As I sat in front of our Lord in Exposition Friday night, I began to ponder my entire life in general. I could see it among a tangled mess of fishing line, but it was different. What used to be tangled and trapped, was now a ball of line in a tangled mess, in my hands. I began to ponder the mess and see the knots in this mess, thinking of how, if it could be even remotely possible, to sit and untie all those horrible knots of sin. I asked our Lord how I could even remotely confess this mess and in prayer, He gave me the roots of that entire mess which caused my leaving Him in the first place.
A few weeks ago, I began to pray a novena I had not prayed before, Unfailing Novena To The Virgin Mary Untier of Knots. As I began, I placed my entire self into her hands, giving her everything I have seen, everything I was confused over, everything that had lead me astray and everything I had done. It was our Holy Mother in this Novena, who cut me lose from that tangled mess I had tangled myself in. When she placed it in my hands and I was able to see, I was unsure what to do with it. How could I fix this? It was our Lord in Exposition who made it clear to me, that all that sin was worthless and can not be used for anything. That “line of thought” I had was nothing but a mess and it was now in my hands to do what is right and just with it. In asking our Lord and in Him giving me the “roots”, of the cause, pride, covetousness and lust, I knew the only course of action to take, was to place it in His hands in His beautiful Sacrament of Confession, where He could toss it away, never to be used again by me or others, to never become tangled again in. This isn’t something we can just toss away ourselves by thinking we will never become tangled again because we are curious creatures and we forget the things that hurt us, hurt others also.
When we become tangled in a sinful “line of thought” it becomes a mess we tangle and capture others in, dragging them down into the deep sins we commit. Unless we are cut loose completely, the evil one tugs us back down, bringing others with us, no matter how close to our Lord we become. When we hand it to our Lord in His Sacrament of Confession, He cuts the line, He burns it and it can never be used against us again, and we become free.
I am grateful to our Lord for His gifts, especially the gift of His Mother to us, who teaches us how to use the NEW “line of thought” through her beautiful model.
Jesus Christ is my King.
Pondering 2 Peter Chapter 2