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Rock Stars


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As I was sitting with our Lord in Adoration, I found myself praying for all the “Rock Stars” I idolized as a kid. Most of whom are no longer with us now. I’m not sure why this all came up in Adoration as I simply wanted to spend time with our Lord. But the subject of false idols has been heavy on me lately, in regards to how much so many place their trust on and in the worlds “stars”, be in musical, acting, political etc, rather than on how much in need they are also, as we all are, of healing, mercy and our Lord.

False idols are made from the same clay as you & I. Glits & glam is an illusion. Scratch the surface, and you see the same faults, flaws, deep yearnings and misdeeds (sins) as everyone else. What makes the difference between a false idol and a model, is when we choose the fill the void we have, with our Lord and not money, drugs, women, men, sex nor any lesser creature or creation. Every one of us, is a broken pot, seeking to be placed back together, in need of our Creator to do so.

Our Lord is the Author of all creation. The gifts and talents we receive come directly from Him. Should we not use them to give Him glory?

For the past few days, I had been listening to the old music I did once upon a time, digging through live performances and documentary’s. I was struck by the simplicity of those whom I thought were so great, and could see the same struggles that I faced in my lifetime. A deep longing to be loved. Not as the world loves, and rather than turning to our Lord, taking a road seldom ever return. Taking everything but our Lord and trying to recreate that Love, to shove into the soul to fill the void of who I was truly missing.

As I said above, I found myself praying for all the performers who had passed away. Deeply, asking our Lord to have mercy on all of us. As my time was done, and I left, getting into my car and turning on the key, a song had began to play called “Friend of the Devil” by the Grateful Dead. I rolled my eyes as changed the station and drove away thinking about how so many think that guy is a “friend”, who our Lord himself called the Gospel of John 8:44  “You belong to your father the devil and you willingly carry out your father’s desires. He was a murderer from the beginning and does not stand in truth, because there is no truth in him. When he tells a lie, he speaks in character, because he is a liar and the father of lies.”. How we often blame our Lord for everything that goes wrong, for the chaos, turmoil and all else that is not gratifying to what we deem is.

Pondering deeper, what a sad song from such a sad soul. I was never a Dead fan, nor cared very much for Jerry Garcia or the entire dead head fan base ideology.  What went through my mind was simply “ick”. Disgust for hearing that song when I was leaving our Lord in prayer. Disgust for the fact a song like that was playing or was ever written.  I came to the stop sign and what immediately caught my heart was a billboard.

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I sat for a few moments in awe at this “sign” and knew in my heart exactly what our Lord was saying to me. I  began to ask for fogginess for all those whom I did not follow, did not like, did not idolize and did not admire. Also, teaching me never to assume the worst of anyone, but continue to hope in our Lord. All of us are lost at one time or another. May it not be, nor ever be for all eternity.

“Forgiving men, taking pity on them, is a greater work than the creation of the world”. – St. Thomas Aquinas

Prayer for the Poor Souls in Purgatory

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V. Eternal rest grant unto them, O Lord.
R. And let the perpetual light shine upon them.

And may the souls of all the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace. Amen.

Latine

V. Requiem aeternam dona eis, Domine.
R. Et lux perpetua luceat eis.

Fidelium animae, per misericordiam Dei, requiescant in pace. Amen.

 

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Rigid Scrupulosity


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If I believe, that in my worst state of life, when our Lord converted my heart, that He would never convert another in that way, that would not be humility speaking, but pride. Pride in the fact that our Lord would only do this for me, and not another. What good is my witness to the Truth for others, in sharing what He has done for me, if it was not for all? “Those who are well do not need a physician, but the sick do.”

Not everyone loves. What is love? If you love me, you will keep my commandments.

There is a point in being rigid, in which you notice every sin, and see this world and everyone in it, as a “forsaken place.” “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”. Without total joy but only touches of joy within. When that takes place, one must always look deeper within ones self, to see that point where we once were that once hardened sinner, and where our Lord converted our hearts also. KNOWING without a doubt, He loves and seeks to convert the hearts of all, as He has ours. Remember where you came from.

