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Just For A Time, Goodbye My Love

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I will be able to receive our Lord today at Holy Mass, for the last time until this pandemic is over, and the faithful are all allowed to return to their First Love.

“And behold, I am with you always, until the end of the age.”.

As I ponder not being able to receive our Lord in the Eucharist, as Masses for the public are canceled, from my point of view, as I am blessed to receive our Lord today for a last time, until this is all over, I can see it as a Military spouse, kissing her husband good bye as he heads off on a short deployment. Its just for a little while.

While I have spent many years separated from my spouse due to many deployments, we still talked. We still loved one another. It was just for a time and he returned. So I still love our Lord in return, remain faithful, and do what I can to stay close to Him, as He is never far from us. Is it He who is leaving? Or is it us? Mass is still being celebrated and Adoration of Him is still available. So like a deployed spouse, we can talk and still see each other, but unable to receive one another. The spiritual battle is real.

Today’s Gospel, is very special to me, as it was our Lord  who spoke to me, an ostracized soul from many places,  in the same way as He did with the woman at the well. I will post more about this later today, but for now, as eleven O’clock Mass approaches, this time is reserved strictly for our Lord. I will receive Him for all who are not able to today, along with bringing you with me in prayer, along with all who have died.

Peace.

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Thanksgiving – 2019

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For all that has been

For all that is now

For all that will be

Thank you Lord, I love You too.

For all time, and all eternity.

 

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It Is The Thought

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“And the Word became flesh-

and made his dwelling among us,

and we saw his glory,

the glory as of the Father’s only Son,

full of grace and truth.”

 

This Christmas, my husband surprised me with a gift only our Lord could inspire him to get me. One which will be shared with two thousand souls.

As I have been going through testing for MS, my doctor placed me on a diet. One I was not thrilled about. Its completely gluten free. No flour of any kind that contained any wheat. Not to test me for celiac disease, but to see if I have a sensitivity to gluten which may be causing any of the symptoms I may be having. One of the issues I had with this diet, was that I would not be able to receive our Lord in the Eucharist. I can, however, receive Him through the Sacred Blood, which is available at my parish.

The day I had gotten home from the doctor, just a few days before my birthday, I had told my husband about the strict diet. I let him know my thoughts about the whole thing and I wasn’t exactly happy about not being able to receive our Lord, nor have birthday cake, nor anything through Christmas with flour in it. It was only temporary, but the timing of this, was not exactly the best, or so I thought.

Since this last bout of what ever this may be has come about in June,  I have noticed a beautiful change in my husband, in which he as become very attentive and caring, pulling the two of us much closer than we had ever been at any time in our marriage.

For the past few weeks on this strange diet I had been very good. I have been avoiding everything so we could see just how much of a change would take place. I made cookies and all sorts of sweets for Christmas, offering up the fact that I couldn’t even taste them. This is only a temporary diet, and by my next doctor appointment, I will be able to have what I could not, again.

On Christmas Morning, as we were opening up gifts, my husband handed me my stocking. I pulled out two boxes and looked at them with a puzzled look on my face. I couldn’t tell what they were. My husband looked at me and said, “I know you would NEVER buy them for yourself, so I wanted to get them for you, because I know how important it is. I don’t know if they are okay to use, and I’m not sure they can be, because I know there are rules, but I wanted you to have them.”.  He then preceded to tell me they were two boxes of hosts. Although, gluten free hosts.

My jaw must have hit the floor when he told me what he had done for me. In that very moment, it was as if our Lord was speaking to me. I didn’t know what to say. I was in awe at the gift. This gift meant everything to me. Granted, they can not be used, as there are strict stipulations on Communion Bread in the Catholic Church. I looked at my husband as if I was looking into the eyes of our Lord. The love that consumed me at that very moment, will never be forgotten.

As the day progressed, the thought of this gift inflamed my heart so deep in love. I looked at them, pondering our Lord, opened them and seen the ingredients, knowing full well at that moment, they were not usable for Catholic Mass. So driven by love, we purchased two boxes of usable Hosts with wheat, and when they are delivered, we will give them to our parish as a gift of our Lord that will be shared with all.

Merry Christmas! 

 

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Palm Sunday 2017

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How can one make this Holy Week, truly Holy?

Welcome our Lord into your heart and keep Him there for this upcoming week, and strive to keep Him there forever. Grow in faith. Hold on to the conversion of heart He is offering you.

Receive the Sacrament of Confession which returns your soul to the state it was in the day you were baptized. A clean and beautiful temple to receive our Lord.

Attend Holy Mass and pay attention. Listen to every word, participate when you are to participate. Sing when you are to sing. Listen intently to what is being read. Follow with your heart as the Priest speaks. Forget distractions seeing to pull you away from our Lord.

Receive our Lord in the Eucharist. Speak to Him when you do receive Him.

