

Lo, the Good Shepherd for the sheep is offered;
The slave hath sinned, and the Son hath suffered;
For man’s atonement, while he nothing heedeth,
God intercedeth.

For me, kind Jesu, was Thy incarnation,
Thy mortal sorrow, and Thy life’s oblation;
Thy death of anguish and Thy bitter passion,
For my salvation.

Therefore, kind Jesu, since I cannot pay Thee,
I do adore Thee, and will ever pray Thee,
Think on Thy pity and Thy love unswerving,
Not my deserving.

“Ah, holy, Jesu, how thou hast offended” by Choir of the Abbey School Tewkesbury; Words: Johann Heerman, Devoti Musica Cordis, 1630 (Herzliebster Jesu); translated from German to English by Robert S. Bridges, 1899.

1 Comment

Filed under Uncategorized

The Cihost’ Miracle, All Miracles

viewPhoto

From CNA/EWTN News

A priest who witnessed to a miracle in communist Czechoslovakia in the 1940s was tortured and beaten to death for refusing to recant what his parishioners had seen. And now Catholics from the country are honoring his heroic virtue and pushing for him to be recognized as a martyr.

photo

During the season of Advent in 1949 – the early phase of the communist era in Czechoslovakia – some parishioners told Fr. Toufar that they saw a cross at the altar in the church moving from one side to another several times. The event has come to be known as “the Cihost’ miracle.”

To prevent the news of the phenomenon from going public, the secret police interrogated Fr. Toufar, demanding that he say that he had moved the cross himself.

The priest, however, refused.

In response, the police beat him so drastically that he was unable to speak, walk or sit. Later tortured until he would sign a document asserting his guilt, he died two months after the miracle took place.

After Fr. Toufar’s death, the Church along with all religions were suppressed across the Soviet Union-led communist regime. The state was officially atheist and any accounts of miracles and those who spoke of them were treated in way to be erased from the record and the historical memory. The regime even filmed a documentary which tried to show that the Cihost’ miracle was a forgery.

Read more here

Today’s secular society continually seeks “signs”. Constantly looks for the ONE THING that would change their minds in regards to the faith, to cause one to repent and believe in our Lord. Always missing the fact that the “signs” of our Lords presence in our lives and in this world are so bright and so prevalent, one with faith can never miss them, and those without faith in Him, will always refuse to believe they are His “signs” at all. Placing their faith in something other then Him. Some other reason, some other answer, some other theory. Therefor making it impossible for themselves to find exactly what all hearts seek, that being peace.

In my own life, in trying to share my personal experiences with Christ our Lord with others, sharing all He has done for me and all He continues to do,every second, I am beginning to see the importance in His silence during His “trial”. His silence, keeps us silent to those who refuse to believe in Him. Stone hearts stood in judgement over flesh. In their minds, our Lord was already guilty and all “they” wanted was to silence Him. If “they” could not silence Him, “their” world would change drastically. Their “lifestyle” would change drastically and they, in fact, would have to change. No different then today. The evil that drove them, as the same evil today, would cease to exist, if they only listened and acted when they had the chance. You see today, where this Communist era ended and the Church and her faithful, continue on. Patience in trials, obtains all.

As the Communists did here and secular society’s try to do today to Christians, by trying to force them to adhere to secular teachings rather then “cleave” to Him and what He has taught us, with abortion, homosexual marriage, euthanasia, promiscuity, divorce, and like any “used car”, to much to list, secular society’s believe they are “gods” and force others, the faithful, who do not comply with their teachings, just as they did to our Lord.

At our Lords trial, many asked Him to prove Himself. Prove His words and actions. It wouldn’t have mattered what He would have done, as their minds and hearts were made up to crucify Him. All He did and said, was used against Him, instead of for Him, therefor bringing about His death and Resurrection, over 2000 years ago. He continues on. He always continues on. He is timeless.

You see, those who DO listen, who do repent, who do change and follow Him, have that peace in this life our Lord promised. Those stone hearts that once sat in the chests of many, became flesh again and were able to love as He loves. As you are still in the world, repent. Don’t wait until death. At death, its to late to go back and do everything for Him, after doing everything against Him. Where is Communism in Czechoslovakia today? Dead. Our Lord is still alive. Everything is a miracle. Everything is a sign.