I have often thought of why I was so hard on myself. Why I expected so much of myself (in the faith) and never let my self off the hook, so to speak. But in contrast, I give everyone a pass and after suggesting to others, and when they refused the suggestion, loved them anyway. Praying one day our Lord would open their hearts. It goes with we can only inform, not convert. You can lead but you can not make them drink. The best way to evangelize is to live the faith and be the example. You can’t expect others to become the example of what you yourself are not living. You can not force another soul to love our Lord. Love is part of the relationship with Him, that the soul grows to do. By doing this, growing to love Him, we learn through our own faults and His Truth, what Love is in the first place, and THEN make a “Conscious Effort” because we all have “free will”, to adhere to obedience to Him.

Its one thing to be extremely rigid with yourself. Its quite another to be rigid with others.

the pride of believing in one’s righteousness” – Rigid = Scrupulosity: Scrupulosity: rigid, obsessive adherence to rules, codes of ethics, or guidelines.

I do not believe for a second Pope Francis is speaking about those who are proper in doctrine and liturgy. Rather, rigid in the sence of  demanding that others bring themselves up to your level, (Seeing ones self in a higher state or position) rather than accepting we are all on the same level of Love that our Lord has for us. Luke 14: 7-14 When this takes place, everything we feel is not orthodox or practical becomes the law we adhere to, and not our Lord. Its a misplaced attachment to things we all fail at from time to time and in all honestly, we know we do, and we fix it the next time. Others who are suffering from this, will be quick to condemn, and point it out, over & over & over, (Remember that one time in band camp?”) no matter how we have fixed this issue or how much time has passed.

Yes, I am finally able to comment re: Pope: ‘God calls us to be merciful and good, not rigid’

 

 

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Post US Election Observation


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I need to make one thing very clear to some Catholics on facebook, (edit to add: and Catholics all over “social media”) attacking other Catholics who voted for Trump. Remember when we had Primary’s in this country and the same folks who were FORCED to vote for Trump in the General Election, did NOT in any way support Trump and choose another candidate? No. You don’t. Because you can’t see past the beam in your own eye while you try to pick the sliver out of your neighbors eye.

Your third party candidate didn’t win. Clinton didn’t win. And when THIS Catholic voted for Trump, I held my nose and voted, doing my civic duty, because NEITHER candidate was, in my mind, worthy of the title of President of the USA. As for your third party Candidate? I live in California, and a vote for ANY candidate not a Democrat, doesn’t matter because this state is so blue, its dead. I have grown tired of being accused of Trump Worship or any political leader worship simply because I didn’t vote for YOUR guy, by those who obviously do not understand that there ARE people in this country who do not worship political leaders, NOR the “Idols” we create for ourselves which separate us from our Lord.

Adding to the pettiness of the communist & socialist protests in the streets, by engaging in the same Anti-Catholic rhetoric as they do, falsely accusing your Brothers & Sisters in Christ, and attacking back with prideful hurt “feelings” because you can’t yet live the Beatitudes, brings NOTHING to the Glory of our Lord. I highly suggest you put away your political rantings reeking of idol worship hidden behind the banner of “Social Justice”, which truly exposes your false piety, and lack of love for neighbor and return to your first Love. 1 John 4:18.

Here is the thing about the political left and political right. They both practice the same religion of nationalism. The hate on one side, is no different than the hate on the other side. I beg my brothers & sister in Christ, to pull closer to our Lord. Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you. Hold fast and tight to our Lord. Practice what is preached. Pray more and LOVE anyway. – Peg Demetris

Jesus Christ is LORD

 

 

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Music Of God


OLG MUSIC NOTES

Music Found on Our Lady of Guadalupe’s Mantle

Merry Christmas

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My Heart Bleeds For You


How many times in my life, I have heard these words, “My Heart Bleeds For You” from very sarcastic hearts along the way… It always seams as if this world is not lacking insincerity when your down and out. Seems someone was always there to rub there fingers together and tell you, “Hear that? Its the smallest violin playing my heart bleeds for you..”

