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Advent’s Second Week

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REPENT!

Where have I not? What is missing? Where am I struggling, Lord?

Continuing on the journey to our Lord, as one’s sight is restored in the spiritual, its easy to see that as the days quickly pass, its not one day which passes, but that one day becomes a string of all days, and then becomes all time. Contemplating this Sundays Gospel, I continue with last weeks message of I must decrees and He must increase.

How? By allowing God to be God and accepting I am not Him. I am however, trying to be Him. Where the message becomes foggy is in our own interior spiritual pride. We often forget that even our Lord did not deem equality with Him something to be grasped at, but became a servant to all.  Where then must I begin to be best like Him? By not assuming to be loved or understood by anyone in the world. The world is at enmity with God. Why would they love you? Why would they understand you? They reject Him, they will reject you.

One of the heaviest positions in our Lords cross, is being alone among many whom we love, who do not know Him nor love Him, but we love anyway. This position, sees much suffering. Suffering that belongs completely to our Lord, in which He shares it all with you. Why are they not listening? Why do they continue to ignore? How can they do this to one another? Do they not know that all this pain, all these sins are directed at our Lord to hurt Him? Like a soul in a pit of vipers, being bit time and time again. No. They do not see this, because they do not know Him. Just as you did not know Him before you loved Him in return for His love for you on the cross. And the bites of these snakes, are not poison to the virtuous soul because they do not act nor react to the poison with poison. But with love.

Repent! Know that you are not here to be loved, but to love.  That was the message received  to my heart in contemplation of this second Sunday of Advent. Pride demands acceptance of all that I am, as it seeks something that it does not have. It looks for anything to place on the interior thrown where our Lord should be seated. Even taking the seat for oneself.

Humility, where as, is acceptance of all that is I AM. The good, the bad, the unknown. Trusting completely in His Sovereignty. Thus, He is able to increase, and you decrease. Allowing  the soul to then become one in Him.  He Is. He simply Is. He is all and everything. The mother of all virtues is humility. When we look at the virtues of the Virgin, it is she whom we must mirror in interior and exterior image, to which we can be sure that our Lord who came to her, should come to us. As He Is, she is blessed for all time, all eternity as the one the Way comes to stay. Why is this? Because of the timeless beautiful virtues which let Him in to be Him, accepting Him and all that which may come.  This is the peace of our Lord. To know that all the strife and suffering we undergo, is nothing compared to the love and promise of our Lord. So prepare! Decrease!

Come Lord Jesus!

 

 

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One Body

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If you find yourself looking for a particular “camp” inside the Catholic church, be it left, right, trad, liberal, it is only because you are in the “wrong someplace” within yourself and can not stand ALONE with our Lord. It is you and Him. No one else to grab out for. No one else to blame. No one else but yourself and Him. His tent.

ONE Body in Christ. I am Roman Catholic. Some say I am not Catholic enough. Some say I am way too Catholic. The only thing that matters, is our Lord calls me by name to Him and I listen to Him, following Him.

I was lost, now I am found.

“If today you hear his voice, harden not your hearts.”

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“Our Lady of the Place” Santa Maria in Traspontina

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When I first started to turn back to our Lord, I tossed out many things that reminded me of something bad that I did, and things in general that others had given to me. Why? Because I didn’t want to remember those things or those people. Tossing them out did not stop the memories. What did happen, was when I placed my faith and trust in our Lord, the memories didn’t hurt anymore, because our Lord changed my mind.

He took away my “broken mind”, and taught me how to think correctly, trusting His Mind.  Nothing in this world has power unless we allow it to and thus when we do give it power, we take that power away from our Lord and give into sin.

What takes place, when we lose control, without allowing God all control, is devastating to a soul. Peace is gone, terror of everything grabs hold and the souls begin to believe in themselves and not in our Lord. Scrupulosity takes hold. We forget that each soul has “free will” to choose our Lord, and we watch everyone and everything with scrutiny and not Love, knowing that our Lord loved us also, when we were train wrecks.

