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Nescivi


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“Before I knew it, my desire had made me the blessed one of the prince’s people.” –  Song of Solomon 6:12

Desire. What is it that you desire?

“Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.”

It is You O Lord and my God alone, in whom my heart, mind and body desires.

Agape and eros

Many years, further back on the journey to our Lord, for a few months, I was plagued with visions of our Lord, naked. At first I was astonished.  What sort of vision was I seeing, that would show our Lord in such a way, as not to be clothed in glory and splendor in robes of gold and a crown. I would do all I could to not see, or to not be lead to see Him in this way, because I had been battling lust, and sins of the flesh. Lust sees only the body to be used for a self serving desire. Love sees the entire person in the great light of respect. Not only respect for the other, but for self and for all.

There was a part of me, that needed to be addressed and overcome which was still not true modesty. The first thought of a “naked” Christ, was that of a very immature soul, in need of becoming mature.  I felt a need to cover His nakedness, by turning my eye and denying myself from entering into what may have gone in a direction I did not want to be taken. Was I embarrassed of Him? No. Of course not, He is our Lord and to see Him in such a way, as a friend, or as a brother, was just something that I felt a need to cover because I love Him. Our Lord was Crucified naked for the purpose of mocking Him and stripping Him of any human dignity. But what was truly revealed on the cross, was the glory of God in perfect human form. Not covered by anything to mask the Truth of His creation.

Why was I seeing our Lord in such a way, was something I had prayed about for some time. Was it a way to attract me close to Him? I think not, in one way, for the sake the attraction to our Lord is not of the flesh although He was clothed in the flesh. And that would indicate to me “lust”, and our Lord is not imperfect. Why then, should I see our Lord in this way but other than to open my mind more about Him. To reveal the humanity of Him. Once this took place, the attraction to Him intensified greatly. The distant Lord whom I had though of, whom I thought I had known, was right in front of me. I could then see with my heart, that no matter where I was, in the situations I had faced, or was going to face, He had truly been there first, my first Love, and was still there with me. It became another step in our “relationship”. Dare I say His offering to take the next step. Intimacy.

There comes a time in the spiritual life, when we need to look beyond His “nakedness”, which we see from our imperfect self and see His suffering. Where then, was this wound that needed to be addressed? It is the wound of Love.  He suffers in love for us. Just as a nurse, or a Doctor does not see the nakedness of the patient, but rather the need to care for and dress the wound. How my Lord can I attend to You?

To truly fall in love with our Lord, one must overcome many obstacles of self. Especially in regards to how we perceive our Lord as God. Do we only see Him as Divine and completely miss His humanity? If we miss His humanity, we only perceive half of the entirety of Him and our perception is skewed as we are imperfect. We look for the Conquering Lord, the Glorious Lord, but we still often miss the Suffering Lord. When we resort to be satisfied in such a way, we miss out on knowing Him, and remain in a state of only knowing of Him.

If it is True Love, nothing could sway one from the other. Think of the song, “I only have eyes for you”. Temptation comes, and  receives no reciprocation. The soul looks at temptation with disgust. It is seen for what it is, empty and an blatant attempt to damage or destroy the Lover the soul has found. Its not to say that we do not stumble, and fall, as we do. But the pain is much greater and its in an instant, that the souls looking to its Lover with the eyes of the heart in sorrow. The soul knows His Love for all. The soul thrives to return the love given by the Lover. To heal the wound she had inflicted, before the soul knew the Lover. The soul is attentive to His voice, His movements, His mannerism and regards the self and all others, as His. Unable to do a thing without Him, as His breath is breathed into our faith, and comes to life in Him, in us. The soul can not help but respond in love, because of Love, as the soul has been acknowledged by the Light that has shown on her true desire and He has revealed her desire to her.

 

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Glory To God


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“Glory to God in the highest and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.”

Luke 2:14

Merry Christmas 

Peace!

 

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Trusting The Spouse Of Our Souls


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When trust is broken, as a wife, I come to understand that the LORD is in this Marriage Trinity, and it is He who is the Spouse of our souls, the Bridegroom who NEVER breaks the trust. Who does not stray. As my husband may through temptation, I adhere to the Lord even when my husband may stray, praying for his repentance! Praying for his return.

Such as it is the same, for the shepherds who stray.

I ponder Psalms, chapter 116

I kept faith, even when I said,

“I am greatly afflicted!”

I said in my alarm,

“All men are liars!”

How can I repay the LORD

for all the great good done for me?

I will raise the cup of salvation

and call on the name of the LORD.

I will pay my vows to the LORD

in the presence of all his people.

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No Self Made Man


xjesusheartill2Alfred Delp: A Self-surrender at the Heart of the World

I had to re-blog this from Father Peter Nguyen on Alfred Delp. Please read it in full at the above link.

“In the Kingdom of God there is no self-made man. An open heart receives the thoughts of God. An open ear receives his guidance. Life either comes to grip with the great Heart or nothing else. One must be capable of genuine decision and devotion”

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Sweet Christ


Sweet Christ, my King; Lord, God my Redeemer
For You so loved the world
at your command, You became the ultimate Gift
The sacrificial Lamb, slaughtered for mankind’s salvation
Giving yourself so sweetly, so freely without malice but in mercy
at Your own hand, from Your own hand, to Your own Hand for the hand of humanity
are alone, together in the blessed Trinity, I beg you please
receive all my works, prayers, love and suffering which are pleasing to you.
I unite my suffering and my entire life in exile to Yours.
Although my pains and sufferings in exile are but a speck of dust
on your sandals compared to Yours, my Sweet Christ
may the love I have for you ensure it never to be shaken off.
This lowly soul seeks only You, O Sweet Christ, in this world and eternity
to share in one love, one sacrifice one suffering and one glory
all yours, in the sweet name of the Most High Jesus Christ

Amen

Inspired at Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament this morning

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The White Crayon


Ever think something so simple as the white crayon in a box of so many colors could inspire thoughts of God? Well, here goes.

So often, I have used the expression “I’m not the brightest crayon in the box”. I have been pondering exactly who is. How many times I have heard in my own life how people view the white crayon as “Worthless”. To see just how worthless the white crayon is, imagine life without the white crayon. How could dark images be made lighter without it? You see the white crayon adds brilliance and highlights to drawings. Making them pop rather then appearing flat. It adds depth and allows a focal point to be flooded with light. Without that light, the drawing becomes lost in darkness.

The same can and often has been said about faith in God. Far to often we place that “white crayon” of faith in a spot in the box, to where the other colors are more visible. Because the other colors are so much more appealing to the eye. We forget that the “other colors” although important, are not as valuable and distract us from the importance of faith in God.

The more one takes pleasure in lower things, the more he is separated from heavenly love.
–Pope St. Gregory the Great (540-590AD)

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Math Of Faith


X + P = ❤

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