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I Am All Yours, Lord


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The soul, has grown aware of her obligations and observed that life is short (Job 14:5), the path leading to eternal life constricted (Mt. 7:14), the just one scarcely saved (1 Pet. 4:18), the things of the world vain and deceitful (Eccles. 1:2), that all comes to an end and fails like falling water (2 Sam. 14:14), and that the time is uncertain, the accounting strict, perdition very easy, and salvation very difficult. She knows on the other hand of her immense indebtedness to God for having created her solely for Himself, and that for this she owes Him the service of her whole life; and because He redeemed her solely for Himself she owes Him every response of love. She knows, too, of the thousand other benefits by which she has been obligated to God from before the time of her birth, and that a good part of her life has vanished, that she must render an account of everything—of the beginning of her life as well as the later part—unto the last penny (Mt. 5:25) when God will search Jerusalem with lighted candles (Zeph. 1:12), and that it is already late—and the day far spent (Lk. 24:29)—to remedy so much evil and harm. She feels on the other hand that God is angry and hidden because she desired to forget Him so in the midst of creatures, Touched with dread and interior sorrow of heart over so much loss and danger, renouncing all things, leaving aside all business, and not delaying a day or an hour, with desires and sighs pouring from her heart, wounded now with the love for God, she begins to call her Beloved.  – St. John of the Cross

Msgr. Pope has a beautiful analysis here

St. John of the Cross, pray for us

 

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Ready Or Not


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The soul not ready for our Lord…

A woman is taking care of the household as her Spouse is on a very long business trip. Little by little things begin to go wrong arround the house. He left her with more resources than she could have ever dreamed of having. A sink backs up one week. The next week some shingles fall off the roof in a wind storm. A few days later, the toilet overflows. A few days later a window is broken. The woman sits and does nothing to fix the things going wrong. She puts them off and says to herself, its my spouses job to fix those things, not mine. He will have to fix them when He gets home. After weeks and years of her Spouse away on business, the house has fallen into disrepair and she is sleeping on a pile of rubble. Her Spouse returns and she sees Him walking up to the front door that is hanging on one hinge. As soon as He crosses the threshold, she begins to cry and tell Him if He was here the house would not be ruined. If He would have done His job, they would still have a home today. He looks at her and knowing He has been away for so long, begins to clean up the mess she allowed to happen. He stops as her complaining continues and walks away.

A ready soul….

A woman is taking care of the household as her Spouse is on the same long business trip. Little by little things begin to go wrong arround the house. A sink backs up one week. She fixes it because she knows her Spouse is busy and not here yet. He left her with more resources than she could have ever dreamed of having. She loves Him so much, and does not know when He will be returning. She takes it up and fixes the problem immediately, so He doesn have to when He returns. The next week some shingles fall off the roof during a wind storm. She calles a roofer to help her fix the problem as she knows she can not fix it alone. She does not want her loving Spouse to have to take care of it upon His return. All the same things begin to go wrong and she pulls all she has in strength together to fix all that goes wrong before her loving Spouse returns. One day, she is looking out a window she learned how to fix, and seen her Spouse walking up the front walk. She ran to the door as He opened it and they fell into each others arms and kissed passionately. (I’ll end it there).

Do you think our Lord wants to sit and have a cup of coffee with you and talk about all the things that went wrong while you were living? Do you think He wants to hear you complain about how long He was gone? Of course not. All He wants to do is grab you in His arms and hold you and love you. The falling down house is the soul in need of serious repairs. A soul who has not gone to confession, not taken care of the business at”home” with the gifts our Lord has given to us to do so, while He is away. The ready soul is the one who used everything our Lord has left them, to ensure when He returned, He would not have to do much before grabbing hold of His spouse.

Think about it….

When you are in love, not a second goes by that you can not think of the person you are in love with. It’s like two teenagers constantly texting each other, seconds apparat just telling the other, I love you. This is how our Lord wants you to Love Him. Everything you see, taste, touch, hear, learn, and know, should remind you of Him. When the two meet again, everything around them disappears and all they see is the love between them. Not the things that separated them.

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The Doctor Is Always In


Yesterday, I went to confession then followed by attending Mass. It was a strange day as I had been feeling sick. Both spiritually and physically. Mass was beautiful! I was truly fulfilled and was able to carry the grace of God with me and seen it in action all day, and continue to see it today, even after attending Mass again this morning.

I had called my doctor earlier in the day yesterday as I wasn’t feeling well and I have a strange lump on the side of my face that seemed to be traveling down across the front of my ear and down into my jaw and neck. I wasn’t alarmed but I could hear our Lord asking me, what was more important. The Body or the Soul? The soul was my response. I had an overwhelming sense I needed to get to confession. I had been burdened with something that was weighing heavy on me for a few weeks and the only thing I could do, was give it to our Lord. I was going to put off the doctor until today. After deciding to attend confession & Mass, I called the doctors office and left a message. The doctors office called me back to set up an appointment. They had an opening yesterday at 2:00 or I could wait until this morning to go. I told them my symptoms and told them I would wait until today. The woman on the other end of the line said okay and we hung up.