No matter what takes place, as our Lord has told us, we must remain with hope, faith and LOVE in our Lord, keeping our eyes fixed on what is above, and not on what is below. When we keep our eyes on what is below, we look down on everything. When we keep our eyes fixed on what is above, we realize we are all on a level playing field of sinners in need of our Lords redemption. That takes humility. Pray more, worry less. When we worry, we act on internal illusions that seek to drag us down as misery loves company.

Although our Lord Himself took a whip and knocked over tables, we must always remember, we are not Him. The disciples did not join Him in doing this. The righteousness of our Lord far surpasses ours. I pray for the conversions of the souls who took the statues, and I pray for all who are trying to justify theft in this case. It was a statue. Not an idol. Things (anything) becomes an idol when man makes them idols by “worshiping” them (letting them have any power) and not our Lord. Such in the same way when souls fear them, rather than our Lord. Properly destroying idols also includes destroying the ones in the intellect.

Justifying theft is not good. Fear of anything but our Lord, is misplaced Trust. Repent and believe in the Gospel.

Our Father, Who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come.
Thy Will be done,
on earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Beautiful post by Elijah’s Breeze

“I do not fear Satan half so much as I fear those who fear him.” – St. Teresa of Avila

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Being Convicted And Our Guilt: The Advocate

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When our Lord said He would send us an Advocate, one must first ask, what is an Advocate?

ad·vo·cate
noun
/ˈadvəkət/
a person who publicly supports or recommends a particular cause or policy.

If I was a criminal, which we all truly are in the spiritual sense, as we are all guilty sinners, I am granted the right to an Attorney.  When our Lord told us He would send an Advocate, this is in fact the Holy Spirit. What does this mean to us? He is here to guide, and help us in the many internal and external struggles we face, to stay on the right path and not to be lead astray by what we are lacking. If I were to represent myself in a court of law, without ANY knowledge or understanding of the Law, where would I be sent for many years by the Judge who knows all? If I chose to represent myself, am I not doing what our Lord told us not to do? Would I therefore be pleading “Innocent” when in fact I am guilty? Would I look to be insane by the Judge and then would I not actually BE insane by NOT taking the advise and direction of the Advocate our Lord has appointed to me?

The very moment we do something wrong, we know it to be wrong, because our “conscious” tells us it is wrong. In the deep chambers of this conscious, resides the Advocate. As we act on the wrong decision and sin, we are convicted. This is a moment of grace. A moment to be CONVERTED. A moment in which our stone hearts, can be changed to flesh. When we continue on that wrong path, we are walking away from the Advocate there to help, and we begin to build a mountain of guilt.  What is a soul to do with guilt? How does one get rid of it? We can try to repress or suppress it, but over years, it becomes something that consumes and rots us from the inside out. By the time it manifests externally, which mind you, does not take very long as others can see guilt a mile away, even when we choose not to and think we have wonderfully hidden it,  it becomes a burden that eats away at our relations with others through depression, anxiety and anger. Left very long or not very long at all, depending on the sensitivity of the soul, it shows itself as mania, hysteria, psychosis, and many times takes us into suicide and or murder.

How then is a soul to rid ones self of its own guilt? By embracing the guilt. Embracing it and you take it to the dumpster and walk away from it. If I am appointed an Attorney for a trial, am I not to tell my Attorney everything that has taken place to ensure a “Light” sentence? Our Lord knows our guilt. No one gets away with murder. No one gets away with anything. Sin is sin and the wages of all sin is death. Guilt and holding on to the guilt of our sins, is that millstone around our necks. How is that millstone shattered? By taking the Counsel that has been appointed to us by our Lord. Do everything He tells you. Beginning with a great Confession. The act of confessing, is the beginning of cleaning up the guilt we have accumulated or if you would hoarding guilt, for years and years. You know that our Lord has told us that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit. When our interiors are packed with sin and guilt, it makes it very difficult to find anything, let alone that room where the Advocate is located. Confessing our sins and turning away from them, is how we clean up that interior in order to find that hidden room under the exorbitant amount  of guilt we buried Him under.