Pray more this week. Try praying the entire Rosary daily, or add praying Divine Office (Liturgy of the Hours). Just speak to our Lord in all ways, in all instances, at every moment you are awake. Be aware at all times that He is truly with you in what you are doing and INVITE Him in to your activities, like you would invite your best friend. Try Lectio Divina, “Divine Reading” – Lectio Divina”, a Latin term, means “divine reading” and describes a way of reading the Scriptures whereby we gradually let go of our own agenda and open ourselves to what God wants to say to us.

You can also pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet.

Reflect on the Gospels of this week. Stations of the Cross is a beautiful reflection on how great our Lord suffered for us. Try to attend Daily Mass every day this week. Especially during the Easter Triduum, “The Easter Vigil is the “Mother of All Vigils.” If you can’t attend daily Holy Mass, look for it on EWTN, or any other Catholic TV station via the internet. You can find it online, for rebroadcasts any time of day.

The Easter Triduum:

  • Mass of the Lord’s Supper (Holy Thursday)
  • Good Friday of the Lord’s Passion
  • Mass of the Resurrection of the Lord

Don’t forget that Easter does not end after you have your family meal together Sunday after attending Holy Mass. Easter has just begun. Come Monday, while everyone returns back to work, and lent done, Easter has just begun and is not over until the coming of the Holy Spirit, Pentecost Sunday. We often forget that after our Lords Resurrection, many things took place and Easter lasts for FIFTY days after Easter Sunday.

Divine Mercy Sunday is the Sunday following Easter Sunday. The Divine Mercy Novena begins on Good Friday at 3:00 PM, the hour our Lord gave Him self for us.

This is the season we are to look forward to. The great celebration that comes from repenting, turning away from the old self and putting on the new man, working with our Lord to live as He has called us. Let Him into your heart. Let Him roll away the stone in your heart and live with Him in His peace and joy. Leave the tomb of self behind. Allow yourself this week, to be crucified with Him and therefore, rise with Him.

Keeping you all in my prayers, praying you “Be not afraid” and “Follow Him”. “Be holy”.

 

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His Transfiguration

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“While he was still speaking, behold,
a bright cloud cast a shadow over them,
then from the cloud came a voice that said,
“This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased;
listen to him.”

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“This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased;
listen to him.”

 

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“This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased;
listen to him.”

I hear you Lord

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Independence Day From Sinfulness

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Saturday July 4th, I will be dedicating to our Holy Mother Mary and first Saturday. I ask you to join me as we celebrate her, our Catholic Faith and TRUE Independence from our sinfulness. I have my flag out already. I will be bringing my children to Holy Mass after we all receive the Sacrament of Reconciliation. Just an idea I feel needs to be shared.

“In the end, My Immaculate Heart will triumph.” – Our Lady of Fatima

FREEDOM!

All praise, honor and glory to our Lord, Jesus Christ.

EDIT to add:

Its not a call to abandon hope, nor to hide inside this day, but to celebrate LIFE in Christ. To still enjoy our Lords creation. TO STILL live the life our Lord has given to us and to appreciate Holiness in the Light. Its not that we are NOT still sinners, but rather we know we are and we are TRYING with the grace of God to get back home to our Lord, in TRUE Love. Agape!

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“Praise God, from Whom all blessings flow;
Praise Him, all creatures here below;
Praise Him above, ye heavenly host;
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost!
Amen!”

EDIT:

The original photo has been changed at the top of this post. WITHOUT KNOWING, I was flying my Vatican Flag upside down for many many WEEKS. I didn’t know it. Today, I fixed it. Keep in mind ANY flag flown upside down is a sign of “distress” and NOT disrespect. Pray for this nation and the ENTIRE Church.

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Gift Of Marriage

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After a long spiritual battle, going further back then I can remember, my husband and I have finally married in the Catholic Church, May 4, 2013. We had been living as brother and sister for many years so I could continue on in the journey home to the Catholic Church. After several years of uncertainty, rumors of divorce and other daggers spit at us from Satan, we have, only by the grace of God, finished this race. Many miracles occurred on this road. I am forever grateful to our Lord.

After all the ups and downs, I was given a beautiful spiritual gift I will not soon forget. On our way home from our wedding celebration, close to our home, I looked arround as my husband was driving and sence of being in friendly surroundings had overtaken me.. It was a peace I had not had for some time. I can ony describe this as a soldier coming home from war to a waiting family. I could breath. I could relax and it was as if our Lord had taken a creat crushing weight off of my soul. It truly has been a daily battle of intense fighting for freedom. Our Lord had allowed me R & R. There is nothing in this world more precious than KNOWING, God’s will have been done, the battle won and now, I could sit back and breath on this front of the war I know for fact, I am now fighting on the side of God and for good.

The gift from God below, (at the link) is the greatest gift I have ever received. I live to give this gift back to Him. With His grace, His will be done. Always.

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Thank you Lord, your servant is listening…..