Today’s Gospel:

While still more people gathered in the crowd, Jesus said to them,
“This generation is an evil generation;
it seeks a sign, but no sign will be given it,
except the sign of Jonah.
Just as Jonah became a sign to the Ninevites,
so will the Son of Man be to this generation.
At the judgment
the queen of the south will rise with the men of this generation
and she will condemn them,
because she came from the ends of the earth
to hear the wisdom of Solomon,
and there is something greater than Solomon here.
At the judgment the men of Nineveh will arise with this generation
and condemn it,
because at the preaching of Jonah they repented,
and there is something greater than Jonah here.” – LK 11:29-32

3 Comments

Filed under Prayers, Reflections

Lent 2014

Lent quote from Pope Francis 2014

Reflect, Repent, Regain, Rebuild….. Remain!

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections

Testing

Test Grade

Ever have one of those days when you wake up in total love & hope in the Lord? When you “feel” like nothing can stop you! Then the rest of your family gets out of bed…..and the test begins.

And you fail…. the “Oral” part of the test. BUT what the true grace is here from our Lord, is that He woke you up early to pray and spend time with Him so that when this test came, you could see it for what is was even if it is after the fact, and know He is still there bringing you through it. He also informs you that He will be waiting for you at St. Joseph Cathedral for Lunch (Mass) and its Tuesday so the Confessional is open AND KNOW THIS – you will be Re-tested over and over again, as many times as it takes until you pass.

2 Comments

Filed under Uncategorized

Casting Out All Fear

OLOPH

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. – 1 John 4:18

This week of lent, our parish has been hosting two wonderful redemptive Priests who are holding a Mission of the Cross of our Lord. I have been attending all week and have found them to be awe-inspiring. But this morning, was miraculous.

Today’s reflection was on healing and forgiveness. I have forgiven every soul in my life for everything but there was always something I felt that was in the way of my total healing. something holding me back and I could never put my finger on it. As I focused completely on the prayers with my heart this morning, I realized what was holding me back. Fear. Fear for others not listening to our Lord. Fear of others being separated from the love of God through the choices that they have made and continue to make.

As I was reminded of this through meditation and prayers of this morning, I began to have a strong pain in the pit of my stomach. It began to become stronger the more I focused on this issue and when I prayed for our Lord to remove this from me, the pain started to move upward, from my stomach and what felt like my esophagus and then I had this huge pain stuck for a bit in my throat. My eyes closed, I see the image of our Holy Mother Mary, in the painting of our Mother of Perpetual Help. She is the principal patron of the fathers giving this mission. Redemptorist Missionaries. I could barely think, let alone pray anymore but the pain continued to move until it was gone. It was without a doubt, our Lord removing a deep hook that I had swallowed. One that certainly held me back from healing. I can not say anymore about this now, as I truly need to pray and spend time in silence and contemplation of the love that has replaced that pain.

Leave a comment

Filed under Prayers, Reflections

Much More

cointrib

While in Adoration last night praying the rosary, I couldn’t help but start crying. While focusing on how our Lord has changed my life so drastically, changing me from a home wrecker to a home builder. Placing every sin I had committed my entire life in front of my face so I could see my own filth and allowing me the tools to clean up this life and change the path I was on through confession, Holy Mass and prayer, I looked at all the wonderful doors He opened for me and I knew in an instant, it’s much bigger than needing someone to change the Altar linens or taking care of the Adoration Chapel and ensuring the Legion of Mary is taken care of. All the beautiful and pure activates He filled my life with instead of hanging out at bars looking for Mr. this guy may be Right. I couldn’t hold back the tears thinking about His life and how He gave everything up for me not just so I could do these things. No way was it just about that. Rather it was for me to understand there is much more after this life. He has done so much for me, to prove to me He needs me, He wants me and He loves me. It’s much greater then this life and anything that fills it. I can only focus on how to empty myself for His love. Empty myself so He can fill me in order to live through me to reach every soul I come into contact with while I am still here. Some in big ways, some in little ways. Ensuring it is Him in every case.

After receiving our Lord at Mass this morning, I began to pray, and while my prayer was complete, the Priest began the final prayer of the Mass. I knew our Lord was there as the prayer I had recited in the quiet of my heart, was a reflection of the prayer the priest was saying to the entire church.

Withdraw your heart from the world before God takes your body from it.