What to do while we are being convicted? Silence, contemplation and prayer. Have you ever been told to shut up and listen for your own good? This is the time to do just that. Speak when He directs you to. Say what He is advising you to say. Act, as He is directing you to act. He is here to help you. It is mercy He seeks for you. Even when the worst most horrific things about you are being revealed. The horror of it all, is no horror to Him who already knows. The horror of it all, is to YOU who thought you had hidden it and thought it would just all go away. Like a parent who catches their child with their hand in the cookie jar, you are so busted. And He still loves you. Like a rat in a trap, squirming to be released,  in everything you have ever done. And He loves all His creatures. The Advocate will NOT release you. The question remains, “Do you love me?”.

The Advocate will advise you to plead GUILTY and not to continue in the guilt, but to keep clean, live a model life until your court case is heard. His advice is always to REPENT and believe in the Gospel. Not yourself.  It is the Judge who will do the releasing and sentencing, and we hope it might just be for time served, if you begin to serve the sentence before you stand in front of the Judge.

Welcome the Advocate with open arms. Don’t do what you know is not good. Do not push Him away. Pray for Him to come to you, and help you to make it through it all.

Come Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of your faithful and kindle in them the fire of your love. Send forth your Spirit and they shall be created. And You shall renew the face of the earth. O, God, who by the light of the Holy Spirit, did instruct the hearts of the faithful, grant that by the same Holy Spirit we may be truly wise and ever enjoy His consolations, Through Christ Our Lord, Amen.

Here is a wonderful video by Venerable Bishop Fulton John Sheen. For some reason, it will not play from the beginning. Please, watch it from the start, not half way through.

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To The Cross With Christ

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As I am pondering this coming Sunday’s Gospel in Lectio Divina: ” “Master, it is good for us to be here!” And they do not want to get off the mountain any more! When it is question of the cross, whether on the Mount of the Transfiguration or on the Mount of Olives (Lk 22:45), they sleep! They prefer the glory to the cross! ” – I have been struggling with the subject of allowing children of same sex couples seeking admittance into Catholic schools, from the moment I first heard it.

First, let me say that the very fact these children have been robbed of the natural right to a home with their biological mother and a father, is the first thing that concerned me. If parenting didn’t require the attributes of both man and woman, natural creation would in fact be very different.   Each of us, has that natural right of God at the moment of conception. When our natural rights are stripped away, its always due to the selfishness of others, who seek to legitimize their own “idea” of Love and compassion, with regard for legitimizing their own sin to make it look more acceptable not only to themselves, but to others.

The sin of the parents, can not be held against the child. Someone brought up the point of how others, heterosexual parents and single parents are allowed to place their children in Catholic Schools. I would like to address one point here again which comes to mind regarding same sex parents: The sin of the parents, can not be held against the child.

I want to add to the discussion, why I have struggled with this.  Someone made a point in saying it, (Allowing children of same sex marriages into Catholic Schools) would drive souls away from sending their children to Catholic School. What no one is addressing is the amount of children from Practicing Catholics who are Home schooled now, due to the problems we already have in our Catholic Schools. That problem being over population of Non-Practicing Catholics who falsely believe its the schools job to teach the faith. Its a false hope many have.  Catholic home schooling is growing in large numbers. Very pious Catholic family’s who either can not afford Catholic Education, or Catholic family’s who have already seen, what can and has taken place in Catholic Schools, in which parents do not practice the faith, and their children not living the faith, becoming a “stumbling block” for placing their children into the system, which peer pressure becomes an added cross placed into the “nest” and seriously threatens the faith of the entire family.