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Turning Tables

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“And said unto them, It is written, My house shall be called the house of prayer; but you have made it a den of thieves”

Last Friday, a woman made her way to our Adoration chapel with two family members. She was in a condition of great fear. Frozen in fear. She did not want to leave the tabernacle. She clung to it with a crucifix in one hand and begged me to place holy water on her. My heart cried for her. You see I knew her pain as I had been in a similar condition many years ago. It’s a state of deep repentance. As I was describing this poor woman to another person, I was quickly reminded this week of our Lord in the temple, flipping over the money changers tables. The body is the Temple. When the “world” sees a soul in this state, they call it mental illness but never even think of the sickness of the soul. Confession! Anointing of the Sick! THEN take them to a mental care facility, arming them with a book of prayers for the duration. When the soul is sick, everything in the body is sick. There is no pill you can take or that can be created by man to cure a sick soul. Only our Lord is the Doctor of your soul. If you allow Him to fix your soul, your entire life blossoms into great beauty!

You see, our Lord did this to me. My soul has always belonged to Him as do all of ours baptized in the faith. I had made His “Temple” a den of thieves by living a sinful life and falling away from His teachings. He came in to His “Temple” and removed everything He did not place in there, everything that did not belong there. When this happened, I too was in a state of dread and fear, frozen in fear because it is Him, allowing the soul to be “Sifted as Wheat”. Every sin I had ever committed was being tossed into the dumpster as I stood by it repenting as it was thrown in, feeling like a “hoarder” watching everything I had, my sinful posessions and passions, which was in fact worthless garbage, being tossed away. There was nothing else I could do but repent. I was guilty of everything. A disconnect comes when we do not understand this is for the greater good of our soul and we think that Christ want’s us to just stand there and not move as this is taking place. Or that He hates us and is punishing us. Dead wrong! It is very incorrect to think this way. God never wishes you to be frozen in fear. He needs you to trust in Him and continue moving closer to Him with the understanding He is everywhere you are to complete His will. If we remain frozen in fear, afraid to move, we miss out the beauty of his consolations through all life, that He is trying to replace all the death that He removed from your soul that you had built up separated from Him.

No table of junk is left unturned. But know this. Everything that is removed is replaced with great joy and love that explodes into a satisfaction of knowing He is God and He is with you but it takes lots of prayer to work through this along with using all the grace and gifts He gives to you. Leaning and trusting completely on Him as the Builder, turning the tables on living the sinful life and bringing you into “communion” with Him, in a life of prayer.

Our recompence is in Christ’s hands and when we submit, we are then crucified with Him.

Edit to add on 3/30/2013

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Thus says the Lord:
In their affliction, they shall look for me:
“Come let us return to the Lord,
For it is he who has rent, but he will heal us;
he has struck us, but he will bind our wounds.
He will revive us after two days;
on the third day he will raise us up,
to live in his presence.”

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Ready Or Not

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The soul not ready for our Lord…

A woman is taking care of the household as her Spouse is on a very long business trip. Little by little things begin to go wrong arround the house. He left her with more resources than she could have ever dreamed of having. A sink backs up one week. The next week some shingles fall off the roof in a wind storm. A few days later, the toilet overflows. A few days later a window is broken. The woman sits and does nothing to fix the things going wrong. She puts them off and says to herself, its my spouses job to fix those things, not mine. He will have to fix them when He gets home. After weeks and years of her Spouse away on business, the house has fallen into disrepair and she is sleeping on a pile of rubble. Her Spouse returns and she sees Him walking up to the front door that is hanging on one hinge. As soon as He crosses the threshold, she begins to cry and tell Him if He was here the house would not be ruined. If He would have done His job, they would still have a home today. He looks at her and knowing He has been away for so long, begins to clean up the mess she allowed to happen. He stops as her complaining continues and walks away.

A ready soul….

A woman is taking care of the household as her Spouse is on the same long business trip. Little by little things begin to go wrong arround the house. A sink backs up one week. She fixes it because she knows her Spouse is busy and not here yet. He left her with more resources than she could have ever dreamed of having. She loves Him so much, and does not know when He will be returning. She takes it up and fixes the problem immediately, so He doesn have to when He returns. The next week some shingles fall off the roof during a wind storm. She calles a roofer to help her fix the problem as she knows she can not fix it alone. She does not want her loving Spouse to have to take care of it upon His return. All the same things begin to go wrong and she pulls all she has in strength together to fix all that goes wrong before her loving Spouse returns. One day, she is looking out a window she learned how to fix, and seen her Spouse walking up the front walk. She ran to the door as He opened it and they fell into each others arms and kissed passionately. (I’ll end it there).

Do you think our Lord wants to sit and have a cup of coffee with you and talk about all the things that went wrong while you were living? Do you think He wants to hear you complain about how long He was gone? Of course not. All He wants to do is grab you in His arms and hold you and love you. The falling down house is the soul in need of serious repairs. A soul who has not gone to confession, not taken care of the business at”home” with the gifts our Lord has given to us to do so, while He is away. The ready soul is the one who used everything our Lord has left them, to ensure when He returned, He would not have to do much before grabbing hold of His spouse.