I sat pondering the earlier conversation I was having in prayer with our Lord and started to wonder. Was He telling me to get in to the other doctor too? With that, the doctors office called me back and told me they had moved to another office and wanted to make sure I had the correct address. I was unaware of this and glad they had called back. I also told the woman on the other end maybe it was a good idea for me to come in that day. She completely agreed as the symptoms I had described were borderline serious.

The spiritual symptoms I was having were also troubling. I was getting tense, felt some anger, rage, felt backed into a corner and pressured to make a decision that was going to cause me to sin greatly. I felt as if someone was trying to steel the spiritual consolation our Lord had sent me and take credit for it all. I knew the root of this spiritual sickness needed to be pulled! Confession was the only spiritual surgical answer. Cut it out before it grows. And I did. When I began to confess my sins, I couldn’t stop. The words just kept coming. The more they left me in the confessional, the more the tears began to flow. It was one of the most beautiful confessions I have ever made.The examination of conscious before hand and the praying to our Lord led me to understand the basis of everything that makes my soul sick. The Doctor cured me.

I left Mass walking on air. I had time to stop at Adoration to thank our Lord then headed out to the doctors new office. Long story short, I have been diagnosed with good case of Cellulitis. Chances are if I would have waited until today to go in, I would be in the hospital with an IV drip of antibiotics. It leads to Sepsis and that is life threatening and a major cause of death.

Sin is also a cause of death. It separates the soul from God leading to lack of peace and tranquility in the soul. It causes the person to do things through rage and anger they would never normally do in a state of Grace. It causes uneasiness, anxiety and depression. It is not curable in this world but is treatable and the soul goes into remission even if you do not know the symptoms and signs. The Doctor is always in and His light is always burning bright, waiting for you to allow Him to treat you.

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The Soul As A Football


I can’t help but ponder today, the soul in exile as a football. The kicking team being the world we are born in. The receiving team being Our Lord, quarterback and coach and owner, and most certainly, referee, of course and all the angles and saints, His team. Throughout our entire life, we are presented with choices to do good for the glory of God on the road back home, or bad which take us in the opposite direction and in possession of the opposing team. When we through free will, make decisions, that jeopardize the the soul being recovered by the opposition,  Our Lord in His infinite Wisdom through the Holy Spirit, “Passes” us on to one of His “Saints” to carry us, through their works and life story, so we can see and learn from them, to eventually make it to the “End Zone” to score the touchdown for God.

Sometimes, a “Fleaflicker” is needed from Saint to Saint, when the “Football” is in danger of being recovered by the opposition. In any case, it in time reaches the “End Zone” to score for the receiving team.

I say this, because in my case, Its as if I was originally “Passed” to St. Augustine, the first Saint I could identify with in regards to the stat of my soul in grate danger at the beginning of my conversion,  then to St Thérèse of Lisieux, who taught me how to love,  St Teresa of Avila, who taught me about our Lord’s “Mansions”. Then to St. John of the Cross, who taught me the Dark Night, is a blessing not a punishment and now on to St. Rita of Cascia. Who through her poverty, stayed a wife and mother, finishing her Vocation and then, took on the vocation of Religious Life.

Our Lord, Jesus Christ, always there to keep the “Ball” in the game. The “Ball” must be kept inflated, through the Holy Spirit, prayers and the sacraments. If it loses its air, it is taken out of the game. As the “Ball” is moved up field, there are “Downs”, where the soul is given time to reflect on their life. There are timeouts, in serious moments of the life of the “Ball” where critical issues are evaluated in which way to go with the “Ball”. Until the end of the game. Granted the soul is much more valuable then a “Football”. So to is life real and not a game.

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The Dove VS The Cat


A few days ago, as I was napping, I heard the flutter of very strong wings. I thought as I was coming out of the napping haze, it sounds like a bird in my room. I opened my eyes and sure enough, it was a little Turtle Dove trying to escape the clutches of the cat. I sprang from bed and caught this poor little thing before the cat could do anymore damage. I looked him over and he seamed quite healthy. I couldn’t imagine how he was captured by the cat and dragged into my room. I walked him outside and opened my hands to free him. He wouldn’t budge. The poor dove was to weak to fly. I built a makeshift nest in an old glass tank with a mesh cover, realizing my little friend needed a room for the night to recuperate.

I woke early the next morning and after my prayers, headed to the little nest to check on my friend. He was very alert and I could tell, eager to check out and be on his merry way. I reached into the tank and he, became quite alert. So I walked his entire nest outside and opened the nest door and he flew away.

I couldn’t help but ponder the entire incident as the Holy Spirit VS evil and how we must stay awake to hear our Beloveds call, least His words be muted to our ears by the evil one never to be heard again.

My little friend…

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