— Blessed John of Avila

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections

Ash Wednesday 2013

ASH_WEDNESDAY%20(1)

For all Catholics who feel this day is the most important day of the year omitting Easter, Christmas or every Sunday. For all who believe they have to receive the ashes at all cost but want no part of the Holy Mass, the blessings, or going to confession. Who want no part of repenting, or sacrifice. All you have to do is go into your yard, roll around in the dirt, get up and go to work. I will keep praying for you’re conversion of heart to return back to the Catholic Faith.

For all others, I will see you in the Eucharist and continue to pray for you’re strength to continue. May God have mercy on us all.

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections

Forgiveness Sunday

sinner

“Forgive me, a sinner.”

Today is Forgiveness Sunday. I forgive EVERYONE in my life from conception and in advance, through natural death who may or has inflicted any harm on me. I hope you can forgive me as well if I have hurt you in any way.

With the 40 days of lent approaching, what a great way to start the journey. May God have mercy on us all.

Burying the Proverbial Hatchet

Forgiving people when they apologize is one thing; but have you ever tried to forgive someone who has hurt you and never shown any remorse? Not so easy, is it? It’s tough to bury that hatchet.

Even after years spent developing a relationship, a single harsh statement or thoughtless act can destroy everything we feel for that person. We forget the good and play out bitter, vindictive scenarios in our minds.

When someone hurts us, we have choices. We can go our separate ways and never talk again. We can live with the anger. We can bear grudges, nurse hate, and seek revenge. We can pretend everything is fine and just bury our feelings. Or we can face the person and talk things through … and then forgive.

Of course, the last choice is the healthy one. Even if the person who wronged you refuses to change or take responsibility, you can still let go of pride and bring closure and healing – for your own sake.

Forgetting is the hardest part of forgiving. We bury the hatchet; but when we leave the handle sticking out of the ground, we’re just giving the pain permission to continue cutting us. Bury the handle! Cancel the debt! This is the only way to experience freedom.
By Fr. Robert M. Pipta, Holy Angels Byzantine Catholic Church, San Diego CA.

Master, Teacher of wisdom, Bestower of virtue, You teach the thoughtless and protect the poor: Strengthen and enlighten my heart. Word of the Father, Let me not restrain my mouth from crying to you: Have mercy on me, a transgressor, O merciful Lord!

The Fourth Sunday of the Triodion Period: Sunday of Forgiveness (Cheesefare Sunday)

2 Comments

Filed under Reflections

Dust

jesus

I received this prayer card over this past weekend and pulled it out today and finally read it. I needed this today and hope it does someone else as much good to pray this prayer as it has done for me.

021810A752front640jpg

021810-A752-final-back-for-web

Special thanks to CatholicPrayerCards.org for the photos and the prayers. You can purchase this card from them here

Leave a comment

Filed under Prayers

Empty Tabernacle

As I attended Mass this morning, I quickly discovered, today would be the last day until Sunday to See my Lord in Adoration. All the Eucharist were distributed at the end of Mass and I was blessed to receive Him four times! Although my cup runneth over, I can not run to Him for He is not there…. It was the kiss good by but not forever. Until the day of Glory is at hand… after the passion. I just returned from mass, and I already miss Him.

Leave a comment

Filed under Reflections

A Slow Walk Through Purgatory

I just broke into tears because I read something that I have been going through since 1998. I have NEVER been able to place it into this paragraph that has capture the essence of it all.

From the article: All Sin Is Disgusting

“If you want a truly Lenten experience, then pray earnestly that the Holy Spirit will reveal to you the damage that your sins have done. And then hold onto your butts, because it’s going to be a horrible ride. Don’t forget to pray for hope and healing at the same time, nothing hurts more than looking your own guilt in the face.”

It is a horrible ride. A very SLOW walk through purgatory. The ONLY THING that has kept my sanity throughout my entire experience is KNOWING it is REAL and so builds my faith and LOVE for Christ and I can only hold onto the mercy of God and pray continually.

Every second I am alive is spent in constant repentance leaving self behind, thinking only of others.

EDIT TO ADD:

It truly is: “My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?” A blessing in disguise

At least while I am here, I get reprieve! I can SEE His grace at work. I can see it in the Church! I can see Him in EVERYTHING! When the reprieves come, its a beautiful peace. Its a constant ride that doesn’t end until He says “It is finished”.

From the agony in the Garden: “”My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death,” he said to them. “Stay here and keep watch.” Mark 14:34

Leave a comment

Filed under Uncategorized