Think about it….

When you are in love, not a second goes by that you can not think of the person you are in love with. It’s like two teenagers constantly texting each other, seconds apparat just telling the other, I love you. This is how our Lord wants you to Love Him. Everything you see, taste, touch, hear, learn, and know, should remind you of Him. When the two meet again, everything around them disappears and all they see is the love between them. Not the things that separated them.

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Lukewarm

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“The greatest romance one can find, is to fall in love with God. The greatest journey one could embark on, is to seek Him. The greatest achievement one can obtain, is to find Him.”~ St. Augustine

When we set off on a journey, even one as simple as a walk around the block, we don’t take the first step saying, when I get back home, I’m going to do something else. If we do, our heart isn’t in the journey to begin with. When we take that first step out of the house, we should be focusing on how beautiful the fresh air is that kisses our face. It is a kiss from God. It is Him brushing away the staleness we had been cooped up in. We should be grateful for the ability to take the walk in the first place. This goes for attending Holy Mass. When we are truly IN Communion with Him, our eyes are opened large enough to hold all His treasures pouring into our hearts in the form of grace and joy for all eternity.

We should never “feel” as if it is an OBLIGATION to attend Mass but rather a blessing to attend Holy Mass. If we look at Holy Mass as an obligation, it becomes a chore and done because we “feel” we have to go. When we attend Mass in love, our love for God, it’s no longer an obligation, but rather done IN love. We seek Him everywhere we can find Him. Or we freely go to where we know He is present. Without even so much as a single thought of what we are doing after we spend time with Him. The entire world we know outside of Mass, disappears and He appears in us, to love Him and life in Him. To love our neighbor as He loved us. To attend to the needs of those He placed in our lives and overlook self-interest.

The most amazing journey the soul can be on isn’t a perpetual journey, but rather reaching the end. No matter how long the journey is, we know in our hearts, it’s not forever. Only God is forever. If we chose not to bring Him with us on this journey of life, we have to ask, what is it I am seeking at Mass if it is not Him?

I hear all the time, we need a miracle! We need to see a miracle! No matter how many “Miracles” appear in your life, the only one that will ever matter, takes place on the Holy Altar at every Catholic Mass celebrated throughout the world. When our Lord is present, in a form most can not understand. When our Lord becomes the Holy Meal between friends. For a soul looking for miracles, you will never see them. You can’t. For the soul seeking God, He is visible once we understand where He resides. In the Truth. If I were to tell you that “Someone” came to me and told me about every sin I had committed, about how my entire life was going to be, about every event takeing place right now, would you believe in God anymore then you did before you read this? Would you seek Him in everything you do? Would you set out to believe in Him more today? Because “Someone” did come to me. “Someone” who knew every sin I had committed. “Someone” who knew my past, present and future. “Someone” who knew me more than I knew myself. I didn’t believe in the beginning either. When this occurred, it was just a random conversation. I was lukewarm if not frozen in a life of sin. At this time I too was looking for a miracle. I did not see one because my heart was not open to Him. Everything, now after the fact and everything I see, is a miracle. I might not know who it was, I did ask him is he was God and he said no, but the glory and honor belongs to God. Only God can change a heart to love and serve Him. For me, the journey to find out who that was, is over and has been over for some time. It no longer matters. God does. He does not create chaos in our lives, but He does allow it to happen and when we seek Him and only Him, He calms the storm simply as we stretch our hands to Him.

Lukewarm might be a good place to be in a bathtub, but in the faith, when we become “comfortable” in what we are doing, we lose the understanding of how UNCOMFORTABLE the world is with faith in Christ. The world contradicts what our Lord has done and is doing now, along with what He has promised for eternity. The lukewarm find comfort among the thorns in the Crown of our Lord, rather than in the heart of the Love in His heart. The lukewarm find comfort in the thrust of the spear into His side on the Cross rather than in the water and blood that came from His suffering to comfort, wash us and cleanse us of the world which seeks to do the same to us. The lukewarm find comfort among those who persecute Him rather than those who suffer within Him, together with Him in truth. It is very visible to see this in the way we treat our neighbors. Do we love them as our Lord loves us or do we just sit back and let them fall when they fall because it’s just “the way it is”. It is easy to see this in the way the lukewarm in all they do.

If the heart is not inflamed with love for Him, and only Him, we overlook the first commandment completely. “I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. You shall have no other gods before me. You shall not make for yourself a graven image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth; you shall not bow down to them or serve them. It is written: “You shall worship the Lord your God and him only shall you serve.”

The more love that is given to Him, the more love that is poured out onto you from Him, stoking the flames in your heart to do EVERYTHING for Him, because of Him. You no longer go looking, you just accept what He is giving you and in return, you give everything you have back to Him not because it is right and just, but because you love Him, which is right and just.