There is a large group here in San Diego who would rather teach their own children and socialize with the Home School’s family’s then to place their children into the Catholic School system. Mainly due to the issues all mentioned here. For the LONGEST time, I felt a need to make sure my children, although we are completely broke, attend Catholic School. Its only now that my daughter is in 8th grade and about to graduate, that I have come to find out, NONE of her close friends attend Mass every Sunday nor do they regularly receive the sacraments, nor are even trying to live the Catholic Faith. I started to notice how my daughter didn’t want to join the Catholic Youth Group, because her friends were not joining. Not wanting to hang out with any of the clubs that often do community service, because her close friends were not. I understand it now, why the home school groups are a tight nit group. Its a matter of protecting the “Nest”. What happened or is happening with my daughter? We can always chalk it up to peer pressure, but when the peer pressure is coming from the Catholic School to NOT participate in the faith, its already a failed system in which many are trying to figure out this exact question. The Catholic School is not the teacher of the faith. Parents are responsible for teaching the faith to their children and in fact, living it with them. Think of our faith in regards to it being like a different language. If you seek to learn a new language, but no one at home speaks this language, what becomes of all you are learning? What becomes of the soul who does not practice, does not put it to use? It is tossed aside and forgotten. A Catholic School is ONLY as good as the parents living the faith within it. The Catholic School is there to REINFORCE the faith of the Church. 

Another question that comes up is why would a same sex parent even want to place a child they have taken in, into a Catholic School that does not teach what they believe? Is it for attention? Is it spite? Is it to prove a point? Is it because they truly seek to have the child live a faith filled life in which they themselves are struggling with? Here again is the issue of assuming the Catholic School is there to teach the children the faith.  Its not. Again, the Catholic School is there to reinforce the faith of the Church. The children and the parents are a Pastoral issue. No different than nonpracticing Catholics who have placed themselves out of communion. 

Why have I personally been struggling with this, when its not even an issue with me? Because I love. Not only do my sins effect me, but they effect everyone, not just who I am around, but everyone.  Although the sin may be forgiven, the residual effects of that sin can not be taken away. When we sin, it is against our Lord and every soul in Christ. 

Why have I been struggling at all? Because I have become “comfortable” with the suffering I already have. Like St. Peter at the Transfiguration, I wanted to stay there in “my comfort” with the Glorious Messiah, and not continue on back down the mountain to finish this journey with the Servant Messiah.  How can I not allow more suffering, if it is for the glory of our Lord? If my suffering is joined to our Lord’s, it is in fact no longer my suffering. My suffering is not even mine, but His, and to this I my heart demands that I let our Lord lead the way and continue on to the cross with Him. This is the struggle I believe we all face, in regards to something “different” entering in our “normal” lives. The more we struggle with it, the more painful it becomes as we fight between God’s will and our will.  “My Father, if it is not possible that this cup pass without my drinking it, your will be done!”. My wants for others to be holy and great Catholics, living the faith daily, placing our Lord first, loving and serving Him, although good, does not mean that others want it. “Fatherforgive themthey know not what they do.”

If our faith is placed in our Lord, we can not be overcome by the world. Mercy is the answer, as the Son of Justice will come to us all. To not receive a child in His name, (anti-life- not open to receive another life, the life of another who is sick with sin and suffering) would not benefit any of us. And we would simply be clinging to our fears of sin, and our fears of “sinners”, over our fear of the Lord. This does not mean we skew the Truth as we take on those who do not Believe. We adhere to the Truth of our Lord, teaching as it is, Truth, in love and mercy, allowing others to use their free will to accept it, or reject it. Just my two cents. I surrender to our Lord. His will be done.

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Ash Wednesday – 2019

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FINALLY! Lent in upon us! I have been longing for this season since Christmas ended. My favorite Liturgical Season, outside of Easter!

I pray for my readers for a joyful end of a beautiful penitent season this lent and I hope we all turn back to our Lord with a deeper devotion than we have in past seasons.

Repent and believe in the Gospel

 

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End Abortion

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Our Lady of Fatima in 1917 called for the conversion of Russia, or else Russia would spread Her errors.  In 1920, Russian Soviet Republic became the first country in the world to allow abortion in all circumstances.

REPENT REPENT REPENT

End abortion. End the Holocaust.

PARDON PRAYER

My God, I believe, I adore, I hope and I love Thee! I beg pardon for those who do not believe, do not adore, do not hope and do not love Thee. Amen.

Delivered by the Angel of Peace during the First Apparition of the Angel to the three shepherd children of Fatima in spring of 1916.

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