Today, I heard those words again, along with the violin. They did not come from insincerity, but in front of The Blessed Sacrament. I let the world get to me today and rather then sit and let it get me more then it has, I went to visit our Lord in Adoration. Today is First Friday and the significance is astounding: The First Friday Devotion to the Sacred Heart of Jesus.:

“The First Friday of each month was designated by our Savior Himself as a day to be
consecrated to honoring His Sacred Heart…. As the object of this devotion is to make our Savior Jesus Christ ardently and perfectly loved, and to make reparation for the outrages offered to Him in the past, as well as for those which he daily receives in the Blessed Eucharist…Jesus Christ merits our love at all times, but alas! He is despised and outraged in the Sacrament of His love at all times, and so people should at all times make reparation to Him.
We should then adore Jesus Christ in this august Sacrament, make a fervent act of love to Jesus in the tabernacle, thank Him for having instituted this Mystery of love, express our sorrow at seeing Him so abandoned, and resolve to visit Him as soon as possible and love Him unceasingly.
Attendance at the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass is assuredly the best means of honoring and loving the adorable Heart of Jesus. ”

So the world started getting to me today, and I was moved to tears. I drove over to adoration to spend time with Our Lord and the Adoration of Our Lord was being held in the Day Chapel and not in the Adoration Chapel, because today is First Friday.

There were a few people there, so I walked around some chairs and knelt down to pray. As I began to tell our Lord about my “Bad Day” and how it was truly getting to me, how I needed strength, from the main Church came the sound of a violin. I Thought of my mom, because she used to play and then thought about how I myself had used the words in a selfish way to people, “My Heart Bleeds For you”. I was so caught up in my self pity, it didn’t hit me until the ride home, that today is First Friday. Our Lord had strengthened me by using some not so innocent slang, to tell me, He in fact was with me and telling me so. The reason the world was getting to me today, is a matter of faith. I thank My Lord! I could not LOVE Him more!

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You Are Mine


The first time I heard this song was the day I attended Sunday Mass, for the first time, WILLFULLY, alone, in over 18 years. I say willfully because I was raised in a Catholic home and even though we didn’t pray together, going to mass was mandatory. If you were living in my parents house, you got up every Sunday and went to mass. For a long time, when I was younger my older siblings, even if they didn’t live at home, they would show up at home with all their children, and we would go to mass together. For some reason, my siblings could no longer make it for mass but would come later for dinner. Later on in my teens, when I received my drivers license, it was up to me to make sure I attended mass and at that time, I became to “Cool” to go. I would stop in at church before mass, pick up the Church bulletin and then head off to hang out with my friends, or so shopping until I knew mass was over.

I had attended sporadically, here & there for weddings & funerals and a few baptisms, but never put forth the effort to attend Sunday Mass. I thought about going! But the thought faded as quickly as it came. On many occasions, the thought of going overpowered me and I was ashamed and remorseful for not attending. And that evil voice was always there to keep me away, telling me “Ah God will forgive ya! You don’t have to go. Look at your past. You went enough. Besides, you have Great Aunts & Uncles who died. They will put the good word in for ya”. Yeah. Right! Little did I know we are all Children of God, not Grandchildren or Great Niece & Nephews.

At the age of 33, or so, the Holy Spirit began to unravel the plastic bubble wrap world I had made for myself. I had always been miserable. I always wanted to “fit in” but I just didn’t fit anyplace for as long as I could remember. But that is a reflection for another day. God knows where I fit and he is telling me this now at the age of 44.

I cried during the mass so hard the first time I heard this song. I knew the Holy Spirit began to melt the ice from my heart and my tears were the proof of it. Every mass after that day I had attended, for the first few years, I couldn’t make it through without crying. I knew our Lord was speaking to me. As He still does to each and every one of us. This song didn’t even have to be played after that first Mass back. It hit me that hard. Now when I hear it, I am still moved to tears as it holds a very special place in my heart. Today, I get upset when I have to miss daily mass and couldn’t fathom missing mass on Sunday. I am His.

“But now, this is what the LORD says–he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.” Isaiah 43:1

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