I. “YOU SHALL WORSHIP THE LORD YOUR GOD AND HIM ONLY SHALL YOU SERVE”

2084 God makes himself known by recalling his all-powerful loving, and liberating action in the history of the one he addresses: “I brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage.” The first word contains the first commandment of the Law: “You shall fear the LORD your God; you shall serve him. . . . You shall not go after other gods.”5 God’s first call and just demand is that man accept him and worship him.

2085 The one and true God first reveals his glory to Israel.6 The revelation of the vocation and truth of man is linked to the revelation of God. Man’s vocation is to make God manifest by acting in conformity with his creation “in the image and likeness of God”:

There will never be another God, Trypho, and there has been no other since the world began . . . than he who made and ordered the universe. We do not think that our God is different from yours. He is the same who brought your fathers out of Egypt “by his powerful hand and his outstretched arm.” We do not place our hope in some other god, for there is none, but in the same God as you do: the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.7
2086 “The first commandment embraces faith, hope, and charity. When we say ‘God’ we confess a constant, unchangeable being, always the same, faithful and just, without any evil. It follows that we must necessarily accept his words and have complete faith in him and acknowledge his authority. He is almighty, merciful, and infinitely beneficent. Who could not place all hope in him? Who could not love him when contemplating the treasures of goodness and love he has poured out on us? Hence the formula God employs in the Scripture at the beginning and end of his commandments: ‘I am the LORD.'”8 Catechism of the Catholic Church

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Through the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I ask You O Lord, to inflame the hearts of the lukewarm and increase their faith and love for You that they may serve You Lord in all they do, and give all the glory and honor to God the Father. I beg, have mercy on us all Lord. Amen

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Pure Bliss

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“I baptize you with water for repentance. But after me will come one who is more powerful than I, whose sandals I am not fit to carry. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and with fire.” Matthew 3:11

Two years ago, I had a vision of our Lord. Although I have posted about many of them, this one I decided to keep in my heart as it was something of pure bliss. Just before the 4th of July in 2011, I had a vision of our Lord swimming in a beautiful river. His face was just above the very peaceful water and He was swimming towards me. I just knew it was Him. His eyes pierced my entire being and His smile was a smile unlike any I have ever seen. It pulled me into a joy I had never known before. That was it. I was swimming in this beautiful place with Him. What make it beautiful was Him just being there. Although the vision didn’t last for more than a few moments, it has never left me. From that day, when I would pray the rosary and I would ponder the Baptism of our Lord, the vision stuck with me. His face coming up from the water and the heavens opening up, “And a voice from heaven said, “This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased.” echos through me with the face that I had seen in the vision.

Today after Mass, my priest tapped me on the shoulder and told me he had a package for me and wanted to give it to me after Mass. He then asked me if I would like to light the last Advent candle on the wreath. I was so excited I couldn’t pass it up. My girls look forward every week to the lighting of the candle which brings us that much closer to Christmas, and participating in lighting it, would be something they would never forget. After the final candle was lit and the most beautiful Mass was over, I met Father in the sacristy and he handed me a small package. We took it home and my girls had to have me open it, and so I did. My jaw dropped when I seen the beautiful piece. I received an bi-fold icon of the Baptism of our Lord and if I had opened this in front of Father, I would have cried like a baby and hugged him. He would have thought I was nuts. There is no doubt in my mind, the Holy Spirit whispered to Father about his gift idea to me. It is so precious to have this closeness with our Lord more so then the piece I was given today, but to have not only the vision and joy but also the physical, is just something so sweet that nothing on earth could ever match. When I look at it, I can’t help but say, it is You. It is my Beloved telling me, it is I.

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White Horse

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“I saw heaven standing open and there before me was a white horse, whose rider is called Faithful and True. With justice he judges and makes war” Revelation 19:11

I was blessed this morning with not only setting up for 24 hour Exposition of the Blessed Sacrament after our 8:00 AM Mass, but also through the Legion of Mary, partaking in and setting up a Mass located in one of our Nursing Homes that we evangelize to every week. I had set up the Altar and we were waiting for our priest. When he arrived, although I had set them out, we forgot to bring our celebrants vestments and I asked him before the Mass began, if he would like me to run and get them. He said yes and so I was off to retrieve them. Our Parish was not that far away from where we were located. When I returned I parked on a side street from the main road next to a protestant church, where the Nursing facility was located. I got out of my car and standing in the middle of the street was a huge black rooster. I giggled as I seen him thinking this was an odd place for a rooster. I made a chicken noise at him, laughed and began to cross the road. I thought of the old joke as I was crossing, “Why did the chicken cross the road?” and said out loud, thinking of what we were about to do, vestments in hand, answering “Because I’m not a chicken”.

I arrived in time for the Gospel to be read and after, Father placed on the stole. During the consecration of the bread and wine, into the Body and Blood of our Lord, I noticed that there appeared to be a reflection of the Roman Missal on the chalice. The holy book was open and the pages laying in such a way that looked like one white horses hoof on the chalice. I couldn’t hold back my smile and it brought me deeper into the Mass. I was overcome with a deep peace and joy. I could see Victory. I knew, in the midst of this suffering our Lord and His entire Holy Army were present to bring The Light, defeat the darkness of the lame, suffering and all His children’s ailments. The True Healer was present and I was able to see Him in His glory as all received Him warmly, in love.

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Give Thanks

Eucharist: the Greek noun εὐχαριστία (eucharistia), meaning “thanksgiving”

For I received from the Lord what I also delivered to you, that the Lord Jesus on the night when he was betrayed took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it, and said, “This is my body which is for you. Do this in remembrance of me.” (1 Corinthians 11:23-24)

Is thankful our Lord called me when He did. Is thankful our Lord pulled me from the pit and cleaned me off. Is thankful Mama Mary said yes and gave us the model of faith in God to become Handmaids of the Lord. Is thankful our Lord corrects me and comforts me but most of all, forgives me. Is thankful our Lord is our Lord, our God and our King.

Thank you Lord.

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Thank You St. Therese of Lisieux

Yesterday was the final day of my Parish St. John of the Cross, Fall Festival. I spent the entire day there with my girls Violet and Chloe. We spent most of the weekend there even though I have been struggling lately with some health issues, but yesterday was so precious.

My girls were playing a carnival game and my daughter Violet noticed a stuffed dog holding a baby dog and had told her sister Chloe if she should win, would she PLEASE win the dog for her. After a many rounds of placing quarters on numbers and spinning a number wheel, Chloe won. Amid a crowd of people she yelled out “Please give me that dog for my sister Violet”. Chloe is just 5 years old. The entire table went silent. Chloe was handed the dog and she ran to Violet and gave it to her. They hug in an embrace that told me our Lord did this. Violet thanked Chloe and they were better than just sisters. They became BEST Sisters.

After that beautiful exchange between sisters, we walked into the hall and began to look among the items in the silent auction. Chloe had noticed a game that she wanted and I placed her name on the list with an amount and told her we would wait until the auction to see if she had won. The game was actually a pair of identical games that were both the same but different roller coaster games. We waited for the auction and Chloe was so excited to wait for her name to be called. It took a long time for them to get to the table where her toys were and they read the name and it was not Chloe who won. She had been outbid. She looked at me from across the room and shook her head yes as if to say did they say it? Did I win? And I looked at her and shook my head no and opened my arms to receive the broken hearted Chloe. She cried so hard walking back in defeat. I could not consul her. I told her that because she had been SO gracious with her sister and won her the stuffed dog, I would take her right over to the toy store and buy her the same toy. She didn’t want anything to do with that. It was THAT raceway, THAT toy she wanted. I hugged her and after a few moments of crying, a little girl walked over with both the games Chloe had wanted and gave Chloe the pick of which one she could have. Chloe jumped up and down and was SO happy! So full of thanksgiving! She picked one not believing what the little girl had done for her and I told her she better thank her. She RAN to the girl and hugged her and thanked her. I took Violet and Chloe to the side and asked them who they thought made this happen? Violet smiled when I said this was all because of Jesus. I told them that Jesus had seen what Chloe had done for Violet and how much love she did it in for her sister that He provided someone to do the exact thing for Chloe. In unison, we all thanked our Lord together and told Him we loved Him.

The day before, on Saturday, walking through the same silent auction, someone had donated a box of porcelain doll pieces. Old doll wigs, arms, bodies, legs and everything you could need to build porcelain dolls. My Violet loved it! She wanted them all! They were not in the auction and we were approached and and asked if we would want to purchase two of them for the girls and I said yes. In the meantime, I had signed Violets name to another bid of three porcelain dolls on display, and when I did realized one of the Sisters from the girls school was the one we had just outbid. I left it alone; thinking someone else would bid higher. Sunday morning after Mass, we were asked again if we would just take the entire box of doll parts as no one was interested in them. I said yes and was then asked to make a few for the next years silent auction. My Violet was thrilled!

After Chloe had been given her game, we left the silent auction very happy and started to head home. The auction was far from over but we needed to leave. I was exhausted and my head was pounding. Just before 8:00 PM the phone rang. It was Marta from the Silent Auction letting me know that Violet had won the three dolls and I had to get there to pick them up and pay for them. I smiled and knew exactly what needed to be done. I asked Violet if it would be okay if we gave Sister the three dolls because we had been given so much. She said yes. I went back to Church, paid for the dolls and began to look for any of the Sisters from the School. I found two of them and told them the story, handing them the bag of dolls and letting them know, they belonged to Sister Therese.

On my way back to my car, I remembered I needed to change the Altar for the next morning Mass. I went into Church and noticed the Statue of St. Therese of Lisieux was brought to the front. All the day’s events filled my head in a flood of amazement. I realized it was her feast day and doing everything in love, was the easiest way to our Lord. Not feeling very well, after the Altar was taken care of, I searched for roses to place at her feet, for placing so many of our Lords in my arms.

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The Upper Room


The Upper Room


A view from outside…..

The Cenacle room on Mt Zion in Jerusalem is where two major events in the early Christian Church are commemorated: The Last Supper and the coming of the Holy Spirit on the apostles.

• The Last Supper was the meal Jesus shared with his apostles the night before he died. During this meal he instituted the Eucharist.

• The coming of the Holy Spirit, at Pentecost, is recognised as marking the birth of the Christian Church.

The Cenacle is on the upper floor of a two-storey building near the Church of the Dormition, south of the Zion Gate in the walls of Jerusalem’s Old City.

Where Peter was left knocking

According to early Christian tradition, the “upper room” was in the home of Mary the mother of John Mark. He was the author of the Gospel of Mark (and presumably also the young man who fled naked, leaving behind his linen garment, to escape the authorities when Jesus was arrested in the garden at Gethsemane, an event he recorded in Mark 14:51).

This house was a meeting place for the followers of Jesus inside the city walls of Jerusalem.

It was also the house to which Peter went after an angel of the Lord released him from prison. Acts 12:12-16 says a maid named Rhoda was so overjoyed at recognising his voice that she left him knocking at the outer gate while she went to tell the gathered disciples.

Above Taken from See the Holy Land

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The Gate

From today’s Gospel reading of John 10:1-10

“I am the gate.
Anyone who enters through me will be safe:
he will go freely in and out
and be sure of finding pasture.”

In pondering this specific passage this morning, I am reminded of the Sacrament of Penance and our Lords “Forgiveness”. Not only is it there to cleanse the souls who have been away from the Church for many years, but also for all, in exile, because we walk out of “The Gate” many times, into this world surrounded by evil, only to run back in through “The Gate” to the refuge of Our Lord. Like new born chicks rush under the wing of their mother for protection.

Once the soul realizes the “Gate” will never lock it out, while in exile, the gift of peace and joy is revealed. The “Gate” is locked shut with the “Sheep” safe inside, when the soul is no longer in exile as long as the “Sheep” returns home before that time comes. The soul then strives for perfection for God and not self. That is why it is SO important to lead a Holy Life in Christ all the days in “Exile”. Because one never knows when his Master will call him home.

One beautiful personal message I received today at Mass was four little words, that carry the weight of the world for me. “I love you, anyway”. So many times have I ran through “The Gate” without even stopping to appreciate how beautiful “The Gate” is and cherish “The Gate” for being there. There is where the joy and peace can be found.

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Quiet Children

“The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom; all who follow his precepts have good understanding. To him belongs eternal praise.” Psalm 111:10

On October 8, 2010, I attended the most beautiful Mass I had seen, in quite some time. It was 9:00 AM on a Friday and it happened to be the children Mass at my daughters school. As I entered there were children practicing their singing at the altar. They listened intently to their teacher. Sitting in the pews, were very patient little ones who did not make a peep. You could hear a pin drop. It wasn’t social time, it was time to pray.

The only sound before Mass, after the children finished singing, was the running water in the Baptismal font. There was reverence for our LORD. Not one prayer kneeler was dropped, not a cough was heard, nor a sneeze. It was the perfect Mass and the pews were filled with children. The Awe for our LORD was stunning.

The contrast
I attended Mass yesterday morning at 6 AM. The problem is, Mass did not begin until 6:30. I had a half an hour to pray before breakfast with my LORD. No problem there! I live for the time I get to spend with Him. As I sat in the pew and started taking in my surroundings, trying to focus on what my LORD needed me to focus on, I was abruptly interrupted by constant chatter, then out of no where, two women began praying the rosary out loud at the top of their lungs. I don’t have a problem at all with praying the Rosary. I do however, believe our LORD comes first. Time spent in quiet prayer and contemplation of what we need to present to our Lord before Mass is essential. It “Cleanses the palate” before the feast! Also, a quite conversation before the day begins with the “Spouse”, sets the tone for the rest of the day.

As I sat trying to focus on our LORD, the prayer kneelers began to fall hard. Several women began to speak loudly to people just getting to Mass, what song would be sung. You could hear the aggravation in their voices and unhappiness to the announcement of the song. As to the one who made the announcement of the song to be sung, it was HER choice! And no one was going to change her mind! Obviously, some didn’t like the pick. It was continual disruption, for the half hour I had with Him.

Just before Mass begun, Father came out to inspect the altar. He was not happy. Someone blew out the Easter candle and it was unlit. Father informed all in attendance why he was not happy after mass, in regards to the candle. It is EASTER WEEK. How soon some forget.

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My Sin Is Constantly In Mind

Psalms 51:3-4, 5-6, 12-13, 14, 17

3 For I am well aware of my offences, my sin is constantly in mind.

4 Against you, you alone, I have sinned, I have done what you see to be wrong, that you may show your saving justice when you pass sentence, and your victory may appear when you give judgement,

5 remember, I was born guilty, a sinner from the moment of conception.

6 But you delight in sincerity of heart, and in secret you teach me wisdom.

12 Give me back the joy of your salvation, sustain in me a generous spirit.

13 I shall teach the wicked your paths, and sinners will return to you.

14 Deliver me from bloodshed, God, God of my salvation, and my tongue will acclaim your saving justice.

17 Sacrifice to God is a broken spirit, a broken, contrite heart you never scorn.

Upon hearing today’s Responsorial Psalm, not only am I reminded of every sin I have committed against our Lord, but the amount of repentance that is needed to ensure my Lord is pleased with the changes in my heart. Most of my life had been spent in the state of mortal sin, and as I travel up the path to eternal life, into His arms, I must spend every waking hour I am still here, doing everything now, for Him.HE will not remember the sins I have committed because of the sacrament of confession, but I do. Not to hold on to them for enjoyment, but as a constant reminder of where I was, and now were I am trying to get to.

Before my conversion began, I had this strange idea that even with my mortal sins not repented for completely, He would just forgive me anyway and when I died, in that state, I would just go to heaven anyway. After all, He loved everyone. When I look at who I was, and the life I was leading, only now I can’t help but to be overcome with utter disgust at how I treated our Lord. I look at the person I used to be and think, I would never want that person I was in heaven. I did nothing for Him and everything for self. I took Him for granted.

I think of all the things I have said, thought and done, and not done. How many times I have said “I hate” so and so. How many times I have said so and so needs to die. How many times I have said so and so country should be blown off the map. How many times I have walked past a homeless person and wouldn’t even look them in the eye. Or the ones I never even noticed. Good Lord, have mercy on me. I know not what I do.

When troubles and suffering come into my life now, I know in my heart, they are deserved for reparation to our Lord. I do not despair over them, I embrace them as God’s mercy. He could make my suffering in this world much worse. Deservedly so.

“Now I rejoice in my suffering for your sake, and in my flesh I complete what is lacking in Christ’s afflictions for the sake of His body, that is, the Church….”

The Baltimore Catechism Part 3

Q. 629. What punishments are due to actual sins? A. Two punishments are due to actual sins: one, called the eternal, is inflicted in hell; and the other, called the temporal, is inflicted in this world or in purgatory. The Sacrament of Penance remits or frees us from the eternal punishment and generally only from part of the temporal. Prayer, good works and indulgences in this world and the sufferings of purgatory in the next remit the remainder of the temporal punishment.
Q. 804. Why does God require a temporal punishment as a satisfaction for sin? A. God requires a temporal punishment as a satisfaction for sin to teach us the great evil of sin and to prevent us from falling again.
Q. 805. Which are the chief means by which we satisfy God for the temporal punishment due to sin? A. The chief means by which we satisfy God for the temporal punishment due to sin are: Prayer, Fasting, Almsgiving; all spiritual and corporal works of mercy, and the patient suffering of the ills of life.

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You Are Mine

The first time I heard this song was the day I attended Sunday Mass, for the first time, WILLFULLY, alone, in over 18 years. I say willfully because I was raised in a Catholic home and even though we didn’t pray together, going to mass was mandatory. If you were living in my parents house, you got up every Sunday and went to mass. For a long time, when I was younger my older siblings, even if they didn’t live at home, they would show up at home with all their children, and we would go to mass together. For some reason, my siblings could no longer make it for mass but would come later for dinner. Later on in my teens, when I received my drivers license, it was up to me to make sure I attended mass and at that time, I became to “Cool” to go. I would stop in at church before mass, pick up the Church bulletin and then head off to hang out with my friends, or so shopping until I knew mass was over.

I had attended sporadically, here & there for weddings & funerals and a few baptisms, but never put forth the effort to attend Sunday Mass. I thought about going! But the thought faded as quickly as it came. On many occasions, the thought of going overpowered me and I was ashamed and remorseful for not attending. And that evil voice was always there to keep me away, telling me “Ah God will forgive ya! You don’t have to go. Look at your past. You went enough. Besides, you have Great Aunts & Uncles who died. They will put the good word in for ya”. Yeah. Right! Little did I know we are all Children of God, not Grandchildren or Great Niece & Nephews.

At the age of 33, or so, the Holy Spirit began to unravel the plastic bubble wrap world I had made for myself. I had always been miserable. I always wanted to “fit in” but I just didn’t fit anyplace for as long as I could remember. But that is a reflection for another day. God knows where I fit and he is telling me this now at the age of 44.

I cried during the mass so hard the first time I heard this song. I knew the Holy Spirit began to melt the ice from my heart and my tears were the proof of it. Every mass after that day I had attended, for the first few years, I couldn’t make it through without crying. I knew our Lord was speaking to me. As He still does to each and every one of us. This song didn’t even have to be played after that first Mass back. It hit me that hard. Now when I hear it, I am still moved to tears as it holds a very special place in my heart. Today, I get upset when I have to miss daily mass and couldn’t fathom missing mass on Sunday. I am His.

“But now, this is what the LORD says–he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.” Isaiah 43:1

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